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He raised his head and looked into my eyes firmly, I was deeply attracted by those dark pool-like eyes, I couldn't help but hold his face up, his lips covered the sexy lips I dreamed of, and sucked them back and forth, Nibbling lightly.It has nothing to do with sex at the moment, it is just an affirmation of what I have been waiting for for so many years, and an affirmation of my feelings when I was young.An affirmation of my guess.Lu Chao suddenly pushed me away, and I was caught off guard, staggered and almost fell. I saw him stretch out his hand, as if he wanted to pull me, but then quickly retracted.

I pouted in embarrassment and calmed down, "Lu Chao, you hypocritical bastard, you obviously love me in your heart, don't you dare to say that you don't love me? If you don't love me, you will spend most of the night Come pick me up, someone who has nothing to do with you? You don’t love me, were you so worried about me going crazy just now? You don’t love me, why didn’t you hide when I kissed you just now, don’t tell me you can’t hide Fuck, and don't fucking say it's a damn thing."

I asked aggressively, pressing every step of the way. I know Lu Chao's character. Once he closes his feelings, he will never show it if you don't force him.

"Please, don't talk about Haizi, don't talk about it..." He squatted down in pain, begging me to stop talking, I knew it was time to force him to speak his mind, and I continued to induce " Tell me. Lu Chao, you said you love me, and what you just said was not sincere...' I said softly, patted his back one after another, knowing that his mood gradually stabilized, I knelt down and hugged him Holding his trembling body. I heard his unconscious whisper: "No, we can't be together, we can't be together really, Haizi. . "He burst into tears, and his bewildered look made my heart ache to the extreme.

I really don't want to force him, but what can I do?My love for him has made me overwhelmed and unable to extricate myself. If I take a step back, I will be doomed and burn myself. "Tell me, what should I do? Lu Chao, I don't want to force you, but I really love you so much that I almost lost myself. Do you know how I got here these years? I sleep almost every night Unconsciously, as soon as I close my eyes, I can't help but miss you, think of my heartache, think of my inability to breathe. What should I do? Tell me..." I hugged Lu Chao with all my strength, as if I was slightly Let go, and he'll just disappear.

Lu Chao raised his head, and his slight breath rippling my mind, it was so itchy, I could hardly help wanting to scratch it. "Haizi...I'm sorry, I didn't know that I hurt you so much back then, but I really couldn't do anything back then. I'm sorry...I..." He said guiltily and apologetically.

"Tell me what happened back then? Why did you leave without saying goodbye, why?" I interrupted Lu Chao, anxious to find out what happened back then?What went wrong made us suffer for five years in vain.

"Leaving without saying goodbye?" Lu Chao asked back in surprise, I gave him a puzzled look, but didn't answer, "I didn't leave without saying goodbye, I really couldn't see you at that time, but I asked someone to bring you a note , Didn't you receive it?" He gently pushed me away, looked at my face and said.I was even more puzzled, "note, what note... I've never seen any note?" I finally knew how we missed it all these years. "What happened, why can't you see me, where did that note go? Who did you ask to bring it to me?" I couldn't help a lot of doubts, and poured out all my doubts .

"It's nothing, it's been so many years, it's too late if you don't mention those things. I'll take you home!" Lu Chao answered evasively.The voice was soft, as if it would be blown into the wind if you didn't listen carefully, with a clear and easy-going attitude that sees through everything, I felt a burst of fear for no reason. I felt that Lu Chao was about to turn into a fairy and flew away.No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't catch him.

I squeezed his hand hard.The warmth of his palm made me feel less scared, and I sighed contentedly, "If you don't want to say it, don't say it. I won't force you. I just ask you not to leave me anymore, okay? I really can't I lost you, Lu Chao!"

He gave me a meaningful look with complicated eyes, I don't know what that means.I waited in fear for his final verdict on me, covered in cold sweat.Until time passed for a long time, so long that I thought he would look at me like this for eternity, but it was actually quite good, I couldn’t help but whisper in my heart, if I just look at me like this, at least I don’t have to bear it anymore The pain of losing him, I don't have to worry about him disappearing under my nose like this, I can be sure that he only has me in his eyes, always me, there is nothing wrong with that, isn't it?

I looked into his flickering eyes, there was longing, bitterness, and worry in them, and what hurt my heart the most was a little bit of inferiority inside, hidden in the deepest part, so deep that you couldn’t see it at all, I don’t know why I could just see so many emotions flickering in his eyes.I waited agonizingly, and at the very end, I saw that desire triumphed over all.I squeezed his hand tightly in joy. At this moment, I don't need to say more words to express it.

"walk home!"

"I'll take you home, okay, don't get me wrong!" Lu Chao said dissatisfiedly, there was no strangeness in his words, it was the tone I was familiar with, it was the tone in my memory Lu Chao should be playful and energetic, I was slightly taken aback for a moment, then smiled all over my face, and stuck to it tightly with a dead skin and rotten face.He said pitifully, "I can't go home anymore, your mother-in-law said, if I can't coax my wife well, don't go home again!"

Lu Chao's face turned pale in an instant, and he stepped back suddenly, turning his face away.The expression is cloudy.I secretly regretted which pot I didn't open and which pot to lift.I hurried forward a few steps, held his shoulders, turned his head, and forced his eyes to meet mine.I held up three fingers, and solemnly swore, "I'm sorry, Lu Chao, I really only love you. I used to be, I am now, and I will never fall in love with others again. About Xia Wei, I will It's resolved, believe me. I really don't love him, I thought I would never meet you again, so I promised my parents to marry him. Really, believe me!"

Maybe it's my paranoia, I always feel that Lu Chao has become very sensitive, like a frightened rabbit, if you take a step forward, get closer to him, even a little bit, he will immediately run away in fright.He had never been like this before, he was optimistic before.Cheerful and humorous, like a moving little sun, it shines brightly anytime and anywhere, illuminating yourself and others.

I was deeply curious and hated what happened to Lu Chao in the past few years. I hated what kind of things could make such a sunny person like this.I secretly vowed to make him happy again.

Lu Chao clenched his hands tightly, his joints turned white with so much strength, he hesitated for a moment, and said slowly: "Haizi, I know that what you said is true, I admit that what I said before was a lie to you, For so many years, I have been thinking about you all the time. When I saw you in the gold store this afternoon, do you know how excited I was? I was so nervous that my heart was about to jump out. How I wish I could hug you , kiss you, but you said you were going to get married, I was really heartbroken to the point of suffocation, I... I really... Can you understand how I felt at that time?"

"I understand, didn't you let me experience it this afternoon?" I said jokingly, intending to ease the dull atmosphere.

He gave me a blank look and punched me "You know what I mean, that's not what I meant." He explained anxiously

I pretended to howl in pain, then squatted on the ground, covering my chest with my hands, with a painful expression.I stole a glance at him.I found him standing there expressionless, with a look of disgust, and said coldly, "Okay, Haizi, stop pretending. Don't I know you yet? What kind of tail are you sticking out? What kind of shit are you shitting? Clearly."

I stood up with a grin, "Hey... I know you know me best..." I saw his expression softened, with a faint smile on his face, and the moonlight shone thinly all over his body, hazy , like a fairy coming out of a dream, beautiful and gentle.It's like a god's residence.This moment is deeply engraved in my mind, until many years later, it is still the deepest memory in my mind.

I put away my idle look, and said to him solemnly, "I know Lu Chao, I know what you mean, you don't want to hurt others, Xia Wei, I know all of this, but you would rather hurt yourself and be wronged for others You know, you hurt me at the same time by doing that, I know it’s not fair to Xia Wei, but do you think letting him marry someone who likes men hurts her? It’s fair to her Did you?" I looked at him calmly, waiting for him to think clearly, I knew that if I didn't let him think clearly, he would always feel guilty in his heart, which would be tantamount to burying the ground for our future life. Huge hidden danger.

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