dance like a butterfly

Lao Zuo called Xiao Hui and stopped talking.I didn't speak either, I was also waiting for him to speak.For Lao Zuo's calls, I have gradually become somewhat resistant.I really hope that there is regret medicine in the world. No matter how much it costs, no matter how much it costs, I must get it.I even hope that there will be a magical eraser in the world that can erase the most dissatisfied part of my life and leave that section blank, allowing me to re-write the wonderful chapters of my life with enthusiasm and a perfect plan .Then the relationship between me and Lao Han will become pure and magnificent, and it will be much easier without suffering.However, everything has become an established fact.I had to be patient with my mistakes.I glanced at Lao Han and cleared my throat: "Speak, I'm listening." Lao Zuo said, "Xiaohui, my idea is not to let uncle come to Xi'an again." I immediately felt relieved.In the past two days, I have only been focusing on lingering with Lao Han. Although I feel shadows in my heart all the time, I have been forcing myself not to think about those things, so that I can jump out of the three realms and not be in the five elements.But I also clearly know what is rolling back and forth in my heart like a stone, and then rolling again.Dad wants to come to Xi'an, not for me, but for your old Zuo, so if your old Zuo can persuade him to give up, it will be good for everyone.Lao Zuo said: "Well, isn't tomorrow Saturday? I'm going to Hua County now. I'll chat with the old man and try to persuade him not to think about it again. I just said that the relationship between the two of us is good. He won’t come anymore.” “That’s no good! Such an excuse won’t work, you have to find another excuse!” I flatly refused, and my heart twitched.If our relationship is good, then we don't know how many troubles will happen in the future.Lao Zuo laughed on the other end of the phone.This kind of laughter made every nerve in me tremble uncomfortably.Lao Han kept his face long and smoked fiercely.Yeah, he must be depressed, must be angry.Leaving me alone is the same.I have to end this kind of phone call quickly. I can't be ambiguous, I can't laugh, and I can't play tricks. "What are you laughing at? What's so funny? Get down to business!" I couldn't help raising my voice. "Then, what reason do you want to find?" Lao Zuo choked, but he was still tepid.If he's here, I'll kick him.I said, "Just say you're going to be transferred to Beijing or Shanghai, and you won't be coming back anyway!" Lao Zuo didn't say a word.There was no words on the other end of the phone, but it didn't hang up.I glanced at Lao Han sideways, he was looking at me with wide-eyed eyes, and his expression was full of joy.If you think about what I said from the perspective of the old left, I know what it feels like.However, can I still think from his perspective?Who will give me a way out? If you old left can really let go, you should also give yourself a broad way.If it continues like this, when will it end?Yes, at the beginning, I was really wrong, so wrong that I can't reincarnate in the next life.However, you have already said you want to break up, how long will you hold on to it?If this goes on like this, there won't be two people who get burned. Don't you see your wife's fierce look? "Okay. You've already thought this way, so I'll try it. Xiaohui, brother, I can't bear you." Old Zuo's voice was low and round.I breathed a sigh of relief just now, but following his last sentence, I became restless again. "So when are you going?" I asked. "Now." "Alright then!" Without waiting for him to say anything, I quickly hung up the phone.I didn't look at Lao Han, I don't need to look at him at this time.The phone was very loud, and Lao Han could hear every word clearly.He came up and hugged me tightly.I don't know, I really don't know whether this abnormal love stimulated Lao Han or Lao Zuo.Did they arouse the aggressive bloodiness of men one by one, or did they become more lingering and gradually escalate.And, I, Xiaohui, is it really worth what they do?I was so entangled that I wanted to die, and tears came out.Lao Han said, "Do you feel sorry for him?" I didn't say anything. "You feel sorry for him, don't you!" Lao Han repeated without hesitation.What did I say?Obviously at this time I feel everything.I'm not a fool or a nerd.Lao Zuo is also a man, he has his own love object, there is nothing wrong with that.What do you think, old Han?Am I not even allowed to have soft-heartedness and sympathy for the old left?You, Lao Han, also know that even if I sympathize with him, it is impossible to go back to him.Besides, Lao Zuo has already agreed to me, and went to my house to talk about changing jobs.If he doesn't go to my house in the future, isn't it obvious that I will be with you, Lao Han in peace and tranquility from now on?You can't bear me to shed a single tear for Lao Zuo and my lost relationship?With mixed feelings, grievances, and sadness, I couldn't help crying out.Sobbing and sobbing, I couldn't stop my emotional torrents from bursting. I pushed Lao Han away, squatted on the ground, covered my face and wailed loudly.Seeing the saliva and tears pouring out from between my fingers and under my palms, Lao Han stood aside and just watched coldly.The unrestrained passion on the literary road, my one-way retreat in Hunan and North Shaanxi, the slap in the face of Lao Zuo in the wild that night, his smiling face in front of my fellow villagers, tired and excited while carrying sacks in the rain His deep affection, the birthday song he sent me on my birthday and the kick I kicked him, the meticulous care he took for me in the future, the kneeling when I kicked him out, his drunkenness, he drove to see my old father again and again , the Eight Great Monsters threw his bank card and ring at him, scene after scene, like a slide show, reproduced my indifference and anger at that time in front of me.I'm not an unconscious cold-blooded animal, how could I completely forget these things when I was on good terms with you, Lao Han!You, Old Han, are still using these words to provoke me at this moment?Just jealous, is there a way to eat like this?After a long time, maybe Lao Han felt that he was a little too much. He squatted down, put his hands on my shoulders, put his forehead against my face and said, "Xiaohui, it's my brother's fault. Let's stop crying. Let's be happy! Don't worry, brother I won't let you be wronged again in the future." After finishing speaking, he grabbed one of my palms, and with a slap, the back of my hand hit his own cheek.I let out a long breath.Old Han led me to the bathroom to wash my face.well!Forget it, it's already like this today, so don't get angry with old Han Zhi anymore!Not for Lao Zuo, but for Lao Han.Who told me to like others?Don't cry anymore, why cry, that's life!If God let me die between two men, I will never die peacefully under the protection of one man!I hope from now on, I can only circle around Lao Han alone, crazy about him, crazy about him.Although this man doesn't follow me in everything like Lao Zuo, he is so rough, but I really have feelings for him, the feeling that I want to give myself wholeheartedly.I don't know when, the rain has stopped.Coming out of Song City, it was surprisingly cold outside.Looking up at the sky, the sky that had been washed by the rain was full of colorful clouds, burning brilliantly.Old Han pulled my arm.Entered the "Donglaishun" restaurant next door.To be honest, I really have no special feeling when enjoying a table of dishes and red wine.My heart is still spinning with the four wheels on the highway from Xi'an to Huaxian.Lao Zuo went to Hua County today, how would he talk to my dad, will my dad come to Xi'an tomorrow?Tomorrow tomorrow, will I no longer have to worry about anything, and become a happy little mouse, cuddling with Lao Han?Looking at Lao Han's chattering mouth, watching the goblet that Lao Han and I raised together, and seeing the fragrant Changyu swaying in the cup, there are many paragraphs in my mind. 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