dance like a butterfly

In my subconscious mind, I have never reasoned this question so rationally and with strict logic!Subconsciously, I only rely on my own temperament and personal likes and dislikes to engage in a back-and-forth tug-of-war with Lao Han on work issues.I just hope that he can respect my feelings, and I just hope that he can tolerate everything with me like Lao Zuo treated me.However, when Lao Lin explained this self-evident truth so simply, seeing them watching me fall into their unanimous ambush and retreating steadily, they looked at each other and smiled, even though there was no reason to refute it, However, the unwillingness in my heart still made me fight the trapped beast.

"But, but, do you even support my brother's ideas and practices?" I became a little incoherent.Their "collusion" made me fight alone, and I had some doubts about Lao Lin's ultimate intention.In the matter between me and Lao Han, Lao Lin can completely stay out of the matter and watch the fire from the other side. This is the summary of my previous impression of him.

"Haha." Lao Lin laughed again, picked up the teacup, subconsciously scraped the rim of the cup with the lid, but didn't drink.

"Han Jun, based on the relationship between the two of you now and what I know about you, I think you should tell Xiaohui what we did before." Lao Lin glanced at Lao Han, put down his cup, and turned to Xiaohui. Lean back and try to find a comfortable position on the sofa.I saw him close his eyes, and he seemed to sigh softly. The sound was very soft, seemingly absent.An expression of physical and mental exhaustion was revealed.

"I said it." Lao Han made no secret of it.

Lao Lin let out a long breath and sat up straight again. "Who hasn't been young? Who hasn't loved someone? Who hasn't had the good life he wanted?"

Lao Lin's answer was irrelevant, but I seemed to be silenced by these philosophical words. I stared blankly at his face that had been tempered by the world, but I couldn't interrupt him.

"Let's take you as an example. Now that two people are together, this is something that many people like us are coveting! Not everyone has the courage, not everyone has such opportunities and abilities! But, I don't want to To pour cold water on you, look into the world, or go further, go to the gay circles in Xi'an and ask, has any of us seen two such people who have been in love with each other for a lifetime? Xiaohui, have you heard of it?"

"No." I really haven't seen it. Those classic stories like the legendary broken sleeve are just fragments of the beautiful feelings of gays, and maybe they are just passing clouds for those involved.

"Han Jun, what about you? Have you heard of it?" Lao Lin asked Lao Han who was smoking again.

Old Han's expression became serious, he was stunned, hesitated for a moment, and began to shake his head.

"Of course, I haven't heard of it either." Lao Lin's expression became serious: "Today I'm not going to show off in front of you, nor am I going to hit you. For this kind of comrade's 'happy' life, according to the current National conditions, in Xi'an, a very traditional place, I am not optimistic at all!"

Lao Lin bit the word "happiness" very hard.After saying this, he quickly glanced at Lao Han and me with his eyes.

Immediately I felt uncomfortable, and I looked at Lao Lin with horrified eyes.He was doing well just now, helping Lao Han to convince me, why is he starting to beat the broken gong for us now?Is it because he suddenly recalled the relationship with Lao Han and wanted to hit me, or did he start to feel bitter when he saw that we are together now?What does he mean?Whether the shoes fit, the feet know, if the road fits, I am still in Kangzhuang!

"Hehe, Xiaohui, don't be nervous." Lao Lin seemed to see through my sensitivity at a glance, and he laughed. "You're a smart boy, but I'm not what you think I mean by 'old man'."

"Look at what you said!", I covered my ears, blushing.Lao Lin turned out to be so "careful".But looking at Lao Lin's kind appearance at the moment and listening to his sincere words, I still hope to listen to his words.

Whether he was a transferred cadre at the division level, or whether he had served as a leader at a certain level in the local area, Lao Lin talked about it like he taught Lao Han back then.

"I'm from here. I've been with your brother for more than 20 years, and I know him quite well. Xiaohui, although I don't know you well, Han Jun seems to me to be mature. He has worked hard in society. Over the years, not only has he not changed his stubborn temper when he was young, but he has also retained many of his advantages. I have long known his dedication and devotion to feelings. He has already told you about his past, Chen Hanzhang Have you seen it more than once? From the perspective of me, a bystander, people who are counting towards the age of 50 have become so emotionally focused since they met you, and they can ignore everything for you. , This is something I haven’t experienced in the years I’ve known him.”

What Lao Lin said was very pleasant.I can't help feeling grateful.

Opposite me was the Lin Wenlong who was once angry and hated against him in my mind, who was good at taking advantage of others' dangers.If Chen Hanzhang was my old Han’s first love, I have no reason to be jealous of him, then for this ruined old Han’s first love, I used his power to play with his young and sexy body, and almost broke his last attack Lao Lin on the defensive line, I can't do it anyway.Because Lao Han is my only one now.he's mine!

But now, he surprised me a lot when he spoke his heartfelt words, as if his original feelings had slowly faded with time, leaving the old man as if he had disregarded the mortal world.For my old Han, no matter what kind of emotions he once had, and no matter whether he is still reluctant and helpless now, seeing us together now, he did not set up obstacles, but stood from the perspective of "family" and elders How can I not be grateful, at least at this moment?

Next to me is my beloved Lao Han, who is destined to be closely fused together in my past and present lives.

Before Lao Lin's visit this time, I really felt that we were weak in society and even in our family, like two drowning people hugging each other tightly, in a vast ocean.However, from now on, I feel that there is another supporting force blending in, and unconsciously, I feel a little warmth.

"Also, I want to say, I really didn't know that Xiaohui, you kid, has such a stubborn temper, no less than when your brother was young. You are still young, you don't know, these two live together You have to be patient with each other, and you can’t act according to your temper. There will always be a running-in period at the beginning, and they will say, "It’s raining and the ground is flowing, and the young couple fights without grudges." It's been a long time, and you've fought a lot, and if you fight hard, it will hurt your feelings. No matter who you are, you will be bored. If your brother is really sad at that time, if you never look back, you will regret it. But there is no hurry.

I'm not speaking from your brother's position today.I dare not speak elsewhere, I know quite a lot about the things in Xi'an comrade circles.It's not that I'm exaggerating, nor is it that I'm flattering anyone." He took a deep look at Lao Han, with a flash of emotion in his eyes, "According to what I know about your brother, a person like him is a mature man. The meat and potatoes inside!Not to mention his physical condition and degree of dedication, just because he has both sons and daughters, and he doesn't have a wife to bother him, and he doesn't have any worries in life. You, Xiaohui, are not the only one who looks at him. "

Lao Lin laughed out loud, and looked at me with teasing eyes, that kind of naughtiness seemed so incompatible with his age.Make it look like he's one of the competing candidates besides me.

I hit a wit.Maybe it's because I have been immersed in Lao Han's love for a long time. I have never thought about my Lao Han in this way. If he is really disappointed and abandons me, or is taken away by someone, what should I do?A fear I had never felt before gave me chills.I am silent.

"And you, Han Jun. Today, as your former regiment leader and someone with a special relationship, I have to say a few words about you. It seems that you have made a long-term plan and plan to spend the rest of your life with Xiaohui. In this case, the two of you This initial running-in is quite critical. This kind of life is not like talking about love. If you talk well, you can continue talking, and you don’t talk about it. You are a big and a small, and the big ones have to look big. Is it enough to just love and love? It’s been so many years, it’s time for you to get rid of your bad temper. Don’t always try to force yourself on him by pretending to be a shitty village official. You have to remember, Xiaohui It’s not Haohao. He is of the same generation as you. He has his own ideals and hobbies. You can’t tie him to your belt. It’s just the flesh on your body. Discuss with him and reason with him. Xiaohui is a smart person, it’s not that he can’t listen. If you really treat him as a child, then think about his ability to accept. Huiya is still a child, don't you have to give him three points?"

"Besides, Xiaohui doesn't just have a handsome appearance." He glanced at me with a smile, and said meaningfully: "You, as a brother, may not be able to learn enough about his unyielding energy. !"

Lao Han raised his head and looked at Lin Wenlong suspiciously, blushed, pursed his mouth silently, with a shy smile on his face, he nodded.

I was really surprised!Could it be that seniority, experience and age have such a big advantage that they can convince the two people who were at war just now?In a blink of an eye, I feel like we are three generations old and young!

I hurriedly stood up to refill Lao Lin's water.To be honest, what Lao Lin said made me very happy.I don't know how many changes have occurred in Lao Lin and my Lao Han's emotional history after what happened in the army, which made him appear in front of me tonight into such a state.However, in Lao Lin's eyes, he admitted the current relationship between me and Lao Han.I don't need to worry about their past, nor can I know the changes in Lao Lin's relationship over the years.If there were more generous and benevolent elders like Lao Lin in the world, wouldn't we be able to get out of the darkness earlier and enjoy the warm sunshine more.Then why should I be harsh on this world?

Lao Lin stood up and looked around: "Let me come and see your little nest."

Old Han also stood up and smiled, "Don't say that, old chief, this is Xiaohui's home, and I'm living in his home now."

Lao Lin was stunned and said, "Didn't you say that you bought this house?"

"Who did you hear that? My house is across the street. Xiaohui paid for this house himself. I want to buy it for him too, but he refuses to let it go." Old Han corrected.

I know Lao Han's intentions, he is trying to gag some people.

Lao Lin was taken aback for a moment, then laughed again in a flash: "So it's not that you haven't learned how powerful this kid is!"

Lao Lin then turned around and looked at me: "Haha, Xiaohui, you're not bad. Rare, rare. The little devil is really scheming. Are you afraid that your brother will not want you one day and you won't have a place to live?"

I laughed and looked at Lao Han: "Why? If my brother really doesn't want me anymore, you will definitely fix him, won't you? Besides, aren't you just speaking for me now?"

Lao Lin didn't expect me to answer him like this, and he was stunned for a second or two: "You little brat, you can really talk! But let me tell you, don't try to get close to me. Your brother and I have been friends for decades. You really fell out, and you still don’t know who I’m leaning towards!”

He patted me on the shoulder and said, "It's just a joke. Don't worry too much about some things. Being strong is not necessarily a good thing at all. Your brother doesn't lack the money. He gives you things, you If you are too stubborn, it will make him sad. Whether you are self-improvement or self-esteem, accepting things, sometimes you are accepting his feelings, which often makes people feel at ease."

I was silent, what Lao Lin said, no matter whether it was intentional or unintentional, I had to think about it carefully.

"Xiaohui, I heard that there is an old leftist who has always been kind to you, isn't he?"

Lao Lin stopped suddenly, turned around and asked me.

I was surprised.What's the matter with this old Lin?How do you know everything?He asked me what I meant by that?

"Who did you hear?"

"Don't worry about who I listened to. Is he still pestering you? This is not good. Is there any help?"