little city

I was lying on the bed, the dream was too beautiful, the reality was too cruel, I might as well be immersed in the dream.

Hirosawa turned on the radio very interestingly, and the melody of "yesterdayoncemore" came. I couldn't help but think of the years in high school. Although he was busy with his studies, it seems not so monotonous now.

I've been in bed thinking and daydreaming.Near noon, both Dongdong and Guangze went to the cafeteria to eat, I got up and got out of bed, stood in front of the mirror, looked at my rather handsome face, and faintly saw the shadow of Jingshu.

For some reason, I just have an urge to see Jing Shu.I am eager to know if she misses each other like myself at this moment.Driven by a strong desire, I plucked up the courage, picked up the phone in the dormitory, hesitated for a long time, and dialed it.

The phone was beeping, my hands were shaking, and my heart was beating nervously, and I hung up before I got through.After I hung up, I was very regretful, not sure if I was connected just now, and hated myself for not having the courage.I stood by the phone, blaming myself and cheering myself up.I took a deep breath and picked up the phone again, but this time it still didn't connect, indicating that the line was busy.

I hung up in a hurry, I didn't expect to make a phone call so difficult.I kept asking myself, what's wrong?Is this still me?For so many years, I have never been afraid of anything, but in the face of feelings, I am so embarrassed.

I had nothing to do in the afternoon, so I threw two books in my schoolbag and went out. First, I went to the campus for a walk, then went to the library and the teaching building to search again. I took a look at the door of each classroom and left. , regardless of whether there is anyone in the classroom.I was absent-minded and had no interest in studying at all.

I came to the side of the basketball court again. This is the place where I feel most relaxed. There are many students playing basketball.I sat on the concrete pier next to the court and started to be in a daze.

The basketball is flying in front of your eyes, but your thoughts don't know where to fly.I can't figure out why people become like this. The self who only knows how to study hard and make progress every day can't find a direction.

I put down my schoolbag, rushed into the basketball court, and joined a three-on-three battle. Exercise is the best medicine to forget your troubles.I played very fiercely that day, full of strength, and finally found an outlet to vent.

In the evening, Jiang Tao finally showed up, and he took Dongdong and me to a food stall outside the school for dinner.Jiang Tao, who is usually humorous, kept his face straight that day and was in a bad mood.It was the first time I saw him look so serious, and I felt scared.

He said that he had a quarrel with Lingling again, and that woman was really annoying, and she couldn't get rid of her, so she knew how to be jealous, like a crazy person.When Jiang Tao said that, I felt a little sad. He thought of Lingling's persistent love for Jiang Tao, and his persistent love for Jingshu, and felt deeply sad.

I desperately drank with Jiang Tao, drinking more than before.One didn't know how to cherish what he got, and the other wanted it but couldn't get it. The two got drunk.Dongdong looked at the two big men in front of him fighting for wine, and stopped dissuading him. "You worthless people, drink to death."

After dinner, back to the dormitory, Jiang Tao and Dongdong started playing CS online.I sneaked out alone, the cool autumn wind blowing over my fiery skin, I couldn't tell whether it was cold or hot.I wanted to see Jing Shu very much, so I called Jing Shu's dormitory with the help of Jiu Jin.

But for some reason, every time she called, her phone line was busy.At that time, there was only one telephone in a dormitory. Mobile phones were still a luxury for students. Only a few students had mobile phones. Everyone in the dormitory lined up to make calls.

I stood in the public telephone hall and tried again and again. I did not know how many times I called, and I forgot how long I stood there. The call was not connected until the surroundings were completely dark.

"Where are you, I want to see you, I'll wait for you in the gazebo."

My voice trembled and I spoke quickly, and I hung up the phone as soon as I finished speaking.

Standing in front of the phone booth, I finally understood that love really needs courage.Who would have thought that when he truly loves someone, he would not dare to call, speak, or meet in person. Thinking of how many love tragedies, he fell on the threshold of courage, which makes people sigh.

I think of those love tricks taught by Jiang Tao in the dormitory, and now they all seem pale and weak. If those tricks can really catch up with girls, is it still true love?

I quickly rushed to the gazebo. The hormones of youth, accompanied by the help of alcohol, had reached the highest level, and it was hard to restrain. I decided to confess my love tonight, and I couldn't hold on any longer.

I was apprehensive, wondering if she would come. "Will she come? Could it be that I am self-indulgent? What if she doesn't come? What if she rejects me when she comes?" I was thinking about all this and fell into endless anxiety.

"I've been waiting for so long, why hasn't she come yet? Is she not coming?"

I stared at the Centennial Memorial Monument next to the pavilion, and began to read the words to ease my nervousness.The first half of the inscription is gorgeous and eloquent, quite like the literary talent of "Preface to the Pavilion of King Teng", but the names of the donors are on the back, which seems tacky.

She came in a hurry, and I saw that familiar figure walking towards me from a long distance, as if her footsteps were also very urgent.

She was getting closer and I was getting more and more flustered.At this moment, not to mention the courage to confess, I can't wait to dig a hole myself.

Jing Shu approached, and asked with concern: "What's the matter, it's so late at night, you scared me, what happened? You didn't finish the sentence, so anxious?"

"Do you care about me that much?"

"I care about every friend. Have you been drinking? Your face is flushed." As soon as Jing Shu came over and saw my appearance, she knew that I had been drinking.

"I drank it for you." I blurted out the wine, which is emboldening.

There was silence all around, and time stopped for a few seconds, as if the world had come to an end. "Let's go, accompany me to the playground for a run." After Jing Shu finished speaking, she ran in front, and I followed closely.

We ran many laps on the playground, she was in front for a while, and I was chasing her behind, and then I was in the front again, and she was chasing me behind.Finally, both of them were tired from running and started to walk forward slowly.

The distant night sky is deep and boundless, and the starless night makes the night even more lonely.There are still several rooms in the teaching building in the distance that are lit, which is the only bright color in the night.The air was frozen, and I was so nervous that my heart seemed to stop suddenly, and suddenly it started beating again.

What's the next step?I have no idea.

I tried to hold Jing Shu's hand, and when I held it, I was pulled away by Jing Shu, who held it again, and was pulled away again.

Suddenly, Jing Shu stopped and said, "I, I don't want to lie to you, I have a boyfriend."

Jingshu's words hit the head with a blow, and she came to me, and there was no time to dodge.All my beautiful fantasies instantly vanished, and my body and consciousness seemed to slide into the abyss of the earth.

I have thought about countless answers, such as we are too young, the time we have known each other is too short, or the emphasis is on studies, but I have never thought about this one, which is equivalent to being sentenced to death.

My heart was trembling, my steps had stopped, my breathing stopped immediately, my thoughts were disorganized, my head was heavy, and I was about to fall to the ground at any time.

How can this happen, how can this happen?

I weave love dreams, thinking that dreams are always beautiful, but I forget that the branches of love are full of sharp thorns, which will hurt when touched.

I suppressed my sadness, turned and left.I felt unbearable pain, chest tightness, brain numbness, staggering steps, and breathlessness.I haven't been in a relationship yet. For so many years, I have been cautious, accumulating the energy of love, and hope that one day it will become a reality.Until I met Jing Shu, I knew that love was coming. The energy I had accumulated was undergoing nuclear fusion in my body every day, and it was finally about to explode.I have been fantasizing about the new universe after the explosion, but I forgot that there may be hell after the explosion.

I walked in front, Jing Shu followed, and walked back to the dormitory area one after the other.Without looking back, I went straight to my dormitory.