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I underestimated the amount of work involved in rebates. I haven’t finished this chapter. The next chapter will continue with Xiao Ke’s perspective. I think it’s necessary to show

The real Ji Wanke died.

Died on that rainy night two years ago.

The one who opens his eyes to face the world again is the boy named Li Chuan who carries the soul of Ji Wanke.

At the end of May, at the end of spring, lovers meet again.

Ji Wanke looked at Lin Leyang's thin and thin body in front of him, looking up at his slightly pointed chin, his bloodless lips, and his eyes filled with bewilderment.

During the two years without him, Lin Leyang turned himself into such a bad appearance.

But even so, Ji Wanke recognized him at the first sight.

A ray of bright light emerged from the chaotic memory.

Ji Wanke couldn't move his eyes, his eyes were fixed on Lin Leyang naked.

Every time Lin Leyang glanced at it, he wanted to say countless things.

In the end, they all held back.

He didn't know me, and he looked at me with a strange look in my eyes.

This kind of cognition pierced Ji Wanke's bone marrow like a long needle, and then broke the tendon, bringing unavoidable pain.

But he is no longer a reckless teenager. From the age of ten, time has not taught him anything. In the days that followed, Lin Leyang taught him.

Because Lin Leyang always has a smiling face, is always full of energy, and can say a lot of nice words to coax his bad temper. Until the eve of graduation, Lin Leyang was tolerant and accommodating to him, and never hesitated to express his love.

So in the days that followed, Ji Wanke learned everything. Lin Leyang taught him his gentleness and politeness, and he also learned his proper way of speaking from Lin Leyang.

Ji Wanke restrained her temper, and gradually matured and stabilized.

He grabbed the broken kite, made a spool with his own hands, and wound Lin Leyang around him.

He never thought that one day he would let go of his hand in this way.

Otherwise, even if the silk thread cuts the palm of the hand, even if the blood is dripping, he will hold him firmly.

But now Lin Leyang looked at him with a strange look, as if they had never known each other before, and they would never meet again in the future.

"My name is Li Chuan."

Ji Wanke wanted to make her smile more natural, to show her friendliness, and to look harmless.

When the voice fell and saw Lin Leyang's expression, he knew he had failed.

Li Chuan was not his real name.

He was called Ji Wanke for the first 26 years, and now he was reborn in this 19-year-old boy, and he still inevitably showed disobedience.

The nurse who rushed over after hearing the sound separated the two of them, probably because she was afraid that Li Chuan would do something to hurt the patient again, her expression was very guarded, and her tone was not very good.

Ji Wanke's eyes only focused on chasing that figure, he thought they couldn't break contact here, even Lin Leyang taught him how to love someone.

He is a very good student, and he has learned ten percent, although Lin Leyang, as a teacher, has already forgotten these things.

"You haven't told me your name yet." Ji Wanke seized every opportunity.

"Lin, Le Yang."

Ji Wanke nodded, and stretched out his hand towards Lin Leyang.

Seeing doubts in Lin Leyang's eyes, he hesitated and stretched out his hand.

It just so happened that the hideous scar on his wrist was exposed in the air, and Ji Wanke couldn't look away for a long time.

It wasn't until Lin Leyang withdrew his hand and walked out of this damp corner following the nurse's pace, and until the familiar figure faded away, that Ji Wanke was willing to press his trembling fingertips into his palm.

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The real Li Chuan died on the hospital bed that was rescued on May 2026, 5.

And Ji Wanke was reborn on this day.

Fate sometimes makes some jokes that are not funny. Ji Wanke remembers that rainy night two years ago, the day he died - also on May 5th.

Both even have the same birthday, on November 11th.

But Ji Wanke and Li Chuan are so different, there is no similarity at all.

It is also because of this that the boy wants to die, but Ji Wanke wants to live.

His current body is covered with the scars left by himself in the past, which are morbid pain and struggles, and are puzzled and disgusted with everything in the world.

19 years old is still very young. During the time when his memory was confused, Ji Wanke often stayed up all night, leaning on the bedside to observe his scarred arm.He can't understand the pain, and most of the time he feels that he is not sick, but he will cooperate with the doctor's treatment, and the medicine will be thrown into the trash can.

The result was found.

The doctor said that if he did it again, his freedom of movement would be restricted.

Ji Wanke felt that it didn't matter, anyway, he would just walk around aimlessly when he went out, and finally stopped in front of ward 406 for a while.

Until he met Lin Leyang, he remembered everything, and naturally realized that his lover cut his wrist on May 5th and was admitted to the hospital.

Fate loves to joke.

The day Lin Leyang committed suicide was the beginning of his rebirth.

The two opened their eyes in their respective wards at the same time, one had forgotten all about the past ten years, and the other didn't know who he really was.

The sun went down, and dusk was stuck between the mountains and the sky.

Ji Wanke sat on his hospital bed, with white pills lying safely in his hand, he took a mouthful of water and silently swallowed the pills.

The surrounding area was very quiet. The man in the bed next to him had mental problems and often drooled to observe other people in the ward.

"You took the poison." The man said suddenly.

Ji Wanke had already swallowed the medicine, and the corner of his mouth slightly opened into a smile, but crystal liquid flowed out of his eyes.

That's weird.

He didn't cry when he heard Lin Leyang's name, and he didn't shed tears when he remembered the past, and he didn't even express his sadness when the two met.

It happens now.

Now that no one could understand why he was crying, Ji Wanke swallowed his sobs into his throat, the bitterness of the medicine overflowed the throat, stimulating the nasal cavity, and the violent coughing sound covered up the crying.

——Because he has someone he wants to see.

He said this to the nurse before he remembered it, and a voice in his heart urged him to find that person quickly.

who's that person?He didn't know the answer then.

Now he finally remembered.

He will take medicine well, cooperate with treatment, and cherish the time in and out.

He is going to see him.

Take Lin Leyang's favorite paper and pen to meet each other.

Both of them are too busy after work, Lin Leyang hasn't painted for a long time.

Ji Wanke never said that when Lin Leyang secretly drew him when he was in school, he saw it all, and even deliberately posed an angle for the other party that he thought was good-looking.

Ji Wanke pampered him so much when they were not together.

But you can see that during the past two years when Ji Wanke was not around, Lin Leyang tossed himself into a mess.

How could Ji Wanke not feel distressed, his heart was about to explode from the pain.

But now he is Li Chuan, a stranger in Lin Leyang's eyes.

Lin Leyang forgot about those misfortunes, the death of his parents, the car accident of his lover... During the two years of suffering, he forgot all of them.

He opened his eyes and returned to this world anew.

Ji Wanke thought it was good, and thanked him for coming back.Lin Leyang can not remember anything, it doesn't matter if he doesn't remember him, as long as he is happy at the moment.

Lin Leyang is very cute, and he has not changed his small movements of grabbing something when he is nervous. He will sincerely share some of his experiences and thoughts about time travel.

Ji Wanke didn't believe it, because he was born again.

It would be great if Lin Leyang really came here through time travel.

That way he still has everything, he has parents who love him, he has a happy college life, they will meet in the dormitory, it doesn’t matter if they are not familiar at first, they will stick together sooner or later, and become an inseparable inseparable relationship no matter sooner or later.

But the more he got in touch with Ji Wanke, the more he knew that Lin Leyang just forgot.

They have lived together under the same roof for four years, and Ji Wanke knows Lin Leyang's little habit.He kept his long hair so stubbornly, and stuffed the glasses case next to the pillow, these are not things that Lin Leyang would do.

But that's okay.

If you forgot, let's start over.

This time, let me chase you.

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The first time I heard Zhao Ruixiao make him into a scumbag outside the ward, Ji Wanke found it funny but couldn't laugh.

This is the fastest and most accurate solution at present, effectively blocking the possibility of Lin Leyang remembering the past.

They didn't say anything, Lin Leyang had no way of knowing the truth and couldn't remember anything.

Ji Wanke knew that Lin Leyang was admitted to the hospital more than once, and during his two years of absence, Lin Leyang failed to take good care of himself.No one knows what choice he will make after recovering his memory. No one dares to bet. After all, Lin Leyang's mental state is very poor, and he is sick and fragile visible to the naked eye.

He spoke innocent words, and Ji Wanke followed him to take care of him. When he calmed down, he could find that Lin Leyang's eyes were very calm, neither smiling nor showing any emotion.

When he was silent, he looked like he was only 28 years old.

So when he pushed open the door, he reminded his former friends: "The door is not closed tightly, and it is easy to be heard outside."

He wasn't angry about the lie.

As it should be.

Lin Leyang doesn't need to think of him.

If the memory makes him extremely painful, then forget it.

They have a chance to start again, he cherishes it very much, and he doesn't want Lin Leyang to fall into the memory again.

Then in the ward with only two people, Lin Leyang asked him: "Do you want to die too?"

Ji Wanke knew what the word "also" represented, which further strengthened his idea of ​​concealing it.

"I want to live." Ji Wanke replied, but swallowed the second half of the sentence alone - live with you.

His hands were wrapped around Lin Leyang's head, and he combed his hair skillfully.

He asked someone to help buy that hair rope. There is no special pink-blue color, so it can only be replaced with pink temporarily.

Someday he will buy it for him himself.

Just like before.

On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Ji Wanke decided to solve his image problem and Li Chuan's family affairs before going to Lin Leyang.

But he forgot that when Lin Leyang was hospitalized, he never told him the address of the Lin family. The reason why he was able to find it was because he lived in Lin Leyang's house for a while during the summer vacation of the university.

Everything here has changed.

Lin Leyang was not allowed to leave the hospital until so late. Ji Wanke guessed that Zhao Ruixiao and the others were busy rearranging the house. After all, no one has lived here for a long time, and there is no trace of life. Lin Leyang can easily find out.

The nanny was even a fellow villager, Ji Wanke immediately understood that it was Zhao Ruixiao who arranged it.

Ji Wanke has been away from his hometown for more than ten years, and his Mandarin is more standard than his hometown dialect, but it is naturally much better than Lin Leyang who can't understand anything. There is no problem in simple communication, so he acts as an interpreter.

He called Lin Leyang "brother".

The address that used to be so difficult to open one's mouth now has to be carried with every word.

Lin Leyang loved playing games when he was in college.

Ji Wanke was always dragged into team battles by him, and as time passed, he became proficient in his operations, while Lin Leyang was still a technical idiot.

Ji Wanke lacks interest in the game, every time Lin Leyang has to act like a baby and beg him for a long time before he is willing to play a game or two.

After graduation, Lin Leyang never played games again, but Ji Wanke insisted on playing.

One day, Ji Wanke mentioned this incident intentionally or unintentionally, and asked Lin Leyang why he didn't play games anymore, Lin Leyang raised his head and thought for half a second, "I don't play well, it's a waste of time, we should sleep more if we have this skill. "

Ji Wanke pushed his head, "What kind of sleep do you mean?"

Lin Leyang laughed, and stretched out his arms to hug Ji Wanke, "Any one is fine!"

Are people doomed to lose something in order to grow?

When I was young, it was a teddy bear and a game console. When I grow up, it may be a friend, relative, or partner in communication.

When Ji Wanke finally let go of his arrogance and reservedness, and was willing to play games with Lin Leyang and call him brother, Lin Leyang was no longer needed.

After the age of 24, they are all mature.

Even if there are regrets in the past, they can only become regrets.

So when Ji Wanke was reborn as Li Chuan, he faced Lin Leyang who had lost all his memories of the past ten years.

He first called that "brother", and invited him to play games with himself.

Even if I had regrets in the past, I want to have no regrets now.

This time, I will walk with you for a long, long way, until the temples are gray, the eyes are dim, and the teeth are gone.

If you live to be one hundred and eight, I'll live to be ninety-nine.

I will not die until you die.