dance like a butterfly

For a long time, I didn't know what to do.After hearing Lao Han's ambiguous words, I felt very uncomfortable.

I hugged him tightly: "Brother, well done, how did you say that?"

Lao Han smiled, even though he was smiling, but I could tell the bewilderment flashed by that smile.This panic made me even more terrified and uneasy.

"Brother, don't you want me anymore? Have you retreated? Or do you have something to hide? If you have something to say, just say, I'm not an unreasonable person. Is there anything we can't discuss? If you If you don’t want me, how can I still live?”

I held him tightly with both hands, and I felt unsteady when I held his waist, as if he would fly away at any moment.I moved my hands to his back inch by inch, and then hugged his neck tightly.Putting my face on his face, I dawdled back and forth: I can't give up on this person, I can't live without him anymore, as long as he still loves me, I will protect him, just like guarding the crimson vermilion plant in "A Dream of Red Mansions". Cao's Huying envoy guarded him with all his heart.

Only when I hold him, I feel that my heart is so solid and my heart is so complete.

"Fool, how could brother not want you? Think about it, although we brothers have not been together for a long time, only a few months. But you have to believe brother, brother has never been so caring about anyone, just The mother of the child has been together for decades. No matter how you say it, it can be regarded as a family relationship. To put it bluntly, in my heart, she is not as important as you. In my heart, except for the two children, it is you , the three of you are now my brother’s concern. We brothers, how many things have happened in the past few months? Can’t you see how much brother cares about you? This time what happened in Hubei, brother wants to give us two brothers One and two accident insurances. Although you can’t buy everything with money, you will feel more at ease when you have it. I’m just making an analogy. If my brother has troubles in the future, I will also settle you down. good……"

My heart was like a knife stabbing wildly.I hurriedly blocked his mouth, this old Han, what is he thinking?Just say such unlucky words!Sucking his tongue, I took a hard bite.

Old Han groaned, the pain brought tears to his eyes.

"I told you to talk nonsense! I told you to talk nonsense again! If you keep talking nonsense, I will bite off your tongue and earn money to support you, so as not to save you from making my heart go up and down all day, you know what it feels like Besides, you are so capable and tough, nothing will happen to you, if you really do something wrong, God will punish you, just let him let you go and punish me. I will I can't live without you, never again!"

Old Han patted my head lightly: "You are so stupid. If you can decide everything by yourself, there is no such thing as 'people plan things, and things happen in heaven'. On the way back just now, brother I was thinking, if something happens to my brother in the future and I can no longer take care of you, the only person who can let my brother take care of you with peace of mind is Lao Zuo."

After hearing this, I pushed Lao Han away, and was furious: "Do you think I am a piece of jewelry, and you can give it to whoever you say it is? Are you speechless? Say! If I still had the slightest admiration and dependence on Lao Zuo at the beginning, I would have let him go. After suffering so many grievances and sufferings, would I still cling to you? Besides, what would happen to you? What? It’s a big deal, let’s quit this village head! If you don’t become the village head, you’re still free, and we won’t starve to death if you don’t become the village head! I don’t want you to be rich, and I don’t want you to have power. The two of us have been in such a rich life where we were worried and stared at all day. I just want us to see each other every day, touch each other, and have someone breathing next to us when we sleep at night. Sweet dreams, do you know that?!"

Old Han's face turned pale, he bent down to pick up the briefcase from the ground, sat on the bed and began to smoke.

I was so angry that I gasped for breath, ignored him, and went to the window to watch the falling snow.

I know that what Lao Han said is for my own good, and I also know that he is designing a stable future for me.However, his words similar to last words made me feel unspeakably awkward.All right, what are you talking about?Besides, after leaving Lao Zuo, I never planned to go back as a lover or even a lover. No matter what Lao Zuo thought in his heart, after all, he was not the Lao Han I was looking for.I can change my attitude towards Lao Zuo, but I can no longer be his lover.My bottom line is that I can treat him as my own relative, and I can only treat him as a brother!

It was dark outside the window, the snow was falling silently in the dark courtyard, and the severe cold filled every corner of the outdoors.

Lao Han sat on the bedside and just smoked without saying a word.My heart ached, and I suddenly realized that I had gone too far, and I also realized that Lao Han was a little absent-minded today.

I went over regretfully and sat on the chair opposite him: "Brother, you are not like this, just say what you have to say, don't be bored. I am too childish, and I don't care about your feelings, so don't be angry. "

Lao Han sighed: "Xiaohui, I don't blame you. I have no other meaning when I tell you Lao Zuo. You see, let's think about it from a different angle. Take you as an example, you like brother, and brother also likes you , and Lao Zuo also likes you. Do you think any of the three of us is wrong? In fact, none of them! Even though we met late, we got together. Lao Zuo is divorced now, and he is now What? Nothing! It turned out that I didn’t know him well, and I thought he deserved it. But this time you were hospitalized, and old Zuo Ming knew that your feelings were all on me, so he still devoted himself to your affairs. He was busy What are you trying to figure out? If it wasn’t for him, you wouldn’t be so nice, right? We’re going to let him go. After getting to know him slowly, I think he’s a good person, even though you can’t put your Give him the affection, at the very least, we have to treat him better, otherwise, even my brother will feel guilty about him, not like a man! You are still young, and there are many truths that you will gradually understand. "

"But don't worry if this tells you that no one can hit eight poles. What happened to you today?"

I think it's strange, even if Lao Han has some good feelings for Lao Zuo, even if he has some sympathy for him, there is no need to say that kind of thing.

Old Han said: "It's nothing, I just feel a little unhappy today."

I was anxious: "You have something hidden in your heart, but you still don't treat me as your own."

Old Han twisted off the cigarette butt, and glanced at me: "Oh, brother, I offended a person before, and that person still has some influence, and hangs around with some underworld people all day long. This person was released from prison a few days ago. .”

After hearing Lao Han's words, I couldn't help feeling a little nervous.I have only seen words like gangster and white way in police and gangster movies before, and I have also heard of legal TV programs like "Today's Statement".I always feel that those things are very far away from me. Who knew that when Lao Han said it, I felt that the word "underworld" was like a summer thunderstorm pouring down my face, becoming so direct and real .As the head of an urban village, Lao Han, in such a complex environment where good and bad people are mixed, it seems unrealistic to say that the quality of the personnel is very pure.

It was only then that I felt that this was the real reason for Lao Han's worries and worries today.

"What's going on today?" My heart tugged.

"Hey, it's nothing, I've taken care of it." Lao Han laughed, and his depressed mood just now disappeared quickly.Obviously, he was afraid that I would worry.

"Brother, you just treat me as an outsider. If you have something to worry about, you would rather keep it in your stomach than let me share it with you. Don't you know that I don't feel at ease when you have something to do?"

I grabbed his hand, and I clearly felt that this matter was not a small matter. "No, you have to say!"

Lao Han hesitated for a moment: "During the last election, a fool in the village made trouble for it. This person did all kinds of bad things in the northern suburbs, and he sold and used drugs from time to time. I found an opportunity to get him into the No. He also has some ways, he may have spent a lot of money, and he was released a few days ago for a felony with a light sentence. This afternoon, he went to the village committee to make trouble, and Zhang Wenqing snowed them. They were helpless. That guy sent all the offices They smashed all the doors, and threatened to double the lost face."

"Then what happened next?", I have never dealt with this kind of rogue, and hearing that posture, my heart felt a little hairy, and I clenched my fists unconsciously.

Lao Han glanced at me and said with a smile: "Brother, you have to come forward, I just said, this is the village committee, there is no good fruit to eat here. That guy came up to compete with my brother, and he was cleaned up after a few blows, just right Someone came from the police station, and they were taken away. Haha, I didn’t want to tell you, but you didn’t let me go. I told you, your eyes were as frightened as a rabbit’s. Are you scared?”

I can't help but shudder.I still shook my head: "What am I afraid of? As long as I'm with you, there's nothing in the world that I'm afraid of! Things in the world, don't one thing drop one thing? You are his nemesis, I believe!"

Lao Han smiled and gave me a shudder: "Aren't you afraid?"

I shake my head. "For me, as long as you are by my side, even if the sky falls, I won't be afraid!"

Lao Han's face turned red, "Xiaohui, my brother feels more at ease when you say that!

He looked up and down at Old Han, but luckily there were no traces of a fight on his body. "Aren't you hurt?"

Old Han laughed: "A bum like him can't hurt my brother. I mean, if there are bigger things like this in the future, I'm fine. I'm afraid that I will hurt you."

I held his hand tightly: "Brother, let me say one more thing, as long as I can be by your side, I will be happy for the rest of my life, and I am not afraid of anything. You, don't say such things as entrusting me to anyone again, I am Yours, you are mine, no one can separate you from me!"

Old Han sighed softly, and covered my hand with two generous and warm hands, rubbing it gently.