dance like a butterfly

As soon as I heard that Lao Han was in a hurry, I couldn't help but get angry.

Is this still old Han?Is this what my old Han looks like?No matter how anxious you are, no matter how impatient you are, there are children in front of you!In the future, it's better to take one shot and two parts. If I go back, what will the children think?Do you think Xiaohui is just an embroidered pillow with no quality to make her father angry?Is it a person who is not as good as her and can't be reassured?I'm almost getting annoyed.Okay, as long as you old Han can ignore you like this, and I, Xiaohui, don't have any nostalgia for you, so I'm on the right track with you.Let's give it a try and see who has the hardest shell!

Tears seem to be my business card, covering me anytime and anywhere.I was so angry that I couldn't speak, and my hands were shaking.

Hearing that I was even more irritable than him, Lao Han didn't speak again.

Maybe he was waiting for me to speak and I didn't.

I was waiting for him to speak and he didn't.

They just waited for each other empty at both ends of the phone, neither of them hung up the phone.In an instant, there was an invisible, intangible but palpable thing, dark and cool, like a net from a distance, it spread over me and caught my heart firmly in an instant. .I wanted to struggle, but felt tired, terrified and powerless.

I know that if this continues, the road will become narrower and narrower, and I will have no room for maneuver as big as a palm.This state makes me sad.

"Hey, fourth uncle! Where are you now? Let me go and see how you are?"

After a while, Meimei picked up the phone and asked cautiously on the other end.

"Meimei, no need, tell your dad, I'm away on a business trip, tell your dad to take care."

After hanging up the phone, I just wanted to slap myself a few times.In my heart, I still have a lot of reluctance for Lao Han. I can definitely call him back, apologize to him, give him a step up and give me a step up, and then we can live in peace after admitting our mistakes and continue to live what we want That simple and happy life.What's more, this kind of life itself is so precious, and it is in the jealousy and frame of Tian Zhenzhen and who knows who.Why am I so careless?What am I not the biggest idiot in the world?Could it be that if words are rushed, I will burn the happiness I have been looking forward to for many years into ashes so easily?My head must have been crushed by the door, it must have been leaking water, or it must have been filled with nothing but paste!

However, it was hard to get over the water, and I was driven to a dead end by myself!

I am indeed walking a tightrope. If Lao Han really loves me without any selfishness, he will come to me, but if he chooses to give up, what will I do in the future?

I arrived at Yuxiang Gate, and standing in the bright autumn sun in Xi'an, I didn't know if I was hungry or what, I was sweating profusely.

Standing in the autumn sun is not an option. The world is full of people, but it is so strange that it is scary.

Turn into the alley next to Liuhua Hotel, where there is a food street.In a Yangling dipping water noodle restaurant, I ordered a portion of noodles.Looking at the colorful juice, despite the tangy aroma, seeing the green barley in the pot, and the belt noodles in the clear water, even though I was hungry, I didn't even have the strength to lift my chopsticks.

Putting the chopsticks on the juice bowl, I said, "Boss, pay the bill!"

When I got home and saw this unpopular room, I lay down on the bed, covered my head with the pillow, and sobbed. From sobbing to howling, I cried like a bird.

No one comes to persuade me, and I don't need anyone to persuade me, birth and death, floating life for a lifetime.If it is mine, it cannot run away; if it is not mine, it cannot be grasped.

The old man said, you can't stand the wild ones, and you can't beat the close ones away.I don't want to go back to Lao Zuo, yes, I don't want to go back, good horses don't want to turn back.Besides, now Tian Zhenzhen is watching with wide eyes.Don't look at what she said so sweetly, if it really comes to what she said, my little life is still in her hands at any time.If she is happy, she can save my life for a few days, but if she is not happy, she will die immediately!

Does Lao Han really love me?really love me?Does he love me for love of me, or does he love me for his own sake?Why did he say things like Lao Zuo today?You have the ability to go to Hetian with real knives and guns, and talk about the defeated old Zuo, don't you look like a woman?

I bother!You are still a man!

I had enough crying, Ah Q, I found some good reasons for myself, and went to take a shower.

Resign yourself to fate!I can't live if I should die, and I can't find it if I lose it.

As soon as I wet my hair, the phone rang.

Is it Lao Han?

I hope it's Lao Han. If he sincerely apologizes to me, and if he comes to pick me up, I can show him a few times, and after I have saved enough face, I will follow him back down the slope.I can't find the most ideal partner, as long as Lao Han's attitude towards Lao Zuo is restrained in front of me in the future, it will be fine.With a man with such a masculine face, rich experience, and willing to bow his head in front of me, my whole life will be done. Why do I still like him?

He didn't even wrap a bath towel, and rushed into the bedroom with a head of foam on his hair, grabbing the phone on the bed.Looking at the number, I don't know it.Suddenly a little frustrated, answering the call, but someone dialed the wrong number.

"Sorry!" The other party said softly.

Hehe, I just laughed, said a few polite words, and then hung up.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" If this is what Lao Han said to me, that would be great!

Hong Kong female writer Yi Shu has a classic saying, which means this: Why do Chinese families love to quarrel?Just because you are harsh to your own people and polite to strangers, if you turn it upside down, nothing will happen in the world!Ha ha, it seems reasonable.

I sang the song and continued to take a shower. I just applied the shower gel all over my body, and when I looked at the handsome guy in the big mirror who seemed relaxed and complacent, the phone rang again. Is it Lao Han?He ran over at the speed of a [-]-meter sprint and picked up the phone to see, oh my god, it's Tian Zhenzhen!My heart is going to be as stiff as if I was in an ice coffin!

It seems that Lao Han won't call me anymore, I feel so desperate that I want to die!

"Hey, Xiaohui, are you busy? Sister-in-law wants to see you!"

Hearing Tian Zhenzhen speak in such a tone, I was about to faint.This woman's temperament has changed too quickly!

In my impression, Tian Zhenzhen should be a kind of virtuous, elegant and noble woman. She always has a calm smile and graceful dancing posture, and she is always graceful and moderate in her manners.Even Lao Zuo said that she was not what she is now.But a few times we met, she was simply a wicked woman.To be honest, even though I have to see her now, I still have lingering fears.She's so good now that it's overwhelming.

I'm waiting for her in the West Garden around the city.

I want to choose a place with a lot of people.Last time, like a horror movie, it made me shudder from time to time.

Looking at the clear and calm water of the moat, looking at the stream of tourists, and anxiously waiting for Lao Han's call.The bright afternoon sun warmed my back, and the cool autumn wind cooled my chest.

Tian Zhenzhen came late.Feeling that there is someone beside him, he turned his head, only to find that Tian Zhenzhen was smiling with bright eyes.

I stood up, and before I could greet her, she grabbed my arm and sat on the bench side by side, my right side began to feel uncomfortable.

"Xiaohui is such a polite and good boy, no wonder everyone likes it!" Tian Zhenzhen laughed.

"Hehe, you are sister-in-law, I respect you very much." I blushed.

"It seems that you work very leisurely, and you have more free time, which is really enviable."

"Much ado about nothing!" I'm not trying to argue with her, I don't want to offend her now, but I have to get her to the point, the more polite she is to me, the more afraid I am.

However, Tian Zhenzhen didn't seem to want to talk to me at all today. She just wanted to chat with me. She asked me about my job, my school, my college life, my home in Hua County, and me. childhood life.

Whispering to a woman and smiling lightly, I almost believe that this woman is a very graceful woman with elegant temperament.

Before I could ask her, she told me slowly, with a smile of mature femininity.Telling about her first love during college, her enviable family of cadres, her acquaintance with Lao Zuo, and her past love.

Slowly, I realized how much sadness this seemingly peaceful woman was hiding in her heart.Just like a tracker on the river bank, watching the boat being sucked into the vortex in the river, he is still struggling with the cable alone, hoping to drag the boat up.

However, I have never intended to become that vortex, and I never thought of dragging down the ship she loved deeply.

what is itWhat is it that made me and Lao Zuo Lao Han go on this road?

What did i do wrong?

What did Lao Han do wrong?

What did Lao Zuo do wrong again?

I want to condemn myself, but I can't find a valid reason.Yes, can't find it.

However, Tian Zhenzhen thinks that I hurt her!

"Sister-in-law, I know what you want to say." After she finished speaking, I watched her pinch a red leaf beside her and fiddled with it in her palm, I said softly.

She raised her face, the attachment in her eyes was still rippling.

"Sister-in-law, if you really think that I have ruined your family, I would like to say sorry to you!" I sincerely.

"Sister-in-law, have you ever thought that the root cause is not with me. As long as the old left is thoughtful about this, it will be a matter of time!" I am not arguing, the world, where is Xi'an, who looks younger than me There are so many comrades, Lao Zuo is a comrade, right?He may bury his true feelings forever, and he will always be loyal and considerate to you Tian Zhenzhen until he grows old, will he never change his mind?

"Xiaohui, what you said makes sense. In fact, Lao Zuo now has more feelings for you than anyone else. You know, this is a fact." Tian Zhenzhen said these words slowly, her sadness, once again The air quickly surrounded her and me.

I was overwhelmed by her statement, she was right.Lao Zuo, even though I don't love him, he is the one who gave me his true love.Such true love made Tian Zhenzhen almost lose all hope.In her eyes, I will always be a heinous sinner.

"What do you want to do?" I asked weakly, my voice like a gossamer.

"What can I do? I don't want to get a divorce, even if it's a family that seems to fit together! Do you know what a family means to a woman? Without a family, no matter how capable and virtuous this woman is, she is nothing!"

Tian Zhenzhen was a little anxious, his face flushed.

' "So what do you want me to do?" I hesitated.

If I can really satisfy Tian Zhenzhen as much as possible without losing the principle of my life, it doesn't matter if I sacrifice a little, and I can make up for even a little mistake I caused.Besides, I have nothing now!Even Lao Han, who I was optimistic about before, is now at a loss, and my heart is as empty as the ocean.

"Come back. You come back!" Tian Zhenzhen said quietly.

"Come back? What does it mean to come back? How to come back?" In fact, I already understood what she meant.

"Xiaohui, I have done a lot of extreme things during this period of time. You have to be considerate of me. I must have left you with the impression of a shrew. As long as you come back, we can talk about anything."

"Tell me." I smiled.

"You leave Lao Han and continue with Lao Zuo. Then the two of us will find a way to make Lao Zuo gradually tire of you." Tian Zhenzhen finally expressed her intentions.

Hehe, leave Lao Han?Although I don't want to, maybe in Lao Han's heart, I am already the dog he no longer wants!

Thinking of this, my heart trembles, and I also feel helpless desolation, which makes me feel inferior.

"Do you think this will work?" I asked with a smile.

"It will work, trust me!"

Perhaps in Tian Zhenzhen's opinion, this method works, but Tian Zhenzhen doesn't care about how cruel it is to use such a strategy and how much harm it will do to Lao Zuo. She just wants to take one step at a time. The family is still in the sun, even if it is back to life!

But in this way, even if Lao Han still loves me, I will never be able to return to Lao Han.

In the end, the old left will hate me to the bone.

I would kill three people at the same time with the same intention as a knife: Lao Han, Lao Zuo, and myself.

Who dares to say now that Tian Zhenzhen will definitely achieve the most ideal result in the end?

Seeing that I didn't say anything, Tian Zhenzhen was a little anxious: "Xiaohui, I know, it's hard to do this for you. I know, you don't like my old Zuo. Let's do this, as long as you want, I will make it up to you!"

"As long as you come back, I'll give you money! Fifty thousand a year!"

I shook my head.

"Sixty thousand, or eighty thousand! I can give it to you now, let's go to the bank to transfer the account. We will definitely settle this matter within a year, and you don't have to worry about conflicts between me and Lao Han anymore."

Hehe, in Tian Zhenzhen's eyes, my youth can also be sold.

"What if I say no?" I stood up with a smile, and my words were not speculative. I decided to plastic-pack my youth and put it in my own home, so that I could admire it by myself.

"Why don't you want to?"

"I don't think this is a good way. The really good way is that you let go of your aggressive character, give Lao Zuo more care and love, and let him think about your family as much as possible. By the way, I and Lao Zuo Bye bye Han too, you don't have to worry about having an enemy anymore!"

My tears flowed down.

I turned around and walked away, leaving Tian Zhenzhen, this beautiful woman, there for a moment.