dance like a butterfly

The vicissitudes and vicissitudes of the world and his insight into the world have made this old man who has been pampered for many years always maintain a kind of peace when he speaks, but that kind of peaceful tyrant is still evident in his concerned tone!This may be the habit of people who are used to being leaders.

Lao Lin undoubtedly still has considerable affection for Lao Han for many years. He said this just to clear away all the obstacles in Lao Han's emotions, and to take Lao Zuo for granted as Lao Han's enemy!

There was a trace of displeasure in my heart, so I still smiled and said, "You have always misheard this matter. Lao Zuo and I are completely brothers now, and you can't believe those hearsay."

"Really?" A trace of suspicion flashed across Lao Lin's face, he kept his eyes on my face for a few seconds, then turned to look at Lao Han.

Lao Han laughed: "I am quite familiar with Lao Zuo, he is a nice guy, and it's not that troublesome."

"That's good." Lao Lin walked to the door, "Xiao Hui, if you have any troubles in the future, if you don't want to tell your brother, just come to me directly, and I, the 'old man', will not ignore it!"

I smiled and nodded.But how could I go to you?

"Aren't you going to sit?" Lao Han sent to the door.

Lao Lin turned his head and looked at us again, "If I sit down again, Xiaohui will hate me to death. What time is it!"

Look at this old man again.About my height, well maintained, fair complexion, dyed hair makes him look much younger than his age.With deep eyes, high nose, and straight chin, he has an elegant temperament and is a pretty good old man.The occasional jokes that are inappropriate for his age make him look very good.

Once downstairs, his driver was waiting for him.

Watching Lao Lin's car disappear into the ice and snow without a sound, Lao Han stretched out his hand and squeezed my hand in the dark, "Come back, it's so cold!"

I didn't speak, I wrapped my arms around his waist and held him tightly in my arms.

Only then did I feel that Lao Han is mine and this world is mine!The little lights in the distance make the world look so dark, and the surrounding cold surrounds us heavily, sucking our energy.Around Lao Han and me, although the second sister-in-law was tolerant in the past, what Lao Lin said last night seemed to make me feel that the warm space between me and Lao Han has widened.However, in the bottom of my heart, I don't want Lao Lin to be our guest from now on. I would rather this world not be disturbed by anyone. I would rather this world have no other sounds except me and Lao Han, except for the rain, snow and wind and frost of nature!

However, can the turmoil of this world follow my wish?

"Go back, be careful of catching a cold!" Lao Han responded to my force, his middle-aged, elastic and strong body made me warm, and once touched, it always gave me a deep feeling of attachment.

"I won't go back unless you carry me on your back!".

The whole building is fast asleep, and there is absolutely no one in the doorway watching us frolic quietly now.

Old Han laughed: "How old are you, and you are not a child, and you still need to be carried?"

"I don't care, you just say whether you will recite it or not?", I will not let you go.

Lao Han had no choice but to squat down.I gritted my teeth, curled up, leaned against his back, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

Just as I imagined, Lao Han was crushed to the ground without warning.

"You are a coward! You are so naughty like a child!" It has been a long time since anyone played with him like this. Although the ground was cold and hard, Lao Han was not annoyed, put his hands on the ground, and laughed.

I also fell to the ground and didn’t get up in a hurry. I still hugged his neck tightly and pressed my face to his face: “Brother, sometimes I think, if this world will always be like this Well, it’s as peaceful as it is now, only you, and only me, we can make as much trouble as we want, how good it would be."

"You think I don't want to? Sometimes when I see you jumping around, I often think, it's nice to be young! Who hasn't been young? Who hasn't had the most innocent time? Who doesn't want to be carefree every day? But, you If you don’t want to grow up, you have to grow up, no matter how simple you are, there will always be a day when you become mature and sophisticated! Don’t talk about it, it’s so cold, go back and talk about it!”

I let go of him, helped him up, and dusted his ass. "Brother, let me carry you!"

"carried me?"

"Yeah, why can't I carry you on my back?" I squinted at him.

"Brother can run and walk, but you still need to carry it? Let's forget it. When my brother can't walk one day, not only will you be able to carry it, but you may even have to wipe your shit and pee!"

Hearing what he said, I immediately became excited: "Then I will eat your tofu every day and treat you as a toy."

Old Han turned around and flicked the dust off his body for me: "Looking at how young you are, how can I treat you as an adult?"

I grabbed him: "You dare not let me carry it, do you? Are you afraid that I will throw you away?"

"You dare to throw me?"

Lao Han got excited all of a sudden, and put his arms on my shoulders.After I folded my hands, I hugged him, shrugged upwards, and bent my waist slightly, and he was firmly wrapped around my back.

It's a very down-to-earth feeling.Old Han's breath was blowing on my neck, my back was pressed tightly against Lao Han's chest, and the weight of his whole body was on my body.

"Shen?"

"Shen."

Old Han weighed more than 140 kilograms.Although he is not very tall and his shoulders are not very broad, but that kind of strong muscles are very important.

"Let brother down, brother go by himself."

"No, I want to recite."

"It's up to you. Anyway, it's quite comfortable on your back. As long as you're not tired, you can carry it anytime."

Old Han simply relaxed his body.When Lao Han is no longer restrained, I feel very relaxed carrying him.I went up the steps, and the stairs spiraled up step by step, and I slowly began to breathe.

"How about it, put brother down!" Lao Han pushed my shoulder and slid his butt down.

I crossed my fingers and hugged him tightly. "Isn't it just a three-story building? If I can't carry you back, how can I be qualified to be your brother? Do you think I'm a scholar with no strength?"

After entering the house, Lao Han wanted to go to the field, but I still didn't let him go.Entering the bedroom, with his back facing the bed, he leaned back and put him down on the bed.Lao Han was very rambunctious. He was lying on the bed, but he hugged me tightly and told me to lie on him, but he didn't let go.

"I know what you're thinking right now."

I was out of breath, and Lao Han rubbed my face.

I said nothing.

"You must be thinking, how come Brother and Lao Lin are still involved after so many years? Isn't it?"

When Lao Han has a good temper, he will tell me everything.I just wonder why such a person who is always gentle and easy-going can be so domineering sometimes!

"You don't know, it has been almost ten years since my brother recovered, and Lao Lin changed his job to Xi'an. I really don't know which life's fate has not yet ended. When he heard from Chen Hanzhang where I was and what kind of situation, Let Chen Hanzhang send me a message, let me go to him. Seeing that I didn't move, he came to me all of a sudden."

My attention was immediately drawn to me, and I immediately rolled over from him.It seems that after Lao Han came back from Wuwei, he still had many stories with Lao Lin!

When he talked about his first love with Chen Hanzhang, because of his helplessness, I almost ignored Lao Lin's pursuit of him later.However, what happened between them made Lao Han no longer hold an attitude of resentment and rejection towards Lao Lin?Did they really never happen to make me sore again?

"What kind of official is Lao Lin now?"

"He is now the head of a department of the provincial government!" Old Han obviously didn't want to make it too clear.

I don't think it's necessary to ask further.Hehe, it seems that, as someone said, comradeship has nothing to do with the nature of work, status and identity.

"I remember you said, you still had it later, didn't you?"

I keep a close eye on Lao Han.I think since Lao Han opened his mouth, he would not hide anything from me. It is meaningless to hide things that have passed.

"It's not that I didn't want to talk to Lao Lin because I was young and energetic. People are always looking for someone they like. It's not that Lao Lin is particularly repulsive, but it's impossible for a person to like only one person after seeing him in a lifetime. , wouldn’t that be messed up? I don’t want to have anything to do with Lao Lin anymore because he bullied others. When I come back to the village, I’m far away from the Emperor Shangao. I’m a farmer now. I have no desires or desires, and I will find a wife to make do with for the rest of my life, facing the loess and the sky every day, what can you do to me?"

This is the nature of Lao Han, he would rather bend than bend.What he said made people feel aggrieved.

"Actually, Lao Lin is not as bad as I imagined when I was young. He just has feelings for someone, and he doesn't care about things. Don't I often ask you like this now? As the saying goes, Lu Yao knows the horsepower It takes a long time to see people's hearts, and it was only after I became the village head that I slowly got to know this person."

"Did you ask him to help you often?"

"When the northern suburbs were planned by the government as a new development zone, the village affairs became extremely complicated. At this time, Lao Lin gave me a lot of assistance. He used his work to help me clear many checkpoints. From the developer's investment to the maintenance of local law and order, he can solve many problems with one phone call. Of course, these are all done in secret. However, the villagers can feel that I am not a conservative and have nothing to do with it. Even the local rogues would have to think twice about messing with me."

I know that the reason why Lao Lin took such good care of Lao Han was not because he was dragged by a relationship in a simple sense.Who would see the person they once liked besieged on all sides?Although this person rejects him from the bottom of his heart!Involuntarily, I thought of Lao Zuo again.Is his current state of mind the same as Lin Wenlong's at that time?My heart is sour.

"People's hearts are fleshy. Lao Lin, I am really grateful for this kind of help in private. But this is two different things from feelings. When I face him, I feel the resistance to him. It still exists. But sometimes, I don’t know why, and sometimes I get dizzy. You also know that there are many wine shops in our business. Sometimes when we are alone after drinking, he insists on me When I was groping around, I just closed my eyes and endured it. That’s because I knew in my heart that he helped me purely because of his past relationship with the superior and the subordinate in the army and his feelings for me, and he didn’t use it as a bargaining chip. What do I mean by exchange? Lao Lin also knows how I feel about him, as long as it’s not too outrageous, I’ll bear it. It’s something you can’t help but love someone, isn’t it also very distressing not to get someone? ?”

I hissed.

Old Han reached out to take a cigarette from the bedside table, and after I lit it for him, he seemed to continue to say thoughtfully: "Although brother is a rough man and has a bad temper, he is a person who has been here after all. We haven't seen each other in these years." I don't know the three teachings and nine streams in the society. After a long time, I can see through the hearts of the people. I also know that Lao Zuo is a good man with a very good heart, and I also know that Guo Jingqi is a righteous man who attaches great importance to affection. But you are my brother's man now. When something happened, I couldn't calm down, so I said all the ugly things."

Lao Han's heartfelt words made my heart warm, but I couldn't answer him, so I brought the topic back to Lao Lin: "But, I saw two young people by his side, Once, when you were in the hospital, he came to see you and brought one with him, and last time in Kaiyuan Mall, he changed another one by his side."

Old Han stroked my head: "Yeah, as far as I know, he became more indulgent in this respect. Maybe it's because he's getting older, and he misses the feeling when he was young. However, the young people nowadays are no better than us. At that time, there were not many people who had no purpose in dating him. So he knew it in his heart, and he never got too involved. The two sides agreed, and they were together. If it didn't look pleasing to the eye, just break up. "

"What about him and Chen Hanzhang?"

"They may be relatively close. But they have their own private living space. So I usually pay attention to keeping a distance from them. It's just that after all, I used to be comrades-in-arms and superiors and subordinates, and I had those unusual contacts. The relationship between them is still closer than other comrades in arms, no matter who encounters difficulties, they will reach out to help."

I can't ask any more.

Everyone's requirements for this society are different.Maybe for many years, Chen Hanzhang has continued his own set of principles, but what else can Old Han change him?Who can I change?

In the doujin circle, there is no fixed way of communication, and there is no agreed code of conduct to restrain individuals whose same-sex feelings cannot be vented properly. feeling.

Turn off the lights, and lie in bed with Lao Han, I feel very warm.

Tomorrow morning, the second sister-in-law will come.

When I think of my second sister-in-law, I think of my father.

That's right, I haven't returned to Hua County for many days.

"Xiaohui, it won't be long before the Chinese New Year. In previous years, you spent the Spring Festival in Hua County, right?"

"kindness."

"What about this year?" Old Han asked.

"I do not know."

Lao Han hugged me in the dark and sighed, "Go to sleep, it's getting late, and I have to pick up my second sister-in-law tomorrow."