Instinctive reaction

Lin Leyang felt that he had fallen into a dream for a long time, and it was still bright when he opened his eyes.

Li Chuan was leaning on the bed and talking on the phone with someone, and when he saw him wake up, he immediately said: "He's awake, let's not talk about it." After he finished speaking, he hung up the phone, and stretched out his hand to brush Lin Leyang's sweat-soaked hair aside, " Don't you want to sleep for a while?"

Lin Leyang stared at him in a daze, but he didn't realize where he was. He got up slowly by instinct, feeling dizzy and weak in limbs, but he didn't sleep for as long as he thought.

He scanned the entire room, and finally his eyes fell back on the boy.

"Am I never going back?"

Li Chuan failed to answer.

Lin Leyang actually understood very well.

There is no time travel at all, and when I open my eyes, I will arrive ten years later.

He could never go back in time to prevent the death of his parents.

As he grows along the way, he is constantly and constantly losing something...

Ji Wanke accompanied him through the most difficult time, until Ji Wanke also left him permanently.

He used to have so many things, and finally lost them one by one.

By the way... Ji Wanke!

Lin Leyang raised his head to look at Li Chuan again, this time he could no longer convince himself, he could no longer numb himself.

They are so alike.

The current Li Chuan, the 19-year-old Li Chuan is so much like the mature Ji Wanke.

Lin Leyang's memory gradually recovered, and his dry and painful eyes filled with tears again.

A person he once liked so much, he forgot about him, and fell in love with another boy who was very similar to him.

Such recognition made Lin Leyang feel a dull pain in his chest.

He is a terrible person.

Li Chuan thought he was crying because he was thinking of his parents again, and just about to get closer to comfort him, Lin Leyang came back to his senses and pushed him away.

"Don't come here." His voice trembled, and tears fell from his eyes when he blinked lightly.

"Brother?" Li Chuan asked softly, his expression was full of worry, and he tried to get closer again.

He didn't want to irritate Lin Leyang, for fear that he would have some stress reaction.

Lin Leyang shook his head vigorously, resisting: "I remembered."

Li Chuan paused for a moment, "I know."

He knew it all, so uneasy, so anxious, so scared.

He wanted to do everything but couldn't do anything, he couldn't bear the pain instead of Lin Leyang.

At this moment his lover was crying, but he couldn't hold him in his arms.

Lin Leyang said: "I once had a lover."

Li Chuan said, "I know."

"We are very much in love."

"...I know." The boy continued after a pause.

Just this pause made Lin Leyang's heart burn.

How could he, how could he hurt the boy in front of him.

He is only 19 years old, his likes are also likes, his love is also the most sincere love, and he takes this relationship so seriously.

Who do I think he likes?Lin Leyang couldn't tell, he couldn't tell.

"Later he died." He said, seeing Li Chuan's pupils shrunk, he quickly clenched his hands into fists.

"If he didn't die, we would be together forever." Lin Leyang didn't have time to think about this, he felt that breathing was painful, and the oxygen in his lungs was exhausted, "Can you understand me?"

"I'm a very bad person." Lin Leyang said.

It has been since Ji Wanke left, and it is still the case now.

He couldn't tell whether he fell in love with the boy himself or the shadow of Ji Wanke left on the boy.

Although he didn't think of anything at that time.

But forgetting is also a sin.

"You're not, you can't say that about yourself." Li Chuan stretched out his hand to gently hold his face, "How could it be wrong to love someone wholeheartedly?"

At some point, he had approached quietly, with deep pain in his eyes.Lin Leyang thought I brought it to him, isn't that too bad?He was very distressed and wanted to say that you don't want to be in pain anymore. I am really a bad person and I don't deserve your liking.

He will feel distressed, does it mean that he likes Li Chuan?

But he can't love Li Chuan while loving Ji Wanke.

"My heart cannot be divided into two halves." Lin Leyang said a little helplessly.

Li Chuan said, "There's no need to divide it into two halves, just give it to me."

The weather was extremely hot and dazzling, and in this burning light, the two of them only had each other in their eyes.

"From the beginning to the end, Li Chuan and Ji Wanke are alone." The young man held his face, getting closer and closer, and he was about to kiss him, "I love you, thank you for falling in love with me again."

##

2026 5 Month 19 Day.

Ji Wanke woke up in severe pain, his whole body screamed and groaned in pain, his bones seemed to be broken, and his throat seemed to be torn dryly.

His eyelids were illuminated by strong light, he had to move his eyes, and suddenly heard a soft exclamation.

"God is still alive..."

Where is this place?

He clearly remembered that he had just returned from a business trip, when it suddenly started raining on the way, the windshield wipers scraped against the night sky on the glass of the car, a truck suddenly lost control and drove toward him at an angle... wait, that car hit him !

I was in a car accident? !

Ji Wanke was still guessing, but his body was in too much pain, and the buzzing in his head made him unable to think.

After closing his eyes, he fell into darkness again.

"Who are you?" A hoarse voice rang in his ear.

In the darkness, he saw a boy standing with his back bent.

"Are you me?" the man suddenly asked.

Perhaps it was Ji Wanke who put on a puzzled expression, and the young man's lifeless eyes fell on his face, "You and I have exactly the same appearance."

"Do you want to live?" the boy asked him.

Ji Wanke was speechless.

He couldn't make any sound.

"If I still wake up this time, I'll jump off the top floor of this hospital." The boy's expression remained calm, but he spoke terrifying words.

There was deathly silence all around.

"But before I die, I want to call that woman, and I want her to watch me jump." The boy's back was still bent, and he lowered his head and gently stroked his arm, "She made me like this , it's her fault."

Ji Wanke couldn't understand what he was saying.

He couldn't leave this weird place either.

"Living is a very painful thing, don't you think?" The young man suddenly looked at him, revealing his dark eyes, which were actually full of tears, but his eyes were cloudy, "Why can't I always die?" Woolen cloth?"

Ji Wanke frowned slightly.

"You seem to disapprove." The boy stared straight at him, tears still streaming down his eyes.

His grief and his being seemed separate.

"Then let's make a deal, as long as I think of waking up and dying again, I'm going to throw up." He raised his finger and pointed at Ji Wanke, "Since you want to live so much, you come to replace me." I'm fine, and accordingly I will... I just repay by doing nothing, as long as I die, I won't call Li Limei, and I won't hurt those screaming psychopaths in the ward."

"Very suitable, right?" The young man couldn't wait to say this, and said without waiting for any reply from Ji Wanke, "Then the deal is done."

……

Ji Wanke woke up suddenly.

In a strange ward.

He subconsciously looked at his arms, the dark and thin arms covered with scars,

……Who is he?

There was no one in the ward except him, Ji Wanke pulled out the needle inserted in the back of his hand, and staggered a step when he got out of bed.

This body is too weak.

Who is he?

There was a buzzing in his head, and he saw some dim fragments in a trance.

The little boy in the picture kept asking over and over again: "Why did you divorce your father? Is our family not good?"

The woman shook her head and hugged the boy while crying, "I'm sorry, Chuanchuan, but mom can't take it anymore, can you live with mom from now on? Mom promises to let you have a good life."

The boy desperately wanted to break free from the woman's embrace, but the woman hugged her too tightly, so he could only hit her on the back with his fist, "I don't want it! I just want our family to be together! Mom, go and tell Dad, so that he Then you won’t beat me up, mom, go and talk, go and talk!”

"Oh...Chuan Chuan, don't cry, mom won't be separated from dad, mom stays here."

In the next picture, the boy has grown up, he looks thirteen or fourteen years old, and looks like a thin teenager.

He was cutting his own flesh, using a small knife, slowly staggering the skin off his arms.

The woman's scream almost pierced Ji Wanke's eardrums.

He saw the young man's eyes fixed on the woman. The woman snatched the knife in his hand, and such a sharp instrument also cut the woman's fingers.

The young man saw it in his eyes, obviously his wrist was hurting, but there was a different kind of comfort in his heart.

This is what you deserve.

Because you lied to me.

Keep saying that our family will always be together.

You missed your appointment.

Still want to throw me to Dad.

……

Who is he?

Ji Wanke passed through the dark corridor smoothly, and slowed down at the stairs.Surrounded by all kinds of patients, everyone wearing the same hospital gown, everything is like a nightmare.

"Lin Leyang forgot..."

When Ji Wanke heard this name suddenly, his heart constricted suddenly, and even his breathing became heavy, and he couldn't move to other places at all.

He raised his head and saw two men and a woman standing outside the door of a ward.

Ji Wanke couldn't help holding his breath, and took two steps forward, wanting to get closer, and even closer...

That woman looks very familiar, where has he seen it before?

He doesn't remember.

"Don't tell him anything," said the woman, "or he will die again, I can't, I can't accept..."

"No one can accept it." The man with a calm demeanor said, stepped forward and gently hugged the woman into his arms, and patted her on the shoulder, "Don't tell him anything right now."

"Otherwise, don't say it forever." The woman said suddenly after being silent for a while, with tears in her eyes when she looked up.

"It's nothing bad. Forget the good things and forget the bad things. I'm a very selfish person. I only want him to live."

Ji Wanke's head suddenly hurt when he heard this, and it became difficult to breathe.

"Li Chuan..."

"Li Chuan!"

Someone is calling him.

Ji Wanke turned his head abruptly, saw the little nurse wearing a nurse cap anxiously looking for something, and subconsciously hid himself around the corner, getting closer to those three people.

No one paid attention to him, they all looked solemnly thinking about something.

After a while, and finally got the caliber right, the woman wiped the tears off her face, looked in the mirror, let out a soft breath, and pushed the door open.

"Li Chuan!"

Someone is calling him again.

Ji Wanke knew that he couldn't stay here for too long, and he would be discovered sooner or later, so he took the initiative to go back to the ward.

His current memory is chaotic, and he can't go anywhere.

The little nurse was new here, and seeing him come back, the stone in my heart dropped.

She was really in a hurry, and it stands to reason that she couldn't call the patient's name everywhere like this.

Fortunately, Li Chuan came back by himself.

"Can I ask a question?" Lying on the hospital bed, Ji Wanke said suddenly.

The little nurse frowned, dissatisfied: "What?" She was still angry at Li Chuan's private escape.

"What year is it now?" Ji Wanke said.

The little nurse looked back and forth at him, and said strangely, "2026."

Shouldn't it be 2024?Ji Wanke frowned, subconsciously feeling something was wrong.

But my head was in chaos, and I couldn't think of anything.

He was tied up, his limbs were firmly attached to the head and foot of the bed, but his expression was unusually calm, and he spoke again: "One more question, the last question."

The little nurse who was about to leave turned her head to look at him.

"...Is the patient in 406 okay?"

Even though he didn't know who the other party was, he still asked.

##

Who are you?

Ji Wanke unconsciously walked to the stairs again, facing Ward 406.

Can the people there give him the answer?

"Li Chuan." A nurse said with an uneasy expression, "What are you doing here again? I've been seeing you wandering around these days."

Ji Wanke remembered her.

It was the nurse who took care of him during the last hospitalization.

He hurt her.

is intentional.

Why do you want to do that?

Ji Wanke subconsciously moved out of the way, and the nurse froze for a moment.

He looked down at the bruise on his arm and knew he had done it too, but why he did it...he didn't understand.

Is he really Li Chuan?

He has no deep hatred for Li Limei, and occasionally even thinks that the origin of all this is his father who abused violence.

Why should all the fault be blamed on the woman's head?

Ji Wanke was puzzled too much.

The memory about Li Chuan is gradually recovering, and the more he thinks about it, the more he feels that it is inconsistent.

Then one day, he heard someone discussing 406. They said that the people living there chose to commit suicide because they were hurt by love.

"Young people nowadays, why are they so fragile?"

"Hey, I heard from others that this is not the first time. It seems that I have been to the hospital once at this time last year!"

"That's right, and this time when I woke up, I didn't remember anything. People looked fine, but I forgot a lot of things. I was probably stimulated by something. Tell me, what is this..."

Ji Wanke frowned and pressed his chest subconsciously, as if a dark cloud had accumulated in his chest, which would not dissipate no matter what.

He held on to the wall for a while before continuing to walk, and stopped not far from the door again. He looked at the sign with 406 printed on it, and imagined what kind of person lived inside.

"Lin Leyang."

That's his name.

Ji Wanke only heard it once and remembered it.

until that day.

For the first time, he saw a young man walking out of Room 406, with brown hair reaching his neck, a slightly thin body, and wearing the same blue hospital gown as him.

Ji Wanke was stunned for a moment, and it took a few seconds before he remembered to hide himself in the shadows and observe the other party secretly.

The man turned around in a circle, as if he couldn't find his way, and finally followed the nurse downstairs in aggrieved manner.

The moment the elevator door closed, Ji Wanke didn't even think about running down the stairwell.

—he wants to see him.

In the spring day, under the damp mist, he saw Lin Leyang's smile.

At that moment, Ji Wanke remembered.

He is not Li Chuan at all, he was not born in 2007.

His name is Ji Wanke, born on November 1998, 11.

Both his parents died.

His childhood was boring.

When he met Lin Leyang in college, he only regarded him as one of his roommates at first.

The first time he was attracted to Lin Leyang was during military training.He remembered the boy with the bright smile.

He likes him.

He loves him.

Will continue to love from now on.

Once again, his eyes were captivated by his smile, and his heart beat faster.

The moment Lin Leyang fell, Ji Wanke instantly reached out to support him.

"What makes you so happy?" He asked, and remembered everything at that moment.

I love you.

Ji Wan Ke Ai Lin Le Yang.

When I met you, love was an instinctive reaction.