dance like a butterfly

It's like there is a stone at the door of the house that always blocks the way. After a lot of effort to remove it and throw it away, someone suddenly picks it up and says that there is a huge beautiful jade in the stone, thinking that I have been turning a blind eye Now it doesn't belong to me anymore, I started to regret and regret but I can't do anything, I was stunned, I don't know how to end today's scene.

Walking with each other for so long, on this emotional journey, I don't know what I have won.When I re-examined Lao Zuo and saw his advantages objectively, I could no longer reduce the harm to Lao Zuo, and only then did I deeply understand that I am helpless for what he is pursuing now.

My heart was heavy and painful, and I was in a panic, but I wanted to cry but had no tears.

"Then, what are you going to do in the future?" After a while, I asked Lao Zuo.

Old Zuo heaved a long sigh. "Xiaohui, brother used to blame you. Now, alas! I don't complain anymore. It's just that I don't have that blessing." He paused, grabbed my hand so hard. "In the future, talk wherever you go. But, you have to remember, no matter what difficulties you encounter in the future, as long as you still need me, just open your mouth, and I will never just sit idly by!"

Lao Zuo's tone was very firm, which made me hang my head in shame and dare not look at him again.

"Xiaohui, you have difficulty using money, but you don't want my brother to give you money. I also know that you are a very arrogant person. Since you decide to sell this house, you can sell it. Fortunately, this house is my relative's. I bought it, but I didn’t sell it to anyone else. If you want to come back to take a look someday, you can do it anytime. Will you come back?”

Having said that, Lao Zuo seemed to be expecting me to answer him again.

I raised my head, but Lao Zuo smiled, the resentment and sadness in his eyes seemed to be going through life and death.

Before I could open my mouth, Lao Zuo let go of my hand: "Yeah, it's all sold out, so what are you looking for! Look at brother, isn't it always a mother-in-law?"

After speaking, he rubbed the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand.

Lao Zuo is right, I don't plan to come back.This house has brought me memories that I will never be able to linger in my life. Those loves that were against my will, the silly dreams brewed by Lao Zuo and my regrets, I will gradually fade away as it changes hands.Old Zuo, just because of Lao Han, I am doomed not to be able to repay you in this life. If there is an afterlife, I hope we can meet again, meet at a new intersection, meet in a brilliant purity, let us smile carefully again and love!

"When will you move things? Is it really tomorrow?" Lao Zuo asked.

"I don't have anything to move. Many things are useless, bedding, furniture, computer, I can't use these things anymore.", Everything in Yaxin Garden is new, and Lao Han doesn't need me to worry about it at all. Some have it all. "It's not worth a lot of money, you just look at it and deal with it."

Lao Zuo opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but he didn't say anything.

I wanted to say something, but I didn't know how to speak, and the room suddenly fell silent.

Finally, Lao Zuo broke the suffocating silence, shook his head and said: "Okay, I understand, you can wait for my call tomorrow. I still want to sit down for a while, so go first, Lao Han is still waiting for you. Don't make him unhappy."

After that, he picked up the black plastic bag on the ground and stuffed it into my hand.

Looking at the plastic bag, I thought of something, "Brother, didn't you say that my sister-in-law has a problem with her feet, what happened?"

"I was checked in the hospital, and it was said that there was a slight fracture, and now I am staying at home with a plaster cast."

"Is it still in your old home?"

"kindness!"

"Brother, then, I'll go first." Looking at the money in my hand, I dare not look Lao Zuo in the eye.

Old Zuo got up, stretched out his hands, suddenly seemed to realize something, and finally put them down again.

I understand that Lao Zuo wants to hug me.I walked forward, and my heart stopped fluttering, "Brother, I want to hug you."

Although I know that I can no longer give Lao Zuo any ambiguous expression.However, in the face of this person who has been waiting for me, I know that after today, maybe we will never have such an opportunity in this life.Suddenly, I couldn't control myself anymore, and my emotions were like a torrential flood, overwhelming at this moment.I couldn't control myself, when I realized that I should leave early, I found that I had hugged him tightly, and my mouth was already tightly attached to Lao Zuo's. Together!

Lao Zuo's breathing became heavy.

He never expected that I would rekindle my affection for him at this moment, and he also began to respond to me subconsciously and selflessly.

I was stunned for a moment.Lao Zuo's arm is so powerful, one hand is tightly around my waist, and the other hand is rubbing my back vigorously back and forth, his heavy breath is sprayed on my face, itching.I didn't know what to do, when suddenly, Lao Zuo shuddered and pushed me away: "Xiaohui, we can't do this, we can't do this. No matter what you think now, it's not good for us, and I don't want to I'm sorry Lao Han! Lao Han is a good man, I can't let him down and make it difficult for you in the future!"

My heart was pounding: "Brother, you are such a good man! Then, I'll go first."

I blushed and ran out like fleeing.

In the cold wind on the street, my face was burning hot for a long time.When I was about to break up with Lao Zuo in the end, I discovered the advantages of Lao Zuo by accident!The old Zuo, who I couldn't get what I wanted, today, I took the initiative to embrace and offer kisses, what's wrong with me?

I can't organize my thoughts, anyway, I'm scared by myself!

After blocking a taxi, I went straight to Gaoxin 5000nd Road.In the elevator, I kept thinking, no matter what Tian Zhenzhen said or did to me, anyway, I came to pay back the money.Only by paying back the [-] yuan that she gave as a charity can I feel better.

On the sixteenth floor, according to my impression, I rang the doorbell of B-08.

After waiting for a long time, suddenly, the small phone next to the door rang, and a crisp girl's voice called out: "Hello, who are you looking for?"

"Sister-in-law Tian Zhenzhen lives here?", I thought, it must be Lao Zuo's daughter who asked me.On that afternoon a long time ago, I met their family of three on the street. At that time, Tian Zhenzhen didn’t know me. This very beautiful little girl with ponytail and braids was very lively and greeted me.

On the door opening, my eyes flickered, and then the child seemed to recognize me quickly: "You are Uncle Xiaohui! Wait a minute, I'll open the door for you."

After hanging up the small phone, I stepped back, and the anti-theft door was pushed open.

"Hello, Uncle Xiaohui!" Lao Zuo's daughter was very happy to see me, "My mother just fell asleep, please come in."

I was very hesitant. I heard that Tian Zhenzhen was asleep, so I didn't know whether I should go in or not. "Is your mother's foot better?"

The little girl shook her head, her big watery eyes were full of melancholy.In front of this child, I am a sinner.She probably doesn't know what I bring to her family.Looking at her, I have a deep sense of guilt, and my heart hurts a little.

"Then who will take care of your mother?", I asked softly.

"Aunt Lin, my nanny." After divorcing Lao Zuo, Tian Zhenzhen hired a nanny.

"Uncle Xiaohui, if you are free, call my father and ask him to come back to see my mother more times. Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, I hear my mother crying, and my mother keeps chanting my father's name. "

The little girl was about to cry.

My heart became sad, and I wished I could slap myself in the mouth.I handed her the plastic bag: "When your mother wakes up, pass this to her and tell her that it was returned to her by my uncle."

"Okay. Uncle, will you call my dad?" She took the bag, didn't look at it, but asked about the topic just now.

"Have you ever called your dad like this?", her parents divorced, she couldn't possibly not know.

"I did, but my dad said he was very busy, and I went to their school, but my dad always said he couldn't get away because of something."

The little girl is about ten years old, perhaps, she has not fully understood the true meaning of divorce between two people.However, when there is really a big river between two people, it is really not that easy to wade across.

"Okay, try it, uncle. You can stay at home with your mother, uncle is gone!", I can't bear to let her down, what should Lao Zuo do for the sake of the child.

"Goodbye, uncle!" The little girl cheered up and waved to me.When I got into the elevator and turned around, she was still standing at the door with a smile.

The elevator is descending, and so is my heart.That kind of dizzy feeling, in a trance, I seem to have re-entered a kind of samsara that I can't break free, that kind of empty loneliness, that kind of helplessness that can't grasp myself, I feel like a dust, so light, Fly far, far away with the incoming cold current at any time.