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People say that after being together for a long time, they will become bored with each other. Although the love for each other in the heart will not decrease in the slightest, the bumps and bumps of ordinary life will always add one kind of unsatisfactory to romantic or vigorous love.Just like a mirror that has been used for a long time, although it still looks bright, if you look carefully, you will always find deep or shallow scratches.And it is impossible to erase the traces.

I stood outside Zheng Tianyi's ward and quietly looked in through the door glass. The room was quiet, and Zheng Tianyi was sleeping peacefully on the hospital bed. His pale face looked sickly sallow under the light yellow light.He frowned, as if he hadn't slept well.I gently pushed the door open, and the creaking sound of the door opening made my heart tremble violently.I hurriedly glanced at Zheng Tianyi like a thief, his brows frowned deeper, forming a deep Sichuan shape on his forehead, which added a bit of hostility to the entire refined and refined face.

I lightly moved a stool and sat in front of his bed, staring at his face without blinking, as if I would never have the chance to meet him again in this life, and wanted to deeply understand him. engraved in my mind.His face was so pale that it was almost transparent. I had never seen his face so closely and carefully. Sometimes when I thought of him occasionally, his face seemed to be covered by mist in my mind. Can't see clearly either.In fact, I can't say how I feel about Zheng Tianyi, but at the beginning it seemed that he was approaching me unilaterally, and I always passively accepted his favor.

I only know that his family background is very deep, I only know that he is gentle and gentle when he speaks, serious and serious when he does things, and treats brothers with righteousness.I don't know anything else.I never cared about his hobbies, his work, everything about him.From the beginning I played the role of hurting him.There is always a deep guilt for Zheng Tianyi, sometimes I really feel that I am a cruel executioner, killing him with a knife.

He frowned uncomfortably, and the corners of his mouth unconsciously pursed tightly.He reached out and lifted the quilt, like a child.I gently covered him with the quilt, tiptoed out of the ward, closed the door again, and left the hospital straight away.

There is still a little bit of coolness in the night in early summer, and the night covers the city. In the noisy or quiet city, the night generously embraces everything in the city.I walk alone on the quiet street, I can't tell what kind of feeling it is, only at night can I feel that the whole world seems to be surrounded by me, I can easily reach any place in the world as long as I think, Even, as long as I want to, I can use the cover of night to explore the secrets of the whole world.

I know what kind of person I am, it doesn't mean that I am single-minded in dealing with feelings, it's just a habit, a habit deeply engraved in my soul.Fresh things that I can neither give up nor accept easily.

During the entire period when my mother was hospitalized, Lu Chao seemed to take care of everything, helping my mother check up upstairs and downstairs, running around at both ends of the family hospital, cooking three meals a day at home and sending them to the hospital, and always at the hospital at night. The last one to go.The entire ward and department seemed to regard him as my mother's biological son and us as brothers.No one does not praise Lu Chao's filial piety.My mother seems to be getting better and better towards Lu Chao, and it seems to have a tendency to surpass my own son.I was dissatisfied and protested to my mother many times. Both my mother and Lu Chao looked at me with smiles, as if I was not a root vegetable, and I was annoyed for a long time.

Yang Yang and Xia Wei also come to see them every night. For them, I am really touched. They care about my parents just like my own parents. I really don’t know how to thank them. I can only give them back. My own heart.

With everyone's care and Lu Chao's careful care, my mother gradually recovered, and was finally discharged from the hospital at her strong request and rested at home.Lu Chao and I returned the house we rented and moved back home to live with my mother so that we could take care of her.

After talking with Xia Wei that time, I basically didn't go to see Zheng Tianyi when he was awake. Every time I went to his ward to see him quietly in the dead of night when Zheng Tianyi was asleep, just like that He sat without speaking, and then quietly left after watching for a while.He didn't seem to have a problem with me not seeing him again, nor was he getting his calls.I don't know if he found out that I had seen him secretly or if I really figured it out. In short, I was relieved and at the same time I didn't know why, but I also felt a little bit lost.

Before we moved back home, I talked with Lu Chaozai carefully for a long time. I was afraid that he and my mother would not get along, although my mother likes him very much now.But just like most mother-in-law and daughter-in-law relationships, my mother and Lu Chao are not biological after all, they are only connected because of me.Lu Chao expressed that there was no pressure, and said deeply that he wanted to live with his parents a long time ago.I know that the death of his parents has always been a big knot in his heart. He is so good to my mother, partly because she is my mother, and partly because my mother really likes Lu Chao very much, but I never From the envious eyes he saw when I acted like a baby to my mother, I seemed to understand that the biggest part of him came from guilt and compensation to his parents.

Life gradually calmed down, calm like a pool of stagnant water.Lu Chao started to be busy again, he seemed to be busier than before, I was puzzled by this, obviously he was a small employee of a small company, why he seemed so busy.I have asked him many times, but he hesitated and refused to explain clearly.

I still live like that, I go to the store every day, and when I’m not busy, I hide at home by myself, draw the thick curtains, and watch all kinds of movies in the dark day and night .Forgot to say, I still live in my mother's house, but there are me and Lu Chao in the house, no, I spend more time alone.My mother went to her aunt's house in the countryside, and my aunt was alone, and she never gave birth to a boy and a half girl in her life.My wife left early and was very lonely by myself, so I invited my mother to stay with her for a while.

I was very worried about my mother's health, so I went there with Lu Chao and found that the environment there was not ordinary.The air is fresh, and what I eat is pure natural green food grown in my own yard.In the evening, I sat by the small river in front of my house and chatted with the folks in the village, gossiping about family affairs.It seems that there is nothing to worry about.Great for recuperation.I was a little relieved about this.

That day, I ate something hastily by myself again, and then I stayed at home and watched a movie.I called Lu Chao, and the phone rang for a long time before I heard Lu Chao's slightly tired voice.

"Xiao Hai, sleep by yourself first, dear, I still have some things to do here, I'll go back when I'm done!" He hung up the phone quickly without waiting for me to say anything, leaving me with a burst of beeping busy tone.I suddenly felt extremely lost and lonely.I really don't know why he is so busy and what he is busy with.

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