blue marshmallow

I rolled the hot noodles by hand, the heat from the bowl blinded my eyes, I took a bite with chopsticks, it was delicious, I turned it over, and there were four poached eggs in it, suddenly my nose became sore, I ate it with big mouthfuls, and it felt so good to go home.

After taking a hot bath, I lay on my own bed. The furnishings of the room had hardly changed. Blushing and heartbeating, I turned over and faced the wall, Lu Youshan looked at me with a smile, and opened his arms towards me.

I closed my eyes and smiled.

Now everything is dusted, Ah Zheng is not with Ah Hang, and I am not with Lu Youshan, if I did not follow Lu Youshan to S City in a fit of anger, but stayed patiently and waited, what would happen again? what kind of result?

These are not important anymore, the important thing is that I am now home, no matter what I have experienced outside, home will always be my warmest harbor, my parents will never abandon me, even if they know that I have cheated them, they will won't want me.

But what if they know I'm gay?Will they still love me as much as they do now?I opened my eyes and stared at the roof, no, I must not let them know the truth, I must not let them know the truth in my life, because I can no longer lose this only place where I can rest, or I will collapse of.

I don’t know what my dad said to my mom at night. The next day, she didn’t ask me about everything about going abroad. Instead, she helped me make all kinds of snacks from my hometown from morning to night, which made me have a good day , I know that she also distracted me from going home through this kind of toil, otherwise she would have to nag me to death with her temper.

But it's hard for me to answer the neighbors' inquiries, and I'm not good at lying. If I say that I haven't gone abroad, isn't that the same as saying that my mother is bragging?So I can only hide if I can, and if I can't hide, I can only smirk.

Fortunately, everyone was immediately diverted by new things. The town is going to hold democratic elections. Although it is not to elect a big official, it is to elect a county people's congress representative, but this is also a major event in our town for decades. Excited and curious, I followed the development of the situation. Every day, all kinds of people went to the street to hand out leaflets and give away things. How could ordinary people know who was good and who was not? This democratic election is like a big sales promotion in a shopping mall. Candidates from all sides are all ready to win, and the common people have also experienced what democracy is. Haha, in short, everyone is happy.

During this noisy half a month, I safely escaped everyone's attention. When I went out again, no one remembered the incident when I came back from abroad. The first sentence I met was to ask, what do you choose? Yet?

I can't stay at home all the time. There are almost no jobs suitable for me in the town. I don't know how my mother managed to get the high school in the town to offer a computer course through her excellent social skills and persuasion. Naturally, I became the best candidate for the teacher of this course, and the principal also promised that I would not have to sit in class, but come to class when I have classes, and I should do what I have to do when there are no classes. Later, the secretary of the mayor also found me and asked me to take time to manage the town's website , although the income of these jobs is not high, it is better than being idle. Besides, I don’t like to be constrained. This kind of work content is exactly what I like, so I happily accept it. Mom went to buy goods, look at the shop and so on, my dad hired a special person to manage it, so I don't need to worry about it, and besides, I don't care if I want to.

Whenever I go back to my hut after a busy day, close the door and lie on the bed, I will still think about the past, and those emotional past events will still make my heart throbbing and I can’t help it. Tears, tell yourself not to mention the past, I want to live the present life well, this is the truth of the so-called deep love.

Sometimes at dusk, I will climb to the back mountain to watch the sunset, the sun shines on my face, warm and comfortable, they are not around, but they will always live in my heart, I will talk to them, you say something to him , Ask them if the sunset is beautiful, how are you doing recently?Do you think of me... I don't worry about them leaving me now, because they are in my heart and can't run away again.

When the stars come out at night, I look at their bright eyes and still can't help but imagine, what will happen to me if they come to me?Will you follow them?As soon as I thought of this problem, I corrected myself in my mind, don't think wildly, Brother Lu will not come back, now he has become a veritable wanted criminal, how could he come back and risk his life, so what about Ah Zheng?Will he come to me?My heart was beating non-stop, and the face of Ah Zheng when we met for the last time appeared in front of my eyes, would he still be so thin?Does he suffer from insomnia every day like me?