little city

At this time, I received a letter from Jingshu.

little,

See the word as the face.

Autumn goes and winter comes, the years are silent, fate comes and goes, life is like a dream.

In the past few months, I have been devoting myself to practice, without any distractions, and single-mindedly.

I know you can come out of your pain, as I am now, with a life full of contentment and gratitude.The peace of mind also gave me great strength, which supports me to influence more people and relieve their pain in the future.

Day after day, year after year, life never changes.The master gave me infinite care and let me know the immeasurable merits of Buddhism.

After I calm down again and my state returns to normal, I can feel even more how good you have been to me in the past.I don't know how to thank you, I just pray for you every day.

Jing Shu

When I saw Jingshu's letter, I didn't know how to reply.My so-called true love has changed.I was already decadent when I just let go, and I am totally sorry for this heavy feeling.

But I still replied to Jingshu and explained truthfully:

Jingshu:

Thank you for thinking about it, I am very relieved to know that you are all well.

I have to admit, I'm in another relationship and it's over.I don't know why I love, suffer, and break up.I always thought that after losing you, I would no longer cry for love, but I didn't expect that I would still feel heart-piercing.If love is destined to be painful, why must there be a product of love?

After you left, I thought it was the end of the world. Those days were really uncomfortable. I once fell, suffered, and sad, but after I met her, everything changed.

I must emphasize that she is not your substitute, and she is even completely different from you, you should be able to understand.Actually, I don't know how to like her, but I can't resist.

Once, I thought you were all mine, but you're gone.I used to think that she was all mine, and she left too.Is it my problem, your and her problem, or the society's problem?

Regardless, life goes on and we all grow up.

I miss the time with you so much.

Little

The winter vacation has begun, and my bus ticket is two days late.At dusk, I leisurely cycled to the school gate.Suddenly I heard someone calling me, I turned my head and saw that it was Tao Zi, a young man with long hair fluttering, dressed in casual clothes, walking towards me with his beloved guitar on his back.Tao Zi asked me to drink with him at night, and I didn't refuse.

We bought skewers at the school gate and went straight to Tao Zi's den.Tao Zi rented a residence outside the school very early on.

Go out of the school gate, turn left, and after a short distance, you turn into a small alley, which is an old-fashioned residential area.The houses are relatively dilapidated, but both sides of the road are painted white.From time to time, camphor trees stick out their heads from the yard.There are very few pedestrians on the road, which looks gloomy.

Going forward, turning two more turns, there are several shampoo rooms on the side of the road, all of which are dimly lit, and a few women can be vaguely seen sitting inside.One of them had a door open, and there were two women sitting at the door. They couldn't tell their ages, but they were wearing heavy makeup, wearing miniskirts, showing long legs, and high heels, chatting while eating melon seeds.

Looking at the two young men coming over, one of the women waved her hand and yelled, "Handsome guy, come in and play."

Pushing the bicycle, I didn't dare to look over there at all, and only sneaked a few glances out of the corner of my eye.After walking over, Tao Zi said quietly: "Those women are young ladies, soliciting customers on the main road every day, they are really brave."

I didn't know how to answer the call, so I didn't answer it.Walking to Taozi's residence, it was a small three-story building with whitewashed exterior walls, and the courtyard was a simple concrete building.Tao Zi lived in a single room on the third floor.

The landlord is an old lady, she stood in the yard and stared at me, as if I was a visitor from outsider.I nodded sheepishly.

"Do you live alone? Is there a golden house where you can hide your beauty?"

"Heh, you're hiding a pig's head." Tao Zi went on to say, "You know Leopard, right? The one from the law school lives with me." Tao Zi opened the door with a key while talking.

I followed in, but I really couldn't remember who the leopard was.

The door opened, and there was a person lying on the bed. Tao Zi went up and lifted the quilt and scolded: "Get up soon, I've been asleep for a whole day. Only then did I realize that Leopard was also in the guitar class.

Leopard opened his eyes bewilderedly.

"Fuck it, I'm coming." Tao Zi continued to scold Leopard, but he could feel that it was a good conversation between brothers.

The leopard got up and cursed carelessly: "Damn it, that young woman was so fucking coquettish last night, hehe, sit down, sit down quickly."

"You have a lot of good luck." I complimented, and when I was with them, I didn't want to look noble or make people uncomfortable, so I always tried my best to go along with them.

"What kind of blessings, just flirt with girls."

"You bitch, you raped her and said she was flirty." Tao Zi continued to curse.

"She delivered it to her mother herself, so I won't do it for nothing."

"When we were performing in a bar, we met a rich young woman. I left a phone call and chatted for two days. Last night, the first time we met, I opened a room and raped her. What a fucking beast. Hehe." Tao Zi explained.

"Fuck, I don't know if I fucked him or he fucked me." Leopard shouted.

In the evening, I drank a bottle of white wine, drank some beer, and ate some skewers.While eating, we picked up the guitar and collaborated on a few songs. Although my technique is not as good as theirs, I can mix it in and not add to the chaos.

Tao Zi asked me to have a chance to perform together.I neither agreed nor refused.

I was originally too weak to drink, and I was trapped by love, so I let go of the drink with the impulse of youth, and I was really drunk in the end.

Tao Zi asked me to stay at night, and the three of us would sleep in one bed.I don't know why, but I insist on going back to the dormitory.

Coming out of Tao Zi’s house, I pushed my bicycle home, and the alcohol began to exert its power. I staggered through the gloomy and dark alley, without any pedestrians, and the air was heavy with humidity.

What I have always wondered is why others can easily get a girl, but why I always have such a hard time chasing girls.Why can they handle girls so easily?And every time I fell in love, it was so painful.

The torment and depression of the past few days all broke out under the urging of alcohol, and I was so oppressed that I couldn't breathe.I felt a tightness in my chest, and a puff of breath went up, so I stopped the car immediately, and with a bang, vomit spewed out.I couldn't help trembling all over, tears mixed with vomit, and smeared on my face.

At this time, I just walked to the side of the shampoo room.A coquettishly dressed woman came out when she saw me, and yelled, "Handsome guy, let's have some fun." As she spoke, she walked up to me and pulled me hard.

"Handsome guy, come on, I only charge you 100 yuan, a full set of services, our girl you can choose whatever you want." Then he pulled me into the room, I half-pushed and walked in in a daze, and saw a A pile of white thighs dangled in front of her eyes.I was pulled by the woman to a partitioned hut in the back.

I only felt disgusted in my heart. The strange smell in the small room and the woman in front of me made my inner turmoil start to surge up again.I instantly sobered up a lot.

I broke free from the woman's hand and ran outside. The woman picked up the clothes and chased outside, shouting: "Stop him, I haven't paid him yet, I want to run away after taking advantage of my mother."

Two women outside stopped me.I wanted to break free, but the woman yelled, "Take the money, take the money, if you don't take the money, you can't get out of this door.

At this moment, the hero does not suffer from the immediate loss, so I casually took out two hundred from my trouser pocket and threw it out.While the woman was picking up the money, I rushed out, got on my bicycle and ran.

My tears are like a flood that has burst a bank, roaring and pouring out.I tore my throat and shouted loudly to the sky.As soon as I ran out of the alley, people and cars fell heavily on the ground. A layer of skin was wiped off my palms, and blood began to ooze out. My knees and elbows were also terribly painful, and they were all scratched.I staggered up and pushed the car back to the dormitory.

The pain of youth tortured deeply and tore my heart.