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Lu Chao's expression is unpredictable. I can't guess his real thoughts. Sometimes he relaxes with relief, and sometimes frowns with heartache. I don't know which expression he will stay in in the end, but I can't do anything at the moment. I can only look at him, struggling with my desire and reason.But no matter what kind of life he chooses in the end, I still want to imprison him by my side. This is my only thought. At this moment, even if he hates me, I will never let him go.

I waited restlessly, as uncomfortable as putting my heart on fire.Just when I thought I would not hear his answer, my hand was grabbed by a rough and powerful hand, which was so strong that my hand hurt.But my heart is full of peace of mind and satisfaction.I quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Haizi, I know that our road ahead will be difficult and full of thorns, but I have made up my mind, I want to walk with you. No matter how difficult it is, as long as it is you, I will always walk with you." Lu Chao firmly Looking at me carefully, there is a force in my eyes that makes me feel at ease and convinced.I firmly held his hand back.Convey to him my joy and emotion.

"But..." My heart tightened suddenly, the breath stuck in my throat, and my eyes were covered with mist. He looked at my embarrassed look and returned me a reassuring smile. "Don't worry, since I decided to be together, I won't back down easily. What I want to say is that I still have some things, which happened in these years, but I don't want to say it now, but... I will definitely I will tell you the truth." He explained anxiously, as if he was afraid that I would be angry.

"I understand...I understand...it's okay if you don't want to say it. If it's really hard to say it, it must not be a happy thing. Don't think about those unhappy things in the future. Now and in the future, I will be by your side Yes, I will definitely make you happy." I gently rubbed his palm to reassure him. "As long as you, me, and we are together, there is nothing we can't overcome." I hugged his shoulders and pressed against his body tightly.The heat transmitted from his body comforted my heart. The depression and pain of these years were released and redeemed at this moment.

Lu Chao closed his eyes, took a light breath, and the expression on his face naturally relaxed, so beautiful that it was shockingly beautiful. I held my breath and observed his face carefully, not letting go of any inch of skin.Maybe it was because my eyes were too eager. Lu Chao opened his eyes, turned his head, and met my eager eyes. "What's wrong?" He frowned slightly and asked in a low voice.

"It's nothing, it's just that you are so beautiful, so beautiful that I can't bear to disturb you. I saw you very relaxed just now. It reminds me of you before. Every time I see you, you have such a comfortable and relaxed expression. But now. Since Since I met you, I have never seen you so relaxed." I said with emotion.

"What's beautiful, I'm old!" He gently rubbed his cheeks, looked at me with a smile and said, "I'm sorry. Haizi, did you feel depressed? I'm sorry, I will try to correct it in the future." He apologized timidly and said I noticed that there was a slight flattering look in the eyes, which hurt my heart. "What are you talking about? If I can't even take care of your emotions, how can I be your lover? Why are you so polite to me, Lu Chao, shouldn't we share weal and woe and share weal and woe?"

"Yes, it's my fault, I won't do it anymore." He quickly apologized, I sighed in distress, hugged him tightly, and gently stroked the top of his head with my chin.He narrowed his eyes contentedly. "Do you want to go home? Can I go back to your house? I'm homeless." I winked at him pitifully.

"Is that okay? Will your mother keep you out all night?"

"I'm not a child anymore, I'm an adult, okay, don't treat me like the child I was back then." I muttered dissatisfiedly, which drew a burst of hearty laughter from Lu Chao.I froze for a moment, and my memory almost traveled back to the green years of that year.I didn't recover until Lu Chao pushed me.I approached him with a smirk, scratched his armpit lightly, and ran away laughing. Lu Chao chased me, screaming strangely, and shouted as he ran, "Bad boy, stop for me, let me catch you!" You, you are finished, I tell you..." This moment is like returning to our childhood, we are still children, we have not experienced ups and downs, we have not experienced the pain and darkness of life, we are just playing around It's just a noisy child, any darkness should be far away from us at this moment.But that's just wishful thinking on my part.God always hates seeing other people happy and happy, he always thinks up all kinds of hardships for people to bear.painful.

It was almost midnight when we got home.

The place where Lu Chao rented was an urban village, that is, a place that had not yet been demolished. Several families lived in one yard, and there were all kinds of people.It was midnight, and most of the families had already fallen asleep, and the courtyard was filled with the snoring of a man who didn't know which family it was from, and the sound was deafening like heaven and earth.I frowned in dissatisfaction, and Lu Chao's disgusted expression fell into Lu Chao's eyes. He was at a loss and moved his fingers. I found that he would move his fingers subconsciously whenever he was nervous.I gave him a good-natured smile and shrugged, and he relaxed.I stretched out my index finger and made a silent gesture, I nodded knowingly, followed Lu Chao and tiptoed through the mess, and entered Lu Chao's room.

I relaxed and let out a long breath. "Sit down for a while, I'll see if there is still hot water at this time." He pointed to the chair by the bed, motioning for me to sit there.

"You go, don't worry about me." I sat on the chair and looked around the room.It was clean and tidy, the quilt was folded with corners and corners, and the light blue sheets were spread on the small single bed.In the room, apart from the bed, there is a chair beside the bed and a small dining table whose original color cannot be seen.There is nothing else, so simple that I feel that this is not a home, but a temporary refuge.You can see the embarrassment of Lu Chao's life now.Bitter and sad, it makes me look very depressed.

Although these years I have not been happy.But this is only spiritual, and does not include the torture of life, at least my life is well-fed and well-off.I opened a Chinese restaurant myself. Although it is not a big business, it can make my life stable and prosperous.And Lu Chao's life does not know what kind of hardships and difficulties it is.Thinking of this, my eye sockets turned red.

"What's the matter? Okay, why are the circles under your eyes red, can't it be homesick?" Lu Chao came back at some time, stood at the door, and looked at me teasingly, with disgust on his face.

"No, it's just that the wind was strong just now, and sand got into your eyes. Where did you think!" I hurriedly found an excuse to prevaricate.

"Oh... I know the place I live in is not good, but it's not broken enough that the wind can roll up sand in my room!" He said to me seriously.

I was dumbfounded, speechless for a moment.

"Come here!" I hooked my fingers at him.Stare at him closely.He walked over obediently and sat beside me casually. I hugged him tightly and buried my head in the socket of his neck.He said sullenly, "Why didn't you come to me sooner? If I knew, I would be reluctant to let you live such a hard life." I tried my best to choose a word that was not very exciting. He used to be very concerned about financial entanglements like this. , not to mention him who is so sensitive now.

"It's nothing, I feel okay, it's not very hard." He returned calmly.

"Hey, how are your uncles and aunts these years? Are you in good health?" I changed the subject and wanted to ask some light questions.

"They're all dead, and they've been dead for many years." He returned with a barely audible voice, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him, his tone was cold and emotionless.Can't hear what kind of emotion is in his words.

I suddenly felt very sad, my hands and feet were cold, and my lips trembled for a long time, but I didn't say a word, even the most useless condolences.My tears fell uncontrollably like beads with a broken thread.With tears in my eyes, I saw Lu Chao hugging me gently, and said softly: "It's okay...it's okay...it's all over...don't cry...baby!" He gently touched my face , lips gently printed on my lips, nose, face, eyes, gently kissed away my tears.Whispering in my ear, "Don't cry baby, it's nothing, it's all over, there will always be a day, it's just a matter of time, don't cry..."

But the more calmly he spoke, the sadder I felt.I sobbed and asked intermittently, "Uncle...Auntie...how did you die?"

"My mother died of illness, and my father committed suicide." He said it slowly, as if stating something unimportant.I was dumbfounded and cried even more fiercely.He patted my back and said like a baby until "Don't cry.. Don't cry.. It's okay.. It's okay, baby..."

Maybe I was tired from crying, maybe his words really had the magic power to calm me down.I gradually stopped crying, but my shoulders were still shaking uncontrollably.

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