dance like a butterfly

The setting sun shrouded this woman warmly in a halo. When she saw me, she smiled and waved to me at the bridge.

It amazes me!

People say that women are fickle.

But Tian Zhenzhen became what he is today, but it made me strange and surprised me.I doubt whether I have met this person in front of me.

When I came to her, I gave her a smile.

No matter how many secrets this woman hides in her heart that I don't know, and no matter how careful she is, if she can give me a smile, I can return her etiquette. I know what it means to reciprocate.

Maybe it's because I smiled naturally, Tian Zhenzhen's smile was a little embarrassed: "Xiaohui, I want to talk to you."

"Sister-in-law, just say what you have to say, I'm here to listen to you."

"Xiaohui, if so many things hadn't happened before, if I met you for the first time today, I would have a very, very good impression of you!"

"Actually, not anymore."

Tian Zhenzhen glanced at me, swallowed what he said, and fell silent for a while.

I can guess that Tian Zhenzhen has carefully designed the opening remarks for our meeting in the afternoon.There must be many options, and she will adjust which one to implement in due course.

We didn't speak, and walked slowly into the garden. The 100-meter-long white rainbow bridge was dazzling in the autumn sun, and a stream of blue waves poured into Xiaonan Lake from south to north.The air is fresh and clear, probably because of the continuous rain in the past two days, there are not many tourists in the garden. From the Rainbow Bridge to the Ziyun Building, Nuoda's garden looks very empty and lonely.Only then did I understand why this woman asked me to come to Furong Garden.

Looking at the vast clear water in front of you, looking at the ladies' buildings towering in the distance, maybe many emotions can really calm down.

Tian Zhenzhen didn't speak, and looked away from time to time, her heart must be churning back and forth.

Walking up the corridor of Caixia Pavilion, Tian Zhenzhen did not leave, and motioned to sit on the bench under the corridor.

Looking at the water of the lake that day, the cleverness reminded me of the sunset and the solitary bird flying together, and the autumn water is the same color as the sky. I thought that I could no longer fight with this woman. Let her take a step, and I will take a step for myself chess.What could be more precious than two days of peace?This kind of comradely complex has already given people too much burden. Whether it is lingering on one's last breath or living with a smile, it makes people feel anxious at any time.Aren't you just competitive?Well, I will let you get what you want, and three kind words will be used as money.

"Sister-in-law, I know you are very angry, and I can understand it. If I were you, I would definitely think and do the same as you."

Hearing what I said, Tian Zhenzhen seems to have found the next step.

"Xiaohui, do you really think so?"

I nodded, can I not think so?I'm not here to visit the Furong Garden. Besides, just to visit, Lao Han is still outside.

Tian Zhenzhen stroked his temples.On her high-combed temples, there is a purple magnolia, which is not very big, adding a bit of charm to this delicate-looking woman.I also discovered that her eyebrows are thin and long, not trimmed, her nose is also delicate, her oval face is lightly powdered, and she has nice teeth when she smiles.Although she is in her mid-mature, her charm still exists.

This is the first time I have faced Tian Zhenzhen, just because she is calm.

At the same time, I also fell into inexplicable sadness.

If Lao Zuo was not a comrade, he could have lived an enviable dependent life with his wife.The old Zuo and Tian Zhenzhen both have enviable jobs and not low incomes.One stayed in the army for so many years, and after changing jobs, he worked in a prestigious university. He is physically strong and has a sense of responsibility. He knows pain and heat.One is an associate editor in a magazine, has a higher education, has a pretty face, and takes care of her family like a hen guards her chicks.They can be on the tree-lined road, spend the time before the moon, raise their eyebrows together, and hold hands to grow old together.And just because Lao Zuo is like me, now there is a lot of trouble, how can people not be angry?

But when I think about it again, isn't Lao Zuo uncomfortable?

"Xiaohui, as far as I am concerned, although I sympathize and understand your same-sex feeling, it is only theoretical. When I knew that because of this reason, Lao Zuo slowly lost part of his responsibility to me. , I really can't accept it."

Pigeons flew over from the lake all the time, looked at us curiously, and after confirming that it was safe, they approached us cooing.It definitely wants to take a rest, it is tired from flying, and it doesn't want to compete with its companions, so it wants to be alone.

I want to say, sister-in-law, there is no reason for love.People, after waking up from a dream and realizing their true colors, are actually very scared and helpless.However, in a person's life, apart from giving, there is really too little left for himself.As an individual, everyone has the right to pursue their own desires.

But, I can't say, I know, what am I doing here.I can't argue with Tian Zhenzhen, I was discouraged for giving up the opportunity to argue, so I had to let out a long sigh.

Seeing me listening quietly, Tian Zhenzhen felt my respect for her.

This may have further stimulated her desire to talk.I also understand that in such a case, she can't tell anyone.

"There is a sentence that I probably shouldn't ask. If I don't ask, I feel unhappy. Xiaohui, I know you graduated from a normal school and have a high degree of education. How can you like Lao Han? A bumpkin , You also like people like local rich men who spend all day in debauchery and wealth. I really can't figure it out. How is our old leftist worse than him? I just feel angry. Ordinarily, I wish you would leave our old leftist, but, I Feel sorry for our old left!"

This woman is not crazy, is she?

I was extremely surprised, no matter how stingy I am, I wouldn't even eat such nonsensical jealousy, would I?

I can't laugh or cry.

I shook my head and looked at Tian Zhenzhen's expectant eyes. I felt that if I answered her question, I would be [-] times stupider than her.

I said softly: "Sister-in-law, I am really sorry for disturbing your peaceful life during this period of time. Now, I dare not ask you to completely forgive me. I just want to replace Lao Han and admit my mistake to you." It's definitely not, it's all Xiaohui's fault. If you still don't let go, I'll be right in front of you, and you can beat me or scold me. I'll be honest, and I won't fight back if I beat you or scold me."

I definitely look more like a grandson than a grandson.To be so humble in front of a stranger.Now, not only do I not feel that my self-esteem has been hurt, but on the contrary, my heart is very at ease.

Tian Zhenzhen didn't hit me or scold me.She stood up, "Xiaohui, let's go for a walk. I think I have a lot to say to you. I don't think there are many opportunities for us to talk like today."

Fold out from the Caixia Pavilion and continue walking eastward.I turned my eyes to the west and saw Lao Han smoking a cigarette 50 meters away with his back to us.

My heart stabilized.

The lush turf spreads on the curved mounds, the water is beautiful and the soil is fertile.Careful care has made this hibiscus garden lush and green.Tree after tree of aspen and birch, cedar and catalpa, proudly holding their heads up like a poet, the bamboos are flipping their leaves in the wind, while the fiery red maple leaves and golden ginkgo are chanting unabashedly. Autumn poems.

Tian Zhenzhen was not aggressive: "Xiaohui, I was really angry, so I hit you that day."

I smiled: "Sister-in-law, you should hit me. I should."

"That day, Lao Zuo drank unconsciously, his face turned purple, and he kept calling Xiaohui Xiaohui. I have never seen our Lao Zuo feel so uncomfortable, although I have already noticed it. His sexual orientation, although I am very angry with him. However, we have lived together for so many years, if I only care about my own feelings and ignore this family, then I am not Tian Zhenzhen. "

The shadow of her anger from that day is still rippling in her eyes, excited, although she is far away from the original emotions, she still lingers in this seemingly calm tone.

"Now, are you all right?" I knew I should let her tone calm down, but I asked such a stupid topic.

how can that be possible?Scars are meant to heal, and they will leave scars, not to mention, I have unconsciously caused such trauma among them.

"You don't know, in the hospital, when he became conscious, when I mentioned you, Lao Zuo actually said that he wanted to divorce me, just because I complained a few times!"

I'm speechless.

Tian Zhenzhen stopped in her tracks: "After more than ten years with him, he is not as important as a man in his heart. What's more, I haven't divorced him yet, yet he talks to me heartlessly like this. Xiaohui, you You know? A woman in middle age, what a complete, loving family means to her?"

Tian Zhenzhen's tone was full of grief, grievance, and indescribable pain.

That kind of grief and anger overflowed from the bottom of her heart, covering her beautiful and better face.

"Xiaohui, do you know that in the past few days, Lao Zuo seems to be a different person. He doesn't like to talk, and he is slow to respond. In the past, although apart from the relationship between husband and wife, Lao Zuo has been in this year's life. , almost every day with a smile on his face, and his concern for me is also considerate." Tian Zhenzhen's emotions lingering in the memory are sad and resentful.

"Although I also very much hope that Lao Zuo can give me the same happiness for the rest of my life, but now it seems that it is impossible. I have always been grateful that he treated me well. To a certain extent, he is worth it. Rely on. I asked him if he was so kind to me before, was it all fake hospitality, and he said very positively that those feelings in the past were all true!"

Tian Zhenzhen said to himself, without any hesitation.It can be seen that she misses the previous relationship very much.

"People, live to be more than 40 years old, as far as husband and wife are concerned, slowly, interdependence may be more practical than romantic love. I have reached this point, is there any real meaning in fighting with him? Xiaohui , I can't feel this feeling at your age."

Tian Zhenzhen broke free from her emotions and looked at me with blurred eyes.

In the setting sun, we have slowly walked to the huge granite sculpture of "Poetry Soul".

A clear stream flows down the slope, rushing on the brown-red stones, splashing in all directions.

By the stream, Tian Zhenzhen picked a clean stone and sat down.

I didn't speak, what can I say?One cannot justify, and the other cannot echo.This woman's thinking today is more complicated and her logic is chaotic. I still can't figure out what she wants to say.

Well, you have your tricks and I have my old ideas.Just talk to me. If you talk, I will know what you think in your heart. The more you don't talk, the more I can't figure out your mind. What can I do?

However, judging from what she means now, one thing is very certain, she does not want a divorce.

I smiled at her, noncommittal.

She sighed softly: "Xiaohui, I've been thinking about this question over and over again these days. My home has been destroyed. There are many things, in fact, it's always better not to know than to know. But, say To be honest, I don't want a divorce. I don't think Lao Zuo wants to either. These days, after I checked a lot of homosexual materials, I'm very sad. I know, it's almost impossible for people with this complex to turn back. Xiaohui, I I've thought about it over and over again, and I want to discuss something with you."

Tian Zhenzhen's eyes suddenly lit up, looking at me burningly.

I know that after a long circle, I will finally return to the central theme.

I smiled lightly: "Sister-in-law, if you have something to say, just say it."

Tian Zhenzhen paused, and it seemed that he mustered up a lot of courage: "Since Lao Zuo and I don't intend to divorce, and want to maintain this family that actually exists in name only, what I can do is to give him concessions. Lao Zuo He is so kind to you, so determined, how can he not be better than that country bumpkin Lao Han? In terms of temperament, in terms of devotion, can Lao Han compare with Lao Zuo? From now on, I can turn a blind eye and close one eye, as long as you are sincere Just deal with our old left!"

My eyes widen and the smile fades from my face.

This woman is crazy, absolutely crazy!She asked me out for such a shameful purpose.I simply can't connect her with a woman with a high professional title, a higher education, who protects her family and protects her own face.You, Tian Zhenzhen, are too bullying. Speaking of the old Korean bumpkin, I can barely listen to the first sentence, as if you were joking, but the second sentence will be different, and I will feel very uncomfortable.If you say it a third time, I will definitely turn my back on you.A bumpkin is a bumpkin, and I just love it.Don't you have temperament and status?Let your self-satisfied and proud things go away!Who do you think I am, Xiaohui? If you give me a piece of meat, I will wag my tail and follow you?

I said coldly: "If I promise you, what will happen?"

Tian Zhenzhen saw that I was angry, but smiled: "If you agree, we will all be happy!"

I forced myself to ask, "What if I don't agree?"

"I hope you think about it! You are a smart person. If you don't agree, I have enough patience to wait for you to agree. However, let me remind you, you are not too old, don't think you are talented, and a good-looking person like you is the same I can't stand the old age. After a few more years, there will be neither this village nor this shop. Also, he, Old Han, will not end well. You are playing with fire with him!"

No matter how patient I am, I can't tolerate this woman being so arrogant!

"Sister-in-law, I'll call you sister-in-law again. I'm looking at Lao Zuo's face. If you are not from Lao Zuo's family, I know you are a moron! Lao Han is not as good as your Lao Zuo, but I like it, sir! Until you make irresponsible remarks! It’s true that I, Xiaohui, am a comrade, but I’m not selling my looks! Let me tell you, unless the world is turned upside down, unless the sun comes out from the west, when you wait until this day, I, Xiaohui, will be like this You wish! I have seen dirty people, but I have never seen such dirty people like you! Aren’t you capable? Then let your horse come here, my uncle is waiting!”

The wind picked up, and the moist and warm sunset shone on my face.

But illuminated my two lines of tears.

I know that at this time, I shouldn't be crying, but I don't know why, the tears don't seem to listen to me at all.

My intuition tells me that Lao Han has already rushed here quickly.

Seeing me talking like this, the woman quickly took out a bottle from the crocodile bag. Before I could react, a stream of liquid had splashed on my face. I could only smell a sour smell, and my right eye was already open. not open.

When I covered my face, Tian Zhenzhen let out a scream. At the same time, I heard two slaps and the sound of the bottle falling to the ground and breaking.

Lao Han quickly hugged me, scooped up cold water from the side of the stream, and washed my face.

Tian Zhenzhen didn't cry any more. When I finished washing my face, and when I knew that what was splashed on my face was not corrosive liquid, she sneered five meters away: "I'm just warning you with white vinegar. Tell you , next time you, Xiaohui, will not be so lucky, I see what you are doing to harm others?!" She turned to Lao Han and said, "Han Jun, I will remember your two slaps for the rest of my life, and you will pay the price!"

After all, he glared at us fiercely, covered his face and walked away.

Old Han scolded: "You are a woman, otherwise, you would never go back alive today!"

He held my face in both hands, and seeing my red right eye rubbed, he said hastily, "Xiaohui, go to the hospital!", and pulled me out hastily.

I shook my head, forcing a smile on him.

I also know that at this moment, my smile is worse than crying, so I hurriedly raised my head.

The setting sun was dyeing the slope red, and when I raised my head, I saw the tall sculpture of Li Bai.His face is full of boldness, and Zhuanghuai Yixing's eyes are looking far away.

Didn't Li Bai say: "I want to go up to the nine heavens and embrace the bright moon"?I also want to embrace my bright moon, above the cold nine days!

I am not afraid of twists and turns, thorns, or coercion, as long as Lao Han is by my side!

Lao Han is holding my hand tightly now, but I don't know how long Lao Han's grip can last.