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32.

"Happy days go by quickly, and I will graduate soon." Jiang Yinqi's description suddenly took a big step forward.

Xin Yue's back left the back of the bed on which he was leaning, leaned forward, and moved his lips for a while, but then he tightened his lips again without making a sound.

Jiang Yinqi stopped and looked at Xin Yue suspiciously.Jiang Yinqi has gotten used to Xin Yue's attitude of listening to stories, focused and quiet, listening to whatever is being said, without interrupting or taking the initiative to intervene.Now it seems that Xin Yue has something to say, but he just holds back.

"What did you want to say just now?" Jiang Yinqi asked.

"Don't talk too fast, don't talk too fast." Xin Yue smiled after speaking.This sentence was what Jiang Yinqi repeatedly reminded Xin Yue when he was listening to the story, and now Xin Yue returned it to Jiang Yinqi.

"As you said, tender emotions are hidden in the details." Xin Yue remembered it clearly. "You have skipped a lot of important links before, and now I can't talk about it in a jumpy way, I almost can't understand. For example, you said that Zhou Feng's feelings about "Long Reader" are completely different from yours. How does she feel? ?”

"Zhou Feng didn't say anything, can't you see it? Zhou Feng has always been an avoidant character, she won't talk about everything, and she will never tell the deepest pain." Jiang Yinqi answer.

"Her feelings are completely different from yours. It's just your own guess?"

"Xin Yue, do you remember this movie? What moved you the most?"

"Uh," Xin Yue shyly avoided Jiang Yinqi's gaze, and turned to look at the paintings on the wall, "Actually, I can't remember most of the content. The plot of pleading guilty because of the truth." After speaking, Xin Yue smiled sheepishly.

Xin Yue felt embarrassed because she suddenly felt that she didn't pay attention to the relationship and relationship between Misha and Hannah at all. To be precise, Xin Yue read it as a suspenseful story, which was the shock and pleasure of the mystery being revealed.

Jiang Yinqi nodded, "So look, this movie, what resonates with me is the reading and love in the first half of the movie; what attracts you is the middle part of the movie, where Hannah chooses to keep secrets and dignity at all costs; But what moved Zhou Feng was the end of the film, the ending of Mi Xia and Hannah."

Jiang Yinqi pondered for a moment, then continued, "I have been thinking about the meaning of Zhou Feng's tears that day for a long time. My understanding is that she saw the end of both of us. Zhou Feng usually likes to say something , whether we are reading books or watching movies and TV, she often says: If XXX is written into the script from the beginning, it will definitely come as expected. This is a sentence pattern, and many words can be filled here, such as separation , death, disappointment."

Jiang Yinqi stopped here and looked at Xin Yue, "Is this supplementary explanation enough?"

Xin Yue nodded hesitantly, she was startled by Jiang Yinqi's three words.Separation, death, disappointment.

Separation, this has been confirmed, although it is painful, it is not surprising at all.Disappointment, in love, is a word we don't want to see very much.As for death, it was the word that really frightened Xin Yue.

Xin Yue suddenly shook his head again, "I actually have another question. You said just now that the happy days will soon end. Have you been happy together? Uh, I mean, are you both happy?" ?Hey, I mean... I don't know how to say it, you understand?"

Xin Yue changed the wording because she thought the question was offensive, but she really wanted to hear Zhou Feng's thoughts.

"It's okay, I understand your problem." Jiang Yinqi smiled tolerantly.

"I'm sure I was very happy during that time. Of course, I can't say that I was happy all the time, but overall I was very satisfied. I always thought that between me and Zhou Feng, I was the one who gave more and got more. "Jiang Yinqi said.

"You pay more, it's easy to understand, you put your heart and soul into it. But how do you understand it when you get more?" Xin Yue felt sorry for Jiang Yinqi even more from the very beginning.Although she also felt sympathy for Zhou Feng, but to a lesser extent than she felt for Jiang Yinqi.

Jiang Yinqi explained, "In fact, how much I can get from a relationship depends not only on how much the other party pays, but also on the satisfaction brought by this relationship. During that time, I had no other desires. Participate less in group activities. In those two or three years, I didn’t make a new friend, and I didn’t interact with relatives, such as little cousins ​​like Liu Lei. The reason is very simple, Zhou Feng made me realize what it means to ask for more. "

"However, Zhou Feng only spends very little time in the dormitory, doesn't she? She always wants to go home. You can even envy a baby, don't you envy others?" Xin Yue actually said a little bit aggrieved.

Jiang Yinqi smiled slightly, "Zhou Feng has such magical powers. As long as she is by my side, I will not feel the presence of others. She will talk to me very attentively, read aloud for me, and cook for me. This It's not acting, it's who she is, it's her style. It's like in class, she just talks to me and answers my questions. I never smell anyone else on her, not even Smells like a baby. I don’t get the sense that she’s tied to her family when she speaks. She doesn’t complain or mention her family.”

"So, what do you mean, at least when Zhou Feng is with you, he gives 100% emotionally?" Xin Yue found that she was a little too involved in the drama, and she couldn't help but mixed in her personal emotions.

"No, Zhou Feng didn't devote herself wholeheartedly. It was me who felt that I had received all her love. That's why I said that I gave more and got more. She hid the traces of the family on her from me. , not to lie to me, but a kind of love for me. But the concealment itself has consumed a lot of her energy, hasn't it?"

"You asked Zhou Feng if she was as happy as me. I think she was happy too. Otherwise, she would not have struggled so much later, and the ending of "Long Reader" would not have broken her down. Zhou Feng carried a much heavier burden than I did. At the time, I didn’t realize it. It wasn’t until later that I realized that the more I gave, the better I felt about myself and the less burdened I was.”

Xin Yue couldn't ask any more questions. She restrained her emotions and continued to listen to Jiang Yinqi's words.

In the blink of an eye, Jiang Yinqi was about to graduate.Regarding Jiang Yinqi's choice after graduation, they kept discussing, but they disagreed and remained deadlocked.

Zhou Feng suggested that Jiang Yinqi go abroad to continue his studies, but Jiang Yinqi was unwilling to leave Zhou Feng.