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"Think about it!" He patted me on the shoulder suddenly. I was so scared that I seemed to have figured something out. I looked at him suspiciously, "You mean, he has some difficulties, right?" It hurts my heart to think that if this is true, I still beat him like that.

"Isn't that stupid after all?" He glanced at me approvingly, like an elder praising a junior, and I punched him dissatisfied. Solve it?" I said to myself.Scratching my head and scratching my head, I can't think of an answer.

"Are you stupid? You said that you are going to get engaged. A person like Brother Chao who always thinks about others will definitely not do anything to hurt others?" Yang Yang gave me a big white eye, as if looking mentally retarded looking at me.

My heart suddenly became eager, if this is the case, then I am the fucking bastard of the century, I actually misunderstood him like that, and beat him so hard, I really deserve to be damned, I feel annoyed in my heart.Hate myself for being so reckless, why didn't I ask clearly!

"I still have something to do, let's go first, let's get together another day!" I grabbed the key and ran out the door,

"Hey! Hey! You pay the bill first and go... Hey..." Yang Yang roared angrily.

"You get married first, and I will treat you to a big meal another day..." I hurried out the door, not caring about his ghostly screams

I am really excited now, as if I am about to fly. I have never known that the hazy night is so beautiful after so many years. I rushed to the gold shop in the afternoon, sitting in the car, the corners of my mouth couldn't help but curl up, even the driver uncle looked pretty, I wish I could announce to the world my current good mood.

"Young man, are you going to meet your girlfriend?" the driver uncle couldn't help asking

"Yes! I'm going to meet my girlfriend!" I returned excitedly, and couldn't help but mischievously wondered in my heart, if the uncle knew that I was meeting my boyfriend, would he be so shocked that his jaw would fall on the steering wheel.

"You love him very much. Cherish the young man. The world is so big. It's not easy to find someone you like and like yourself. I think my family and I were like you back then. The one we love is called a warm one. You have no idea…………"

"Thank you uncle, I'm here!" I interrupted the driver's babbling, if I let him continue, I guess his car can drive all the way to Beijing, I hurriedly handed the money to the uncle, and went there without waiting for the change Gold shop ran. "Young man, your money!" The uncle stretched out his head and called to me until I waved his hand, "You don't have to look for it... I wish you happiness..." I bid farewell to the driver uncle.After calming down his heart beating violently due to nervousness, he walked into the gold shop pretending to be nonchalant.

"Welcome, may I help you?" the waitress asked politely

"Oh, I'm here to find someone, can you take me to him? His name is Lu Chao!" I'm not sure which part of Lu Chao's division of labor here; in the afternoon, I seem to see him wearing a security uniform, but I just remembered vaguely, and I was afraid I might make a mistake.

"Lu Chao, there is such a person who used to work as a security guard here, but he resigned this afternoon." The service lady asked gossipingly, "Are you the one who fought with Lu Chao here this afternoon?"

I looked up in astonishment, and asked anxiously, "Did he resign because of what happened in the afternoon?"

I was filled with self-blame to think that he might lose his job because of me. "Uh! I don't know about that."

"Then do you know where he went? Do you have his phone number?" I was so anxious that I was afraid that I would miss it for the rest of my life. If I had such regrets in the future, it would be worse than killing me.

"I'm sorry, I don't know where he lives. He hasn't been in our store for a long time. We don't know him well. He usually keeps quiet and doesn't get along well with us. I see him when he's free. He just sat at the door and stared at the sky in a daze, and we talked to him, but he didn’t pay any attention to us.” The service lady recalled, “Ah! I remembered, he is quite familiar with Xiao Liu, our equipment maintenance man, you I'll ask him later." She hurried away to the back door.

I spent my days waiting at the door, with self-blame and remorse in my heart. When I was suffering, the service lady came back, "I asked Xiao Liu, and he said he didn't know where Lu Chao lived, but , he does have his cell phone number, here! Here it is, here it is!" I took the paper with a string of numbers written on it, and held it in my hand cherishingly, as if it was my life.I said many words of thanks to the lady and left in a hurry.

On the taxi home, I couldn't wait to take out the thin piece of paper, and dialed the string of numbers trembling. The process of waiting for the connection was like a criminal waiting for the judge's sentence in court, scratching my heart and lungs.

"Hello, hello, who are you looking for?" Hearing the other party's voice, I suddenly felt wronged, and my breath was stuck in my throat. I opened my mouth, but no sound came out.

"Hey, talk, who are you looking for?" The other party's voice became obviously impatient.I feel that I have become more wronged, just like a child who has run away from home, when adults find him, he will feel that he has been greatly wronged.I couldn't help but burst into tears, and I didn't care about the driver's curious gaze from the rearview mirror. I guess he must be thinking that this man is really worthless. man!But now I don't care at all.

"Is it Haizi? Ah! What's wrong with you, what happened?" Lu Chao's voice became anxious, and his undisguised worry and panic made me feel warm. He really was still worried about me.I signaled the driver to stop the car, pay and get out.

"I don't know, I don't know where I am? Lu Chao, I went to the gold store to find you just now, and they said that you resigned. Do you know how scared I am? I'm really afraid that I will pass you by this time." I am afraid that I will never find you again, you know?" I said in great pain, I was afraid that if I didn't speak out this time, I would lose him completely.

"Tell me, what's near you, I'll go find you right away..." His voice became more anxious.After I told him about the nearby buildings, I sat on the road and waited for him. I remembered that after Lu Chao disappeared that year, I also sat on the road near his house and waited for him all night and all night. At that time, I foolishly believed , Maybe he came back at dawn, maybe he just went out to relax, maybe he just went to buy a pack of cigarettes.I kept looking for reasons to convince myself that he would definitely come back.Now I am sitting alone on the road waiting for him again, I suddenly feel very scared, I feel that I can no longer wait for him to come, he is getting farther and farther away from me.

When I curled up in fear and hugged my knees, a warm and dry hand covered with calluses held my hand, I trembled suddenly, and slowly raised my head.This is the person, the person who makes my heart ache, makes me sad, and makes me love to the bottom of my heart.The corners of his mouth were bruised and purple, and his face was also red and swollen.He was wearing a T-shirt and loose shorts that he wore at home crookedly.A pair of slippers, obviously came out in a hurry and didn't come for an urgent change.I caressed this face that had appeared countless times in my dreams and never dared to forget it for so many years.Although he did not have the vigor of a young man back then, he has a sense of maturity from the vicissitudes of life.

"Does it hurt?" I asked softly, afraid that if I spoke a little louder, the scene in front of me would disappear in smoke.

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt, don't worry about me..." He gently grabbed me and rubbed his cheek.He stared at me without blinking, "What happened? Tell me!" His tone made me undeniably domineering.

"What you said this afternoon is not sincere, is it? Lu Chao, I want to listen to the truth. Do you have any difficulties? I beg you, tell me, okay?" I begged pitifully.

He suddenly let go of my hand, stood up quickly, took a few steps back, hesitated, turned around again, and turned his back to me, "I don't have any problems, Haizi, really, I don't love you!" He quickly Turning around quickly, his eyes were blank and unfocused, "I have never loved you before, stop being passionate, okay!" He yelled at me angrily, his voice hoarse, like a dying beast using its last It seems that they have the strength to protect their own territory.

I suddenly started laughing, with tears streaming down my face, very happy, Lu Chao stared at me differently, then as if remembering something, he rushed up worriedly, grabbed my shoulder, and shook with all his strength on my shoulder. "What's wrong with you, Haizi, don't scare me!" He stretched out five fingers tremblingly, "Haiko, what do you see?" He asked in a panic.

I slapped his hand away funny, "Do you think I'm crazy? Lu Chao!" I took his hand and looked into his eyes calmly, "Lu Chao, look into my eyes and tell me what you just said Is what you said true?" I stared at him without blinking, he looked into my eyes, then moved away evasively, looking at his own toes, "Haizi, don't ask if it's okay, now you You have your own life, and I have my own path to take, we are no longer children, we took the wrong path back then, it was a path that was not allowed or blessed..." He paused, He took a deep breath, bit his lips lightly, and seemed to make up his mind: "Haizi, we have spent so long to correct a mistake, and now you are finally leading a normal life, we shouldn't continue It's a mistake."

The author has something to say: I have written so much, although not many people read it, but I must stick to it myself!