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Jiang's mother looked at Jiang Huaixi lying on the hospital bed, sighed a long time and said, "Zizheng, our family welcomes you when you come to our house that day, because we have asked Huaixi to take care of you several times over the years. You took it home and showed us, she was afraid that you would be embarrassed and refused. After waiting for so many years, we finally had you here, so we couldn't help being a little overly curious, and then I was a little unhappy when I sent you back, I guess you are It's not that you misunderstood something."

Lu Zizheng was slightly taken aback, hesitated for a while, and then nodded lightly.That day, the Jiang family's scrutiny from top to bottom, and layer after layer of insinuations, and what was beyond words, really made her feel like she was sitting on pins and needles.

Jiang's mother shook her head and explained: "That day, what I said to you while Huaixi was away, I just wanted to beg you to be together with Huaixi and stop wasting each other's good times. Now that Huaixi has decided You, as a mother, I love her so much, so I admit it, but I can't bear to see her clinging to you, giving everything for you, but getting nothing. She can have no complaints or regrets, but I feel for her I feel unwilling." After that, Mother Jiang took a deep look at Lu Zizheng, "Zizheng, now, I still say this to you, take pity on the person in front of you, don't let Huaixi wait any longer, okay? ?”

When Lu Zizheng heard this, his mind went blank for a moment. "Zizheng, parents don't ask much for their children. My request to Huaixi from childhood is just to ask her to be safe. In the future, I will find a good person who knows the cold and the hot. If she is willing, Having one or two children, children and grandchildren around the knees, sharing the family happiness, auntie’s request is not too much, can you satisfy auntie’s simple wish?” On that day, Jiang’s mother’s words still lingered in her ears, like a basin of cold water Let yourself cool down from the head.But all of this is his own misinterpretation?

Jiang's mother seemed to see Lu Zizheng's doubts, and said: "That day, before I finished speaking, Huaixi was afraid that I would embarrass you, so she hurried down and interrupted our conversation. You must have thought too much about what you didn’t finish. Auntie apologizes if you misunderstand or make you feel uncomfortable. "

Lu Zizheng didn't even have the strength to smile wryly, so he shook his head lightly, and said in a low voice, "Auntie, you are too serious."

I was a little bit seriously injured by the words, and I was more afraid that I was bitten by a snake for three years and was afraid of well ropes, and it was made by the snake shadow of a cup and bow. Who is to blame?

She looked at Jiang's mother looking at her expectantly, and then looked at Jiang Huaixi reluctantly, but she was a little sad: "Auntie, you probably don't know, I confessed to Huaixi, but she... declined me... ..." At this point, Lu Zizheng remembered the despair and bewilderment that day, and his eyes turned red again.

Mother Jiang obviously didn't expect it, her expression froze, and she looked at Lu Zizheng in a daze.After a long time, she smiled wryly and said: "Zizheng, I thought you would be an exception to Huaixi, but I didn't expect..." She kept the words behind her in her throat.Mother Jiang cast her eyes on Jiang Huaixi in the ward, and sighed softly: "Zizheng, Huaixi has a knot in her heart. For many years, I have been puzzled. After many years, when I understand, But I have no strength to untie it." She turned her head, looked at Lu Zizheng faintly and said, "Zizheng, can you help Auntie?"

Lu Zizheng looked at Jiang's mother with his mouth open in panic, but couldn't make a sound, unable to respond to the good one.

She felt like there was a ball of thread in her mind, which was constantly rolling around, getting more and more chaotic, making her unable to figure out any clues.In her heart, there seemed to be 1 voices clamoring, but she couldn't hear anything and couldn't distinguish clearly.She didn't understand why Jiang Huaixi clearly liked her but rejected her; she didn't know whether she should believe Jiang's mother's words or Jiang Huaixi's decision that day; she didn't even know how a self who was on the verge of collapse could help Jiang Huaixi .

Not to mention, she doesn't know now, how much does she know about Jiang Huaixi?

Seeing Lu Zizheng's bewildered look, Jiang's mother smiled bitterly, and said, "Auntie is making things difficult for you. Zizheng, you don't have to think too much now, you just need to take care of yourself and let Huaixi feel at ease. Auntie is busy, okay? Can you promise Auntie this?" In her eyes, there was the kindness and warmth of the long-lost mother that Lu Zizheng was familiar with.

Lu Zizheng bit his lip and stared at Jiang's mother for a long time, and finally responded in a low voice: "Auntie, I promise you..."

Jiang's mother smiled faintly, stretched out her hand, opened her arms, hugged Lu Zizheng gently, and comforted Lu Zizheng gently: "Good boy, Auntie knows that you have been working hard lately..."

Mother Jiang's embrace was too warm.The moment Lu Zizheng was hugged into his arms, Lu Zizheng was stunned for a moment, but in the next moment, when he heard Mama Jiang's gentle words, Lu Zizheng's tears overflowed his eyes uncontrollably.At this moment, the grievance and sadness that he had been holding back all this time, he couldn't help but let it out unscrupulously.For the first time, Lu Zizheng cried aloud, feeling aggrieved like a child.

After Lu's mother left, Lu Zizheng always felt that he was an orphan abandoned in this world.She felt that the world was so desolate, shivering from the cold, she tried to hug herself tightly with her hands to try to warm herself, but it didn't help at all.She is like a drowning person, floating in this vast and cold world, on the verge of drowning.Her warm hands pulled her to the surface and gave her a warm embrace. She longed for it for a long time, but no one gave it to her, including Jiang Huaixi...

Now, just like her mother, Jiang's mother accidentally gave her a hug, gave her a trace of warmth that could be grasped and touched, and made all her strong pretense fall apart in an instant...

At this moment, she felt warm and at ease.

Mother Jiang just kept patting her on the back lightly, comforting: "Zizheng, don't be afraid...don't be afraid..."

When Jiang Huaixi woke up in the middle of the night, there was only Jiang Huaichuan standing alone in front of the glass window outside the ward, staring at Jiang Huaixi intently.Jiang's mother was persuaded by Jiang Huaichuan to go to rest, and Lu Zizheng also fell asleep after venting her exhaustion.

The first moment Jiang Huaixi opened his eyes, Jiang Huaichuan was keenly aware of it. For a moment, he was ecstatic, and couldn't help but gently patted the glass with his hands to make a slight crackling sound, trying to attract Jiang Huaixi's attention.

Sure enough, after being dazed for a moment, Jiang Huaixi noticed it, and slightly turned his black eyes, looking towards Jiang Huaichuan.

Jiang Huaichuan opened his mouth and called her silently: "Sister... Sister..."

Jiang Huaixi frowned after seeing his face clearly, and after a while, he weakly raised his hand that was not given a needle from the hospital bed, and slowly gestured in the air...

Jiang Huaichuan was startled, and carefully recognized the words she was gesturing, feeling distressed and annoyed for a moment...

Zizheng, Lu Zizheng!Besides Lu Zizheng, is there anything else in her heart? !

Jiang Huaichuan took a deep breath, full of helplessness, but still couldn't bear to make her worry, so he raised his hand and gestured an ok gesture to Jiang Huaixi to reassure Jiang Huaixi.

Sure enough, there was a faint smile in Jiang Huaixi's eyes, and it shone brightly for an instant.

Jiang Huaichuan saw her nodded imperceptibly towards him, and then closed her eyes tiredly and slowly...

Early the next morning, after Jiang Huaixi woke up, she asked to be moved to the general ward. Jiang's mother and Jiang Huaichuan couldn't hold her back, so they had to agree.

Jiang's mother was worried about Jiang Huaixi's body. Following Jiang Wang, she went to Jiang Huaixi's attending doctor to inquire about the specific situation. Only Jiang Huaichuan was left in the ward to take care of Jiang Huaixi.Because the doctor said that Jiang Huaixi could only drink a little liquid food now, Jiang Huaichuan went to several breakfast shops to buy what he thought was the best gruel, and fed it to Jiang Huaixi himself.

A big man, when he did this kind of thing, he was very disciplined, unexpectedly thoughtful and considerate, before handing over the spoon, he was thinking about lowering his head and blowing gently.

Jiang Huaixi felt a little embarrassed, and stretched out his hand to snatch the spoon from Jiang Huaichuan's hand, and said in a weak voice, "I'll do it myself."

Jiang Huaichuan withdrew his outstretched hand, pouted and said stubbornly, "No." Then he handed the spoon to Jiang Huaixi's mouth again.

Jiang Huaixi looked at the usually calm young man in front of him, with a rare childish appearance, a smile gradually formed on his lips.Jiang Huaichuan's stubborn brows and eyes, and the appearance of carefully blowing on the spoon, gradually overlapped with the figure of the little boy who stood by her hospital bed and coaxed her when she was a child, "Sister eats candy, it won't hurt anymore".

She finally opened her mouth, took a mouthful of porridge lightly, and then saw Jiang Huaichuan's silly face beaming with joy for a moment.

Jiang Huaixi ate a few mouthfuls, but still couldn't help asking: "Is Zizheng awake? Has someone brought her food?"

Jiang Huaichuan paused, snorted softly through his nose, and said, "Your darling will never be hungry."

Jiang Huaixi frowned funnyly and said, "What's your tone?"

Jiang Huaichuan drooped his face unhappily, and passed a few more spoons to Jiang Huaixi in silence. After a long time, he looked deeply at Jiang Huaixi, and asked Jiang Huaixi deeply: "Sister, you love her so much, why don't you dare to let her know? Can't you fight for yourself once?"

He knew what he was afraid of, so he couldn't bear her restraint even more.

When he was eight years old, he woke up overnight, and suddenly found that his sister, who had always been close to him, treated him as cold as ice and treated him like air.He was aggrieved and puzzled, cried, begged, acted like a spoiled child, and even spoiled Jiang Huaixi, but he didn't get back the slightest bit of attention from his sister. Gradually, he gave up and chose to stay away from Jiang Huaixi.When he was ten years old, after Jiang Huaixi returned from the hospital with a successful heart operation for the last time, before she had time to make him happy, she insisted on leaving home and going to a remote vacation villa in the Jiang family to recuperate.At that time, from Jiang Huaixi's decisive eyes, he realized for some reason that Jiang Huaixi's departure this time would probably be a real farewell.Even though he hadn't spoken to Jiang Huaixi for a long time, he still hid in the quilt and cried all night because of this, unwilling to make a mess.On the day Jiang Huaixi was about to leave, he sneaked into her room, opened the inner layer of her suitcase, and put in a family portrait drawn by himself.Unexpectedly, he saw a thick notebook in the inner layer, and by accident, he opened it...

The diary started from the day when the puppy he and Jiang Huaixi raised died of illness when he was eight years old.

That day, both he and Jiang Huaixi were crying for the loss of their beloved dog. Mother Jiang coaxed them one by one, and helped them bury the puppy together. In order to coax them, she even agreed to give them another If you buy a puppy, one is not enough, you can buy two.

At that time, both he and Jiang Huaixi rejected their mother with one voice, saying: "That's different... buy another hundred, it's not the one we like..."

That night, he was tired from crying during the day, no matter how sad he was, he couldn't resist the deep drowsiness, and fell asleep peacefully.

But Jiang Huaixi stayed up all night, staring at the puppy's grave from the window all night.That night, his elder sister, who had matured precociously due to illness, suddenly realized why she and her younger brother were so sad, but his mother was so calm and composed.

Without too deep feelings, without too many fetters, you can lose without too much sadness.

She woke up from the rescue platform countless times and saw the red eyes of the family from crying. She felt guilty and distressed, but apart from being strong and comforting them, I was fine and there was nothing I could do.And on that day, she suddenly understood that if her parents and brothers could not love herself, one day, when she had to leave, they would not be so sad.

So, from that day on, she began to exile herself, living in isolation, and treating others indifferently.

All she wanted was for them to love her less, so that one day, when she left, they would suffer less and have a better life.In this life, she has nothing to repay their love for her. Probably, this is the only thing she can do in the end.

All those years, she had always thought that way.

Jiang Huaixi smiled wryly, did not answer Jiang Huaichuan's question, turned his eyes away, and said without looking at Jiang Huaichuan, "Call Zizheng for me."

Jiang Huaichuan didn't wait for Jiang Huaixi's answer, and called out in a calm and unhappy voice, "Sister!"

Jiang Huaixi just said indifferently: "Go..."

Jiang Huaichuan had no choice but to stand up unwillingly, looked at Jiang Huaixi again helplessly, turned and left...

Jiang Huaixi stared blankly at the geese flying by in groups outside the window, a bitter smile slowly appeared on his lips.

If it is possible, who would like to know that happiness is close at hand and within easy reach, but cruelly holding back tears and shutting it out?

Since Jiang Huaixi knew that he had a congenital heart disease and his body was no better than ordinary people, he began to gradually realize that if he did not implicate others, the happiness of ordinary people in this life would probably have nothing to do with him. At the age of 12, the operation was successful, which brought her out of the brink of life and death, but she still knew that to her, a long life was just a distant dream.

Jiang Huaixi couldn't tell whether she fell in love with Lu Zizheng at first sight or after a long time. The moment she saw her feelings clearly, she knew that she only wanted to spend the rest of her life with Lu Zizheng.

Jiang Huaixi also thought about it by chance, to fight for herself once, no matter how long or short it is, she just wants to have a vigorous and true love.However, the more she loves and understands, the more timid and intolerable she becomes.She understands Lu Zizheng's fragility and determination too well, as well as Lu Zizheng's persistence in possession and long-term persistence.How could she have the heart to let her take another risk and be frightened again?She appreciates Lu Zizheng's seriousness and dedication to love, but she is also afraid.She didn't dare to imagine, if one day, Lu Zizheng, who regards feelings as his life, loses himself as a lover, whether he can continue to walk.

She is like, if she can keep her distance and avoid harm, then she is willing to retreat to the position of a good friend and love her with all her strength.

This is the only thing she can promise to Lu Zizheng. She is alone forever, and she is determined...

Jiang Wang came out of the outpatient department, entered the inpatient department and took the elevator upstairs to look for Lu Zizheng, but as soon as she got out of the elevator door, she saw Xu Baihan coming out of Lu Zizheng's ward from a distance, with a slight pause...

During the moment when she was in a daze, a family member in the middle ward suddenly ran out as if something urgent had happened, ran downstairs, passed by Xu Baihan, and accidentally bumped into Xu Baihan's wheelchair hard, fell to the ground.He walked in a hurry, before he could look back at Xu Baihan, or even say sorry, he got up and continued running downstairs.

The sudden impact made Xu Baihan unable to react in time, and the wheelchair slid out of control towards the stairs. Seeing that it was about to roll down, Xu Baihan closed his eyes in panic...

At the critical moment, the wheelchair suddenly stopped steadily... Xu Baihan heard a woman's rapid and heavy breathing coming from behind her...

She was still in shock, and subconsciously wanted to look back, but just as she turned her head, a cold hand covered her eyes, covering her eyes, and her voice was low and flustered: "Don't look back. ..."

Xu Baihan was slightly taken aback, this voice...was that doctor named Jiang Wang?

Before she could think clearly, the coldness in her eyes quickly disappeared, and then, the sound of hurried footsteps sounded.Xu Baihan turned his head hastily, only to see the back of a tall and slim woman rushing into the elevator in a panic...

Jiang Wang?Xu Baihan murmured.She stretched out her hand to cover the eyes covered by Jiang Wang's hand just now, feeling a little dazed for a moment...

The feeling just now, the breath on her body, is so familiar...