You are like the sun and the spring breeze

After being admitted to Lucheng Attached No. 11 Middle School, my parents' business improved, and my family was not struggling as in the past. I was allowed to return to Beijing for the summer vacation.The roommates are three kind and lovely girls. We ranked the eldest, the second, the third, and the fourth according to the month.My birthday is November 25th, and I am the fourth in line behind the three of them. Although I am only a few months younger than them, they take care of me like a sister.At that time, I was a person with poor self-care ability, and they would help me spread the quilt and change the quilt cover together.When going to the cafeteria to eat, the boss will be the first to take the seat, the second child will run to the window to look at the dishes and tell us what dishes are available today, the third child will let me stand in front of her, and occasionally put his little head on my shoulder .

In high school, life became pure and happy, the classmates loved each other, and the teachers were serious and responsible.No rumors, no bullying, no corporal punishment, but there is no one who makes my heart beat.

After the final exam of the second semester of high school, the boss suggested that they go to the dormitory to sing together, and then she called the dormitory next door, and a group of eight went to a KTV in the center of Lucheng City.That was the first time I participated in a group entertainment activity, and it was also the first time I went to KTV.

The dim neon lights made me drowsy, but the deafening sound of the stereo woke me up instantly.I am not very interested in singing. I sat for an hour without singing a song. The third child asked me to order a song, but my understanding of pop music is limited to the humming of my classmates in the class and the occasional passing by the store. s song.It was not until college that I got my first mobile phone, which opened the way for me to like Mayday. Of course, these are things for later.

In short, staying in a dark confined space for a long time makes my head feel dizzy and swollen.I made an excuse to go to the bathroom, and was going to sneak out to catch my breath.

At the same time as the box door was closed, the opposite door opened at the same time, and a boy in a KTV uniform walked out with a cart.

He is tall and thinner than before. The baby fat on his face has disappeared completely, showing a sharp jaw line. The melancholy that once flashed on a cloudy day in the sixth grade now creeps up on his gentle eyebrows and eyes.

My appearance was completely unexpected to him. He was a little embarrassed and froze in place, but suddenly remembered that the door behind him was still open, so he turned around and closed the door.

"Zhang Kan." I greeted him as calmly as possible.

Suddenly, he smiled, it was a formulaic smile, everyone who worked in KTV had this kind of smile when entertaining guests.

"Why are you here?"

"After the final exam, my roommate and I came over to sing."

He asked, "Have you had a good time, is there anything you need?"

Like any product manager who investigates user experience.

"No need, the room is too stuffy, I'll come out to get some air." I explained to him.

"Okay, then you play, I'll be busy first." After speaking, he pushed the cart and left.

That day, instead of going out to breathe, I immediately returned to the box, my thoughts in a mess.

Why is he here.Is it a part-time job?

Has he stopped reading?

he looks very different from before

In order to find the answer to the question, after the results of the final exam came out, I went to that KTV again.I asked the lobby manager, and he said that Zhang Kan was on a day off today and should be at home.As a junior high school classmate of Zhang Kan, I wanted to go to his address in Lucheng. After knocking on the door, it was his roommate who answered the door.

"He went to the rooftop to smoke."

After climbing three floors, I finally found him at a corner of the roof.This time, he changed back into his clothes, and from the back, he was still the boy in his memory.

"Zhang Kan."

The sun was very bright that day, and he had his back to the light, so he couldn't immediately identify me.After he walked a few steps closer and saw the person coming, his expression was very surprised: "Yu Shufan, how did you find this place?"

"I--"

I'm just worried about you.

"I went to the place where you work and asked for the address. I said it was your junior high school classmate."

He laughed helplessly, he didn't expect his information to be leaked so easily, "Then they gave it to you?"

"Ah."

When he asked back, I felt a little guilty and realized that it was not appropriate to do so.

"All right." He took out a cigarette from his pocket, walked back to the railing, and asked with his back to me, "Do you have anything to do with me?"

I moved a few steps forward, got a little closer to him, and replied hesitantly: "It's okay, I just want to chat with you."

Right now, that's the best excuse I can come up with, and it just sucks now.

"Chat?" He turned around and flicked the cigarette ash, "You came to me specifically to chat?"

In my impression, he is not an aggressive boy.

I tightly gripped the shoulder strap of the cross-body bag with my hands, lowered my head, not daring to look at him, and rubbed my feet on the ground.

I don't know whether it's because I look so pitiful, or he really believes that I came to chat with him.

He actually said: "Okay, I haven't chatted with anyone for a long time."

He patted the railing and said, "Come here, or you won't be seen when chatting."

I walked over and stood beside him, the sun shone brightly on his skin, his profile was as handsome as a sculpture, I was a little lost in sight.At this time, he suddenly turned his head and asked, "What are you looking at?"

I lowered my head, my heart beat faster, my speech became limp, and I denied, "No, it's nothing."

He didn't speak again until he finished smoking a cigarette: "Yu Shufan, are you doing well?"

Not "How are you?"

Not "How are you doing?"

It's "How are you doing?"

I thought about my own situation, and replied, "Successful."

He said with emotion: "It's fine if you go with your heart."

"And you, how are you doing?" I asked.

He chuckled and asked, "What do you think?"

"It's good to work early, at least economic freedom and independence."

After a long time, he didn't say a word.It's hard for me to fathom his heart. There are thousands of possibilities for his silence, but most of them are not "good" possibilities.

"Did you go to high school in Lucheng?" He finally spoke, and half of my hanging heart was relieved.

"Ah."

"which school."

"The First Affiliated Middle School of Lucheng University."

"The key point of the city."

For some reason, when he said this, I felt very embarrassed, and I didn't want to mention the matter of being admitted to a good school in front of him.As a result, the answering voice became very low.

"Have you thought about what to do in the future?" He asked like an elder.

"Surgeon."

After hearing the answer, he briefly commented on my ambition: "Very good."

"Which city are you planning to go to?"

I thought about it and said, "Beijing."

In fact, I also liked Lucheng at that time.

When the conversation was about to reach a dead end, he asked again: "Yu Shufan, do you have any beliefs? Buddhism, Taoism, Christ, God."

I shook my head in confusion.

He hooked the corner of his mouth and said lightly, "I'm a Christian."

Then he took out the pendant from his clothes that I was very curious about when I first met him, it was a cross, and he said, "Michael, it's my baptismal name. They say, the Lord will guide you, and they say that God loves the world, and now It seems that it is not necessarily the case. Maybe, I am just an ant of God, isn't it?"

That last sentence sounds like asking yourself.

He was bathed in the sun, and his whole body was shrouded in great sadness.He stared straight ahead with nothing in his eyes.At that moment, I seemed to understand him a little bit, but I was farther away from him.

"Yu Shufan, live according to your heart. Live with pride, like your name, be comfortable and happy, and sail all the way."

"My book is a book of books."

As soon as I finished speaking, he couldn't help laughing, and said: "That's even better, read poetry and books, and sail all the way."

That day, he sent me downstairs, and I said goodbye to him at the intersection. He smiled and waved to me. The sun shone on his body like a golden body. I felt that he was unreal, but full of hope.

When the green light came on, I said to him, "Zhang Kan, let's all live proudly."

He smiled, and that was the first time I saw him smile so brightly after I met him, just like in the past.

"Okay." He promised me.

His name is Zhang Kan, and he is an ant of God and an eternal youth.