dance like a butterfly

I don't understand, is there really that promiscuous style in the wine glass, so that I can only focus on the warmth of Lao Han alone; I don't know, if I can lie drunk in the city that never sleeps, I will stop thinking about Lao Han's accident With so many tedious things, will my tonight be easy?Although I have been hurt and hurt before, and I am determined to struggle out of the tenderness of the old left, and hold hands with the person in front of me who always smiles for the rest of my life.However, tonight, I am here drinking fine wine with a high wine glass, while the person who is still infatuated is at my home, chatting with my simple, honest and ignorant old father.From the window facing the street, from time to time, the dazzling neon light from the tall building opposite came in and landed on the faces of me and Lao Han.The neon lights changing dazzling colors make us like two actors.Are we acting?Who are you acting for?I really don't want Lao Zuo to be Lao Han's audience, nor do I want Lao Han to be Lao Zuo and others' audience.However, I am guarding Lao Han’s love, but I am afraid of being laughed at by others, and I am always in fear—fearing that our emotions will not have the most suitable soil in the world, and fearing that our emotions will be affected by our poor consideration. Something went wrong, and he died halfway.Who really understands my scruples?Why am I so tired?Old Han seemed to have noticed my signs, and stopped me when I was drinking cup after cup.The intoxication of wine is more uncomfortable than that of white wine.The drunken face with red face, thick neck and big tongue is next. What is uncomfortable is dizziness, sluggish thinking, dozing off, and the burning of the body and mind, as well as the throbbing of the veins and the limp of the whole body.When I went downstairs, the world shook in front of me, and everything was a double image.My legs went limp, and I was panting heavily, but my hands and feet had no strength.Seeing that I couldn't walk, Lao Han squatted down and carried me to the car.I don't know how he was dragged home by Lao Han and moved onto the bed.In a daze, she just kept turning over on the bed, singing babbling for a while, and crying for a while.It wasn't until Lao Han ran out, came back, and gave him a few mouthfuls of glucose injection-injection, that he fell asleep panting heavily.It wasn't until Lao Han's mobile phone rang loudly that I had an intuition.Opening my sleepy eyes, it turned out that Lao Han hadn't taken off his clothes all night, but was leaning on the bed with his arms around my neck.Pulling out his arm, Old Han got up to answer the phone.My mind was still a little numb, and I couldn't hear what was said in the call, but I heard Lao Han say: "Okay, I'll be here in a while!" After hanging up the phone, Lao Han said with a smile: "I was drunk last time. It’s not like today’s tormenting people! You’re just a drunk lunatic! If you do this often, brother won’t agree!” I smiled embarrassedly, and didn’t dare to speak out again.Poor old Han was exhausted all night, and now he doesn't know what to do.I told myself, about him, ask less, read more, and use your brain more.Be a popular man, don't overstretch your hands, and if it's necessary to let me know, he'll tell me.After hastily washing up in the bathroom, Lao Han said: "If you are hungry, go to the kitchen and get some food yourself. I have to go to the village committee, and I don't know when I will come back. After eating, sleep for a while, don't eat. Run around. Wait for brother!" After finishing speaking, he took a few backup keys for me from the drawer.Which one is for the front door, which one is for the kitchen, and which one is for the bedroom, after explaining each one clearly, I kissed my face and left in a hurry.Check the time, it's past eight o'clock in the morning.Lying on the bed, listening to the crisp sound of the keys colliding in my palm, I played with these keys over and over in my palm.This old Han has completely opened the door of his house to me and allowed me to come in and out at will.In Lao Han's heart, I don't know when he started, he no longer regarded me as an outsider, and had already decided to be with me for the rest of his life.And can I really reassure him?I have no idea.I told myself that I must not be as self-willed as before, nor could I ignore other people's feelings.You must know how to take into account the overall situation and not bring any embarrassment or trouble to Lao Han.Let him know that he, Lao Han, chose me, Xiaohui, to prove that his vision is not wrong!I even want to make a plan for myself, listing one by one what code of conduct I should have during my days in the Han family.And he knew it thoroughly, and kept bringing it out to verify whether he was a qualified "Old Han's daughter-in-law"!Thinking of this, I laughed out loud myself.Even though my head was still a little dizzy, I still struggled to get up.I can't sleep anymore, Lao Han is out, maybe when he will come back, I have to get breakfast quickly.Don't wait for him to come back, you can't even have a hot soup.I also want him to see that I want his house to be clean and tidy.Don't think that men and men can't live a sweet and happy life!Although I will move to Yaxinyuan Community in the future, isn't there still a while?I have to take care of his children, his relatives, his tenants, his subordinates, and his neighbors.Now, I, Xiaohui, are not Lao Han's little ancestors, on the contrary, each of them is my Xiaohui's——one by one!Brush your teeth and wash your face, make the bed, and hurry to the kitchen.Wash the rice, find the red beans, put the raw water into the pot, and boil it on the induction cooker.Go to the refrigerator, there is a lot of meat, all frozen into lumps.Vegetables include onions, potatoes and garlic moss.Just do something light in the morning.Shave the potatoes and start shredding them.My knife skills are not bad. Although I can't compare with the chefs in the restaurant, I can cut the potatoes very finely and evenly.Soak in clean water, and then control the water, the potato shreds are also shining neatly in the bright kitchen in the early morning.Cut the dried red chili into fine shreds to free up the golden chili seeds. I am going to make a delicious vinegar potato shreds.I had just put the frying pan on the gas stove, and hadn't even added oil to the pan, when my phone rang.It must be Lao Han calling, maybe he told me not to wait for him for breakfast.If he doesn't come back, I'll keep things simple and live a life that shouldn't be wasted, otherwise Old Han will definitely think I'm a prodigal if he doesn't say anything.I hummed softly, started singing a song called "Let's Swing the Oars", and then ran to the bedroom to answer the phone.Glancing at the caller ID, my god, this is Lao Han.It's Lao Zuo!My heart skipped a beat: Did something happen? "Xiaohui, are you busy? If not, come back, uncle said his legs are not feeling well!" Lao Zuo didn't wait for me to speak, and hung up the phone.Immediately my head grew bigger.Why haven't I heard that Dad's legs have problems before?My leg feels uncomfortable. Is it sprained?Dog bit?Or fight with someone?Or a new disease?Serious or not?I also have brothers and sisters-in-law, why don't they say anything to me?Puzzled, I called back the phone. The call got through, but no one answered it for a long time.This is Lao Zuo, who doesn’t answer my phone, but it’s the first time for a big girl to get on the sedan chair.I called home again, but no one answered for a long time.I hurriedly called Lao Han, I had to tell him, but the line was busy.Call again, the line is still busy.I'm a bit like an ant on a hot pan.I can't stay here anymore, I have to go back to Hua County to have a look.Dad is getting older, so he has one less look.The old left always takes my father's illness seriously, let alone my own son!The porridge is ready.End down, turn off the power.Find a piece of clean cloth to cover the dishes on the chopping board. When Lao Han comes back, you can just make something to eat yourself.Simply pack up, run to the street, and take a taxi to Sanfuwan Bus Station in the east of the city.Wait until you get in the car and call Lao Han to say goodbye.Luckily, I just arrived at Sanfu Bay and saw a bus bound for Hua County leaving the station slowly.I hurried forward to knock on the door, and the driver asked, "Where are you going?" I was panting, "Hua County." The door opened, and the conductor stretched out his arm and dragged me up.There are not many people in the car, and the seats can still be seen in the last row.Oh thank goodness!I wiped my sweaty head, and shouted in my heart: God bless, bless my dad, don’t let anything happen to me!