You are like the sun and the spring breeze

On the day of graduating from elementary school, there was not much sadness in the air. Class six (three) all studied in Liuzhen No. [-] Middle School and completed compulsory education.

However, it was somewhat different. The results of the entrance examination came out, and everyone was assigned to different classes according to the ranking.My grades were not as good as expected, so I failed the first class and went to the second class.

Teacher Wang comforted me: "It is gold that always shines." The old-fashioned encouragement is still useful to me.

On the day of graduation, everyone’s faces were filled with smiles, but at this moment someone said, “Everyone will not be in the same class from now on.”

Only then did the deeply hidden sadness come out.I looked back at Zhang Kan. He was assigned to the eighth class, but he didn't care at all. At this time, he was smiling happily, and he was fighting with Fang Yu.

Classes [-] and [-], from the first day to the third day, are all two-story buildings in a single building.Many students ridiculed that the people in Class Seven and Class Eight are actually the principal's favorite class.Joking aside, the real reason behind it is that the teachers are afraid that the crane tail of the seventh and eighth classes will affect other people's learning. After all, the students in these two classes will be employed upon graduation.

I feel a little lost, and it will be even more difficult to see him again in the future.

In the summer vacation of the sixth grade, I still spent it with my grandma and Teacher Wang. Unlike the previous vacations, this summer, I participated in a special summer training camp exclusively for me at Teacher Wang’s house.

On the first day of the holiday, Teacher Wang said to me: "If you want to test the city's key points, you must work hard from now on."

I received special training from Mr. Wang, not only to check and fill in the gaps in the past knowledge, but also to learn the knowledge of the first grade of junior high school in advance.Although Ms. Wang teaches Chinese, her math, English and science are no worse than those of the specialist teachers. When she explained the math problems, I felt a sudden enlightenment.

Another incident happened during the summer vacation that year. Teacher Wang decided not to accept students in nursery classes, no matter whether it was half-care or tutoring. And my grandma was soft-spoken in Mr. Wang's ears every day, and became the "closed disciple" of Mr. Wang's tutoring class.

The long summer vacation finally passed. On September 2003, 9, I became a junior high school student in Liuzhen No. 1 Middle School.At that time, I naively thought that I would spend the three years of junior high school studying hard. The biggest setback was the failure of the exam and the decline in the ranking.

In class six (three), there were three people in my class, one was the boy with glasses who was beaten up by Fang Yu, the other was the girl with glasses who was quiet on the first day of school, and the third was Tang Lingshuang.

As soon as she entered the class, I heard rustling discussions. She patrolled the classroom like a princess, and then her eyes fell on my seat. She strode forward and dragged the empty chair at the back table to me. Beside him, he took my hand affectionately and said, "Shufan, that's great, I still have you!"

In fact, I didn’t know her well at that time, and the deepest intersection was only when she helped me change my weekly notebook, but she has a special magic power that makes you feel happy for her closeness instead of being bored.

Tang Lingshuang was very close to me in the first month, pulling me to buy snacks and going to the bathroom hand in hand.But over time, she has new friends, they can not only study together, but also discuss idol dramas, skin care products, Korean wave, in short, things that can make her feel excited.Although I am disappointed, I am also happy for her.Occasionally she would ask me to have lunch together. At that time, I declined her invitation on the grounds of "going back to the teacher's house for dinner".I lived cautiously. On the way home by bike, I was still wondering if Tang Lingshuang would be angry because of this. I wanted to show my love in the afternoon, but I couldn't move my legs at all. At the age of 13, in addition to the consolidation of knowledge, I am still contradictory and hesitant in terms of interpersonal communication.

In the second month of school, I found my comfort zone - being alone.When I was trying my best to prepare for the mid-term exam in early November, I completely forgot that there was a bomb hidden beside me——Fang Yu.

After class that day, a few boys stood at the door furtively. As soon as I came out, they started whispering.At first, I thought this kind of discussion was not targeted, but one after another, there would always be a few people squatting at the door of the class to guard me. They were laughing and playing at the door of the class. When they saw me coming out, they suddenly fell silent and looked up and down.Until one day, a boy saw me and said, "This is the person Fang Yu likes."

His tone was full of disappointment. As soon as he finished speaking, the people around burst into laughter. Some teased him for being wary of Fang Yu and his anxiety, some agreed, and some watched my reaction carefully.

Fang Yu!I actually forgot about him. After junior high school, he bribed people in our class to send me love letters every day. To be honest, I still have doubts about the originality of his love letters.The reason why I can't verify it is that the first is that I am too busy, and the second is that except for the first love letter, every subsequent letter will be returned by me directly after receipt.Fang Yu didn't accept it at first, until the "postman" told him that I didn't even read the letter, and after tearing up the letter, he agreed to return it.

Looking at it now, my attitude towards Fang Yu at that time, in the words of Granny Wanjun, was "cruel because of ignorance".

I don't know how to deal with other people's hot love, and I don't understand why he likes me for no reason.

So, ignorance became the root of my cruelty, and the more direct reason was that I didn't even think about Fang Yu at all.

One day, Fang Yu was standing in front of my bicycle. It was school time, and the students were coming and going in the parking lot, and they glanced in his direction from time to time.When I saw him, he looked like a butterfly, and he attracted countless eyes when he stood there.

He stepped forward and said cheerfully, "Shufan, you are finally out of school."

I was confused by his "finally". Except for the third year of junior high school, everyone finished school at this time, and the teacher didn't delay the class. I was not slow to clean up. How could I be charged with "finally".

In a fit of anger, I said, "Then don't wait."

As soon as I finished speaking, I regretted it.I have a slight cold with nasal congestion, which greatly reduces the original meaning of anger, and instead sounds a little coquettish.

Sure enough, Fang Yu was overjoyed after listening, "Shufan, you are so cute."

I ignored him, bypassed this "obstacle" and rolled out the bike, and he rolled out a motorcycle from nowhere and followed.

During this period, the people around were whispering and casting all kinds of gazes at us: curiosity, surprise, freshness, gossip, anger, jealousy, and all gazes came from the tail-like person behind me at this time—— Fang Yu.

The school stipulates that riding a bicycle in the school is not allowed, and I can't get rid of the person behind me, let alone this person is riding a motorcycle.Compared with my embarrassment and uneasiness, Fang Yu was much more at ease. He automatically filtered out these gazes and chattered endlessly in my ear.

Shufan, how was your class today?

Shufan, why did you return today's love letter? I racked my brains to figure it out.

Shufan, let's eat some fish balls together before leaving.

I really couldn't stand him, so I stopped the car and said directly: "Fang Yu, do you have nothing to do? Why do you chase me every day?"

I was very curious about Fang Yu's thick skin. Instead of being annoyed when he heard this, he replied with a smile: "I like you, which is the most important thing."

I sighed helplessly, and said to him earnestly: "If you continue like this, your life will be wasted."

"No, I feel happy, and life is not considered wasteful. Why, are you worried about me?"

I hurriedly denied it: "No! Don't talk nonsense, in case someone overhears—"

"You can hear it when you hear it. Who in the whole No. [-] Middle School doesn't know that I like you."

Immediately afterwards, I experienced the biggest social death scene in my short 13 years of life. Fang Yu yelled into the sky, "Fang Yu likes Yu Shufan!"

In an instant, the whole school exploded, cheers and whistles came from all directions, and some people even said auspicious words, such as getting married and living together forever.

I was so ashamed and indignant that I wished I could find a crack in the ground and sneak in, but the instigator was reluctant to leave. He cupped his hands and thanked the people around him and the people upstairs.

I can't take it anymore, "Fang Yu!"

The smile in the corner of his eyes lasted for a long time, "How about it, Shufan, listen to the voice of the crowd, it's like thunder, you can think about it."

I yelled at him: "You are annoying! Your liking is annoying! In my life, even if I become a nun, I will never be your girlfriend!"

I guess, what he said that day was really hurtful, otherwise he would not have seen such an expression on Fang Yu's face, puzzlement, disillusionment, anger, shame, these emotions superimposed on his face in just a few seconds.I am very guilty, but I hope that he will not bother me again in the future.

So, ignoring his emotions, I pushed the cart and trot out of the campus.

After that day, Fang Yu never handed over a love letter, and I couldn't even see any trace of him, as if he had disappeared, but he was still in school.Because not long after that, the story of his beating spread widely in the school.The other party's nasal bone was broken, and his arm was cast in plaster. Fang Yu's parents flew back from Shanghai to apologize to the boy who was beaten, and pleaded hard with the school, so that Fang Yu was not punished for his serious misdemeanor.However, he will suspend classes for a month and apologize to the classmate in front of the teachers and students of the school when the flag is raised on Monday.And Fang Yu's reason for beating someone, I heard it was a joke from that boy: "Hey, Fang Yu, the girl you like, my brother will take her for you."

In the next month, I was in a state of anxiety, fearing that the teacher would misunderstand that I had a puppy love with him, but at the flag-raising ceremony on Monday, it proved that I had listened to rumors and was too sentimental.When I heard Fang Yu say that he shouldn't fight with his classmates because of the game, I was relieved.

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My impression of Liu Zhen is only one thing - violence.Violence spreads everywhere in this seaside town, from the streets to the interiors, from homes to schools.In the first semester of junior high school, two murders occurred in Liuzhen.A homicide case occurred in Liuzhen No. [-] Middle School, the only high school in Liuzhen, due to campus violence.

The other incident happened in our school. A girl in the third grade of junior high school stayed in the school to study alone after evening self-study, and did not leave until 11 o'clock.The night in Liuzhen was terribly quiet, and when it got dark, there were no people on the road.Maybe it was because the night road was too dark, or the night field made her feel creepy. She wanted to get home quickly, so she took a small road, and suddenly two men rushed out and killed her.After the autopsy, two men's semen was found in her body, but there was no matching information in the database. There was no surveillance on Liuzhen Road at that time, and even the street lights were often broken. The police speculated that non-locals were very likely to commit the crime.During that time, Liuzhen No. 10 Middle School canceled evening self-study and stipulated that students should not leave school later than [-] o'clock.

At 8:07 p.m., I quickly packed my schoolbag. Because I got good grades in the mid-term exam, I was left to talk by the head teacher. When I returned to the class, the lights were turned off.

When I arrived at the parking lot, I was shocked by the figure in the corner and broke into a cold sweat.There were no lights in the parking lot, and vague figures could be seen through the street lights outside the school. Looking carefully, it was a few boys sitting in the car chatting.Good thing I parked outside in the morning so I didn't have to walk past them to pick it up.I lowered my head, trying not to attract their attention, but when I pushed out the car, I found that the tire was flat. I pushed it again, and desperate thoughts came to me instantly.I glanced at the light in the head teacher's office, she had already left.At this time, those people stopped talking. Although I couldn't hear the voice and content clearly from a distance, I could feel their gazes, so my heart broke, I chose to accept the reality, and I pushed the cart and left the school.

After walking for about 5 minutes, I stopped at the alley that I usually pass through.I've never seen it at this time, like a murderer's favorite crime scene.The street lamps in disrepair flickered intermittently, the walls were mottled, and several forked roads led to completely dark and hidden paths.I stood at the entrance of the alley for a while, but no one, a car, or even a wild dog appeared, and the winter made it even more gloomy.

I backed off and even thought about going back to school to sleep overnight, but then I thought about it. Before leaving the office, Teacher Wang called the head teacher and asked when I could go home. The head teacher realized that it was already late. She told Teacher Wang, "Let Shufan go back now."

There is no mobile phone, and the canteen is closed. If you don't go home, Grandma and Teacher Wang will be worried.I took a deep breath, kept cheering myself up, and decided to push the car and run away from the alley as fast as possible.But after running for a while, I was exhausted. I stopped, panted heavily, and looked ahead. There was still more than half of the way to the main road.Just as I was about to sprint for the next time, I suddenly heard someone calling my name, and the voice came from behind.

"Yu Shufan!"

It's Zhang Kan!

He came to me quickly on his bike and asked, "What's wrong with your car?"

This was the first time I spoke to him after I entered the school. Zhang Kan was selected by the county track and field team in his first year of junior high school, and he often went to the county gymnasium for training.Therefore, it is difficult to meet him at school, and occasionally meet him in the parking lot.

I replied, "The tire is flat."

He froze for a moment, and asked in surprise, "You didn't push all the way, did you?"

I nodded.

He was probably amused by my stupid look: "Then you won't leave the car at school?"

"After school, I won't have a car tomorrow."

"Then you push it back. Is there any car repairer at this time?"

"There is a spare tire at home, Teacher Wang will help me change it."

He asked again: "Where is your teacher's home?"

"Boss Guangbing over there."

After listening to me, he went over the map in his mind and said, "It's not far from my home."

Before I realized what this sentence meant, he got out of the car, carried the messenger bag to the side away from the seat, and said, "I'll walk back with you."

"Ah?" His sudden move caught me off guard, and my first reaction was to be very embarrassed, so I quickly said: "Farewell, it's still quite far away, you should go home soon."

"It's impossible for me to let you walk around at night alone as a girl, and Liu Town is not safe recently."

In fact, Zhang Kan was only a little taller than me at that time, and he couldn't protect me if any vicious person appeared.However, at the moment, I only feel that his figure is very stalwart, like a hero.This road, accompanied by him, is not as scary as before.

"Do you usually walk this way?"

Every time I met Zhang Kan in the past, it was the road paved with gravel.At first, I thought he and I were going home on exactly the same route. It wasn't until we collided on the opposite side that I realized that he was on another road.However, this time he appeared in this alley.

He thought for a while, and said, "Very few, today should be the third time."

"Why did you suddenly go this way today?" His answer gave me a narcissistic thought

Could it be that they saw me, that's why they turned in?

He smiled and said, "Maybe I have a radar installed on me. I was at the intersection just now and felt someone was here, so I came here."

Well, just by chance.But this kind of accident became a beautiful seed with the passage of time, and it took root and sprouted in my heart.Along the way, we rarely talked, and the occasional few sentences were questions I asked to avoid embarrassment, and his answers were very brief.Seeing that he didn't want to talk, I didn't ask any more questions.

The primary school deskmate said he was "cold", which turned out to be true.But when Ming Ming first met, he was enthusiastic and sunny, and he talked a lot.Why did it suddenly change?Could it be that you hate me?

Once the suspicion arises, it is very difficult to stop it. Following this guess, I went back to the little things in elementary school, hoping to find the clues that I disliked him.In the process, we have unknowingly walked onto the slightly brighter road.

At this time, a motorcycle suddenly came towards me, and when the headlights dazzled my eyes, I realized that the motorcycle was about to hit me. At this moment, the person next to me suddenly pulled me, which saved me Disaster.That was the first time I had physical contact with Zhang Kan. Although I was separated by a thick coat, I could still feel his powerful arms, and my heart was beating faster and faster. The risk is still the throbbing of my heart when he pulled me.

Zhang Kan turned his head and cursed: "Damn, can you ride a bicycle?"

Listening to Zhang Kan swearing makes me feel that swearing is not so bad.

He frowned and asked, "Are you okay?"

I lowered my head a little shyly, with a shallow smile on the corner of my mouth, and replied: "It's okay."

"That's good."

After this episode, he talked more than before, mostly complaining about his class teacher.

"He is like the history teacher in elementary school. He is very talkative. He is so annoying to listen to. Sometimes I suspect that he is speaking yellow accents." Then, he imitated the tone of the junior high school teacher, said a few words, and asked me: "Is it fun?"

His appearance was funny, which amused me so much that he said again and again: "It's fun, it's fun."

The children in Liuzhen are very precocious, and they can say some very explicit words when they are in the sixth grade. At first, I am very puzzled and disagree, why can they be full of yellow accents at such a young age.But when you can't change the environment, you can only adapt to it.So, gradually, I can understand some secret yellow accents, and even laugh along with them.

The second half of the time passed quickly during the back and forth conversations between Zhang Kan and me. Now that I think about it, our laughter seems to have never stopped during the rest of the journey.My lack of imagination about winter is nothing more than cold and snow, but there is little snow in winter in the south, and winter is only cold for me.But that winter, Zhang Kan enriched my imagination of winter, because he appeared in the memory of winter.

When passing a small bridge, Zhang Kan pointed to an unpainted house beside the bridge and said, "This is my home."

Not a single light was on in the house, it was pitch black, and because it hadn't been painted, it looked even more lonely and empty.

I refused repeatedly, and Zhang Kan finally gave up the idea of ​​sending me to the teacher's house and then returning home.I watched him enter the house, but at this moment, Zhang Kan pushed the car up the steps, and when he opened the door, he stopped suddenly, turned his head, and said to me: "Shufan, I don't have an radar on me."

When he said that, I didn't immediately realize what he meant.After saying goodbye to him, when I was walking alone on the road, suddenly, I saw the flickering street lights on the side of the road, and I was stunned. My face suddenly became hot, and my heart made a loud noise, which almost shattered the night.

He said: Maybe I have a radar on me.At the intersection just now, I felt someone was here, so I came over.

But he said again: Shufan, I don't have a radar on me.

His name is Zhang Kan, and he turned my winter nights into summer days.