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Jiang Wang leaned against the elevator wall, spread his palms, and stared blankly.In the palm of her hand, Xu Baihan's long and dense eyelashes brushed lightly, and the touch was still clearly felt, and the warmth of the forehead she left on her hand was still burning her heart, so real and palpable.

The moment the skin touched, she clearly felt the throbbing and sighing from the bottom of her heart, and almost instantly, her legs were going weak and she couldn't stand up.

In the dim eyes of tears, how many times have I prayed, and since then, I will never see each other again; in the dead of night, when I dream back at midnight, I have imagined countless times what it will be like if we meet again.Whether they met each other and forgot each other, Xu Baihan was smiling lightly and she was watching quietly, or whether they met each other and were unhappy, Xu Baihan was stunned and she was in a daze, but he alone did not expect that, it turned out that he had long since lost the opportunity to see her again courage.Because, love is not right, hate is not right, laughing is not right, crying is not right...

The moment she saw Xu Baihan was about to roll down, she had no time to think about anything other than panic. The fear and resentment that had tortured her for many years were all left behind at that moment.

Jiang Wang gradually clenched his hands tightly, a painful wry smile appeared on his face.She asked herself, Yunbo, is 12 years not enough?How many more years will it take before you can truly forget and get rid of this habit of loving her uncontrollably?

She loves Xu Baihan more than anything, including herself.In these years, every time she thinks of Xu Baihan, thinks of the pain in her heart, and thinks of her soft heart, she takes out those hurts and reviews them again and again, and picks out the scabs that have formed in the bottom of her heart time and time again. Looking at it, blood gradually oozes out, and the pain is so painful that you can't breathe, only then will you gradually strengthen your belief in not loving, telling yourself that if you don't love, you will forget it, and the scar will heal, and you should remember the pain.

She once again relived the night after she and Xu Baihan were lingering many years ago. She hugged Xu Baihan's naked body, and asked her to prove to her full of nostalgia and softness: "Bohan, I really, really love you, you love Me?" At that time, Xu Baihan just turned her back and kept silent, she was still looking forward to it, preferring to lower herself into the dust, and asked her again cautiously: "Even a little bit is fine, Baihan..." But Xu Baihan's breathing was deep and steady, as if he had already fallen asleep.She closed her eyes in pain. At that time, she didn't know that she would never wake up a person who pretended to be asleep...

It wasn't until, that year, that she was desperate, in exchange for her turning her back again, the sea engulfed her body, devoured her consciousness, and the cold, salty sea water made her unable to breathe, and she finally understood in despair, no love, Xu Baihan never loved her, never will love her...

In all these years, no one has ever taught her to love.She is like a prickly pear, growing tenaciously in the desert where emotions are dry, covered with thorns to protect herself.Until she met Xu Baihan, she willingly pulled out the thorns all over her body, squeezed out all her nutrients, and bloomed a delicate flower, hoping that her sincerity would be watered carefully by her, but in the end, Xu Baihan told her, A cactus without thorns, in the end, can only be like a ball, let people enjoy it and dispose of it at will, and throw it quickly...

How precious and extravagant it is to love this kind of thing, you may not be able to get the heart-to-heart treatment from others.

Jiang Wang's right hand firmly grasped the left hand that had touched Xu Baihan's temperature, and the pinched hand was almost blue and purple.She warned herself coldly in her heart: "Jiang Wang, you only need to love yourself."

The moment the elevator door opened, Jiang Wang's face had already changed into the usual cold and indifferent, there was no fluctuation in his eyes, his posture was straight, and he walked out with high-spirited strides.

That Yunbo who loved desperately had long been buried in the icy sea.

When Lu Zizheng heard Jiang Huaichuan said that Jiang Huaixi was looking for her, he jumped up almost instantly, without thinking about putting on his clothes, jumped out of bed, put on his shoes in a hurry, and ran out like a gust of wind.

When Jiang Huaichuan came to bring her meals in the morning, she thought carefully that when he asked about Jiang Huaixi's news, Jiang Huaichuan just told her lightly that when Jiang Huaixi wanted to see her, he would naturally tell her.So, she stayed motionless on the hospital bed, afraid that Jiang Huaixi didn't want to see her, and dared not go rashly, dared not leave rashly, fearing that Jiang Huaixi would not find her if he wanted to see her.

Lu Zizheng rushed all the way to Jiang Huaixi's ward, but when she was about to reach out and touch the door of the ward and was about to push it in, she suddenly hesitated a little timidly...

Will Huaixi be disappointed in herself?

Jiang Huaixi had long heard the hurried footsteps outside the corridor, listening to the footsteps, one by one from far to near, and finally stopped in front of his room door.Her voice was weak and hoarse, and she said lightly, "Zizheng? Come in..."

Only then did Lu Zizheng gently open the door, took a few steps inside, closed the door, stood by the door, and stared at Jiang Huaixi for a moment.

Huaixi was so haggard, her face was paler than usual.She saw Jiang Huaixi's ink-like eyes sizing up at herself lightly, and then, the eyebrows gradually gathered together, with a displeased expression on her face, Lu Zizheng's heart tightened instantly.

Sure enough, Jiang Huaixi frowned, stared at Lu Zizheng sharply, and said coldly, "Zizheng, there is one thing that you probably don't understand."

Lu Zizheng looked at Jiang Huaixi in a daze, she was so scared, Jiang Huaixi spoke to her in such a tone, at that moment, her heart rose to her throat.

Jiang Huaixi said coldly: "Listen, your life was saved by me, so no one but me can hurt it, including yourself." After she finished speaking, she asked each word: "Listen do you understand?"

In such a warm and cold March day, she actually ran out wearing a thin unlined garment. She really didn't know how to cherish herself at all, so that she could rest assured?Jiang Huaixi couldn't help feeling a little angry.

Lu Zizheng was taken aback when she heard the words, she stared blankly at Jiang Huaixi, and from the corner of her vision, she caught sight of Jiang Huaixi's wrist tightly wrapped in gauze, her eyes turned red, she lowered her head, and murmured in a hoarse voice: "Huaixi, sorry Sorry sorry……"

Jiang Huaixi stared at her closely, and said sternly, "Zizheng, I hate people saying things that don't help me the most in my life. If I'm sorry and useful, then how can there be so much love, hatred and resentment in this world."

Lu Zizheng bit her lip, speechless, under Jiang Huaixi's cold eyes, she was like a child who made a mistake, clasping her hands nervously, tears were hanging from her long eyelashes, big His eyes were full of bewilderment and panic.

Jiang Huaixi couldn't bear to see her wronged appearance, turned her head and looked out of the window, and said lightly: "If you really feel sorry for me, do something for me. After I am discharged from the hospital, I will go to Ji'an to rest and recuperate. I need someone to take care of me My daily life, you go with me."

Looking at Jiang Huaixi's pale and beautiful side face, Lu Zizheng bit his lip and hesitated.She didn't know what position to put herself in was the right one. The closer she was, the more she wanted, and the more unwilling and afraid she became.She was afraid that she would hurt Jiang Huaixi again...

Jiang Huaixi didn't hear Lu Zizheng's answer for a long time, turned around, and said indifferently: "I don't want to? I feel wronged?"

Lu Zizheng hurriedly shook his head to clarify...

"That is……?"

Lu Zizheng's fist tightened and loosened, and after a long time, he made up his mind and replied in a low voice: "I am willing to accompany you."

Jiang Huaixi was not satisfied with her attitude, and asked further: "Willingly?"

Lu Zizheng raised his head and looked straight into Jiang Huaixi's eyes, his heavy eyes were full of firmness: "Willingly."

Jiang Huaixi looked at her, a smile gradually appeared on his face, and he praised: "Very good...".Looking at the dark circles under Lu Zizheng's red eyes, she felt a little pain in her heart, stretched her brows, and with gentle eyes, she beckoned slightly to Lu Zizheng, "Come here."

Dazed by the tenderness in her eyes, Lu Zizheng walked towards Jiang Huaixi step by step in a daze, and finally stopped by her bed.

Jiang Huaixi lifted the quilt unexpectedly, and said softly, "Come up."

Lu Zizheng stared at Jiang Huaixi in a daze, not knowing why.

Jiang Huaixi frowned impatiently and said, "Do you want to catch a cold to make people worry?"

Seeing Jiang Huaixi, Lu Zizheng seemed a little unhappy, and quickly climbed up without saying a word. The next moment, she fell into a warm embrace, which melted away the coolness all over her body.

She heard Jiang Huaixi hugging her tightly with both hands, as if wanting to rub her into her body, and sighed in a low voice: "It's really not reassuring at all..."

Lu Zizheng rested his head on Jiang Huaixi's chest, feeling like a wild bird that had been flying for a long time and had nowhere to land, and finally found a place to stay. For a moment, he wanted to shed tears with peace of mind.

Jiang Huaixi gently touched Lu Zizheng's soft hair with his chin, and asked Lu Zizheng warmly, "Are you sleepy? Let's sleep for a while."

Lu Zizheng raised his head and looked at Jiang Huaixi's calm yet gentle expression, his dim eyes gradually became brighter.She gently rubbed Jiang Huaixi's chin with her hair, and replied softly, "Yes."

However, after closing her eyes for a long time, she opened them again, and she had been staring at Jiang Huaixi, who was landing on Lu Zizheng, and she noticed it immediately, wondering, "What's wrong?"

Lu Zizheng blinked and whispered, "It's too bright..."

Jiang Huaixi bent his eyebrows, eyes as gentle as water, took a hand from Lu Zizheng's waist, gently covered Lu Zizheng's eyes, and coaxed in a gentle voice that was rarely seen in his life: "No light!" Come on, go to sleep."

So, she saw Lu Zizheng gently rubbing against her neck, a contented smile appeared on the corner of her lips, and a soft "um" came from her arms, and then, there was no movement, He fell into a deep sleep.

Half asleep and half awake, Lu Zizheng heard someone whispering to her, "Zizheng, I'm sorry, I love you..."

Lu Zizheng was so tired and sleepy, she couldn't bear to open her eyes in such a loving and gentle embrace, if she could stay in this embrace all the time, she would just sleep on it...

When Mother Jiang entered the room, what she saw was Jiang Huaixi hugging Lu Zizheng, with one arm around Lu Zizheng's waist, and the other raised slightly, and placed on Lu Zizheng's eyes, falling asleep.

Jiang's mother closed the door softly, feeling sorry for Jiang Huaixi, how could she sleep well in such a posture.She walked gently to Jiang Huaixi's side, stretched out her hand to grab Jiang Huaixi's hand that was covering Lu Zizheng's eyes, and wanted to help her put it down, but unexpectedly, Jiang Huaixi opened her eyes as soon as she touched it.

Jiang's mother was a little embarrassed, and said awkwardly: "Woke you up?"

Jiang Huaixi glanced at Lu Zizheng who was sleeping soundly in her arms, shook her head gently and said, "No, I haven't fallen asleep." After a moment of silence, she looked up at Mother Jiang, and suddenly asked, "Mom, help me." I called the people at Ji'an's side and asked them to tidy up the house, after a few days after being discharged from the hospital, I will live there with Zizheng for a while."

Mother Jiang was startled, and subconsciously stopped her and said, "Huaixi, isn't it good to go home after being discharged from the hospital? You are so weak, how can we rest assured? Nothing compares to home. Grandma has already set up the gang and the room. Packed up, it's right next door to you, our family, help you take care of Zizheng, love Zizheng, okay?"

Jiang Huaixi froze for a moment, looked at Jiang's mother heavily, and after a long while, lowered his head, looked at Lu Zizheng tenderly, and explained softly: "I don't worry about letting Zizheng live alone. Let Zizheng live in our house. I'm afraid she will be uncomfortable. Going to Ji'an can just change her environment, maybe, it can make her forget some of the pain here."

Jiang's mother looked at Jiang Huaixi's rare gentle expression, and couldn't help but feel a little sad. She knew that she would never be able to hold back Jiang Huaixi. Mom, you have to take good care of yourself, and you can't...don't let us be scared..." After speaking, Jiang's mother turned red and was about to leave.

Jiang Huaixi stretched out his hand, grabbed Jiang's mother, and said seriously: "Mom, I've always been, I'm sorry..."

Mother Jiang turned around, shed tears, looked at Jiang Huaixi who was guilty and looked at her pale and weak, shook her head distressedly, gently touched Jiang Huaixi's face, then Lu Zizheng's head, and sighed : "Stupid child, mother knows. As long as mother, as long as you are all well..."

Jiang Huaixi bent his eyebrows and smiled happily at Mother Jiang.

In the dream, Lu Zizheng dreamed, looking for the forest with no doubts, finally found a faintly bright exit road, and there was a hand beside her, tightly clasping her hand, fingers clasped tightly, Tell her: "Zizheng, don't be afraid, I'm here."