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Lu Chao hugged me tightly in his arms, with great strength, which made me feel a little suffocated, but I didn't want to push Lu Chao away at all. My eyes were dazed, and I stared at Lu Chao's face unconsciously, trying hard to I saw his appearance clearly, but all I saw in my eyes was a daze, like a fog.

I muttered in my mouth, "Lu Chao, I really don't want to be separated from you. Really, how did we get to this point? Is it true that we can't go back to the past? Aren't we so in love? Can't you forgive me this time? I really didn't do anything to be sorry for you, I finally...finally, I really..." I held on to Lu Chao's clothes tightly, fearing that as soon as I let go, he would be there will not appear in front of my eyes.

Lu Chao let out a long sigh and hugged me even tighter.Heartache said, "Xiao Hai... I really can't do it... I don't want to... I really can't do it..."

"But, you don't want to leave either, do you?" I raised my head and looked at Lu Chao's face with blurred eyes.

"I'm sorry...Xiaohai...I'm sorry..." Lu Chao just kept saying sorry with red eyes, sadly, I was really a little confused.

"Lu Chao, it's not easy for us to be together. Is it true that you can't forgive me once? Not even once? What's more, I didn't really do anything sorry for you!" I said anxiously, subconsciously in panic Grab Lu Chao's hand.Lu Chao looked at me with tears streaming down his face, but his eyes were red, and he hugged me tightly, without saying a word.

In my heart, I felt some faint resentment toward Lu Chao. I really don't understand why, I didn't really feel sorry for Lu Chao.Why can't he forgive me once? Is it necessary to go on the line like this!I stared fiercely at Lu Chao's eyes, and there was unconcealable resentment and hatred in my eyes!

"Okay! Then you go! What are you still holding me here for? Are you reluctant to part with me! You still want to act pitifully and take advantage of me!" I said vicious words sarcastically, He pushed Lu Chao staggeringly with his hands.Standing up, looking at Lu Chao sitting on the ground in a state of embarrassment, I felt an indescribable joy and a sense of revenge!

Lu Chao looked at me madly, didn't say anything, just looked at me with heartache, and there was an expression of unspeakable pain in his eyes!He stood up slowly, patted the dust on his body, didn't speak, just looked at me like that, quiet, sad, made me look at me tremblingly!

"What are you looking at, don't you want to? You should figure it out, it's not I who don't want you, it's you! It's you who don't want me first! Who are you showing such a painful expression now!" I said viciously. , without the slightest scruple, said things that I didn't understand, that hurt others and hurt myself.

"Xiaohai... In the future, without me, do you know well? Take care!" Lu Chao didn't wait for me to say anything, and took a deep look at me, where I suddenly saw the deep nostalgia in his eyes And reluctance.Subconsciously, I wanted to reach out and grab Lu Chao, but I just couldn't lift my arm, as if it was tied by something.

Lu Chao didn't say anything, turned around and entered the bedroom, then took out a small suitcase, and said lightly, "Let's go! From now on... Take care!"

It turned out that it was already ready!

"It's getting dark! Otherwise, let's go tomorrow!" Before the brain could respond, such a sentence came out of his mouth.

"No! Let's go, someone is waiting!" Lu Chao took one last look at me, and resolutely opened the door and left the room.

"You go! Go, we will never see each other again in this life!" I ruthlessly swept the plates on the table to the ground, and said a harsh word to the tightly closed door.I knew that he could no longer hear it. It turned out that I was always reluctant to say such a sentence. After all, I dared to say such a sentence when he could not hear it.

I am afraid!I'm afraid that as soon as I say this sentence, we will really have no connection again.

Men's feelings are like this, just say a simple word to break up, and then walk out of this house with a suitcase, and there will be no more contact. At this moment, I really hate, why I am not a woman, if I am a woman, Can I beg him to stay by joking, at worst, I can use legal means to ask him to stay, but there is nothing, and now there is nothing!He doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want to have contact with me anymore!

I was trembling all over and fell to the ground weakly. I really regretted why I did such a thing. If I had never done such a thing, Lu Chao would not have left me, would he? I can continue to have Lu Chao's love, will we continue to live happily ever after!

I'm really powerless, I hate Lu Chao's ruthlessness and my actions!

I've been at home decadently for several days. These days, I didn't go out or go to the store. I just held the wine bottle by myself and lived a drunken life at home. I didn't even eat food lazily. I only regret that I didn't grow an extra mouth to drink.

The phone was ringing crazily, and I was in no mood to pay attention to these things at all. Without Lu Chao, my life was a mess, cold and lifeless like hell.Right now it's life like a walking dead for me.

Just when I was complaining, suffering, and drinking unconscious, the phone rang crazily. I didn't have the strength to take care of those things, so I took a big gulp of wine into my mouth.There was a bitter smile on the corner of my mouth, staring at the flashing mobile phone, I don’t know what I was thinking, in the dimness, I seemed to hear the sound of knocking on the door, I stood up unsteadily, thinking hard He wanted to go to open the door, but his numb legs didn't listen at all. He stood up with difficulty, took two steps wobbly, and then fell hard to the ground.

I heard another noisy voice, and I shook my heavy head vigorously, but I couldn't hear anything clearly.Then there was the sound of the door clicking, and someone opened it in a short while. I squinted my eyes, tried hard, and tried to find out who was coming, but it was a dark room and the person was standing against the light Even though I stretched my neck, I still couldn't see anything clearly!

"Oh my god! Xiaohai... how come you drink like this!" The visitor exclaimed, walked over quickly, and hugged me.I narrowed my eyes and carefully discerned.

"Brother Zheng! Why are you here..." I stuck out my tongue and said inarticulately, putting on a smirk, tightly hooking his neck, and giggling.

Zheng Tianyi sighed, gently hugged me in his arms with some pity, freed up a hand, patted my back, and said distressedly, "Xiao Hai, let's have a good sleep, it will be fine." , everything is over, no one can hurt you anymore! I will protect you, never again!" He murmured something I couldn't understand.I smirked, my eyes were sour, and tears flowed down my cheeks, I couldn't stop it.I watched Zheng Tianyi choked up and said, "Brother Zheng! Do you know? I don't have a home anymore, and I won't have one anymore!"

"Stop talking, Xiaohai...you still have me, and your mother who loves you...why don't you have a home! I will always be with you!"

I bit my head hard, bit my lips tightly, and said vaguely, "You don't know, I don't have a home anymore... never again! I ruined my home with my own hands, and I ruined it. It's..." I looked at my hand, and slapped my face hard, hard, like atonement.

Zheng Tianyi put me on the bed and held my hand tightly, preventing me from hurting myself.My tears kept flowing down, the bitter taste broke my heart.

"Go to sleep! Xiao Hai... just sleep and everything will be fine!" He patted my back lightly, as if coaxing a child. Perhaps having someone to accompany me temporarily freed me from the feeling that was deeply rooted in my bones. Perhaps, his warm hands and gently patted hands made me feel like Lu Chao. In short, I fell asleep, deeply and deeply.

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