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After Yan Jiasheng left... cigarettes lit one after another, Yan Jiasheng's words kept echoing in my mind, "You are sorry for Xianshu, sorry for your two sons..." I am sorry for so many people...Xian Shu is suffering from advanced liver cancer. If she really cannot be treated, she will die. If I choose to live with Liu Guodong desperately, what about my two sons?what to do?Will they forgive and understand me when they grow up?Can they hold their heads up and be human?Xianshu told me not to hurt my son before going to bed. I knew what she was referring to. I had no excuse to take care of my son. For my son Liu Guodong, I had to hurt him again, right?My heart is in a ball...

It's already two o'clock in the morning, I'm standing on the balcony, looking at the dark night sky, there's no moon or half a star, I want to shout, I want to shout hysterically, "God, are you playing tricks on me?" But I I can't yell, I can only feel bored in my heart, it's really uncomfortable, why do I have to go through this?

It wasn't until two o'clock in the morning that the phone rang, and I realized that I had been standing for a long time. I adjusted my glasses and saw that Liu Guodong was calling. What should I say to him?

Answering the call, Fatty Liu should have drunk a lot. He said, "Miao, will you come back? I've worked hard."

I heard him say that it was very hard, and my heart tightened even more. Why should I not be by his side when he needs me, but don't Xianshu and the child need me by my side more?

"Fatty Liu... You have to take care of yourself, why do you drink so much? If one day I leave you, what will you do?"

"Miao...I can't live without you..." My heart hurts when I heard him say such words, it really hurts, why do I want to leave you?

I hung up the phone and hesitated for a long time. I think I should go back and see Liu Guodong, and I will come back before dawn to take Xianshu to the hospital.For the sake of my son, I have to give up this relationship that is not recognized by the world.So, I took a taxi, went back to my "home" with Fatty Liu, and stood outside the door, home?Which is my home?Home is where the people you love live.But Fatty Liu, my lover, lives in this house. Why do I feel that this place makes me very depressed this time?is this my home

I was in a daze for a while before I opened the door. The light was not turned on and it was pitch black. The smell of alcohol and tobacco made me choke.After the light was turned on, Fatty Liu Chaba lay on his back on the sofa, reeking of alcohol.Three foreign wine bottles were thrown on the ground, and cigarette butts were scattered all over the place. He didn't like smoking at all, but he threw cigarette butts all over the place in just a few hours. He must be very sad these few hours, right?Seeing him like this made my already tense heart even more depressed.

I turned around and went to the bathroom to wash a hot towel, intending to wipe his face to make him more comfortable, when the towel just touched his face, he grabbed my hand, "Miao, I can't bear you, I don't want to leave you..."

He didn't open his eyes, he was so drunk, he should just feel that I'm back, "I'm here...I haven't left you!" He didn't relax his grip on my hand at all, for fear that I would disappear if he let go, I could only use another hand to help him wipe his face. His appearance made me see myself half a year ago. How could I not be so decadent after Yan Jiasheng left that day?After wiping his face, his hands were probably tired, so they loosened a little.I tried to help him to the room to sleep. It turned out that a person weighing more than 80 kilograms was so heavy when he was drunk. After finally helping him to the bed, I tripped over his feet, and the two fell on the bed together. Muttering "Miao... Miao..." I was pressed down by him, and I let out an "ah" in pain.