dance like a butterfly

I want to find 1 reasons to forget Lao Han.

Only if I forget about Lao Han, as long as I disappear from the current vortex, it may really be calm.

But how can I forget Lao Han?How can I jump ashore from this vortex and make Lao Han and Lao Zuo completely forget about me?

Did I disappear from Xi'an?Or disappear from the earth?

I am not a fairy, I can float as far as I want.My house is fine, but what about work?Now there is no need to go outside, but the sales commission can get nearly [-] yuan a month. Isn't this a foundation built through hard work?Should I leave Xi'an again, start from scratch in other cities, and start all over again?

I also have the right to love. In the world of mortals, why should I, Xiaohui, be the most holy and pure comrade?No one gave me a golden plaque of "The Great Lover of the Century"!I'm not a god who doesn't eat fireworks, I'm just an ordinary person.I'm just a small person, I don't have official luck, and I can't make a fortune. God gave me a chance to love, why should I miss it? !

Lao Han is the itch in my heart, I can't think about it, every place in my heart will vibrate when I think of it, it's so numb and intoxicating.

The old left is a thorn in my heart, I can't touch it, if I touch it, the softest part of me hurts, it hurts so much that I can't breathe.

Tian Zhenzhen's moodiness makes me linger, but it makes me unable to hate her deeply.If I were her now, what could I do?I may be more impetuous than her.

And that uncomfortable Zhang Wenqing, what the hell is he doing, what is he going to do?

After leaving the West Garden around the city, at the entrance of the alley in Panjia Village, I felt very tired, the soles of my feet were smooth, like riding a cloud.Hunger took all my strength.Yes, I'm going to drink, forget about getting drunk.

In the paomo restaurant, I ordered Hans, and I blew a bottle first in one breath.Two cold platters came, one meat and one vegetarian, tell the boss, let's have a high-quality stir-fry!

I filled three glasses with wine, one for me, right in front of me.One cup for Lao Zuo, Lao Zuo is opposite me, one cup for Lao Han, Lao Han is sitting on my left.My lover should be Lao Han's appearance and Lao Han's rough personality, but it should be Lao Zuo's meticulous care for me!I don't know if there are such people in the world?It should be gone, right?Even if there is, it will not show up in this world until a thousand years later, right?When he shows up, can I meet him?can he touch meI shake my head.

How to let you meet me / At my most beautiful moment for this / I have been praying to Buddha for 500 years / Begging him to let us form a relationship

The Buddha then turned me into a tree/grow beside the road you must pass/be full of flowers carefully under the sun/everything is my hope from the previous life

Please listen carefully when you approach / That trembling leaf is my passion for waiting

Picking up the wine glass, I touched Lao Zuo: I'm sorry, Lao Zuo, I'm really sorry, I can't be your lover.As soon as I raised my hand, I drank the wine.Lao Zuo didn't drink it, he just had hesitation in his eyes.You don't want to drink, do you? Come, Xiaohui will take your place.

I had a drink with Lao Han: brother, Xiaohui likes you, really likes you.For the rest of my life, I don't want to find anyone anymore, you are the end of my road.But can you stop competing with Lao Zuo? I am already extremely guilty of Lao Zuo, so you can't let me, Lao Zuo?Even to give my conscience a moment's respite?Let Lao Zuo's already disappointed and run-on heart slowly calm down?Anyway, I have chosen you, whether you are poor or sick, rich or healthy!Do you also think like me, whether I am young or old, handsome or ugly, you can always like me?

Lao Han didn't speak either, I finished my drink and held up the glass for Lao Han.

When the shop owner served the mutton soak, he gave me a sideways glance.He must have never seen anyone drinking like me. He must have wondered if I might be mentally ill. He patted my shoulder and said with a smile: "Handsome guy, don't dare to drink like this, you will get drunk!"

Seeing that I ignored him, he shook his head and left.

I am really like a lunatic. Strangers cast me with enthusiasm, but I cast enthusiasm with strangers.I don't want to talk, I just want to drink.Maybe, after being drunk, I can get a kind of peace, a kind of tranquility.

The phone rang, but it wasn't Lao Han, it was Meimei.

"Fourth Uncle? Where are you? You haven't gone on a business trip yet, have you? I want to visit you." This time, Meimei didn't smile.

I'm a little dizzy in my head, there are already six empty beer bottles.I heard Meimei talking, but I didn't know what I was going to say.

"Fourth Uncle, Meimei wants to visit you." She repeated softly.

After holding back for a long time, I heard myself burp and said, "Then, where's your dad?"

I feel nauseous, nauseous belching, nasty talking.

"My dad? Let's not talk about him, okay, you are my fourth uncle, shouldn't I go to see my fourth uncle?" Meimei was heard smiling cautiously.

Hehe, the little girl wants to see me, but can I see people when I drink so crookedly?It's really not the time to see you.

"Uh, Meimei, fourth uncle is at work now. How about this, I'll call you today when I'm free, uh, don't worry, fourth uncle will go back after finishing his work. Where's your father?"

"Is Fourth Uncle drinking? Why does it sound like you're drinking? Alone? What should I do if I'm drunk?" Meimei was a little unhappy.

Wanting to find someone to rescue me, I looked up and looked around. There was no meal in the restaurant, and there were no other customers.I was anxious, but someone put his hand on my shoulder and shouted: "Haha, Xiaohui!", I turned my head and looked, Chen Hanzhang!

It’s really where we don’t meet each other in life. I put my index finger on my lips and motioned him to keep quiet.Meimei must have heard his greeting just now.

Meimei said, "Uncle Si, since there is someone in front of you, I won't talk about it. You call me another day, and Meimei will talk to Uncle Fourth. Drink less wine, it will hurt people."

After hanging up the phone, I saw that Chen Hanzhang had sat down in front of me with a smile.

"Haha, who are you drinking with? How come there are three wine glasses but only one pair of chopsticks? It's so strange!" Looking at the table, Chen Hanzhang kept tsk-tsk.

Add a pair of cups and chopsticks, add a dish, and fill Chen Hanzhang with wine: "Brother Chen, it's really strange to meet you here today."

Although I don't feel very good about Chen Hanzhang, it is a happy thing to have someone to drink with me at this time.

"Oh, I just went to Taoyuan Road to do some business and passed by here. Take a rest, I'm hungry, and I didn't have time to eat at noon. I'm so happy to meet a handsome guy!"

There was light in Chen Hanzhang's eyes, and he was a little overjoyed: "Do you live nearby? Why don't you see Lao Han? Are you not together today?"

He asked Lao Han, I was noncommittal, and said with a smile, "I live in front, come, brother Chen, drink!"

After a glass of wine, Chen Hanzhang mentioned Lao Han again: "Recently, how is he? I thought you two should be like glue, why are you drinking here alone? You drank so much, did you quarrel?"

As soon as I talked about quarreling, my heart immediately overturned the five-flavored bottle, and tears rolled in my eyes.

Chen Hanzhang reached out his hand, patted the back of my hand and said, "Okay, okay, I know, it must be Lao Han's stubborn temper that offended you. Why are you still like this? It's really hard to change your nature! If you want to say, Lao Han Han is not bad, but, just..."

Chen Hanzhang hesitated and hesitated a bit.

just what?It is rare to hear people gossip about Lao Han, but today, I am very interested in what Chen Hanzhang said.

Chen Hanzhang and Lao Han are not in an ordinary relationship.Been in the army to be like that.The difference is that Lao Han has been demobilized, while Chen Hanzhang is proud of himself.After changing jobs, he became the captain of the criminal police step by step.As for the specific level, I don't want to know, but I definitely can't lower it.He continues to have contacts with Lao Han now, and I don't want to bother to guess the reason.

I don't dare to guess, what should I do if I really guess a very realistic result that I don't want to accept?

Thinking of this, I am very confused about my future.

However, there is one thing, I understand very well that Chen Hanzhang should be very familiar with Lao Han, he is very clear about Lao Han's character and behavior.

"You mean he's a stubborn ass?" I chuckled, even though my heart was a little bitter.

"Who doesn't know he's stubborn? But, as far as I can see, he's different in front of you now. His eyes are different when he looks at you!"

"Is there? Why can't I feel it?" I was a little happy.

Chen Hanzhang smiled and shook his head.I think he's kind of cute when he says that.When Chen Hanzhang didn't look at me, his eyes were absolutely firm.

"However, to be honest, Lao Han is still very lucky to meet you!" It seemed to be talking to himself, and it seemed to be telling me that Chen Hanzhang didn't clink glasses with me, and he drank a glass of wine by himself.

I staggered and filled him with wine, even though my mind was still clear, my hands were already a little awkward, and my tongue was a little stiff: "Brother Chen, you didn't finish what you just said. The old Korean is not bad, but what?"

Chen Hanzhang didn't answer my words, and wiped the hops on his lips with a big slap: "Xiaohui, we don't need to explain some things very clearly, we all know them very well. Some things can be played for fun, but don't be too serious." Seriously. If you are too serious, you will reach a dead end, and you will not even have a chance to retreat. This old Han, what are you doing? Are you still stupid at this age? Come on, come on, you didn’t drink well, let me drink a few more glasses with you! "

I was a little confused, I didn't understand what Chen Hanzhang was talking about, my mind was really full of paste.

It seems that there is no hope for Chen Hanzhang to expose Lao Han to me.What is the relationship between the two of them?After all, he was still closer to old Han Xin.

Chen Hanzhang's alcohol capacity is better than mine, and after not drinking a few more bottles, I already feel top-heavy, and my breath is getting heavier.I heard him say: "Your face is a little pale, you can't drink anymore. Lao Han said that you can drink very well. I really thought I met my opponent today!"

Chen Hanzhang's voice slowly started to move away from me. He leaned into my ear and said, "Where do you live? I'll take you back!"

I struggled to say my name, and quickly hid in the chaos.

After what seemed like a long time, I felt as if I was going up the stairs.Because my hand was bumped against the wall from time to time, it was a bit raw and painful.Someone supported me, pulled my clothes around my waist, and muttered: "Raise your legs, go up the stairs, we will be there soon! Hehe, it's so heavy."

I was still a little conscious, but my whole body was weak and my legs and feet were weak.I opened my sleepy eyes and saw that I was still leaning on Chen Hanzhang's shoulder.

At the door of the house, Chen Hanzhang took out the key bag from my body, smiled, and took the opportunity to grab one while I was in the way.There was not even a shadow of a person in the stairway. I wanted to struggle, but he was firmly pressed against the wall.

Before Chen Hanzhang opened the anti-theft door, the door opened from the inside, and it turned out to be Lao Han standing at the door!

I just remembered that since he came back and couldn't get in the door last time, I gave him a key.

Seeing that I was drunk like a pool of mud, Lao Han immediately came over to help.Chen Hanzhang felt embarrassed, froze for a moment, and hurried over to help.

The room was smoky, and I don't know how many cigarettes Lao Han had smoked.

After putting me on the bed, Lao Han glanced at me, then turned to Chen Hanzhang and asked, "Did the two of you go out to drink?"

"I met him, don't get me wrong. It's your man, I didn't touch him, haha." Chen Hanzhang was indeed a little embarrassed.

"Really?" Old Han asked.

Chen Hanzhang was a little confused: "What are you doing? Old Han, if you really want to touch me, will I send him back? I know very well that you are as good as you are. Besides, why have I never seen you fuck me like this before? Heart? Good guy, are you serious? You want to live with him, don’t you? Don’t be naive! I think you are playing with fire, I advise you to turn around, don’t get your nose bruised, your face swollen, and your intestines green with regret. Alright, I'm leaving!"

Chen Hanzhang went downstairs.

I felt like I was falling apart, watching Lao Han open the window and listening to him tossing and turning in the kitchen and living room.

After a while, he brought a glass of water.

"Open your mouth!" Old Han held his breath, his voice was not pleasant at all.

I turned my face the other way, without opening my mouth or looking at him.If you want to ask the uncle to drink water, don't even think about it!No one said, I was drunk to death, what does it have to do with you?Despite the lack of physical strength, my brain is not paralyzed!

"Open your mouth, do you hear? Drink some sugar water to sober up!" Old Han was angry and anxious.

I still ignore him.It's so cool to be stubborn with him like this.

"Okay, my father! Come and drink." Seeing that I was still dishonest, he was really anxious: "Why are you also a stubborn coward? You really gnawed a dead cow."

When Lao Han saw that I didn't open my mouth, he was angry and distressed, so he put the cup on the bedside table and gave a bad meal.

Then they rummaged through boxes and cabinets and searched in the bathroom.

I secretly twisted my face, seeing him anxious, and felt really relieved.

After a while, he came out with a hot towel, and the strong smell of toilet water radiated from the towel he was holding.

Lao Han started to rub my temples, and I tried to cover my head with my hands, but he pulled my hands away vigorously.

He then rubbed my elbow. I tried to pull my arm back, but he held it firmly.

Then he undressed me and wiped my chest.

The stimulating smell of toilet water makes me feel comfortable all over.Gradually, I gained some strength.I blocked his hand with my hand, and the two of them grabbed each other's hands.When he rubbed up hard, I held his hand, leaned over, stuffed his thumb and the corner of the towel into my mouth, and bit hard.

He didn't struggle, just closed his eyes and clenched his teeth.

But I didn't slack off in the slightest, I still hated him so much.

"Dog!" Old Han scolded.

"You're a donkey!" I yelled back, letting go of him, his thumb had obvious deep tooth marks.

"You are a dog like a wolf!"

"You are a cruel donkey!"

"dog!"

"Donkey!" I was still reluctant.

"The dog doesn't want the family, but the family misses the dog!" Lao Han kicked off his shoes, lay on top of me, pressed his lips against my mouth, and a teardrop fell on my face, very hot, very hot.

I also wanted to call him a heartless big wild donkey. I just finished mouthing, but was blocked by the soft tongue, so I had to swallow those words reluctantly.