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34.

"In the years that Zhou Feng and I have been together, our understanding of each other can be said to be quite detailed, but there is always something missing." Jiang Yinqi frowned, as if he had just eaten something bitter.That's for sure, because the story has inevitably entered the bitter part.

"How do you understand this passage?" Xin Yue asked.

"For a long time, I feel like Zhou Feng and I have communicated about everything. From the place where we were born and raised, to our own home and family, the styles of clothes and shoes we wore, the hairstyles we used to have, things we liked and hated, when we were young The various pranks we did secretly, the games we played and the jokes we made, the books we read, the places we traveled. These things are small, but they make us deeply attracted to each other. I often have an illusion , as if I had indeed seen the place where Zhou Feng grew up and traveled, and the little girl named Zhou Feng. Zhou Feng also said something similar."

Xin Yue listened to Jiang Yinqi's description, and felt envious. She had never felt this way about strenuous efforts. Although they also discussed their childhood things, they didn't feel much. This probably has something to do with whether they can empathize with each other. It does matter.

Jiang Yinqi continued, "We seem to be talking about everything. In fact, a large part of our conversation is missing, which is the future of both of us. We both subconsciously avoided this topic. Therefore, Zhou Feng Her current family will never be involved in the conversation."

Xin Yue nodded.

"People can't stay in the same place, and love is the same. The good feeling of the first three years can't stay. The past that was so curious and interesting is almost finished, and I will even repeat it. So I need to move forward , love also needs to develop. When I quarreled with Zhou Feng angrily, I thought I was worrying about my career future, but in fact I subconsciously wanted to seek a way out of our relationship from Zhou Feng. And Zhou Feng Always avoiding conflict and reconciling with me. It's sad to think about it now, because she always knew that there was no way out for us. We were in a dead end."

"Dead end?" Xin Yue was still surprised, because she never thought that Zhou Feng had never planned to be with Jiang Yinqi for a long time.

"Well. When I quarreled, I blurted out that Zhou Feng's marriage was her prison. At that time, I just used it as a metaphor without thinking deeply. In fact, Zhou Feng, like Hannah, was never ready to get out of prison."

Xin Yue remembered, yes, Hannah committed suicide the day before she was released from prison.The warden told Misha that everything in Hannah's room was intact and she hadn't packed anything.

Hannah was never ready to step out of prison and be in Misha's care.This fact makes Misha's small thoughts and cleverness seem boring and selfish.

"However, Sister Yin Qi is not Mi Xia, Zhou Feng shouldn't use Mi Xia as a reference." Xin Yue commented indignantly.

"Zhou Feng has a gloomy temperament and is extremely intelligent. What she sees is universal human nature. She has never given others unsuspecting trust, including me." Jiang Yinqi said. "Of course, that's not all the reasons why we separated in the end."

Zhou Feng started to help Jiang Yinqi find the right university, the right professor, and the right major.With perseverance, Zhou Feng forced Jiang Yinqi to seek a better development path.

Jiang Yinqi resisted for quite a long time, she really didn't want to leave, she always had a feeling that as long as she left, maybe she would never return to Zhou Feng's side.

But Zhou Feng was extremely persistent, playing both soft and hard ways, even threatening death. "If you give up your future for me, I'd rather die."

What a serious woman Zhou Feng is, Jiang Yinqi never dared to take her words as a joke.

Under the double pressure of Zhou Feng's persistence and bleak career prospects, Jiang Yinqi's attitude wavered, and hesitantly, half-push, half-approved, began to apply for a doctorate one by one.

Zhou Feng devoted a lot of energy to this matter.She mobilized all her relationships to collect all kinds of information, and then analyzed everything in detail: from professional prospects, to university rankings; from professors' character reputation, to professors' academic status; The odds of being admitted. . . .Zhou Feng has conducted a detailed cross-evaluation of all the factors that can be thought of.

Then, Zhou Feng tirelessly helped Jiang Yinqi prepare the materials, and conducted mock interviews with Jiang Yinqi over and over again.

Zhou Feng's strategy proved to be very effective in the end.Jiang Yinqi can't be said to be very good, but Zhou Feng tapped out all Jiang Yinqi's potential and advantages, so that Jiang Yinqi can perform at his best.What's even more amazing is that even the professor who is most likely to accept Jiang Yinqi is in Zhou Feng's prediction.

When Jiang Yinqi finally received the offer, Zhou Feng was not as happy as expected.She just held Jiang Yinqi's hand silently, intertwining their fingers together in the way Jiang Yinqi liked.

"Will you come with me?" Jiang Yinqi asked.

Zhou Feng shook his head, still "concentrating" on the two fingers circling around.

"Will you wait for me to come back?" Jiang Yinqi asked strangely, but she knew what it meant, and Zhou Feng knew it too.

Zhou Feng continued to circle his fingers without shaking his head or nodding.

Jiang Yinqi couldn't help crying suddenly, "I'm not going anywhere, I'm here."

"You silly girl." Zhou Feng didn't respond to Jiang Yinqi's words, but put his face on Jiang Yinqi's palm.

During that time, Jiang Yinqi was always the one who was crying, but the sentimental Zhou Feng never shed a tear.Even seeing him off at the airport, Zhou Feng never shed a single tear.

At the airport, Zhou Feng hugged Jiang Yinqi tightly with red eyes.

This hug is their farewell and the end of their relationship.

The reason why Jiang Yinqi emphasized the full stop of "this relationship" is because the love between them has not disappeared.

After Jiang Yinqi settled down in Canada, she received an email from Zhou Feng.This is an expected letter, Zhou Feng's letting go of Jiang Yinqi.

"Xiao Qi,

I have wanted to write this letter to you for a long time, but I am always reluctant to write.So procrastinate and procrastinate.

On the way to the campus today, I suddenly felt that I saw you walking towards me. I couldn't tell whether it was surprise or joy. In short, I stood there and couldn't move.

It wasn't until that person approached that I realized that I had misread the person.That man has your hairstyle the first time I saw you.Of course, no wonder, it was a little boy.

You will never be on campus again, and you will never be the same again.You grow up and get better and better.If there is anything I wish for now, it is to pray for you.

I want you to be strong and independent, to travel, to eat all kinds of food, and to be fully loved by someone who is worthy of you.

Xiaoqi, you asked me why I must force you to study for a Ph. D. In addition to the above expectations, there is another reason, which is the brake of the two of us.I have to put on the brakes.

My biggest mistake was to greedily drag you into my dead end.No matter how much we love each other, we can't move forward because we're at a dead end.Therefore, I must help you fly away and let you go free.This is the only remedy I can do.

I don't have the courage to walk out of my marriage, you know me, I can't live with "Meow Meow".Do you remember my son's nickname is "Meow Meow"?Maybe you have forgotten.It is impossible for me to force Meow Meow into your life.That's so unfair to you.

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