residual injury

The author has something to say: The information about "HIV" in the article is all based on the author's half-knowledge.There are probably two more chapters to finish, and there should be a side story about Lee Chengze and He Ruoyuan later

Su Shiqing returned home, called a psychologist, and asked him about the symptoms of "AIDS phobia".

Experts told him that AIDS phobia is also called Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome Phobia, commonly known as "AIDS Phobia". Regardless of whether the person is HIV-infected or not, they all have a strong fear of HIV and AIDS, often accompanied by anxiety , depression, obsessive-compulsive, hypochondria, and other negative psychological and behavioral abnormalities.

Su Shiqing asked again: "But he didn't show these things in front of me, even..."

He even voluntarily asked not to wear a condom. Su Shiqing didn't say this, and changed it to "even not very resistant to sex."

"Then maybe you gave him a special sense of security, and he has complete trust in you."

"There are many types of AIDS fear, such as despair, fear, anxiety, etc. There have been cases where a patient ended his life because of too much anxiety."

Su Shiqing's heart sank, "Is there any way to treat it?"

"The intervention center will help them reduce their fear, but as far as I know, there are no cases where the fear has been completely eliminated, it can only be alleviated."

"Ok, thank you."

Su Shiqing sat alone for a long time. In the past, when they were together, he blindly treated Jian Feng in the way he thought was good, but never really integrated into Jian Feng's life. Looking back at that relationship, both of them were not perfect. Communication, coupled with emotional immaturity, ends up going to extremes.

Jian Feng woke up the next day, looked at the photo in his arms, couldn't help but his eyes were red, he was never a sentimental person, he said what he wanted, he fought for what he wanted, self-willed, straightforward, everyone after returning home It is said that he has changed and matured, but no one knows how he survived the road to maturity.

When I first arrived abroad, I couldn’t understand the language, I had to train hard, I had no friends, parents, and no lover by my side, no one tolerated him, no one comforted me when I was hurt, I had to swallow my grievances, and when I missed Su Shiqing, I could only repeat it over and over again. Looking through the previous chat records and looking at Su Shiqing's photos, I once went to participate in a local competition. After returning to the camp, I found that my mobile phone was lost. In the middle of the night, Jian Feng ignored the persuasion of his teammates and rode for two hours to a remote competition venue to find his mobile phone.

Along the way, fluorescent signs reminded that there were wolves in front of him. Jian Feng ignored the signs and only wanted to find his phone. There were Su Shiqing's text messages, chat records, and photos in it, which were his spiritual support.

Jian Feng was lucky and found his phone, but was severely punished by the team.

Thinking of being close to him now, Jian Feng felt very lucky and happy.

Time passed quickly, and as the Spring Festival approached, Su Shiqing started a new round of continuous rotation. Jian Feng was heartbroken, and he was busy delivering meals to him several times in the middle of the night.

Year 24, small year.Just as Jian Feng came home from the store, he found that it was snowing halfway. The merchant selling roasted chestnuts on the roadside was about to close the shop. Jian Feng shouted: "Boss, is there any more?"

"Yes, how much do you want?"

"As much as there is left, take it all."

After passing the cake shop in front, I went in and bought a few more cakes.

When Jian Feng arrived at the hospital carrying seven or eight catties of chestnuts, Su Shiqing had just finished working for a while.

When Li Chengze saw Jian Feng, he rushed up to hug him as if he was a relative, and almost cried, "Jian Feng, you are here, I am almost exhausted, hungry, thirsty, and cold."

Su Shiqing lifted Li Chengze away, "Stand still, what are you talking about?"

Jian Feng raised the food in his hand, "I brought you something to eat, let's have a few bites when you have time."

"Didn't I tell you? You don't need to bring things over." Su Shiqing said.

"I'm on the way, anyway, I'm going home alone."

Li Chengze gulped chestnuts and said intentionally: "I have a friend who I can introduce to you. He also likes to play motorcycles. He is also single. He also finds it boring to be alone. You two must have something in common..."

Su Shiqing glanced at him: "Li Chengze, have you finished all your work?"

Li Chengze grabbed another handful of chestnuts and picked up a piece of cake, "No, I'll go over there to eat, if you have any, save some for me."

Su Shiqing took Jian Feng to the office, "Is it cold?"

Jian Feng rubbed his hands, his hands turned red from the cold, and he said, "It's not cold, it's snowing outside."

Su Shiqing walked to the window, watched the snowflakes fall, and suddenly remembered some regrets. He was in the hospital during the snowy days during the year he was with Jian Feng, and they hadn't seen a snowfall together yet.

"Jian Feng, do you want to go out to see the snow?"

Jian Feng was taken aback, "Is it the two of us together?"

"Yes, together."

Jian Feng felt that his hands were no longer cold, and walked out with a smile, "Where should I go?"

"Come with me."

Su Shiqing took Jian Feng to the small platform on the third floor, where a thin layer of snow had already been covered.

"Jian Feng, what do you think of when you look at the snow?"

Jian Feng looked at Su Shiqing, "I will think of you, I will think of you in everything I do, if it rains, I will think about whether you have an umbrella, if it is snowing, I will think about whether you are cold, even when I am sleeping, I will think about whether you have not slept yet .”

Su Shiqing looked back at him, "Many times I don't know what to say to you."

"Then let's not talk about it, I will watch the snow with you."

It's not that Su Shiqing doesn't want to say it, it's that he really doesn't know what to say. It's not that he doesn't feel what Jian Feng has done these days. He knows that Jian Feng has matured and changed, but he hasn't prepared to accept Jian Feng again. Preparation is his own problem.

The two just watched quietly, watching the snowflakes swirl down one by one, some fell on the branches downstairs, and some fell on the ground.

Jian Feng carefully took Su Shiqing's hand and put it in his pocket. Su Shiqing didn't refuse, letting Jian Feng warm his hand.

Jian Feng had a good sleep that night, in his dream he was holding Su Shiqing's hand all the time, as if they had never been separated.

In the next few days, Jian Feng was busy with work. It was the end of the year, and all kinds of inventory and liquidation had to be completed before the holiday. Su Shiqing was also busy, and the two had no contact for several days.

On New Year's Eve, Jian Feng was free, sent a message to Su Shiqing, but he didn't reply, the phone was not answered, he sent a message to Li Chengze, but he didn't reply, and went to the hospital to look for them. The nurses were silent, and no one told Jian Feng what happened thing.

Jian Feng thought of Yu Xinyuan, so he called him and asked him about Su Shiqing's situation.

There was a voice of conversation from Yu Xinyuan's side. It was Zhang Li who asked in a low voice if it was Jian Feng. Yu Xinyuan said yes, and Zhang Li answered the phone, "Jian Feng, I'm Zhang Li."

"Sister Li, what happened to Dr. Su? Please tell me."

It is impossible to disappear suddenly and silently, and even Li Chengze did not reply to the message.

Just as Zhang Li wanted to talk, Yu Xinyuan took the phone away. He said, "Let Shi Qing tell you by himself. I'll try to contact the dean first."

Su Shiqing called back half an hour later, with a tired voice, "Jian Feng, you've been too busy these days, what do you want me to do?"

"It's okay, I just want to say happy new year to you."

There was a long time of stunned, so long that Jian Feng dared not breathe.

Su Shiqing replied to him very softly: "Happy New Year, Jian Feng."

"What happened to you, Ah Shi, can you tell me?"

After another silence, Su Shiqing sighed and said, "I have come into contact with the blood of an AIDS patient."

Jian Feng's brain exploded, and Jian Feng didn't dare to listen to every word Su Shiqing said next, but he had to listen. He said that a patient came a few days ago. The patient said he had a stomachache. Rolling on the ground, Su Shiqing and the other doctors on duty immediately stepped forward to check. Right at the gate, before they had time to put on gloves, they didn't even consider going to check. Suddenly, the patient took out a knife and cut his palm. , Taking advantage of the fact that the hospitals didn't react, they took the knife and scratched the doctors.

Su Shiqing didn't think too much about it. He tried to grab his knife with his bare hands, and accidentally scratched his little finger. He was scratched together, and Li Chengze, who helped grab the knife, wasn't even sure if the other party's blood was on the wound. too confusing

Jian Feng's teeth were fighting, "Now, what's the situation, what's the situation?"

"The patient was diagnosed as HIV-positive. We have already taken PEP blocking drugs, and we can go home tomorrow. The preliminary test result is negative, and we can go home tomorrow. Don't worry."

Jian Feng didn't dare to ask again, his hand was scratched, and the wound was stained with HIV patient's blood, what is the probability of contracting HIV in this situation, Jian Feng didn't dare to ask for proof, he just felt chills all over his body.

Hanging up the phone made Su Shiqing feel uncomfortable, and Li Chengze sat aside for three days without saying a word, just sat aside with red eyes.

Su Shiqing stepped forward and patted him on the shoulder, "If you take it within 72 hours of exposure to the virus, the prevention rate will reach 95%. The effect of the blocking medicine is very significant, and the probability of failure is only about 5/1000. You are so young, God will take care of you , Li Chengze, you have to work hard."

"Director, this is the first time you have comforted me after I have worked for so long."

"Really? That's because you are excellent and powerful, and you don't need my comfort."

Li Chengze sniffed, "Then why are you comforting me now? I am also very strong now, but I feel a little uncomfortable."

Su Shiqing sighed, and said softly, "Because I'm afraid too, I'm also afraid of getting sick and dying, and I'm just a mortal."

"Director, if you only have the last four weeks of healthy life, what do you want to do?"

There are still many things to do. I didn’t see the sunrise on the mountain last time. I want to watch it again. I want to watch it with Jian Feng. Jian Feng said that he wants to eat his braised fish. Let’s do it when we go home tomorrow. So that he can come and get it, and I have to go home to see my parents. I didn't have a good time with my mother in the hospital last time. I found time to go home and coax her.

"I don't know, I just want to go home and sleep well."

Jian Feng didn't sleep all night, tried to control his fear and searched on the Internet about "contaminated HIV patient's blood", those three letters swallowed Jian Feng like a virus, and every time he saw it, he felt nauseated, fearful, afraid, and physically disgusted.

I endured the investigation, and the more I checked, the colder I became. Most of the answers on the Internet said that the chance of infection is high.