Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

During the Lantern Festival, the news was released early that the temple fair lights were particularly good that year. Almost half of the people in the city came to join in the fun. The archway was full of people, laughing and laughing in the dazzling golden street lights, shoulder to shoulder, children Sitting on my father's shoulders, the sisters looked at this and that happily, and this kind of good time in the world has nothing to do with me, and then I saw you who were also out of place.

Holding a small basket of out-of-season persimmons in your hand, you hurried across the intersection, passed by the archway of the temple fair, and were stopped by a peddler selling jade objects. There is no business, and some people go to see it. Maybe the price is high, or the quality is not good. Customers often shake their heads and walk away.Xu Shi sees that you are a literati who is not good at eloquence, so his behavior becomes more impolite. He grabs your sleeve with one hand, and sells you a jade pendant in the other. What a bargain, if you buy it back, even if you don’t wear it and hang it somewhere for decoration, you can still be a lucky winner. You look calm, don’t worry about him grabbing you, and don’t rush to leave. You listen to him when he tells you, and wait until the hawker says After it was over, I said no.The businessman spent a long time talking, and of course he refused to let you go for nothing, so he said that life is hard and his own small business is not easy. You can let him say, only one sentence, "I'm sorry, but it didn't do anything to me. usefulness. 'It's fine if he puts the jade pendant directly into your hand, you just look it over and return it to him, no matter what you can't say anything to you, you seem to have a good temper, but your words don't change, just say you don't need it.He has no choice but to let you pass.

Maybe you are afraid of encountering such a thing again, cross the road and walk on my side, I saw you approaching, out of mischief, I jumped up and hugged your leg, and cried pretendingly, while crying He raised his face and shouted: "I haven't eaten for a long time. I'm so hungry. I'm about to starve to death. I was beaten. I'm in pain and hungry. Please help me..." You were hugged by me and couldn't move. Squinting your eyes and looking at your expression through tears, your face is still light, I guess you may also say to me, 'Sorry, I can't help you. ’ and politely brushed me off, which I suppose you would, since I don’t see in you what is called ‘sympathy’ for me in general.

'Sorry,' you said, 'the persimmons are for my wife. I spent a lot of effort to find them in this season, so I can't give them to you.Let go of your hands. 'I let you go resentfully, thinking you would pass by me without looking back, but you took out a dollar from your pocket and handed it to me,'Take it to buy something to eat. 'You said, I stared at you fixedly to make sure that you showed no sympathy at all, but casually gave me the money to rent a small house for a month.I can see that you are not short of money, but rich people are often not generous to beggars because of their wealth. Although I am well-dressed, my behavior may be the same as that of beggars in your eyes, but when you give me alms, it seems that it is not charity, but alms. What nature gave me incomparably, I should accept it with peace of mind, so I accept it.You nodded at me, 'Eat something, and then go to heal your wounds.Everything will pass. 'You said that to me, didn't look at my reaction, and walked on. "

I stopped reading and thought about it, and I vaguely remembered it under his reminder, and it seemed that there was such a thing.At that time, Liangzi really wanted to eat persimmons, the season of which had passed long ago. In chatting with my colleagues, I learned that there was a variety of persimmons that could be preserved until the Lantern Festival, so I managed to buy some.I gave the child a dollar, because from the worldly point of view, he should be an object of sympathy. He is young, miserable, and unable to earn a living. I expected it to be Xiuyi.

I continued to read, "I watched you walk from behind, and somehow suddenly ran to the jade vendor across the street, and used the dollar you gave me to buy the jade you touched (he did ask for a high price) ), put it on your neck, and put it next to your clothes. I took the change, quickened my pace, and followed you sneakily. I didn’t understand why I followed you all the way. I followed you several times. Street, I dare not approach for fear of you noticing, from far away to see you finally came to a small building, knocked on the door knocker, and after a while, a beautiful and kind woman opened the door to welcome you in, she wanted to take your hand You didn't let me in, she blamed you for tossing around, but there was a joyful smile on the corner of her mouth, and her eyes were full of unspeakable love.

I saw you both entered and left, ordered a bowl of small wontons at a shop on the corner of the street, and had a delicious meal.

Since then, I have a new place to go. Whenever I can't stay in that 'home', or I have free time after doing chores, I will go to sit behind a big tree across from your door. At that time, I was small and the trunk was thick. I was always behind it. If you don’t pay attention, you can’t see me. I sat there and looked at it from time to time. Sometimes it’s that woman who comes out, sometimes it’s you. I just followed you quietly, never daring to follow you too closely. It's strange, but I feel so at ease and safe when following you who is a stranger.I know you won't hurt me, you won't sympathize with me, you want nothing from me, gradually I get to know you, and I can't help but look forward to all the qualities in you, your strange and special character, your family , your splendid life, your free and stable attitude.

I will follow you to school, to the post office, to the bookstore to buy books, and I will stay there for hours. If I have enough time, I will wait outside, find a place where I can sit on the ground, chew sweet grass roots, or use stones Scribbling on the ground, but often I can't wait that long before I have to go home.The waiting time is long and boring, but when you come out, my heart suddenly jumps for joy. This kind of excitement is enough to make the previous waiting worthwhile.Just following in your footsteps, I figured out your life step by step. At first I thought you were just a university teacher, but you would also go to newspaper offices and publishing houses. I didn’t see you shopping. Famous writer, this does not surprise me too much, your temperament has long indicated that you are not a person engaged in ordinary labor.

Your clothes are simple and decent, not well-dressed, well-dressed, but they fit well, and your preferred dark clothes make you quiet and elegant; you rarely talk in public, and you are ashamed of overexpressing yourself; you get along with everyone Well done, for your thoughtfulness, humility, and good manners; and through the surface that everyone can see, deep down I see your inner core is so free, self, you are kind to the world, as to how it In return, you don’t care, other people’s attitudes and behaviors towards you will not bother you, making things difficult will not deter you, you can always find your own way, and move forward steadily without being assimilated, unlike me, Trying to be submissive and obedient, acting cowardly, still leaving himself covered in bruises.

I deeply like this kind of unrestrained attitude, and it has gradually evolved into admiration. To me, there is nothing wrong with you. you.And you know nothing of my shallow but ardent adoration, do not see that behind you in the shadows a gloomy child toddles, longing for you to look back, and afraid of it.

Slowly, I am no longer satisfied with simply waiting. You are actually not very keen on going out, and sometimes you may not be able to get results if you spend a whole day.The window of your kitchen faces the road, and I decided to get closer, so I kept my short body under the window, and occasionally I could hear your intermittent conversation.But it's not enough, I still can't get any closer to you, once I thought about it, I almost fucked into your yard, and then I realized that would only make me break my own neck, because the wall is there so high.

When you don't go out, if that woman comes out, I will also try to follow her. It is no more difficult to figure out her than to figure out you.I know her surname is Tan, a rare surname, and she is also teaching, not in the same school as you.From the minutiae of life, it can be seen that she loves you. Everything she buys caters to your preferences, and she will think about whether you don’t like it before buying it, even if it is the moisturizer she uses on her face.Your relationship is admirable, but I can find something wrong. I have to say what it is. I didn’t understand it at the time, but I realized it later. The relationship between you is not only love for her, but also depends on her life. addiction.

My frequent wanderings are inevitably noticed by my parents. My mother scolded me for being a moth, not going home when I was full, and an unfamiliar white-eyed wolf. But when I had hope in my heart, her harsh words were like drizzle. Can't do me any more harm.I thought.

When it was dark that day, I ran back from outside in a hurry, bumped left and right in the 'vole hole' to my room, and accidentally bumped into a man on the way, "I'm sorry. 'I took a few steps back, he didn't say a word, he just stared at me without blinking his eyes, I recognized him as the main person supplying my parents' Yanxia Pavilion, I bowed my head and lowered my hands and stood aside to make way for him, he smiled strangely Get up, 'it doesn't matter. 'After finishing speaking, I left.I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that I had finally passed this hurdle. Two or three days later, I realized that it was just an illusion. The vortex was getting bigger and bigger, and it was going to drown me, and its will could not be changed.

The will of the parents cannot be changed.

'You go and drink tea with him. ' Mother ordered in an unquestionable tone, 'I've already arranged the room.Go tonight and come back tomorrow morning. '

I turned to look at my father, 'you