Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

Xu Kaici's hands that had been warmed slowly became cold again, and his fingers that had been pushed away were curled up again, and they were only lightly draped on the quilt.

Cheng Hang felt that Xu Kaici must have really fallen asleep.He babbled so much, Xu Kaici didn't even open his eyes to look at him, just closed his eyes and continued to fall asleep.

His lung function has not been very good, and he will open his mouth slightly when he sleeps.As a result, the lips are even more dry, and the lower lip has two slits.There was a small circle of water stains on the pillow around his mouth, and there was a trace of silver hanging from the corner of his downturned lips.After taking out the tissue, Cheng Hang wiped it off for him gently, and put another tissue on his cheek.

No, Xu Kaici's lips are really too dry, I need to feed him some water.

Cheng Hang stood up and opened the blind, only to find that Xu Chunye and Mei Jing were gone, only him and Xu Kaici were left in the empty ward.

I don't know when I went out or how long I've been out.When Cheng Hang recalled that he had said so much love to Xu Kaici just now, Xu Chunye could hold his nose and bear it, it was hard for him.

He took some warm water, soaked the cotton swab, and applied it to Xu Kaici's lips bit by bit.He has learned these things before, and it can be said that he may not be able to understand Meng Xinci, but he always feels aggrieved when he is studying, so that he simply asks others to do it later, and he pretends to be indifferent with peace of mind.

It doesn't matter if she is really asleep or pretending to be asleep, but it is true that Xu Kaici's mouth is dry and his throat is hoarse. Xu Kaici's lips just touched the warm water, so he subconsciously stretched out his tongue to lick the wet lips bit by bit.

"Slow down, don't worry, I'll replace you with a straw when you get used to it." Cheng Hang spoke softly, for fear of waking Xu Kaici up.

I don’t know how long Xu Kaici hadn’t drank water. He was afraid that feeding him water would irritate his stomach even more, so he didn’t dare to pass the straw to his mouth. Can lick the little bit of moisture on the lips.

Suddenly Xu Kaici opened his eyes, not all of a sudden, his eyelashes trembled several times before he opened them completely.But when he saw that it was Cheng Hangyi who was feeding him water, he turned his head abruptly, seeing that no one else in the ward became nervous all of a sudden.

He suddenly felt that his limbs were numb, as if he had been electrified, and even his throat was convulsed, and he couldn't speak clearly. He just felt like he had been cast with a holding spell, and he couldn't move at all.

But he heard the bed banging again, it was the sound of his hands and feet hitting the bed.It's a spasm, and the degree is not too light. The right leg is already aching, and I don't know if other places will follow suit after a while.

Dimly, he saw that someone was pressing his body with his hands and was still massaging him.

Cheng Hang kept pressing Xu Kaici, watching him stare wide-eyed and tilt his head back, his facial features wrinkled because of the pain.

"Relax, it's okay, they just went out for a while, and they will be back soon. Xu Kaici... Relax, it's really okay, they will be back in a while..."

"Who let you in? Who let you come back?...Mom! Mom!" Xu Kaici was a little better, and became more emotional after speaking, and his body was twisting all the time.

He didn't let Cheng Hangyi approach him, and kept his movable left hand against Cheng Hangyi, but because his strength was too weak, it was basically useless.But he was so excited that Cheng Hang was afraid that he would convulse again, so he didn't dare to approach him, so he could only pick up his arm that fell out of the window.

He stood by the bed, not daring to touch Xu Kaici too hard, and at the same time he didn't dare to leave, for fear that something would happen to him.

But Xu Kaici was still very excited, even his right leg was bent, and it seemed that he was about to convulse again.

He could only surrender and was defeated, "Okay, I'll go, but you have to calm down, take a deep breath first, and I'll leave when you calm down and everything will be fine."

Xu Kaici listened to these words, turned his head slightly to Cheng Hangyi, and breathed heavily following Cheng Hangyi's rhythm until he slowly regained his composure.

In his panic, Xu Kaici could still look into Cheng Hangyi's eyes and keep breathing at the same frequency as him.But it was just right, he turned his head away from looking at Cheng Hangyi again.

Cheng Hang was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to do. He just said that he would leave when Xu Kaici calmed down, but now he felt that he was really unwilling to leave just like that.

After thinking about it, I still need to help Xu Kaici change and wash it again, at least I can't just let him go.

Cheng Hang moved closer and whispered in Xu Kaici's ear: "Can I change your diaper before leaving? You just confirmed..."

Hearing such a request, Xu Kaici felt very irritable, but there was nothing he could do.He has no way to take care of himself, even if Cheng Hang is gone, he has to be replaced by someone else, which still makes him feel very uncomfortable.

He closed his eyes, nodded, and let Cheng Hang play with it.

"Leave as soon as you finish, I'm really tired."

Sure enough, he was incontinent. He is so thin now, and there is still some gap between the diaper and his legs. This will leak a little bit, and a circle of stains will be printed on the pants and the changing pad.

Cheng Hang secretly rejoiced in his heart that it was fortunate that he didn't know, otherwise he would be angry again, as he hated himself for being like this before.He helped Xu Kaici change into clean pants, rubbed his bent right leg until it was relaxed, and used a small soft pillow to help cushion his deformed foot.

When everything was done, he straightened up and looked at Xu Kaici, and while Xu Kaici was not paying attention, he took his hand and held it in his hand.

"I'll go back first. My uncle and aunt are probably outside, so I'll call them in."

Xu Kaici didn't move much, and he didn't even want to give Cheng Hang a look.

Cheng Hangyi continued to ask him: "When I first came in, you were pretending to be asleep, right? You like this at home. You are obviously not asleep, but you just don't want to talk. Since you are not asleep, then I Did you hear what was said?"

The dead branch in his palm moved, but he still didn't respond to Cheng Hang.

"It's okay, I know you heard it, then you should know that I won't leave so easily this time. You are in a bad mood and haven't eaten. I'll go home and get you something to eat. I'll leave later. Come again."

Cheng Hang smiled, wrinkled his nose and said half-jokingly: "Do you think I'm so thick-skinned? Then you can treat me as thick-skinned."

Xu Kaici turned his head and gave Cheng Hang a hard look.

Looking at each other, he heard Cheng Hang muttering: "It's better to have a thick skin than to be a widow, isn't it? I'm only 27 Xu Kaici, so you expect me to be a widow so much?"

Xu Kaici looked at Cheng Hangyi coldly, he blinked tiredly a few times, unable to see any emotion from his pale face.

After a long time, he tilted his head and asked Cheng Hangyi: "Can I let go? Can I go?"

Cheng Hang nodded, and obediently put Xu Kaici's hand back on the bed.

He took Xu Kaici's mobile phone on the bedside table and entered the password naturally.He guessed right, the password was a string of numbers added up from the day they were together and Cheng Hangyi's birthday.Just like his own, his is the day they were together plus Xu Kaici's birthday. All these years, all the passwords of the two are this string of numbers, which has never changed.

Cheng Hang glanced sideways at Xu Kaici who turned his head away, smiled silently, and made a grimace with his mouth curled up.He used Xu Kaici's mobile phone to make a call to his mobile phone, then immediately cut it off, and quickly saved Xu Kaici's new mobile phone number.

Although Xu Kaici doesn't use his mobile phone very much, it's better to have a contact method, and he can't return everything through Meng Xinci.

After leaving the ward, Mei Jing was sitting outside, but Meng Xinci and Xu Chunye were nowhere to be seen.He nodded and greeted Mei Jing, and Mei Jing also nodded politely to him.

"Have you eaten with uncle? I'll accompany you to eat something first, but there is nothing good to eat near this hospital, so you can only order." Cheng Hang and his wife were speechless, but If he still wants to be with Xu Kaici in the future, these two mountains will have to be climbed no matter what.Even though he was speechless, he still had to politely say something nice to Mei Jing.

Mei Jing shook her head. It was rare for this well-maintained Mrs. Xu to look so tired. I don't know if it was a psychological effect, but Cheng Hang seemed to be able to see two balls of blue under her eye sockets.

"I won't go. Your uncle and Xiaomeng have already left for something. You can go to work if you have something to do. Hey... Is Xiaoci asleep? If he sleeps, I will go down with you. It seems that he is better in the hospital Sometimes, I still have to find him a caregiver..." Mei Jing was a little rambling, she didn't have much to say to Cheng Hangyi in the past, and now she is probably helpless, so she even wants to catch Cheng Hangyi, who she usually despises. A lifesaver.

Cheng Hang bit his upper lip and thought for a while, then rejected Mei Jing's idea with a positive tone: "Don't look for it, he doesn't like it, I will come every day from now on."

He couldn't directly explain the reasons for some things, but he was very sure of this conjecture in his heart, especially Xu Kaici's performance after waking up just now made him confirm this idea,

Facing Mei Jing's confused eyes, Cheng Hang held her shoulders with both hands, and firmly said to Mei Jing: "Auntie has some things that are indeed my fault, and I don't have the mood to explain them to you right now. I can only Said that I won't leave until he gets better. When he gets better...I...want to be with him too, I know you and uncle have a lot of thoughts about our affairs, let's discuss these later , don’t you also think my brother can get better? Just let me try, please.”

Mei Jing didn't speak, and fell into a silent struggle. As soon as Cheng Hang knew that this was not something he could answer immediately.He let go of his hand, smiled at Mei Jing, then turned and left.

Or the answer is actually not that important. In the past and now, it seems that Mei Jing and Xu Chunye are not important to him. They have influenced only Xu Kaici from beginning to end.

He could walk away gracefully, but Xu Kaici had to mediate between Cheng Hangyi and his family.

This time, Cheng Hang will be the one to do these things, and he will be the one to pry Xu Chunye's mouth open and give him a calm agreement.

Sure enough, in the evening, the cheeky Cheng Hangyi came again, carrying a thermos that he presumably cooked at home.It's a pity that Mei Jing said that Xu Kaici vomited again not long after Cheng Hang left. He had just fallen asleep, so he probably wouldn't get up to eat.

Cheng Hang reassured Mei Jing in a small voice and said that it was all right, so he asked Xu Kaici to rest, and it would be all right to eat after he woke up.

……

Originally, the two of them had nothing to say, but now they were even more embarrassed and stared at each other. After a while, Mei Jing pushed something to do, and left the ward with her bag.

She didn't agree with Cheng Hangyi coming over every day, but she didn't object to driving Cheng Hangyi away, which was her acquiescence, after all, she couldn't think of a better way.

After she left, Cheng Hang breathed a sigh of relief, with a smile on his face, and smiled gently at Xu Kaici.

The corner of Xu Kaici's mouth was still stained with blood that hadn't been wiped off. I don't know if it was the blood on his chapped lips, or he spit it out. It was especially conspicuous on his gray face, and it burned his eyes very much.

Cheng Hang was afraid that Xu Kaici would be as excited as he was during the day when he woke up, so he didn't even dare to take a wet tissue to help him wipe the corners of his mouth.

I don't know what to do, after much deliberation, or to lift the quilt and plan to turn him over.

Turning over, Cheng Hang must have done it countless times. He thought he would feel familiar with this kind of movement that was almost etched in his bones, but he didn't expect to touch Xu Kaici's back, and he stopped.

It's too thin, as if the movement is too big, Xu Kaici will be broken if one is not careful.

He had to move more gently, his hands were trembling a little, he slowly supported Xu Kaici to make him turn sideways, and then helped his crossed legs.

He supported Xu Kaici's back with one hand, and pulled Xu Kaici's legs with the other to put them away.

If he was at home, Xu Kaici would have had a cushion to support him to lie on his side. I don’t know why there is no trace of this cushion now, not to mention this long cushion, and there is no spacer between his knees.

In this way, Xu Kaici couldn't lie down in this position at all, even if he turned over, it would be in vain.

He was afraid of Xu Kaici, but he felt that there was nothing to be afraid of, and he had waited too long for this opportunity.

He kicked off his shoes, turned over and lay down behind Xu Kaici, holding Xu Kaici as he did a long time ago, and also serving as a cushion behind him.

He also put his legs between Xu Kaici's knees to prevent Xu Kaici from rubbing against the skin of his joints after lying down for a long time.

The person in his arms closed his eyes, and Cheng Hang couldn't see his expression clearly, only felt that this moment was long-lost and familiar.Not only have I waited for two years, but it seems that I have waited for two lifetimes.

Xu Kaici's body is always so cold, and there is still a little soft belly on his stomach. Every time he is held in this posture, Cheng Hangyi can't help but want to rub Xu Kaici's stomach.But not now, he was afraid that he would hurt Xu Kaici, so he dared to touch him lightly.

The hospital bed is not big, and two men who are both over 185cm are lying on it, even if they are lying on their sides and still sticking so close together, they still feel cramped.Cheng Hang didn't dare to move, for fear of falling.

In the past, Xu Kaici always had a good smell of shampoo on his body, but now that his hair has been cut short, he probably changed the shampoo too.

After Cheng Hang sniffed carefully, he couldn't smell that smell at all. Instead, there was only the faint smell of disinfectant from the hospital gown and the smell left over from antibiotics on his body.It didn't smell good, and Cheng Hang's nose twitched several times.

In the silence, he heard the person in his arms sigh heavily, and cursed vaguely: "You are really thick-skinned, you deceived me into being unable to move and just doing whatever you want. I remember that we all broke up, and my life and death have nothing to do with you What about Cheng Hangyi?"

Xu Kaici couldn't see Cheng Hangyi's expression, he couldn't see his sly smile, and he couldn't see his forehead pressed tightly against Xu Kaici's back.

His voice was muffled and small, as if he was speaking ordinary words, but it sounded like he was going to cry again.

"Most of my body can't move, I don't feel it, so I have been anxious and afraid for a long time. I am afraid that strangers will approach, and I am afraid that I will be hurt, right? But you have never said these things to me, but because of my dog ​​temper, or It’s because of other messy reasons. During the time we were together, I often changed nurses. I remember the most time, I changed two in a month. During that time, I was performing in Japan, and I didn’t even return home. They were all nurses. With you, it’s not good to wake up and see strangers, right? But you didn’t tell me, I thought you adapted well.”

Xu Kaici, who was covering Cheng Hang's hand, moved twice, and Cheng Hang stretched out his hand to hold Xu Kaici's hand in his palm, and squeezed it gently twice.

"Don't be nervous, don't be afraid, I don't need you to give me the answers to these things, I already know the answers. I'm just wondering if you lied to me when you said you were fine shortly after I took you to see a psychiatrist at first Mine, just to keep me from worrying and feeling guilty."

Cheng Hang stood up a little bit, resting his chin on Xu Kaici's shoulder.

Due to muscle atrophy in his shoulder, the bones are particularly obvious, and it will hurt people.

Tears rolled down and wet Xu Kaici's hospital gown.

Cheng Hangyi's voice also became choked up, "We have been together for three years, you have never said a word about your anxiety and fear to me, and there may be a lot you haven't said. Maybe you are waiting for me to find out, but I never Didn't take these details to heart, I let you down, right? Wake up and can't see me, it's hard to change a stranger every now and then, right? It won't happen in the future, I will always be by your side in the future, you I'll be the first person I see when I wake up."

The limbs under the quilt trembled slightly, Cheng Hang felt the socks on Xu Kaici's feet slip off, exposing his cold drooping feet.

Rubbing against Cheng Hangyi's feet uncontrollably, the warmth met the cold, Cheng Hangyi shrank back a bit in the cold, and leaned forward firmly again.

Xu Kaici wanted to pull his hand out, but he couldn't. On the contrary, his shoulder kept moving, but Cheng Hang's chin knocked on it, and his teeth accidentally bit his tongue.

He couldn't break free from Cheng Hangyi's embrace, couldn't get away from Cheng Hangyi's palm.

But he still has his own will, and his will cannot be changed by anyone.In the past, he would not be separated from Cheng Hangyi because of Xu Chunye's obstruction, and now he will not see hope again because of Cheng Hangyi's initiative.

He opened his mouth lightly, without any disturbance: "You know that it doesn't matter to me whether you know the answer or not. Cheng Hang, you think that now that you say this, you will feel that I will shed tears of emotion after listening to it, and then change my mind and start over again. Get up? I told you earlier, I can't take it any longer."