The little stand-in is no longer with me

Xie Lin stayed in the hospital for one night, and Chi Jingzhan stayed by his side every step of the way.He was afraid that if he looked away, Xie Lin would seek death again.

At this time, Xie Lin was like an emotionless porcelain doll, sitting on the hospital bed with dull eyes, and his face was pale due to blood loss.I have been receiving infusions, but my mental state is as bad as ever.

"Is there anything you want to eat? You haven't eaten all day." Chi Jingzhan asked with concern. He took Xie Lin to see a psychiatrist in the afternoon and diagnosed Xie Lin as depression.

It is already a late stage symptom, and there will be thoughts of suicide.I want to end my life all the time, and feel that I have no attachment to this world.It feels depressing to stay for a second longer, no one and nothing can make them stay, and even, maybe others will live better if they leave him.

"I don't have anything to eat, I'm causing you trouble." Xie Lin said with a weak smile.His mood is much more stable now, except that the bandaged wound on his wrist is still suffering from slight pain, it seems that he is stable like a normal person.

Chi Jingzhan didn't know why Xie Lin became like this in just a few days.In other words, Xie Lin had early symptoms of depression since before, but he didn't notice it, and neither did the people around Xie Lin.

He didn't dare to ask Xie Lin why he couldn't think about it and what happened.Afraid that Xie Lin's emotions would be stimulated by memories, and he would lose control again.

I watched helplessly as a young master who was arrogant and domineering turned into a person who was sensitive and inferior and even wanted to commit suicide.What has been experienced in this process, I am afraid that only Xie Lin knows such pain.

No one can empathize with him. In the past, Chi Jingzhan would never have thought that a disease like depression would appear in Xie Lin's body one day.

Chi Jingzhan couldn't stand Xie Lin's attitude, and asked urgently, "How could it be trouble?"

There was a bleak smile on the corner of Xie Lin's mouth, but he didn't respond.He looked at his wrist in a daze, as if he was thinking about when to cut his wrist next time, which made Chi Jingzhan hairy all over.

In the afternoon, Chi Jingzhan went to the company and replaced Xie Yuming to take care of Xie Lin.Xie Lin behaved very normally in front of Xie Yuming, or...when his emotions didn't erode him, he was always normal.

Chi Jingzhan promised to visit him in the hospital after get off work at night, and to call him if anything happened.

Xie Lin said softly, "Thank you for your hard work."

He knew that Chi Jingzhan had been by his side for a long time, and the light blue dark circles under his eyes could prove that he barely slept last night, and now that he had to go to work in the company, his health might not be able to bear it.

Chi Jingzhan took a deep look at Xie Lin, his eyes struggling: "I'll be back at night, wait for me."

After Chi Jingzhan left, Xie Yuming peeled fruit for Xie Lin by the hospital bed. Although he didn't understand how homosexuals get along with each other, he could vaguely feel that the boy who just left the house treated his son very well. .

"Is the boy just now the one you like? Is it because he came out to me..."

Hearing this, Xie Lin's breath was suffocated, and he immediately denied: "It's not him!"

The eager roar made Xie Yuming's fruit-peeling hand pause, and he said in some incomprehensible way: "No, it's not, what are you shouting..."

The old man doesn't quite understand depression. Even if the doctor said something scary, Xie Lin might commit suicide again.But Xie Yuming didn't quite understand how good-natured people commit suicide when they say suicide, and I don't know who they learned from. The pressure should not be so great, just relax your mind.

These words felt pressure in Xie Lin's ears, and he didn't want to become like this, but this was beyond his control.

"If the company is too busy, I'll take over for you for a while, and you go to rest and cultivate your mentality." Xie Yuming's tone was firm, but he still felt sorry for his child. He didn't dare to see how deep the wound was under the bandage. I understand where Xie Lin's pressure comes from.

Xie Lin lay back on the hospital bed and closed his eyes.Whatever he does will make him feel tired, maybe he really should take a break, "Okay Dad, I won't be going to the company for a while, sorry for the trouble."

The apple was fed to Xie Lin himself, but Xie Lin chewed it a few times and spit it out quickly, unable to swallow any of it.Can't eat anything but water.

"A good apple, why don't you want to eat it?" Xie Yuming put down the fruit knife in his hand with an anxious expression, "What do you want to eat?"

Xie Lin shook his head, and said bitterly, "Dad, take a rest and stop being busy. I'll go down and eat something by myself when I'm hungry later."

"That's not okay, I can't let you go out alone." Xie Yuming remembered the doctor's advice, he couldn't let Xie Lin be alone for too long.

Xie Lin said helplessly, "But you can't watch me forever, right?"

Xie Yuming suddenly had nothing to say, Xie Lin was right, he really couldn't watch for a lifetime.He didn't know when Xie Lin's illness would recover, and he didn't know what the cause was. He could only tell that Xie Lin was in pain, very painful.

That day at home, after Liao Shiyu came, it became like this.

Xie Yuming has also thought about a lot of things in the past few days and guessed a lot.Could it be that the arrival of Liao Shiyu made Xie Lin feel depressed, thinking that his status might be lower than that of Liao Shiyu, which is why he suffered from depression.

After much deliberation, this may be the only one that is more suitable.

Xie Yuming opened his mouth slowly, searching for a more appropriate wording and said: "Xiao Lin, you... are you... because Qingqing came home...?"

Xie Lin understood what Xie Yuming meant before he finished speaking.The string in his head was tense, almost on the verge of breaking, Xie Lin tried hard to restrain his emotions, prayed that he would not be dominated by emotions, and said with all his strength: "No, Dad, it's not what you think. "

Liao Shiyu is his older sister, and this fact will never change for the rest of her life.He didn't have any hostility towards Liao Shiyu, and Liao Shiyu didn't do anything wrong, she was just telling the truth, he couldn't accept it and couldn't blame anyone.

"Then why did it become like this? Work pressure, or... emotional life?" Xie Yuming was thoughtful, and he just wanted to find out why his son was so tired of life. There must be a reason for everything.

Besides, he is Xie Lin's father, how could he not have the right to know about his son's problems.

Xie Lin took a deep look at Xie Yuming, sighed and said, "Dad, don't ask."

"You can't be like this, Xiao Lin, our family finally got together, and we still have a long time ahead. You can't spend all day thinking about how to end your own life. If you think about it, you still have tricks, me, and you. Your sister. Think of those of us who love you..."

Xie Yuming persuaded, this was already the softest thing his father could say.But as everyone knows, Xie Lin had already given up these thoughts when he could choose to commit suicide by cutting his wrists. These words could not bind him, so what Xie Yuming said was of no use to him.

Xie Lin said tremblingly, "Dad, have you met Liao Shiyu's fiancé?"

"You had an accident before we could meet... Your sister plans to come to see you tomorrow, and tomorrow their crew will rest." Xie Yuming sighed. The scene where the family could be reunited originally did not expect such an accident. Who would want to See this situation.

Xie Lin had a mocking smile on his lips, his thoughts were erratic, as if he was remembering something.

"Actually, you have seen him, Liao Cenchuan." Xie Lin said suddenly, his empty pupils hit Xie Yuming's face without any emotion, like a doll.

Xie Yuming frowned, had he seen it?He had indeed seen Liao Cenchuan when he was a child, when he was just five years old.I have never seen it since I grew up, why would Xie Lin say that.

Xie Lin reminded: "Did you forget? You were in a hypertensive coma, and a man carried you to the hospital."

Xie Yuming's pupils shrank, of course he remembered.A handsome and tall man, he always thought he was Xie Lin's friend, but he never thought that this person was... Liao Cenchuan?

At that time, he still remembered that this young man had been asking him about Xie Lin, and he was very considerate to him.After Xie Lin arrived, he asked to talk to Xie Lin alone.At that time, he almost thought that this young man was the one pursuing his son...

Pursue?Xie Yuming looked at Xie Lin's face suddenly, trying to get a negative result from this face, he was very flustered.

"He is Liao Cenchuan." With a trembling voice, Xie Lin said the last heavy truth, "At the beginning, I was anxious to come out with my family, and I had conflicts with you. It was all because of him...Dad , I don’t want to see him, and I don’t want to see Liao Shiyu either. Can I go? Let me go back to America, I really don’t want to stay here anymore.”

He couldn't watch the day when Liao Shiyu and Liao Cenchuan got married, but also sat at the table of relatives and toasted them calmly.

There is no way to face it, only to escape.

He has never been able to intervene in the love between the two of them, so he will not be anyone's substitute this time, and he is not willing to add obstacles to this bunch of people. He believes that these two people will not want to see him either.

"Xiaolin...you, do you know what you're talking about? Well, that's your brother-in-law." Xie Yuming's voice trembled, and he seemed to suddenly understand why Xie Lin suffered from depression, and on whom did such a blow fall? No one can bear it.

But Xie Yuming only knew about one level of relationship, Xie Lin didn't talk about anything else.For example, the closure of Fengzhao, the scar on his brow bone, and the fact that he became Liao Shiyu's stand-in.

Brother-in-law, this is really a nice nickname.So be it, their relationship is limited to this, and it is good for everyone.

Xie Lin's heart was bleeding, overwhelming emotions annihilated him, and his eyes were fixed on the fruit knife on the table.

The hand stretched out slowly and mysteriously, and it was about to touch it.But at that moment, Xie Yuming quickly took back the fruit knife, and widened his eyes in horror, "You! What are you going to do? Want to commit suicide again?!"

With scarlet eyes, Xie Lin shouted: "Why don't you want to! This will free me, real relief. Dad, please, give me the knife!!"

Xie Yuming directly hid the knife in the trash can, scolded with scarlet eyes: "Impossible!"

The request was not granted, Xie Lin was swept away by sadness, and burst into tears.Tears could not be stopped no matter what, emotions dominated his body and mind.The crying heart wrinkled together, and the eyes became red and swollen.

Xie Yuming felt extremely uncomfortable. After all, he was his own flesh and blood, and he also felt deeply for Xie Lin's pain.Regarding the marriage between Liao Cenchuan and Liao Shiyu, he also began to hesitate in his heart.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-05-1102:53:22~2021-05-1301:58:53期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Luan Jin 5;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Luan Jin;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!