little city

I met Xiaoxin again at the bar where I played and sang.She came that day and sat at the bar.I played and sang quietly, and occasionally glanced at Xiaoxin, and saw Xiaoxin winking at me.

After the song was played, I sat down and toasted Xiaoxin.

"How did you come?"

"Why can't I come?" Xiaoxin still stared at me with big round eyes.

"This is not a place for good-natured people."

"Senior brother is so handsome." Xiaoxin deliberately did not answer.

"Be serious, come on, senior brother treats you to a drink." Deep down in my heart, I have already treated Xiaoxin as a friend.

"After drinking this cup, go back to school early."

"I don't want it."

"Be a good student and don't be a bohemian like me."

"Today is the weekend, I will play for a while and then go home."

"Is this your home?"

"Of course, doesn't it look like it?" She blinked her eyes again to be cute. "You don't care about me at all. You've only been in the small town for a few years. I'm a native."

"Then I don't know Taishan with my eyes, and I punish myself with a cup."

"No, you have to punish yourself with two cups."

"Oh, why two glasses?"

"You left without saying goodbye last time and left me alone. Are you disrespectful to Miss Ben? Should you apologize?"

Her cute tone makes it difficult to make people angry, but instead creates a sense of intimacy.I poured two glasses of beer and drank it.

"Okay, I'm done drinking, you go home, it's so late."

"Oh, you are so annoying, just like those annoying big brothers, our house is two streets away from here, and we can go back soon."

"Then you should go back earlier, don't worry your uncle and aunt."

"You are so annoying, mother-in-law. Can we not talk about this? You want to educate me as soon as you talk."

"Then what are we talking about?"

"Speak of love, brother." Xiaoxin blinked his big eyes again.

"Little kid, you know what a fart."

"I don't understand, brother teach me, okay?"

"Go, go, go." I suddenly realized that I had nothing to do with a girl like Xiaoxin.

I went on stage and sang "New Love", and my voice choked up when I was deeply in love.Xiaoxin saw it, but was deeply fascinated.

"It's getting late, Xiaoxin is going home. Senior brother invited me for a drink tonight, so shall I treat senior brother to dinner tomorrow?"

"Don't worry, my parents are not at home." Afraid of my hesitation, Xiaoxin opened the door and said.

Maybe it's because of Xiaoxin's kindness, or maybe I'm also full of curiosity about Xiaoxin, so I readily agreed to go.

Xiaoxin's home is in the old town beside the canal.From the bar street, cross two intersections, and then take a section of Qingshiban Road's alley. On both sides of the road are old-fashioned Jiangnan dwellings. Corridors, black wooden doors, high horse head walls, typical Jiangnan features.

I quickly found Xiaoxin's home, and the door was wide open.I stood at the door and tapped a few times, but there was no response, so I went straight into the middle hall. The space was not big. There was a recliner made of bamboo and rattan at the door, a dark table on the bluestone floor, four stools, and a corner of the house. There is a wooden ladder leading to the second floor, and the stairs are full of sundries.

"Xiaoxin, Xiaoxin!" I yelled towards the second floor.

Xiaoxin poked her head out from the stairs,

"Senior brother, it's so early. I'm still washing my hair. You came up by yourself."

I tiptoed up, and every time I took a step, the stairs creaked, and I was afraid that I would miss it.

Xiaoxin had just washed her hair and was drying it with a towel. A faint fragrance permeated the air in the hut.There is a bed, a small wardrobe, a one-piece bookshelf and desk in the room.There are some architectural books neatly placed on the bookshelves, and the books are all yellowed. There is a grid with some Japanese comic books and magazines. .

Sunlight casts in from the wooden windows facing the river, making everything in the cottage full of vitality.Light has a natural attractive effect on the human eye. I went straight to the window, and I could see the houses and windows on the opposite bank, and there were boats passing by on the canal.I thought that Xiaoxin grew up listening to the sound of boats on the canal, so I couldn't help feeling a little envious.

Seeing the restrained look of his senior, Xiaoxin hurriedly moved the stool next to the desk to the two green plants under the window.

"Your home is so beautiful!" I exclaimed.

"What's so beautiful about this? It's a small dilapidated house. The canal is full of houses like this. It's not surprising. Besides, this house was built by my grandfather, at least seven or eighty years ago."

"Then your family must have been rich before."

"Of course, I heard from my grandfather that during the Republic of China, my grandfather's grandfather was the earliest representative of national industry and commerce. He ran a flour mill and a match factory. However, after the founding of the People's Republic of China, our family's industries were donated to the country. Later , my grandfather grew up in this small house, and when he gets old, he is reluctant to leave this small house."

"Then do your grandparents still live here?"

"Well, they have been living here, but recently they went to my aunt's house in the United States. The key is with me, and I come to live here when I have nothing to do. How free it is, right? Our house has a building near the school, I’m not used to living in it, but I still feel like living in an old house.”

"What about your parents?"

"They! They've been divorced a long time ago. I've lived with my grandparents since I was a child. My father got married a second time and started a business in Shanghai. My mother is also married. They all have their own families, so no one cares about me. "

"Then why don't you go find them?"

"They asked me to go and I didn't go. I don't want to go. I'm fine here. I grew up here since I was a child. I don't want to go anywhere. I want to be with my grandparents."

In my opinion, the experiences of Xiaoxin's family and Xiaoxin herself are rough enough, but Xiaoxin can always express it easily, as if nothing is wrong with her.What an open-minded outlook on life this is.

"Your grandfather studied architecture?"

"Well, how did you know that?"

Xiaoxin took out a can of drink from the refrigerator, walked over to give it to me, and sat on the edge of the bed.

"The books on the shelf, you don't study architecture."

"Yeah, my grandfather studied architecture, my father also studied architecture, and my mother also studied architecture. They are classmates. They also let me study architecture. I don't want to study architecture. Why should I listen to them, right? ? I have my life."

"Then do you like literature?"

"To be honest? I don't like literature either. Writers are all depressed. There are many suicides. I don't want to be like them."

"Then why are you in liberal arts school?"

"How should I put it? I don't want to be a writer, but I want to be a literary critic. I don't want to create, but I can comment on other people's creations. Writers see through life, and I see through writers. Isn't this a good job?"

I don't know why, but I think the little girl is really amazing. She is in a small grade, but she sees life from a different perspective than ordinary people.

"Brother, do you want to be a writer?"

"If I become a writer and you see through me every day, wouldn't it be a failure, so I don't want to."

"So you want to be a musician?"

"Musician? It's even more impossible. It's purely a hobby. Don't forget that I'm from the Department of Biology. I want to be a biologist."

"Oh, yes, I forgot, you are a biology student."

"Biologists see through all the essence of life, about the origin of life, evolution, metabolism, and aging."

"Then it's the same with us. What I see through is the human heart, and what you see through is the material structure of people."

"Then what you should study is psychology."

"That's right, brother, I major in psychology, and our school's psychology is affiliated with the Faculty of Arts."

"Oh, oh, oh." I suddenly pretended to put my hands on my chest. "It's so scary. I'm facing a psychologist. Is everything about me transparent to you?"

"No, brother, your mind is transparent, but your body is opaque. Why are you so nervous?"

I can't help laughing.

"Brother, what I look at is your heart, so what do you think I am?" Xiaoxin suddenly asked softly.

"Do I see you? I think you are a woman, alive."

"Brother, you are so annoying." Xiaoxin acted like a baby.

"As a biologist, of course you are just a bunch of cells."

"Only cells? Nothing else?" She started to widen her eyes again, expecting something.

"There are cell membranes, cytoplasm, nucleus, mitochondria, chromosomes inside the cell..."

"Senior brother, hum, I think your heart is not transparent anymore, there must be a dark forest in your heart, I can't see clearly, I have to study further." Xiaoxin pretended to be angry.

"Brother, do you understand what kind of person you are?"

"I'm a good person."

"I'm asking about your personality. Do you know yourself? Do you want me to test it for you?"

"Okay, how do you measure it?"

"Personality test? There are many tests abroad."

After finishing speaking, she walked over to the bookshelf and pulled out an answer sheet.

"Senior brother, just do it and see, it only takes a few minutes."

I took it over and took a look. They were all questions and answers, which were interesting. The answers were all subjective, and there was no right or wrong.

Seeing that I was hesitant, Xiaoxin said, "Come on, let me do it with you!" After speaking, he brought over two pens.

I am somewhat resistant to this kind of test, as if I never believed in fortune-telling or astrology, but I couldn't refuse Xiaoxin's kindness, so I quickly completed all the questions.

Xiaoxin took the answer sheet and calculated for a long time. According to the scores, it corresponds to different personalities and suitable occupations. "Sure enough, brother's personality is suitable for an artist and spiritual mentor. Brother, you chose the wrong major, you should study psychology."

"how about you?"

"Of course I'm a philosopher, don't you realize?"

"Oh, it turns out that I have been chatting with philosophers, and I can't say anything about you, brother, I am willing to bow down."

When I was with Xiaoxin, I always felt that this little girl was young, but her eyes were quite sharp.

"Haha, brother, this is just for fun, you don't have to take it seriously. Personality can change, especially changes in the environment and inner hints, which will change a person's personality to a certain extent and develop in a more perfect direction."

"You mean I can still be saved?"

"Originally you were hopeless, who made your life so good that you met me." When Xiaoxin talked to me, she always had a coquettish tone, which made people think she was very cute.

She stood on one side of the window and I stood on the other.The whistle of the sand ship came from outside the window, and the sunlight came in through the window, just shining on Xiaoxin's face.I saw that her round face seemed to be covered with a layer of rosy powder, her plump lips were always bright red, her hair was wrapped in a towel, and she looked cute and cute.Her eyes are always full of electricity, and every time her eyebrows blink, they will send electricity once.

I looked at her obsessively, eyes full of love.What's wrong with me, suddenly I have a different feeling for Xiaoxin in front of me.

She naturally sensed my emotional changes, she closed her lips slightly, then opened them again.I couldn't help taking a step forward, and moved my lips closer to her.I could feel her nervousness, and her cheeks turned even brighter.

But just as our lips were about to meet, she turned her head away.

I also turned around in embarrassment.

At that moment, it was as quiet as if the earth stopped turning, only the beating of the heart and the roar of the siren remained.

"Brother, wait until you fall in love with me, okay?"

Xiaoxin broke the silent air.

"Brother, I will wait for you."

The first time I met such a free and easy girl, I was at a loss.Yes, I just developed a love and affection for Xiaoxin, far from love.

"I'm sorry, I was impulsive." I acted like I had done something wrong.

"Brother, what is impulsiveness like? Are you up yet?"

Xiaoxin became open and active again, recovering freely.

"Go, go, why do you know so much?"

"Hey, brother, look, you are blushing. Aren't you a master of love? Why are you timid in front of a little girl like me?"

My face turned even redder, and I admitted in my heart that I had already lost in the contest with Xiaoxin.

"Brother, if you want to force it, I will not resist you."

"Okay, okay, don't make fun of senior brother."

At noon, Xiaoxin invited me to eat at a time-honored steamed stuffed bun shop in the alley. The freshly baked steamed stuffed buns were hot in soup, but the skin was thin and the meat was tender and delicious.

During the meal, Xiaoxin was holding a piece of paper opposite me and was drawing non-stop, and blocked it with his hand to prevent me from seeing it.

After a while, she finished the painting and suddenly looked very happy. "Brother, I have a gift for you, guess what it is?"

When you're done, hand me the paper. "This is Xiaoxin's first date with his senior brother, and Xiaoxin will always remember it."

I spread out the paper, and there was a picture of a boy and a girl kissing standing by the window.I can't help being funny and moved.

"Brother, when is the next date?" Xiaoxin asked me while eating.

I was stunned. "Who said I was going on a date with you?"

"Brother, what are we doing now? Isn't it a date?" She pouted while talking.

I suddenly couldn't bear to hurt Xiaoxin in front of me because of her sincere emotions.