blue marshmallow

After one night and one day of turbulence, when I arrived at the county station, it was already dusk the next day, just in time for the last bus back to the town. When I stood for three hours and arrived in the town, it was Thousands of lights, the night breeze slowly.

Instead of taking the bus, I walked home step by step from the bus station. Every step I took, I felt a little nervous. I only thought about the past all the way back, but I didn’t look up and look forward. Only now did I realize the seriousness of the problem. .

Didn't I say that I would study abroad for a year?Now that I come back empty-handed and haggard, how can I justify myself?

Standing on the opposite side of my house, I haven’t been back for two years, the house is still the same house, the fruit stand is still open, brightly lit, I don’t see my mother, only a girl with a ponytail is eating melon seeds and looking at the store.

I was hesitating and didn't know what to do, "Is it Xiangzi?" When I heard the sound and looked back, an old lady about my mother's age was looking at me with a basin of washed clothes tilted her head, watching me turn around. When I turned my face, my small eyes suddenly opened wide, as if seeing something strange, which shocked me, and then she made an even more amazing move, actually opened her throat and started yelling, "Ah, I said it looks like it. It really is that Xiangzi is back, Xiangzi's mother, your precious son has come back from abroad! Come and see, everyone, this is someone who came back from a foreign country!" "These two words, I was so ashamed that I almost found a crack in the ground and got into it.

The neighbors who had already had dinner and had nothing to do ran out of the house when they heard her yell. I was almost carried into my own house. My mother was still wearing an apron and walking from the kitchen while wiping her hands. I came out with a face full of disbelief. When I saw me standing in front of her, the surprise, joy, and disbelief flowed from my face and eyes. I was suddenly moved and aggrieved and cried. Hugged, only yelled "Mom!", then whimpered and couldn't say anything.

My mother patted me on the back and comforted me to sit on the sofa. The neighbors wept with joy when they saw our mother and son reunited, and some of them also wiped away their tears. What is a villager? Share your happiness and sorrows. People in my hometown are like this. When someone else’s family has a happy event, he will be happy. If someone’s family has a sad event, he will also be sad. They are all lovely people.

My mother settled me down, and thanked everyone for coming to visit and deliver letters, and said that it was too late today, and we would invite everyone to drink at another day, and everyone slowly dispersed.

"Xiaoxiang, come, let mom take a good look!" My mother held my face up and down, and I couldn't help crying. She wiped my tears with her rough hands, and she also cried.

"Mom, don't cry, I'm back, don't leave, I'll be with you." I also wiped her tears.

"What's this for? I heard you cry all the way, I'm not dead yet!" My dad came back from the outside wearing a coat with his head down, probably because he was a little impatient to hear my mother crying.

"Old man, my son is back." My mother wiped her tears and stood up to greet him. "Look, our Xiaoxiang is back."

"Ah!" My dad raised his head in surprise and stared at me with wide eyes.

He is much older and thinner than two years ago, "Dad, I'm back." After I finished speaking, I lowered my head, unable to bear to see his old face and the tears in his eyes.

"Oh, ahem, I'm back." He calmed down, walked to sit opposite me, and lit a cigarette with his head sullen. "Shall we go?"

"Don't go."

"Xiaoxiang, have you eaten yet?" My mother just remembered to ask me.

"I didn't eat, I..." I wanted to say that I didn't want to eat, but my mother ran into the kitchen like a gust of wind, "Wait, mom will make you hand-rolled noodles..."

"Didn't you say you have to study for a year?" My dad asked the question I was most afraid of facing.

I subconsciously stared at my right foot, am I telling the truth? "I……"

"It's good to come back, there is nothing to stay in foreign countries, it's better to stay at home." Before I could speak, my dad said it for me.

"Hmm." I responded vaguely.

He stopped talking, didn't lift his eyes, just kept smoking, I thought about it and opened my mouth.

"Dad, I didn't go abroad, I... I went to City S." I still didn't have the courage to say that I had been in a detention center.

"Oh." He wasn't surprised at all, I admire my dad more and more, that's called a calmness, maybe he didn't understand.

"You... know?" I asked tentatively.

"Um……"

"Huh?!" It was my turn to be surprised this time.

"Xiao Rui came to see us, he said so, don't blame him," my dad suddenly raised his head and glared at me, "Who told you that you didn't fight well with him, you're okay, you told me the truth , I won’t beat you, otherwise... Humph, but your mother didn’t know, she wasn’t there at the time, and I didn’t tell her.”

"Oh, has Xiaorui been here?" My heart was sour.

"Well, this godson is better than you. He has visited us a few times, and he often calls and sends money. I said no. This kid is really filial."

Tears are rolling in my eyes. Since I left Ah Zheng, I haven't contacted him or Dahai again. Whether it's because of inferiority or selfishness, I do this as an escape. I'm worried that contacting them will remind me of the terrible past. , I dare not face myself who is so fragile and timid.

"Xiao Xiang, come here, eat while it's hot," my mother hurriedly came from the kitchen with a bowl of noodle soup, "Old man, the food in the pot is warming up for you, you can eat it yourself, I have to cook it for my son Take the bath water, I don't have time to worry about you." Said and left in a hurry.

"Ah, let's eat first, I have something to say tomorrow." My dad pulled up his coat, got up and went to the kitchen.