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Yan Jiasheng left for several days, and I was depressed every day. I suddenly wanted to call him, so I looked around for my phone. After finding the phone, I turned it on and saw four unread messages. It must be from Yan Jiasheng. When I came, I excitedly opened the first message "Miao, Happy New Year!" The time is [-]:[-] am on the first day of the new year, the second message "How is the new year?" Did I make you angry last time?" On the third day of the new year, the fourth message was "When is it convenient for you? May I treat you to dinner and apologize?" On the fourth day of the new year, all four messages were sent by Fatty Liu, and Yan Jiasheng left like this Just be so free and easy without leaving a word...

At this time, why do I care about Fatty Liu?After hesitating for a long time, I finally dialed Yan Jiasheng's number, but I was hung up by myself when I didn't get through.I didn't know what to say when I called, so I threw the phone aside.

On the eighth day of the Lunar New Year, Xianshu and I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau together with our two sons. In just a few minutes, we ended our marriage of more than ten years. We signed a contract, and the two sons will be taken care of by her. I will pay their living support every month. Apart from not living together and not having a contract, it is basically the same as not having a divorce, because we have never been in love before, but the three of them will always be my relatives in my heart.

After I left the Civil Affairs Bureau, I handed a passbook to Xianshu, "Take it, the password is your birthday, and all my savings are in it. It's not much, but it's enough for you and your son to live for several years. When you need money or encounter Contact me when there is a problem. I won’t go back anymore, you live in the house, you can take the children home...it’s cold..." She took the passbook, hugged her two sons and cried, when it started to drizzle, I turned around I didn’t cry, actually I was in pain and wanted to cry, but I didn’t have any tears. Maybe it’s because I shed all my tears in just a few days. Behind me, my son kept crying, “Dad…” I didn’t turn my head, I became I lost a completely bad man, and my family was completely broken.

I'm standing at an intersection watching the red light turn green and the green light turn red, over and over again, I've got nothing, where should I go?The light rain fell on my glasses drop by drop, blurring, as if telling me that the road ahead would be lost.

I found a temporary hotel to live in, bought dozens of cans of beer at night and drank it all by myself. When I woke up, I continued to drink again, fell asleep again when I was drunk, and woke up again. I just go out when I go downstairs to buy wine, and shut myself in the room at other times. Facts have proved that a person can really go without eating for many days.

I finally felt hungry one night, so I went downstairs to find something to eat. I ordered a roast goose rice to take away. When I came back, I passed a convenience store and bought two bottles of Erguotou for 100 yuan. It may be I was so hungry, I just sat down by the lamppost all the way, opened the lunch box and stuffed it into my mouth spoonful by spoonful. When I was choking, I drank a sip of wine. It started to rain again, and passers-by with umbrellas looked at me like a lunatic. They all looked sideways and retreated. The 52-degree sour throat wine is actually comparable to clear water for me. Maybe I am also numb and can't feel any discomfort in my body.

After the meal, I continued to anesthetize myself with alcohol. The suit on my body was completely soaked by the rain, and I didn’t feel cold at all. I don’t know if I was tired or the alcohol made me gradually drunk. “Don’t leave me, I’m tired , Brother Sheng, I'm tired... ah..." After shouting, I took a sip of the wine in my hand.

On the cold side of the road, I couldn't tell whether I was awake or dreaming. The hallucinations appeared. Yan Jiasheng came out of a car, wearing a black suit, and walked towards me, "Miao, don't do this, let's go... I will take you go home!"

"You... still care about me? Do you still care about... me? How could you hurt me...?"

He didn't answer, he dragged my 160 kg body up, I couldn't stand still, he just hugged my big belly and dragged me to the car, and I kept struggling "Let me go...I must be Dreaming... I don't want you to care about it... Didn't you say you don't love me... I don't want you to care about it..." He pushed me into the car without saying anything, and I fell on the back seat, and he also staggered on top of me, he I smelled a faint fragrance on the neck and collar, which was body fragrance and a unique smell only for men.I hugged him "don't leave me, don't leave me please?"

I vaguely heard him say "Okay, even if the whole world denies you and abandon you, I will be by your side..." I don't know what happened after that, because I was really drunk...

I don’t know how long this hallucination has appeared or how long I have been dreaming. When I opened my eyes, I was lying on a soft cotton bed. At this moment, I smelled the faint fragrance that seemed to be absent. Could it be Is it a dream within a dream?Am I still awake?When I want to get up, I feel weak all over my body, and my head hurts like it is about to split open. It hurts. It is reality. What is this?Where are my glasses, where are the gold-rimmed glasses that Yan Jiasheng gave me... I fumbled around, but there were none, I panicked.

It was not easy to get up and get out of the bed along the edge of the bed, but I couldn't see anything clearly because of the blurred vision. I stepped on something like a basin and almost fell down, making a sound.

"What's wrong? Why didn't you call me when you woke up?" said the person who opened the door from outside the room.

"I stepped on something, I can't see clearly" This voice is familiar, where have I heard it?The vague figure is also very familiar, where have I heard it?Could it be... "Is it Liu Guodong Liu Fatty?" I couldn't help asking.

"Haha...you are highly myopic, who else is it if it's not me?" His habitual haha ​​made me feel at ease, and it was indeed him.

"Where are my glasses?"

"It was very dirty the night before, I brought it for you to clean it, it's in the living room, I'll take it for you..."

It turned out that I slept for a day and two nights, and he brought me glasses. After I put them on, I started to feel depressed again, because wearing them allowed me to see everything clearly. It turned out that it was not Yan Jiasheng who said to take me home the day before yesterday.

"After sleeping for so long, you must be hungry! Go wash up, and I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you!" He turned and left without waiting for my answer.

I looked at his room. It was clean and tidy. There was a computer on the right side of the door, and a large bookshelf directly opposite. The books on it were neatly arranged, including the four famous classics, Confucius, Mencius, etc., and a lot of social literature. There is a pile of ancient poems and the like, there is a leather notepad open, and a pen pressed on it, what kind of person is Fatty Liu?Why did he bring me back?Was it my hallucinations that I heard when they brought me back that night?