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35.

Xin Yue blinked his eyes, not knowing how to express his mood at the moment.

At one point, Xin Yue was worried that Zhou Feng was no longer in this world, but now this worry was finally let go.But at the same time, Xin Yue's heart for Jiang Yinqi ached again.

"And then?" Xin Yue could only ask this question out of his chaotic emotions.

"What do you want after that? That's it now." Jiang Yinqi didn't seem to want to continue talking.

"You said just now that this is just the end of your relationship with Zhou Feng, not the end of love." Xin Yue asked persistently, "You built Guangyin Pavilion."

Jiang Yinqi pondered for a while, then continued.

"Zhou Feng once said that people are always afraid that they will forget any precious things, so they like to build various commemorative buildings. Houses are different. Houses are not used to commemorate, but to protect and preserve what they are reluctant to discard Things. Only when I lived in Guangyin Pavilion did I really understand this sentence. Guangyin Pavilion is not a commemoration of my love with Zhou Feng, I will never forget it. Guangyin Pavilion preserves my dream."

"I can't forget it!" Xin Yue sighed, "It's like Yang Guo."

"No, I'm not Yang Guo. I'm not that infatuated, and I don't want to be abstinent." Jiang Yinqi smiled.

Xin Yue's heart skipped a few beats when he heard Jiang Yinqi say that he couldn't help himself.

Jiang Yinqi went on to say, "I've had girlfriends before, and we've dated for a long time or short time, but I still prefer to be single after all."

"It's like Misha." Xin Yue slowly recalled many things in that movie.

"Yes, it's like Misha. I didn't understand Misha very well when I watched the movie, but I did understand later. The reading and listening between Misha and Hannah can be said to be their unique love mode, Misha Xia could no longer find another person to satisfy him. Later, Misha read aloud to Hannah by recording. In fact, Misha was trying to get back that pleasure. Speaking of me and Zhou Feng, it’s not so much that I can’t forget it. That love, or rather, I can no longer find the feeling of being with Zhou Feng. I realized that what I pursue in love is not happiness, but a sense of familiarity."

"Uh, familiarity?" Xin Yue was quite surprised. "Isn't it a novelty?"

"I pursue novelty in many things, but in love, I pursue familiarity. Zhou Feng narrows my taste, and I can't help being picky. For example, if the other party is not paying attention when I am with my lover, I will immediately lose Interest. Sometimes it is even more unreasonable. It is obviously the advantages of others, such as cheerful personality and good at communication. I still don’t like them, because they make me feel very lonely. I also especially hate people who are optimistic about everything. I instinctively doubt Is their unreasonable optimism due to ignorance, or is it a kind of forced joy?"

Xin Yue listened to the list of "dislikes" listed by Jiang Yinqi, and couldn't help but check himself. After confirming that there were no faults or advantages in the list, he breathed a sigh of relief.Xin Yue thought about it, why did he have such an idea?Could it be that he wanted to please Jiang Yinqi?

"Misha read the recordings for Hannah, you can't just give up completely. Have you ever gone to find Zhou Feng?"

Jiang Yinqi's face became gloomy again.

"According to Zhou Feng's request, we only had one contact method, email. Zhou Feng didn't change his phone number, but he never answered my calls."

"Aren't you answering your phone now?" Xin Yue couldn't imagine.

"I didn't try it later." Jiang Yinqi said.

"Will Zhou Feng change the number?" Xin Yue wished Jiang Yinqi could call Zhou Feng right away.Based on her own experience, Fei Jin could disappear in the United States out of thin air, why couldn't Zhou Feng disappear?

"I believe she will keep that number." Jiang Yinqi said with certainty.

"What about the email? Will Zhou Feng answer your email now?" Xin Yue's attitude when listening to the story became very non-Buddhist, and he kept asking.

"I don't remember when we stopped sending emails. When Zhou Feng stopped responding to me, when I stopped mumbling in the mailbox, I can't remember. In short, The only way of communication between us is silence. But I still believe that Zhou Feng will keep this email address, which is the same as the phone number. This is Zhou Feng's style of doing things, decisive and lingering."

Xin Yue always felt that the story was not finished, so he stared at Jiang Yinqi motionlessly, waiting stubbornly for the next one.

"That's right, of course I wouldn't be ignorant of Zhou Feng. I then contacted the classmates who stayed in school and made insinuations about Zhou Feng's situation. She was ill, depressed, and she tried to commit suicide at one point, and she got better after being hospitalized." Jiang Yin Qi said this in a very flat tone.

The whole atmosphere suddenly became a little strange, Jiang Yinqi seemed to be talking about other people's affairs, avoiding the expression of emotions.And Xin Yue let out a long sigh of relief, as if relieved after the dust had settled.

"You are not surprised." Jiang Yinqi was surprised by Xin Yue's reaction.

Xin Yue nodded, "This is the Zhou Feng you described. You said that Zhou Feng never shed tears during the last time you got together."

Jiang Yinqi narrowed his eyes and looked at Xin Yue with deep eyes.She found more and more that Xin Yue was much smarter than she expected.

Xin Yue continued, "I have always thought that people who can cry freely don't need to worry too much. Zhou Feng's heart is vulnerable, so she dare not cry unless she has enough strength to stop the tears. If Zhou Feng Feng has overwhelming sorrow, she will never allow herself to cry before you leave, otherwise she will fall apart."

Xin Yue is indeed a good talker, and Jiang Yinqi feels that he has met a bosom friend.

"Xin Yue, you impress me! How did you understand this depth?"

"Uh," Xin Yue touched his cheek, and then asked coyly, "Am I going to tell the truth?"

"Of course. Tell me." Jiang Yinqi obviously wanted to listen to the answer.

"Actually, I got my insights from the stock market..." Xin Yue was really embarrassed. Jiang Yinqi was talking about love, but he himself talked about the stock market, "I have been thinking about my US stocks recently. Obviously, the epidemic is getting worse. The more serious it is, the global economy is shut down, why the stock market is rising, and it can't go down. Obviously tourism aviation is over, why the airline stocks keep going up. Later I figured out the truth. Because there is no economic data to support it , if the stock market falls now, it will inevitably crash. Sister Yinqi, I wasn’t thinking about stocks just now, I just thought of this principle.”

Jiang Yinqi smiled and gently touched Xin Yue's hand, "I know. I'm just surprised by your understanding."

Only then did Xin Yue relax, and quickly shook Jiang Yinqi's hand, "Sister Yinqi, please continue."

"Knowing that Zhou Feng committed suicide and was hospitalized with depression, I was heartbroken. But I didn't contact Zhou Feng. She didn't want me to see her collapse, so I didn't watch it. This was her wish. Later, my classmate who stayed in school resigned After going elsewhere, I no longer hear from Zhou Feng. I can only see Zhou Feng’s photos on the university’s public website. She has gained weight, but her eyes are still deep. Zhou Feng did not follow the crowd, she is still the way I like. "

"I also want to be what she likes. I know that I can only work hard to achieve Zhou Feng's expectations of me. Be independent and strong, build a house that she likes, and one day in the future, maybe I can wait for Zhou Feng to come Reunion." Jiang Yinqi spoke in a tone more like cheering himself up.

This time Xin Yue didn't nod, but shook his head, "You failed Zhou Feng, you didn't do what she expected. Be strong and independent, travel around, eat all kinds of food, and get someone who loves you wholeheartedly. Yes Right? Number four, you didn’t do it.”