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Dinglingling... Dinglingling... The ear-piercing ringtone of the mobile phone pulled me back from the vortex of memory to reality, my dull eyes slowly focused, I touched my face tiredly, and reached for the mobile phone to look at it Look, it's an unfamiliar number.I answered suspiciously: "Hi, hello, may I ask if you are..."

"Hey, Haiju, you haven't seen me for so many years, you can't even hear my voice? Guess who I am?" an excited male voice called out.

"Sorry, I really can't think of it..." I curled my lips, not in the mood to guess at all.

"No way! Haiju, I've been talking about you for so many years, and you don't even remember my voice. It makes me so sad!" The other party exaggeratedly called out, as if I didn't remember what his voice was It is a matter of common anger between man and god, which cannot be tolerated by heaven.

"Sorry, I'm busy right now, I'll hang up if you don't tell me!" I'm not in the mood to spank and chat with him right now

"Don't, don't hang up! I haven't seen you for so many years, I didn't expect your temper to grow. Hey, you were not like this back then? When you were with Brother Chao, you didn't see you have such a big temper?" The other party smiled lightly.

"Brother Chao? You know Lu Chao, are you Yang Yang?" I asked uncertainly

"Haha. At last you still remember me, I thought you forgot all your old classmates all these years? How is it? How are you doing now? Do you have time? Come out and sit?" Yang Yang excitedly on the phone Said.

"Oh, okay, Qingquan Bar, see you in half an hour." I cleaned up my bad mood, and the mood of seeing my old classmates soon dispelled some of my haze. I cheered up, picked up my coat and walked out of the room. My mother was preparing dinner in the kitchen when she saw me come out."Xiaohai, how could you leave Weiwei on the road alone? Just now Weiwei called me and said that you just got into a fight with someone in the gold shop. What's going on? Ah! I'll give you everything How many times have I said, don't associate with those dubious people, you were just..."

"Mom! You can't say a few words! I'm so bored. I made an appointment with my friends to eat together, so I won't eat at home. I'm leaving..." I grabbed the car keys, impatient Interrupting her, he hurriedly opened the door and ran out.

"Xiao Hai, remember to apologize to Weiwei tomorrow, don't make her angry. They are all about to get married...'

"Got it..." I responded and started the car.

When I walked into the Qingquan Bar, I saw a young man in a baseball cap and sportswear beckoning to me, and shouted excitedly, "Hi! Here, come quickly..." I smiled Approaching, stretched out his hands and warmly hugged the man in front of him. "Long time no see, I really didn't expect to see you again."

"Yeah, yeah, me too. I haven't seen you for a long time. I miss you so much. At that time, my parents were going to work abroad. They left in a hurry and didn't have time to say goodbye to my classmates. It’s you, how about asking someone to inquire about you as soon as you return to China? Are you okay?” Yang Yang said with emotion, the excitement in his voice could not be concealed.Yang Yang was my deskmate in high school, and the only person who supported me and Lu Chao at that time. He didn’t alienate us just because Lu Chao and I were gay. He stayed close to us and suffered a lot. gossip.

"Let's do it! How was it abroad? Why are you back now? Are you going back to China for a visit, or are you planning to stay in China?" I asked a series of questions

"Brother, I know you're very excited to see me. After all, I'm invincible in charm. It's reasonable for you to dislike me, but which one should I answer when you ask so many questions? Little Juju..." He He held his head high, squinted his eyes, and raised his eyebrows in an incomparably narcissistic way.I laughed lightly, and the depression in my heart was swept away.That's how Yang Yang always knows how to say some jokes and do some funny moves to cheer me up even when I'm sad or angry.

Yang Yang is not good-looking. At first glance, he looks like a thief or a wretched uncle in a typical TV series. He is tall and slender, and he always likes to wear fat and loose sportswear, as if he is wearing clothes. Bean sprouts, standing there without talking is full of joy.

"I'm sorry, I'm just so excited to see you..." I pretended to be serious and returned, just like an old pedant in a university shaking his head and putting on makeup

"Haha... Haizi, I haven't seen you for so many years, and I still act like a child. I won't leave this time, and I plan to develop in China. You don't know that gringo steaks and hamburgers make me sick! "He stuck out his tongue mischievously, and sniffed his nose mischievously like a child. In fact, after a long time, Yang Yang is not ugly. It was indescribably weird, "By the way, why didn't I see Lu Chao?"

"We broke up a long time ago." I said hoarsely, my voice was obscure and ugly.

"Break up?" Yang Yang suddenly raised his voice in surprise, then realized the curious looking eyes around him and asked in a lower voice, "Why?"

I nodded my head with difficulty, thinking of the scene when I saw Lu Chaoshi in the afternoon, I felt wronged for a while, and my eyes were red.

"Why? When I left, didn't you guys still have a good time? What happened? I thought you would be together for the rest of your life if you loved each other so much." He reached out and handed over a tissue, beckoning to the waiter

"Two dozen beers!" He waved his hand impatiently, drove away the waiter, picked up my untied tissue and wiped my red eyes, "Why are you still crying so much like back then? Look at you Big shoulders, round waist, heroic appearance, who the hell would have thought that she would cry like a girl." He wiped his face irritably, "Tell me what happened after I left, why did I You're going to break up, fuck it, I don't believe in love now."

I pushed him with a wry smile, stretched out my hand to take the beer handed by the waiter, raised my neck without saying anything, and gulped down half a bottle.He reached out and grabbed his hair, crying silently.Yang Yang patted my shoulder and sighed, "Cry, just cry."

It wasn't until a quarter of an hour later that I went from tears to slight trembling. After crying for so long, the grievance and depression of so many years were finally vented.I drank the remaining half bottle of beer and said thank you in a low voice. "Why are you being polite to me! Haizi, tell me what happened quickly? Is there some misunderstanding between you two?"

I hugged my head in pain and tore my hair: "I don't know... I don't know what happened back then? Shortly after you left, Lu Chao suddenly disappeared? I went to his house to look for him, but he There was no one at home, and I went there many times later. Every time I went, the door was closed. I don’t even know what the hell is going on!” I rushed over suddenly, grabbed the clothes on Yang Yang’s chest, and was furious. Said "But, you know what? This afternoon, just this afternoon, I saw him, at the gold store! Do you know how excited I was? I almost jumped up and hugged him, I thought the fuck I Finally found him, I thought he would be as excited as me... Do you know how he reacted when he saw me? Ah..."

I let go of Yang Yang feebly, lowered my head and covered my face, my face was full of frustration, "I really feel that all these years of pain are self-inflicted, you know? Yang Yang... I'm fucking being a bitch, really... I feel like a jerk, doing dirty business, but fucking calling myself a god!"

"Don't say that, Haizi, I know you, and I know Lu Chao. You are not people who can treat your feelings as a trifle. What did he say to make you so painful?" Yang Yang said softly, and at the same time he gently Hugging into his arms, stroking my back one by one, let me gradually relax.

I stabilized my mind, pushed Yang Yang's arms away, and smiled happily, "I'm sorry, I'm a little out of control." He shook his head at me indifferently, "I saw him in the gold shop today, but he was calm Lightly say nonsense wishing me happiness, yes, I'm fucking engaged, but that's not my intention, I wanted to explain it to him properly." I clenched my fists angrily, and Weakly let go, "I asked him where he has been all these years and why he didn't contact me. Do you know what he said?" I laughed at myself, and said without waiting for Yang Yang to express his position, "He said he couldn't bear the rumors about the school. Rumors, I don’t want to live the life of being pointed at by others. He also said that when he was with me, he just wanted to sleep with me and play with me. What made me angry the most was that he also said that he came back now to continue to be with me Go to bed." I raised my head and tried my best to force the tears back into my eyes.

"He really said that?" Yang Yang opened his mouth wide in surprise, and then narrowed his eyes suspiciously, "Haizi, are you getting engaged?" Back to "Well, my parents insisted on forcing me to marry Xia Wei, saying that if I don't marry, you will die for me. But, Yang Yang, you know that I can't love her, but I can't help it." I I looked into his eyes puzzledly and tried to find the answer from his eyes, but I was disappointed, I shook my head weakly, mocking my own suspicion.

"Haizi, I feel that this matter may be different from what you think." Yang Yang turned his head and looked at me solemnly. I frowned and looked at him blankly.

"I think you are a fan of the authorities, Haizi, you and I know how Brother Chao is. Although he was often aggressive and ruthless at that time, he was really good. He was not good at school, but to the teacher, that is called A respectful one. To his parents, it makes others give a thumbs up. He has never been ambiguous when dealing with emotional matters. Even the little girl who refuses to have a crush on him is soft-spoken, for fear of hurting other people's hearts, right? ?” I nodded my head more confusedly, thinking of this, I felt sweeter in my heart, more proud than complimenting me, I nodded happily, “Then what?”

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