Ayanokoji in Kexue World

(47) I found out, you lied

When Otoko Yuta and I were sitting side by side to rest, Tomoki and two other first-year students from the Curse High School also followed.One is a girl named Zenin Maki who wears glasses.It is said that she is a magic tool user, because she does not have the magic power that a magician should have, so she can neither see the magic spirit nor fight against the magic spirit, so she will rely on many props to fight.The other is a giant panda named Panda who can talk.

Zenyuan Maki is a very sassy girl, she directly raised her hand to greet me, and said, "Senior Ayanokōji, who is in the second grade, this is my first meeting."

"Yi Gu will talk about you when he has nothing to do." Pang Da said, "I finally met you."

Curlythorn said, "Salmon."

I know I shouldn't say thank you at this time, and I don't know what to say, so I hope someone can skip this topic.And Chanyuan Maki didn't let the conversation stop, and said, "Teacher Wutiao said, this time you will come and join us in the exchange meeting. Since you and I are both spell users, should we have a discussion?"

It's the first time I've seen such a competitive and straightforward girl.

I have seen quite a few sporty women, like Mao Lilan and Toyama Kazuha. They have simple and straightforward personalities, but they are not so competitive.

"What weapon are you using?" Zenin Maki played with a spear and brought us a gust of wind.It can be seen that she has a lot of strength and is very good at using weapons. "Do I need one for you?"

"I usually don't fight with girls." I refused.

"Do you think girls are not worthy of being opponents?" Chanyuan Maki's eyes were clear, but there was no look of disgust, which shows that she has experienced many similar things, so she knows what other people are thinking, and she just simply repeats other people's thoughts come out.In addition, her firm eyes also told me, "People who have such thoughts will suffer a lot if they are in front of her."

"That's not what I thought," I said.

"Then let's do a comparison." The Chanyuan raised its chin and said happily, "You are the first magic tool user I have met."

Her Spear Charm was bright red, with a gilt end and knotted with pink cloth.I suddenly thought of the joke that Dr. A Li had pushed to me before, saying that a father took a little girl to play with sand.The father said that if anyone bullied her, the little girl would hit him with a shovel.The girl said, but she is a girl.My father said, then take a pink shovel.

Ayanokoji: "..."

"how?"

"I'm not in the mood for a competition today." I naturally refused, "I just came back from the match."

Zenin Maki stared in my direction and blinked.

I'm not sure if she was trying to spot if I was lying or if she froze at what I said.Before I was ready to continue, Pan Da said, "Maki, today I didn't care about other people's emotions, and I just talked on my own."

Chanyuan Maki turned her head and bared her teeth in Panda's direction, as if saying to him, won't you remind me earlier?However, I didn't feel that what she said or did offended me in any way. On the contrary, I felt that she spoke quickly and was somewhat interesting.Moreover, even if she has no eyesight, she still has many people around her.

After noticing this, I have been staring at Zenyuan Maki's interaction with other students and fell into thinking.However, we didn't talk for too long, and Gojo Satoru's voice came from far away from the entrance of the training ground.

This time he didn't wear sunglasses, but a bandage over his eyes.One thing I'm curious about is when he wants to use his eyes, can he just remove the bandage from the bottom, or does he have to remove the bandage? Doesn't he think it's more convenient to wear something like an eye mask?It's still the bandage that looks tight, but it's actually a blindfold.

"Ayanokoji."

After he greeted the students, he called my name directly.

"Come here."

It's like the head teacher calling the students at the back row of the classroom door. The students turned around to see what happened, while the person whose name was called stood up and walked towards him.

I left all the things I bought with the Empress Dowager Yi Guyou, and approached Gojo Wu directly.

Halfway through, I subconsciously turned around to look for Yota Oto.Since Yi Guyoutai wants to be serious friends with me, then I should treat him well and pay attention to his situation.But when I looked back, I saw that he was still sitting on the bench, his attitude was still soft, and he continued to talk and laugh with the other three students, as if I was inside or not, the scenery was not bad.

At this time, I realized one thing -

(The world of friends is not equal, nor will it be fair.)

(Yi Guyoutai has more friends than me, and one less than me.)

(Amiya Ren will not leave because of me, and he will not be able to live a life since then. He still has a group of friends.)

(Edogawa Ranpo will never lack someone to love and protect him, and he can always get what he wants.)

It seems that only when I lose them, I will seriously calculate what I am losing, and make this sum into a bad debt.

The so-called talking about feelings really does not involve interests, that is, there is no way to tie them tightly together.

After all, I misunderstood people like "friends" from the beginning.

I really think highly of myself.

When he was less than three meters away from Wujo Wu, he started meaningless small talk.

"How was the game today?"

"Fortunately."

"What do you mean by okay?"

"Tomorrow is still a one-day game."

"Does that mean you won the game?"

"Ah."

"Why didn't you say you won?"

"Why do you say I won?"

"Aren't you happy that you won the game?"

"will not."

Because it is my job to achieve the necessary victories.Since I was very young, people around me are only relieved that the task was completed, not happy that the task was completed.

"It's normal to win."

Gojo Satoru tilted his head, as if he thought my reaction was less interesting than he thought.But because of the appearance of Zenyuan Maki, coupled with recent thinking, I began to realize one thing - I don't need to please anyone, and I don't need to take care of anyone's mood.

This is slightly different from the previous performance.I have to admit, I do have a habit of speaking without paying attention to the occasion.People often point it out and explain the truth to me. At that time, I will reflect on what I did wrong.

However, I now know that I don't need to be liked by other people.Even if I do everything right, I won't get more likes from others.Since I am not a person with emotional needs, so-called friends are actually not that important.

"Why do you have such a stinky expression?" Gojo Satoru crossed his arms and looked at me dissatisfied, "Do you know that you will be struck by thunder if you put your temper on innocent people casually."

He looked serious, but what he said was sloppy.

"If you have anything to say, you can say it directly." I didn't bother to break each sentence clearly with him, "Do you want to give me the student ID card of the Tokyo Magic College?"

"You guessed it."

Gojo Satoru took out a student card from his pocket.

I only saw the back of the student card, and I was about to take it, but Gojo Satoru took it back, and I only saw a white phantom.

He said: "Suddenly I feel that giving it to you now is very boring. I will give it to you when you are interesting. You go back, there is a game on Thursday, and you go to exercise with them."

Gojo Satoru said more and more with an expression of grasping the truth, "Are you feeling unhappy because I suddenly picked you out of the student pile?"

"I'm never unhappy."

"I'm blind to believe your words." Wujo Satoru pushed my back and said, "Go back, if you want to talk to them, go there."

But I didn't shake my body, and even followed Wujo Gojo's footsteps to the gate of Kyoto Curse High School, saying, "I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" Wujo Wu asked back.

I don't know where I should go, or rather, I don't want to go anywhere, but at least I don't want to stay here.However, I began to notice that something was wrong with my state.And at this moment, I seemed to be able to understand why when I was in the Mafia before, when Mori Ogai mentioned Dazai Osamu, he would say that Dazai Osamu would be hurt.

At that time, I understood that because he was too smart and able to see through human nature and world affairs, it was easy to know that there were some things that he could not do to his own satisfaction.This is my understanding.

I think this understanding is not wrong.

But now that I have inexplicably come into contact with the truth and essence of unfair things like "emotion", I feel the same about "wisdom will hurt", and I begin to hate this kind of troublesome, troublesome and useless thing.But I don't want to agree with "that person". It is useless to learn this kind of emotion in the world.

"I have to go eat something sweet."

I have to eat chocolate, I have to eat cake, I have to eat pudding, I have to eat fruit, I have to eat anything sweet.I have to stimulate the endorphins in the pituitary gland through food.

When I left from Kagako, Kyoto, I realized that Gojo Satoru had been following me, always following.Neither did I try to strike up a conversation with him, nor did he try to strike up a conversation with me.I just keep going forward, maybe I have to wait for myself to get tired and find a place to sit down; or maybe I want to go to the place I finally want to go, and I will stop naturally; Too tired to walk, he collapsed on the side of the road like a drunk, and could only call someone to pick up the corpse.

But none of this is going to happen, I know too well what I should be doing.

I stopped before nightfall, turned around and met Gojo Satoru just in time.At some point, he took off the bandages on his eyes.Gojo Satoru was still the same as before, and said with a smile, "Do you want to go back?"

Ok.

I nodded.

I wasted so much time on this kind of nonsense that I had to go back and make up for it.

Gojo Satoru walked side by side with me on the street, and said in a refreshing voice, "How about dinner, do you want to go to the best cake shop in Kyoto with me?"

I looked up at Gojo Satoru, raised my hand and patted the pocket of my clothes, and tidied my clothes.I didn't answer his words, but said lightly: "I just thought about a fact that I forgot a long time ago."

The autumn night wind caresses my hair, and a faint coolness fills my neck.

"My parents abandoned me when I was born."

Since then, I have never learned how to respect others, how to respond to others, and how to balance the feelings between others and me.With no reference, no example, no guidance, no education, I have no idea what the correct answer looks like.

So, even if it fails, I don't know.

That is, even if it succeeds, I don't know.

I'm wasting my time worrying about things I don't know.

As soon as I finished speaking, Gojo Satoru shrugged and said, "Even if you tell me so, I won't sympathize with you."

I suddenly felt a little funny.

Why should I have sympathy for such indifference?

"By the way, can Mr. Gojo leave Kyoto?"

"What do you mean?"

"At this exchange meeting, the conjurers at the Tokyo school were evacuated. If I were Xia Youjie, I would attack the school while you were not in Tokyo, and take away the spells from Tokyo's high school."

"How can you be sure they will do this?" Gojo Satoru frowned.

"Because I cooperated with them." I paused, and continued, "Just when I parted from you last night."

Gojo Satoru stared into my eyes, as if he wanted to find any flaws in my expression, and he said after a long time, "What good will this do for you?"

"Nobody has trouble with money."

Gojo Satoru looked up to the sky and sneered after hearing what I said.

"Ayanokōji, you are really a born bad embryo. I wanted to punch you at first, but now I think of what you said just now, "My parents abandoned me when I was born", and I can't punch you anymore. . "

Gojo Satoru clenched his fists and said, "Since you are cooperating with them, and now you tell me their plan, what do you think? Are you out of conscience, or what?"

"Mr. Gojo, let's open the sky and speak brightly. I want to cooperate with you. I need your ability."

I don't want to play the "teacher-student-friend" game.

"What if I say no?"

"I can find Yigu Youtai. I know how to make him listen to me and be devoted to me."

"...Who would dare to make friends with you like you? You are taking advantage of Yi Gu's feelings for you."

"I don't need friends."

Gojo Satoru is indeed not someone who is easily influenced by me.

When we separate, we immediately break up.

However, what surprised me was that Gojo Satoru didn't tell Otoko Yuta what I told him.Because I still received a text message from Otoko Yuta with the same tone, he said something about what they talked about after I left with Gojo Satoru, and he also thought I would go back to join them soon, but it didn't Thinking of how long Teacher Wutiao took me away.

My original plan was to guide Xia Youjie and the others to take the opportunity to attack the "meeting meeting" at the curse high exchange meeting.Only by luring Gojo Satoru back to Tokyo can the possibility of their attack be increased.I didn't cooperate with Xia Youjie and the others, as in yesterday's situation, if there was no Yi Guyoutai, maybe I would tie up two girls as bait.

The reason why I told Wujo Wu that I cooperated with Xia Youjie was just to confuse Wujo Wu's judgment, like when playing rock-paper-scissors, say "paper" to the other party in advance to play psychological warfare.

Gojo Satoru in Kyoto is not a particularly good existence for my plan.I don't need someone with particularly strong ability to be in Kyoto, I just need a group of students with similar ability to play in the exchange meeting at the Curse High.If I could control Gojo Satoru, I wouldn't have to do these things.

There are a little over two days left.

Although I have been busy with some boring things recently, such as planning meetings, preparing for the curse high exchange meeting, chess competitions and bow and arrow competitions, I have not forgotten the things that should really be paid attention to.

The first thing is the car accident between Oguri Chongtaro and Momo Jingguang, and the result is not clear now.

The second thing is how far Osamu Dazai has tracked me down.What else do I need to do to prepare?

The third thing, so far, so far, isn't Tuosi ready to appear?

Thinking about it carefully, I have never relaxed much, and the rare time to relax has added trouble to myself.However, Xia Youjie's matter must be dealt with, if his influence invades my life too much, it will add more troubles to me.

When I got back to the hotel, I noticed Akashi Seijuro in the front hall. Although I didn't know what he was doing there, he seemed to be watching a video, but I didn't want to disturb him and walked away from him past.

Before I left for too long, Akashi called to stop me.

I stared at his red eyes and said, "Akashi-kun, what do you want?"

Akashi stared at my pupils, tilted his head slightly, seemed to be examining me, confirmed my status, and said: "I haven't seen you for more than a year, you have changed a lot, and you feel a little strange."

Akashi has self-respect and etiquette, and will not overly explore other people's affairs, handle things appropriately, and treat others like a spring breeze.This is different from Edogawa Ranpo, he is always frizzy and disrespectful in dealing with people, and always wants to investigate things to the end.

Akashi continued in the tone of an old friend: "Yesterday I saw you noticed me in the restaurant, but you didn't come over. I thought you would follow after I dismissed people."

I didn't pay attention to this matter.

"I don't want to say that when we met, we were on a chess game again, so I came to see you."

Akashi has proposed since last year that I should be their sponsor student of the Akashi Zaibatsu.As the heir of the Akashi Zaibatsu, there is nothing special about choosing the right-hand man of the future from high school. Even some families have already selected someone to assist them when they were children.It's too late for Akashi.

I have nothing in particular to say to him.

Akashi ordered a cup of hazelnut coffee for me, and said, "You seem absent-minded, what happened?"

When Akashi said this, he chuckled again: "Or, you don't like seeing me that much?"

Although he is only 17 years old and not as tall as me in stature, Akashi's demeanor is no longer comparable to that of ordinary high school students.

"I don't think so."

"Then can you have a cup of coffee with me?" Akashi smiled, "Is it because we can sit and drink coffee together?"

He said this to the point, I refused him but seemed unflattering.

"Thank you."

Akashi looked around at the people and the lamp scene, talked about trivial topics, and said: "If you come here for a long time, in fact, I would like to be the host and take you around, I wonder if you have any plans? "

"It's okay, I have no interest in playing."

I feel that my desire for material and convenience has been suppressed to the minimum. I am not interested in food and beauty, nor do I want to go anywhere.Thinking about it now, I just think going out to play is really a waste of time.

Seeing that Akashi was still looking at me, I said, "If you have any questions, you can ask them directly." Probably I should mention sponsorship.

"Since you said that, then I'm not going to be polite." Akashi put his hands together and said, "Did something happen? Today's state is different from yesterday's state."

Are there people in the world who are so sensitive to emotions?Why can they tell from my expressionless face that my state today is different from yesterday?

"For me," Akashi said without forcing me to speak, "Ayanokouji-kun is a person who has a lot of ideas and is also easy to be stubborn. This is probably because Ayanokouji is a very smart person. , The judgments that are often made are correct, so once the conclusions are drawn by oneself, and they also hold firmly believed opinions, it is easy to fall into misunderstandings.”

Akashi said: "I didn't come to inquire about your privacy, so even if you don't tell me what happened, it is not the most important thing to me. The most important thing is your mood—do you think that the current Is the status what you want?"

When Akashi said this, he showed me a gentle smile, and didn't force me to express my thoughts.Instead, he started to talk about the books he read recently. He was reading "Bible Stories" recently and read "The Gospel of John", "Proverbs", "Amos" and "Romans".

"Why did you suddenly turn over these books?"

I know he is not religious.

"I just want to have something to say to you." Akashi smiled and said, "Recently, I happened to find the definition of a friend. In the book of Romans, it says "It is rare to die for a righteous person; to die for a benevolent person, or No one dares; but God's love was shown to us in Christ's death for us while we were still sinners."

Christ has always regarded himself as a friend of the world, and he also indicates such a way to get along with friends-friends are not only like-minded, but also able to tolerate each other's mistakes and are willing to sacrifice for friends.However, this way of proving friends by sacrificing their lives seems a bit narrow in the peaceful era.

However, understanding has become for the sake of mutual friendship, running in with each other, sacrificing one's stubbornness to cooperate with each other, which is also a manifestation of friendship. "

"..."

I don't know why he just mentioned this.

"To be honest, I accidentally saw that song you sang during the long vacation." Akashi understood the meaning of my expression all of a sudden, gave me an answer, and said, "I have read a lot of books about friendship recently, and I don't know what to say." Did you know you’ve seen Khaled Hosseini’s The Kite Runner?”

I shook my head.

"There's a passage in it that I really like."

Akashi easily recounted all the content, but what I remember most is "Life is not just doing worthwhile things".

Life allows people to make mistakes, be lazy, slack, stubborn, complain, escape, and even fail.

When I think about it, I feel inexplicably relieved.

Akashi and I talked a lot about the contents of the book.

Time passed quickly, and at eight o'clock in the evening, the car that came to pick him up had already parked on the side of the street. When he said goodbye to me, I said thank you to him.

Akashi laughed.

"Actually, I have a purpose for you. If you really thank me, will you come to be my right arm and right arm one day?"

This purposiveness is neither sharp nor uncomfortable.

"Let me think about it again."

"If you refused before, you would refuse directly. Now I should understand that you have become smooth, or are you really thinking about it?"

"the latter."

"Then it's me who should say thank you." When Akashi rolled up the car window, he looked at me with clear red eyes and continued, "Good night, Ayanokōji-kun."

"Akashi-kun, good night."

After saying goodbye to Akashi, I turned around and saw Gojo Satoru standing not far behind.He will appear here, so I have great doubts.What is the reason for him to return?

I asked, looking for me?

He said with certainty: "Looking for you."

He was full of momentum, and he had the posture of a victorious general who was in charge of everything: "Ling Xiaolu, I found out that you lied."

I:"……"

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