dance like a butterfly

It used to be such a long way from the soul of poetry to Furong Garden, but now I walk back holding hands with Lao Han again, but it feels different.

Tian Zhenzhen is too hot and ruthless.

If I was really splashed with corrosive liquid just now, can Lao Han still hold my hand now and walk in this evening where the sky is full of colorful clouds and the sunset is infinitely beautiful?Will he treat me as ugly as before?Can you still tell me: Xiaohui, brother really likes you, and brother expects to spend the rest of his life with you, is that the case?Should I torture Lao Han with this sentence?If Lao Han gave me an affirmative answer, would I believe what he said was true?What should I do if Lao Han talks about him?I dare not think any further.Life is often full of many unknowables, because there are so many unknowables that make this world full of singing and crying.

I even think, I consider whether these have practical significance.

It suddenly occurred to me, I mean hypothetical, assuming that I really promised Tian Zhenzhen just now, and returned to Lao Zuo for the sake of Lao Han's peace, would Tian Zhenzhen really give me a bright future?Although I don't expect him and his wife to eat, can Tian Zhenzhen really tolerate a man who covets her strong family all the time?Can I really rest easy with this face of mine, or rather, my little life?

Tears slid down my cheeks silently, but Lao Han didn't see it, he just held my hand and walked forward slowly.

At this moment, what is Lao Han thinking?Is he thinking about how he will deal with Tian Zhenzhen's unexpected army in the future, or whether we should twist into a rope and advance and retreat together?Or was he frightened by Tian Zhenzhen's challenge, and he was going to withdraw his troops and hang up the card to avoid the battle?

There are very few tourists in the park today. It was almost evening, and the autumn cold was everywhere. Suddenly, I had a whim, in this park that was once favored by Emperor Wen of the Sui Dynasty and Emperor Xuanzong of the Tang Dynasty, how the millennium of romance passed by. , in this infinite autumn evening, why can't I be the protagonist here?As long as Lao Han can really promise me now, even if it is a lie, if it can touch me for the rest of my life and make me feel that I have never failed the word true love in this life, for Lao Han, I will be killed tomorrow , I have no regrets!

I remember the first time I came to Furong Garden, it happened that Zhao Wenxuan and Fan Bingbing's TV series "Datang Furong Garden" was currently on the air.When Tang Xuanzong took a lock of her hair after the death of Concubine Yang Gui and said, "This is all that is left of my life", I have always expected that when my youth fades away, if someone looks at my relics, they can also When I said such warm words to my soul, I thought, I really have not wasted my life!

Now, the only keepsake with Lao Han is the jade finger.

If people really go to the empty building and think about people when they see things, what will Lao Han think?

I don't know, I only know now that I should enjoy the happiness in front of me!Enjoy the tenderness in Lao Han's palm at the moment!

Is not it?Isn't Lao Han still holding my hand in such a fairy-tale sunset?

Lao Han stopped at some point.When he saw that I was crying, he didn't speak, and he didn't move forward to comfort me, but he just stood there and looked at me with a smile.

The afterglow of the setting sun whitewashed his mature and upright face.I suddenly felt that he really looks a bit like Zhao Wenxuan, but he is more mature than Zhao Wenxuan.The years are really like a carving knife, carving away his youthful years, making him like an autumn maple, swaggering in my feelings.

Seeing him smiling, I said, "Brother, what are you laughing at?"

"Xiaohui, don't be sad, I just want to tell you once, as long as my brother is still alive, you will live well!"

Lao Han's words shocked me right now.

After a long silence, I only said one sentence: "Brother, I want to go to the dragon boat now, and I want to take a tour of Xiaonan Lake with you."

Lao Han was very excited immediately: "Then what are you waiting for? Let's go!"

Lao Han dragged me and ran to the Longfang ticket office.

It was already off-duty time, the administrator of the Dragon Boat ticket office was closing the door, and the driver on the Dragon Boat was also tying the cable on the shore.

Lao Han immediately blocked the conductor out of breath, and said in Henan words: "Master, I am from Kaifeng, and I will go back by train in the evening. I am from Henan who came here just because of the name. My brother and I really want to take the Furong to Furong by Dragon Boat. Going around the park, how much is a ticket, I will pay ten times the price, please be sure to do it conveniently!"

In the northern suburbs of Xi'an, thousands of Henan people fled from famine due to the flooding of the Yellow River before liberation and gathered north of the railway station.Because many people came with burdens at that time, many aborigines in Xi'an called the northerners from Henan the "Henan Dan".No idea.Lao Han could speak Henan dialect fluently, and he pretended to be so realistic, my heart suddenly burst into joy, and I almost choked up tears.

Old Han saw that the conductor was hesitant, so he turned his face, winked at me, and said with a pitiful and anxious face: "This is my brother, why don't you ask him how much he wants to see such a good tour in Xi'an?" Order! He is always pestering to come, brother, you tell the elder sister, didn’t you just say that you would make a fuss with your brother if you didn’t go back by dragon boat!”

The age of the conductor seemed to be a few years older than me. Lao Han’s words about the eagerness of foreigners to see Furong Garden had already moved her a lot, and the addition of the words “big sister” made her even more convinced that she should be lenient.

The conductor looked at Lao Han, then at me, and muttered, "You two don't look like brothers, you just don't look like you." Then he said, "But, I'll sell you two tickets. A round of the dragon boat is only enough for gas money. Although I can understand the feelings of you outsiders, we are still a business anyway. How about this, don’t say it ten times, spread it like that, say that we Xi’an people are not kind enough to slaughter foreigners. I really want to swim in the lake, so I’ll pay double.”

So Lao Han bought the ticket gratefully.

The hand is still in Lao Han's hand.

Dragon Boat is a siren boat with two floors.On the head of the deck of the first floor of the ship, a dragon head more than five meters high is carved, and the stern also drags a long and warped dragon tail. From front to back, it is painted bright golden yellow. 120 passenger seats, and now it's just the two of us.The two drivers and passengers are in the driver's cab on the first floor.Lao Han and I went to the second floor.

The autumn wind fluttered, relaxing the skirts and leaders of Lao Han and me.The vast lake water was dyed half red by the colorful clouds, and the brilliant lights and neon lights had already decorated Ziyun Tower.Ladies Hall, Imperial Banquet Palace, Fanglin Garden, Fengming Nine Heavens Theater, all like women are slowly changing their clothes during the interval between night and day.Not far away, the music from the fountain in the Big Wild Goose Pagoda Square floated over. On the dragon boat, you can also see the neon water column of the fountain in the North Square.

The autumn night in Xi'an is coming in a blink of an eye.

Lao Han suddenly hugged me tightly in his arms, so he couldn't help pressing his face against mine.

"Xiaohui, you don't know how worried my brother is about you when you come to see this woman today!"

"What are you worried about?"

"This woman is definitely not a kind person!"

"You beat her today. Men shouldn't beat women."

"Do you think she's still a woman? Should women beat men? Not only did she beat you, she even threw something on your face today. If it's really sulfuric acid, she might as well just kill me!"

"If today, what she poured out was really sulfuric acid, and my face was ruined, would you still like me?" I couldn't help but shudder, but couldn't help but blurted out, asking such a silly question.

Old Han froze for a moment, obviously, he hadn't thought about this question.

"Will you still like me? When I don't have a pretty face, when you face an ugly monster, will you turn around?" I continued to ask calmly.

I remember last winter, in a small town in Jiaozuo, Henan, I went to lodge in the evening.It just so happened that the whole town had a power outage that day, and after walking around for a long time, I saw a sign that said "Hotel", so I went to knock on the door.After a while, someone answered, and when the sound of slow footsteps sounded from the room and was getting closer to me, I was relieved to see someone lighting a candle through the door whose red paint had long since peeled off. In this boring, desolate and cold foreign land, I no longer have to worry about having nowhere to live.When the door slammed, an old voice asked, "Do you want to stay at the hotel?"

I turned my face, my God, what did I see!In the flickering candlelight, judging from the faded blue coat on her body, she should be an old woman.However, her hair was very short, with only a few gray and white hairs that could be counted, and her scalp was freckled.Looking at that face again, where the eyebrows are located, there is no hair. For her, eyebrows may only be a concept.On the face, the facial features are dislocated, and the muscles on the face are thicker than the other. There is no smooth streamline like a normal person at all, and it is completely ruined in a ferocious manner.Her mouth was still crooked, and she was leaking when she spoke.This image is the scariest face I have ever seen in my life.I screamed and fled in panic.Later, in a guest house next to the town government, I heard from the waiter inside that the scary old lady had been doused with corrosive liquid.

I thought, if Tian Zhenzhen really poured sulfuric acid on me, my facial features would be distorted to be the same as that old lady.

Thinking of this, I got goosebumps all over my body, my heart tightened, and I twitched convulsively.

Lao Han didn't make a sound, but lowered his head.

I am a little sad.

It's no wonder that King You of Zhou smiled for the sake of Baosi, played with the princes in the flames of fire, and King Zhou of Yin despised the country for Daji.From this point of view, if Lao Han is to be honest, he will definitely say that he likes my appearance more!Suddenly, my heart was cooler than the autumn water in Xiaonan Lake.

"Xiaohui, listen to the truth. There is an old saying: 'Rough and thin, no one in the world thinks men are ugly.' That means that men only need to have guilt. , Appearance also occupies a large proportion. At first, I liked your appearance very much. I think your appearance is the man who makes me fall in love with you among the thousands of people I have seen. Later, Brother can see that my brother is an independent, kind and good brother. So, your appearance and inner body are already a whole. Brother likes this whole, and both are indispensable! If you ask brother such a question, Don't you find it cruel?"

After talking for a long time, what Lao Han meant was that if I lose my appearance, he will still leave!Involuntarily, I covered my face with my hands.

I just remembered, and only then did I deeply understand why Lao Han knelt down when he saw me self-harm that day. Was he kneeling down on me?No, he was kneeling himself!

"Xiaohui, my brother asks you, if we put it upside down, if my brother is as ugly as a pig, will you like him? You are not the same, you don't even want to see it at first glance, let alone you will be like us now You came so close! Originally, I shouldn’t have said these things, but your question is just a hypothesis, and such a hypothesis is too extreme.” Old Han looked at me fixedly, with reproach and pity in his eyes . "People, without the first step, there will be no second step. Without the initial mutual attraction, such emotional integration can be described as talking on paper."

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lao Han gently held me in his arms again.His chin rested on my shoulder, stroking my back: "Xiaohui, now, the two of us are just grasshoppers tied to the same rope, don't try to jump on anyone. In this society, we are blindly giving way. , can’t solve the problem. Just like there are many unreasonable people, you must not think that they don’t understand reason. In fact, they understand better than anyone else. However, if he is reasonable, he will suffer. This is a law of the jungle In today’s society, only when you are strong can you do what you want. Then others will not dare to do whatever they want, and you can protect yourself.”

It is not unreasonable to hear Lao Han say this.

I feel relieved.

Lao Han put his lips together and kissed me.

This kind of kiss, like timely rain, resolved all my grievances.

Night began to fall, a crescent moon rose from the east, the vast night sky was like dark blue velvet, and a few stars blinked their coveted eyes.

"Xiaohui, for your handsome face, for my brother's poor feelings, for your future, we can't lose to Tian Zhenzhen, do you understand?"

"What are you going to do?"

"It's very simple, pay attention to her movements at any time, and adjust measures at any time!"

Always pay attention to the movement?Easier said than done.How to pay attention?Don't be afraid of thieves stealing, but be afraid of thieves thinking about it.Lao Han slaps Tian Zhenzhen twice, will Tian Zhenzhen give up?A woman's heart is a needle in the bottom of the sea, and I believe that this woman can do what she says.Now, between him and Lao Zuo, the original dark seam has clearly cracked.Even if I didn't intend to be a victim of her pampered life, it also smashed her self-esteem and face, making it impossible for her to find a balance point.She would be hysterical, for sure!Besides, when she goes back today, she will definitely quarrel with Lao Zuo.It's all right for Lao Zuo to swallow his anger. If he calls for a divorce again, will the roof collapse?

I didn't want to think about it anymore, and I suddenly felt very tired.

Old Han smiled, smiling so calmly, as if this secret war had only just begun, and he had already seen the end.

"Are you going to find Zhang Wenqing?"

"meeting"

"Aren't you afraid that Zhang Wenqing will betray you?"

"Afraid, not afraid!"

"Who else are you going to ask for help?"

"Xiaohui, don't worry, I don't want you to worry now, but we will be fine." Old Han took my hand and gently rubbed the back of my hand.

"Will it hurt Lao Zuo?"

"Why do you still feel sorry for him?"

"Tian Zhenzhen's actions are all personal actions, not the meaning of the old left."

"Aren't they a family? You say that, and I feel bad." I looked at Lao Han's sour expression, and I couldn't guess whether he hurt Lao Zuo because I protected him.

"If Tian Zhenzhen hadn't been so aggressive, I would have lived in peace." Old Han added.

The old left is like a big mountain. It used to be, and still is, it weighs me down.

Old Han suddenly laughed: "Xiaohui, let's not talk about this anymore. Look, how beautiful the night view of the Furong Garden is!"

But I close my eyes, the world makes me tired one after another.

The magnificent, heavily made-up Furong Garden suddenly doesn't belong to me, and I don't belong to it anymore.I just feel that the autumn cold is getting heavier, and even though Lao Han hugs me, I feel that he is a bit strange.