Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

Cheng Hang's eyes widened, and he looked at Xu Kaici in disbelief.After a long time, with trembling lips, he asked Xu Kaici who was lying on the hospital bed: "Are you driving me away?"

At this point, why not be honest with yourself?Since you don't like me so much and don't want me, why do you call my name in your dream?

"Yes."

Taking advantage of Cheng Hang's distraction, Xu Kaici bit by bit broke his hand out of Cheng Hang's, but unfortunately he failed, and was caught back by Cheng Hang, holding it even tighter.

Xu Kaici knew how much he weighed, he couldn't break free from Cheng Hangyi, so he simply turned his head away, and Cheng Hangyi held it like this.

There is nothing to say, and there is nothing worth cherishing and retaining at this time.

Probably there is indeed reluctance and longing, but it's not that important anymore, he doesn't want to see Cheng Hangyi at all now.At least he shouldn't come face-to-face with Cheng Hang when his parents are present.

Until now, Xu Kaici is still thinking about Xu Chunye's right to speak, hoping that even if he dies, Xu Chunye can help Cheng Hangyi like before.

The ward fell silent again, and the beeps of the instruments began to occupy every corner of the room.

Everyone was quiet and did not speak, and the expressions on their faces were different. Xu Chunye stood behind Mei Jing and kept pushing Mei Jing with his hands, intending to make his wife say something to "see off the guests" quickly.But Mei Jing acted as if she didn't feel it, she still sat quietly at the side, watching Cheng Hangyi tightly grasping Xu Kaici's hand and not letting go.

Probably deep down in his heart, he still hoped that Xu Kaici would change his mind because of this child.

"Mom, see off the guest, tell him not to come, tell him not to hold my hand." In the end it was Xu Kaici who spoke, but he still tilted his head and closed his eyes, not even looking at Cheng Hangyi, even Cheng Hang He didn't even want to call him by his name.

Mei Jing didn't move for a long time, staring blankly at the two children in front of the hospital bed.She had shallow eye sockets, and when she heard Xu Kaici's hoarse voice, she couldn't help crying.The one who also wanted to shed tears was Cheng Hangyi who was biting his lip, even before Mei Jing's tears fell, Cheng Hangyi's tears fell.

He still hasn't realized that Xu Kaici would say such a thing.

"Xu Kaici..."

"Let him go! I'm paralyzed on the bed and can't move, and you can't move either!"

Cheng Hangyi wanted to say something, but Xu Kaici's emotions suddenly became agitated, he yelled loudly, and then coughed violently, which turned into retching in a blink of an eye.

He hadn't eaten anything since last night, and even though he wanted to vomit, he couldn't vomit anything, which made him feel even more uncomfortable. With the violent ups and downs of his chest, his limp limbs also trembled.

Xu Chunye and Mei Jing came over immediately, and Mei Jing calmed down for Xu Kaici, raised her head in a panic and said, "Xiao Cheng, you go first, you see that your brother is even more uncomfortable..."

These words were considered polite, but Xu Chunye was different, he directly and forcefully pulled Cheng Hang away, and then asked Meng Xinci who had been standing far away to pull Cheng Hang away.

When the door was closed, Cheng Hang heard Xu Kaici vomit, and Mei Jing kept repeating: "He's gone...he's gone, it's all right, it's all right, just relax..."

Cheng Hangyi suddenly remembered that two years ago in the hospital, Xu Kaici was sitting in a wheelchair, and his hands were on his body. He didn't say to keep him, but his eyes and movements were all trying to keep him.But that time he left first, he ignored Xu Kaici's persuasion, and left Xu Kaici alone in the cold wind.

He never expected that Xu Kaici would never keep him in the next few meetings, and this time not only did he not keep him, he even said that he didn't want to see him again.

It turns out that the number of times this person meets with another person is not eternal. The saying that one meeting is less than one can only be understood at the last meeting.

Cheng Hangyi felt that he had never been a crybaby. During the winter vacation in junior high school, he fell like a dead dog when he skateboarded, so he didn't shed many tears in the hospital.But in front of Xu Kaici, he just couldn't control his tear ducts, he could shed a few tears no matter what.

I really want to come to the sad place, but I can't help myself.

Meng Xinci put his trouser pocket in one hand and stopped Cheng Hang with the other. He put his hand on Cheng Hang's shoulder and stretched out two slender fingers to wipe Cheng Hang's tears in the name of pinching Cheng Hang's face.

Meng Xinci himself was quite shocked, how could it suddenly become so serious, Xu Kaici's appearance today really scared him a bit.He turned his head and glanced at the ward to confirm that the people in the ward did not follow, "Okay, don't cry, I'll take you to see his doctor. It's useless to cry at this time, think about it practically, you don't want this side Is it really the last one?"

Cheng Hang looked up at his good friend, and rubbed his face vigorously to wipe away the tears on his face.

"Walk."

Meng Xinci didn't go in. He felt that he, an outsider, didn't have the right to know these things. He just sent Cheng Hang to the door of the attending doctor's office and stood quietly waiting outside.

Cheng Hangyi stayed inside for a long time, the office was not so soundproof, he couldn't hear many words very clearly, but he got a rough idea.

I didn't expect Cheng Hang to look like this when he came out, it didn't look like he had heard about Xu Kaici's condition, it was more like he was struck by lightning.

Cheng Hang dragged his heavy steps, opened the office door and walked out with distracted eyes, then sat down on the chair along the corner.

"What's wrong? Is it serious?" Meng Xinci bent down and patted him a few times, and began to worry.

Cheng Hangyi just lowered his head and bowed his waist, without saying a word, completely immersed in his own world.

Everything in the past was circling in his mind, the time of tenderness, the time of quarreling, and the things that he realized later, and those that were just accused.

Cheng Hangyi has never been so confused as he is now, and he has never been so clear-headed as he is now.

……

"Fortunately, it's only the first stage. The current medical conditions are very good. As long as surgery and other treatments are performed, the patient's chances of survival in the future are very high, and the quality of life can be compensated gradually. The problem lies in his The family said that he has already chosen to give up..." The doctor is a middle-aged man in his fifties, wearing a pair of rimless glasses, he reluctantly flipped through the medical records and said to Cheng Hangyi, with a regretful tone, What a pity for such a young man.

Cheng Hang seemed to have been beaten with a sap, and he didn't even know where to put his hands.

"No...Doctor, are you really sure there is no inspection error?"

The doctor in charge was a little angry, how could such a thing be checked wrongly, and his complexion was a little bad all of a sudden.

Cheng Hang felt as if his throat was being pinched fiercely, and even the tone of his voice changed. It was unimaginable. This is the voice that a singer who has just signed a contract should have: "I don't doubt your professional ability. , It’s just that I didn’t... you may not know, I lived with Xu Kaici for three years, and he didn’t have any stomach problems at all. He...has always been healthy. I have been separated from him for more than a year. How could he be so seriously ill in two years?"

He was talking nonsense, without any logic, just trying to explain Xu Kaici's state when he and Xu Kaici were still together as much as possible.

He desperately wanted to know why it happened like this.

These words made the doctor even more surprised. According to the course of Xu Kaici's illness, it is absolutely impossible for it to happen within a year or two.

When thinking about the problem, he habitually tapped on the table with a gel pen.

Tuk tuk tuk... like the bells before the trial.

"That can only mean that you don't care about patients." The doctor pondered for a moment, then spoke slowly.

With a bang, Cheng Hangyi received the second blow on his head.

"According to the medical records I retrieved from other hospitals, the patient already had a relatively serious gastric ulcer more than two years ago, but I don't know why he has not been treated. Although the possibility of gastric ulcer cancer is not high , but it is not absent clinically, and it still accounts for a certain proportion. Then it is probably the reason for this connection."

His voice was very calm, that's how people who are used to watching life and death talk like that, it can't be said to be indifferent, but it made Cheng Hangyi feel uncomfortable, as if he was just talking about such an ordinary thing as the bad weather today.

Thoughts raced back to the time when they were still together.

Cheng Hangyi couldn't remember what was wrong, Xu Kaici was obviously healthy during that time, there was nothing unusual at all.

strange...

Does eating less count?But he has been eating less.

The reason for taking medicine?It is normal for him to hurt his stomach after taking so many medicines every day.But with the same medicine and less food, I have never heard of other paralyzed patients as severe as Xu Kaici.

Cheng Hang couldn't figure it out, and tremblingly told the doctor what he was thinking.

Unexpectedly, the doctor laughed after hearing it, as if mocking Cheng Hang for his ignorance.At the same time, he blamed: "You said these words, which is enough to prove that you really didn't care about the patient. His paralyzed position is so high, he can't feel the pain, and it's hard to notice where he is uncomfortable. You clearly Knowing that he often takes medicine, it should be clear that it must hurt his stomach, not to mention that the medicine he took was originally a kind of medicine that caused gastric ulcer. As a partner who eats and lives with him, you didn't notice this. "

"In addition, another very important cause of gastric ulcer is actually anxiety. His physical condition is fundamentally different from that of ordinary people. It is normal to have psychological problems, and his family members should pay more attention to such situations as lack of security and negative emotions. But according to his current situation, anxiety and depression are certain. Don't you know these things?"

These words were like nails one by one, directly inserted into Cheng Hang's heart.

Every sentence is not telling him about Xu Kaici's condition, but accusing him of how badly Cheng Hangyi has done.

Too bad, why has he never found out about these things, what has he been doing these three years?

Cheng Hang raised his head and wiped the corners of his eyes with his fingers.He looked up at Meng Xinci, and suddenly smiled on his pale face, as if mocking himself.

He asked Meng Xinci: "Do you know how Xu Kaici described me to Ning Wang?"

Meng Xinci shook his head, Cheng Hangyi's expression and complexion made him vaguely uneasy, fearing that even Cheng Hangyi would collapse at such a juncture, that would be really troublesome.

"He described me as a sixty-year-old boyfriend." Cheng Hangyi smiled again, and a little light flickered in the corner of his eyes under the cold light of the hospital.

"But I was still complacent at the time, you know? Meng Xinci, I really felt that he was like this at that time, I was still with him, and I was still by his side. It's good to be able to achieve [-] points, and I passed. "

He stretched out his fingers again, and wiped the corner of his eyes, "But now that I think about it, I don't even know how much emotion points he has added in these [-] points? I'm worth [-] points of a hammer, I did such rubbish , never qualified.”

Meng Xinci is not good at commenting on emotional matters, not to mention that he feels that it is meaningless to pursue whether he is qualified or not. It is better to think about what to do in the future, what Xu Kaici will do.

He also sat down, putting his arm on Cheng Hangyi's shoulder.

If it weren't for the fact that smoking is not allowed in the place where he is staying, he really wants to give a cigarette to Cheng Hang, who is shivering beside him and whose throat keeps rolling up and down, so that he can calm down and think about the future.

"What's the point of saying that now? So what are you going to do?"

"I just think it's ironic. My passing depends on the family score, but he achieved full marks. No, not only full marks, he probably even did the additional questions. He is better than I imagined, even better than he imagined." still love me."

Before Meng Xinci could say anything to comfort Cheng Hangyi, Cheng Hangyi stood up abruptly.

Unlike the previous ones, which looked like they had been struck by lightning, his eyes were firm and persistent. On his gray face, these eyes were extraordinarily bright.

"He never wanted me. What he didn't want was himself. I won't listen to him this time. I want to get him back."

The door of the ward was suddenly opened, and under the surprised eyes of Xu Chunye and Mei Jing, Cheng Hang walked in with firm steps.

He walked up to the two of them, nodded slightly, and called his uncle and aunt as a greeting.

Xu Kaici fell asleep with his head tilted, with a natural expression and slow breathing.Cheng Hang reached into the quilt to feel it, then turned and walked into the bathroom.

Before Mei Jing could react, she only heard the sound of water in the bathroom, and soon Cheng Hang came out with a basin of hot water.He glanced at Mei Jing, who was still in a daze, and didn't care what the couple's expressions were, he just stretched out his hand and pulled up the blind.

Lifting the quilt, Xu Kaici didn't put on his pants, but only wore a pair of diapers, presumably for convenience.Cheng Hang frowned and clicked his tongue lightly.

——Xu Kaici didn't like this. He used to be at home, even when he occasionally caught a cold and had a stomachache, he would ask the nurse to help him dress it up, which was a little more troublesome at best.

Cheng Hang gently supported Xu Kaici's body, changed out of the diapers, and scrubbed him carefully with a warm towel bar.

There was a little pink blood on the towel, it was unimaginable how much pain Xu Kaici would feel if he knew it.

I really lost a lot of weight, and my buttocks, which were originally shriveled, are now more and more palpable.There was still some meat on the thigh, so why is there only a little bit of soft meat left on it.Looking at it like this, the knees are even higher, these legs don't look like Xu Kaici's legs anymore.

He went back to the bathroom to change a basin of water, this time to wipe Xu Kaici's cold limbs with hot water, trying to warm them up a bit.

Cheng Hang wiped it seriously, and at the same time gave him a massage.When he just lifted the quilt, he saw Xu Kaici's two legs staggered together, and when they were separated, he could see that Xu Kaici's inner ankle was a little red. It must have been such a posture for a long time.

Xu Kaici still had his eyes closed and didn't react at all. Ren Chenghang turned him over and helped him put on clean pants.It seemed that he was not the one being massaged and cleaned, and all of this had nothing to do with him.

Only the weak and long breathing and the slightly trembling hands and feet from time to time proved that he was still alive, he was just asleep.

Cheng Hang didn't care about him, he just lowered his head and seriously did what he was doing.

The warm water slowly turns to cold water, and the warm towel slowly turns cold.He finally stopped and sat on the edge of the bed. He took Xu Kaici's hand, which had just been warmed by him and was now warm.

He slowly separated Xu Kaici's fingers and intertwined them with his own.

He stretched out his other hand and caressed Xu Kaici's cracked lips with nostalgia.

Is it painful?So painful that it’s hard to drink water?

"Xu Kaici, you may not know that if you lie to yourself too much, you will gradually believe it. You say you don't love me and don't want me to see me, and you will really believe me when you say it a few times. But you obviously love me very much." , let me tell you the truth, you love me more than you imagined."

Xu Kaici's lips moved under his finger, but it was only a small one, but Cheng Hangyi still noticed it.

He moved a little softer, but he continued to speak, without any scruples about Xu Chunye and his wife who were still behind the curtain.

"I know you are tired now, don't want to talk, don't want to open your eyes to look at me, it's okay you continue to rest. I just want to say, this time I won't go again. I will wait for you to wake up, and then tell you what I am I knew from time to time that you loved me so much. I will tell you these words slowly when you are ready. "

The children of directors and actresses are naturally better at acting and pretending than others.But Xu Kai's kindness can't deceive people, those loves that I realize lately, when you wake up, when you recover, I will tell you where you show your flaws.