brave and coward

Xue Younian hesitated for a while, and said in a low voice: "One time, I woke up in the middle of the night and went downstairs to drink water. I just wanted to drop by to see how you were resting, and then..." He showed a very subtle, unspeakable expression. expression, tangled for a moment, and said tactfully, "You seem to be dreaming, talking in your sleep."

Hua Lin was stunned.He didn't know that.

He has had a dream, but he feels that he should not have the habit of talking in his sleep, and he doesn't seem to have said anything in his dream... But it is not likely that the dreamer will forget it when he wakes up, thinking that nothing happened .

It's impossible for Uncle Xue to have auditory hallucinations.

Combined with the context before and after, Hua Lin probably guessed what Uncle Xue heard in his dreams.His face was hot, trying to save himself: "I'm not...not, Uncle Xue, listen to my explanation...I..."

Xue Younian raised his hand, as if he wanted to rub his hair, but then remembered something, hesitated, put his hand back shyly, and sighed: "Linlin, you have grown up."

"..."

"...Are you hungry? It's getting late, I'll go cook." Xue Younian smiled at him, the same smile as always.But Hua Lin felt that he saw helplessness and sadness in it.

Embarrassing at the dinner table.

Hua Lin knew that Xue Younian had tried his best to pretend nothing happened, and he did his best, but the words of both of them were very incomprehensible. Hua Lin didn't know what he was talking about anyway, and he suspected that Xue Younian didn't know either. It would be better not to say it, but it would be embarrassing not to say it.

After eating, Hua Lin didn't bother to help clean up, so he fled to the guest bedroom.

After waiting for a long time, he heard the sound of Xue Younian going upstairs outside the door - usually Xue Younian finished cleaning the first floor and was about to wash up and go to bed.

In the past, Xue Younian would knock on the door of the guest bedroom to remind Hua Lin to go to bed early, or come in and chat with Hua Lin about the trivial things that happened today...

Today, Xue Younian just went upstairs without saying a word.

Has the relationship between Uncle Xue and me reached this point? !What the hell did I say in my sleep!

Hua Lin thought in shock.

Hua Lin's mind is full of mud now. He tried to sleep and wake up first, but couldn't fall asleep over and over again, and finally got up, went to the kitchen on the first floor to open the refrigerator to get water, but when he opened the refrigerator door, he was startled, looking at I stared at a few bottles of high-altitude beer inside for a while.

Xue Younian only drank red wine occasionally and did not drink beer. It was the first time that beer appeared in this refrigerator.

Hua Lin came to his senses, took a bottle of beer, turned around and went up to the third floor, intending to confront Xue Younian, or have a good talk?At least, ask what's up with this beer?

But he knocked on the door several times, but Xue Younian didn't open the door, just asked him what's the matter.

Hua Lin mentioned the beer in the refrigerator, Xue Younian was silent for two seconds, and said in a very natural tone: "You don't want to drink it. I will bring it to my colleagues tomorrow. There is no such brand over where he lives."

Is there really such a coincidence?Hua Lin didn't believe it, so he insisted that Xue Younian open the door.

Xue Younian only said: "Linlin, don't make trouble, go to rest. It's midnight."

Hua Lin couldn't knock on Xue Younian's door, so he went back to the guest room angrily, wanting to unscrew tons of beer, to get drunk and relieve his worries, but he was afraid that in case it was really Xue Younian that Xue Younian wanted to bring to his colleagues Woolen cloth……

Short of breath again, put the beer on the bedside table, pulled the quilt over the top of the head, tried to sleep hard, and fell asleep even if he couldn't sleep.

The next day, Hua Lin woke up and checked that it was not too early or too late, and his stomach full of suffocation did not dissipate even after a night.

He slowly got up, changed his clothes and washed his clothes, thought silently for a long time, and finally decided: Let's just pretend nothing happened...

As a result, when he got downstairs, he saw Xue Younian sitting on the sofa with his head down, sad, even a little depressed, a look he had never seen before.

"...Uncle Xue." Hua Lin called him in a low voice, with a guilty conscience.

Hearing the voice, Xue Younian came back to his senses, turned to look at him, and showed a gentle smile again: "Linlin, come here, let's talk."

Hua Lin hurried over, sat down on the sofa next to him, and looked at him nervously.

Xue Younian was silent for a while, and the first sentence said: "Linlin, you have an illusion, but you don't have to be psychologically burdened, this is not a rare problem that will arise during the sexual enlightenment process."

Hualin: "..."

After saying that sentence, Xue Younian remained silent for a long time, as if every word he said now was very difficult to say.

"... Linlin, what you should do now is to stay away from Uncle Xue and make new friends. I feel that you haven't made any friends here. You have been staying with Uncle Xue all this time, and you have encountered bullying again. The special process of the above treatment, so that you have an illusion." Xue Younian said slowly.

Hua Lin noticed that his fingers on his knees were crossed for a while, released for a while, and crossed again for a while, which revealed that his mental state at the moment was definitely not as calm and calm as he tried to show on his face.

He was very tense, cramped, and, a little struggling.

If it's just nervous and cramped, it can be understood as his embarrassment when facing his friend's son showing sexual affection for him.But what about struggling?Why is there a struggle?What is he struggling with?

Thinking of this, Hua Lin's heart beat faster.

But he didn't dare to confirm it, because it was really incredible.

Or it can't be said to be unbelievable, but...shocking?

I seem to fall in love with Uncle Xue who watched me grow up, and Uncle Xue seems to have that kind of meaning for me... Otherwise, there will be no mental state of struggle.

"Uncle Xue..."

Xue Younian interrupted him: "Listen to me, Linlin."

Hua Linhun nodded absentmindedly, staring at him blankly.

Then, he was heard saying, "I'm going to get engaged as soon as possible."

"...Ah????" It took Hua Lin a few seconds to realize what he said, and he stared at him dumbfounded, "Uncle Xue? What did you say?"

Xue Younian let out a long breath, finally looked directly at Hua Lin, and repeated, this time more firmly than last time: "I said, I will get engaged as soon as possible."

Hua Lin asked in shock: "With whom?! Where did you get a girlfriend?!"

Xue Younian swallowed his saliva, and said bravado: "I will find it as soon as possible."

"...Be sober!" Hua Lin couldn't help complaining.

Xue Younian took another deep breath, becoming more and more determined: "I'm very sober. Linlin, you know what I mean."

Hua Linteng stood up: "I—you—I—are you okay?!"

At this moment, Hua Lin was about to forget the age difference between himself and Xue Younian. At this moment, he felt that he was very manly, completely an adult man, and Xue Younian was just another adult man, that's all.And he is obviously much more manly and mature than Xue Younian.He felt that because he was far more mature than Uncle Xue in terms of psychological age, the difference in physical age between the two was smoothed out.

He has entered such an atmosphere and quickly assumed his role.

Xue Younian panickedly prevented Hua Lin from revealing the unspoken secret that both of them knew well: "Linlin, calm down and listen to me—"

Hua Lin interrupted him: "Who is not calm now! I am calm, but you are not calm! You panic! You calm down first!"

Xue Younian's two hands began to cross, separate, cross, and separate again...

He was struggling, anxious, and in pain.Probably because he calls himself an elder, and believes that most of the responsibility for this unrequited relationship lies in his failure to guide himself well, just like the last brain-damaged incident, it was obviously not his fault, or it could be said to have nothing to do with him, but he I was always blaming myself for not taking care of myself.

Hua Lin tried his best to calmly analyze Xue Younian's psychology at the moment, took a deep breath, squatted in front of Xue Younian, looked up at him, and grabbed his hand.

Xue Younian was startled, he quickly broke free, stood up, and took two steps to the side.

The atmosphere is here, there is no extra time and energy to think more, Hua Lin immediately stood up, took two steps forward, grabbed him, and eagerly confessed: "Uncle Xue, I like——"

"Shut up!" Xue Younian roared.

Hua Lin was taken aback, almost not remembering who he was, where and what he was doing.

He had never seen Xue Younian in such a gaffe.

Xue Younian was trembling all over, and the corners of his eyes were red. He even looked at Hua Lin in fear, squeezed his other hand vigorously with one hand, and said in a hoarse voice after a long while, "Lin Lin, I'm you." Mom and Dad's friend. You are my friend's son."

It seemed to be speaking to Hua Lin, but his eyes did not dare to look at Hua Lin, as if he was actually speaking to himself.

The person whom I originally looked up to and respected showed such a fragile, even cowardly posture because of me, Hua Lin's mood became more and more complicated, and even caused a somewhat distorted "sense of conquest" and "desire to protect".Just like sex itself is about power and conquest, he has a similar psychology now.

The blood all over Hua Lin's body was rushing to his head. He was young and energetic, and everything was enough to make him ignore it, and he would never blurt out like the other party: "I don't care! It doesn't matter if it is like that!"

Xue Younian looked at him painfully: "I care."

"..."

"Linlin, I seduced you." Xue Younian sat back on the sofa in despair, lowered his head, and said in pain, "I shouldn't have that treatment. It was a wrong diagnosis. I did a very serious thing. Stupid thing. Linlin, Uncle Xue is sorry for you. Please forgive Uncle Xue, okay?"

"I didn't blame you at all! And it's not all because of that!" Hua Lin tried hard to find a better foothold for their love, "Don't you think we have been ambiguous for a long time? We are soulmates at all, our hobbies overlap, I have never tried to get along with anyone so well, so speculative, so... so happy. In fact, I have always been alone before, I have never met Someone who is more compatible than you. Don't you think we are a perfect match?"

The more Hua Lin talked, the more he felt that this was the case, so he convinced himself first.Then he squatted down again and grabbed Xue Younian's hand.This time the other party struggled very hard, perhaps because he was moved by his sincerity and was in extreme swings, so it was like this.

Seeing a glimmer of light, he hurriedly lowered his head and kissed Xue Younian's hand, and continued to confess: "Uncle Xue, I know your concerns, but don't always put all the responsibility on yourself. This matter is our responsibility." You have to say that you are responsible for the matter between the two of you, and I am also half responsible."