our psalms

Another morning has arrived, and every new day is the same, with new hopes, new challenges, infinite possibilities and infinite difficulties.No matter what, you can only face it calmly.Seeing Lao Cao put on his uniform, looking as energetic as ever, he kissed my forehead lightly, then turned around and went to work.Everything is still so normal, everything is still so ordinary, everything is still so beautiful.

I sat on the sofa wrapped in a bath towel, and only a few seconds later, those tenderness and lingering hit my heart again.I sat aside and smiled stupidly, I didn't even notice the nosebleed was coming out, until it fell on the pure white bath towel, I subconsciously wiped it with toilet paper.These days, the frequency of nosebleeds seems to be getting higher and higher, and the body has begun to limp and disobedient, and the reaction seems to have become sluggish.I slowly took out my mobile phone from the sofa, found Uncle He's number and was about to call, but the phone rang unexpectedly, and an unfamiliar number was displayed on my mobile phone.

"Hey?"

"Wang Zicheng?" The voice over there was a very sharp female voice.

"you are?"

"I'm Ouyang Qing."

"It's you, what's the matter with you?" When I heard that it was Cao Wenxi's mother, Lao Cao's ex-wife, I was a little surprised. Why would she think of calling me? Could it be that she wanted to scold me and Lao Cao again.Of course I am not afraid, maybe there is nothing I will be afraid of now.

"I believe you already know that the anonymous letter has probably spread throughout Lao Cao's work unit by now." There was no expression in her voice, as if she was broadcasting boring news, "It won't be long before he should I can’t stay any longer, even if he can ignore everything, ignore other people’s words and gazes, but I want to ask, do you want him to become a notorious person and suffer all the contempt and insult from others? "

"What are you trying to say?" I tried to keep my emotions clear and steady.

"You should understand what a strong person he is. For his career, for his career as a broken policeman, he used to work desperately and work hard. Even if he likes you, he gave up everything for you, do you have the heart? Can you still be so childish? If he loses what he pursues and the career he is loyal to, if he can only have fun in life, is he still Lao Cao? When he is looked down upon by all the world, you still have the nerve to say you Do you really love him?"

Ouyang Qing's words completely shocked me, I was silent for a moment, then slowly asked: "What exactly do you want?"

"What do I want?" Ouyang Qing raised her voice, "It seems that you are not too stupid, at least you can understand the seriousness of this matter. In fact, I know that it is really unreasonable to do these things, but you forced me to My, what's so good about homosexuality? How can such a nondescript thing be called love? I just want to save the man I love the most. It doesn't matter if I'm spurned and abused by him. I just want you to leave him!"

"Leave him? You know it's impossible, even if I am willing, he won't let me go!" I said with certainty.

"Stop talking nonsense. If you are determined to do something, it is impossible not to be unable to do it." Ouyang Qing said, "If you really like him, then leave for him, as long as you don't If you keep pestering him, I promise to make those anonymous letters and rumors disappear completely!"

"Damn it, haven't you spread those things to their unit now!"

"I said that as long as you are determined to do something, it is impossible not to do it. It's up to you whether you believe it or not!"

"Really..." I fell into silence again, "Are you sure you won't hurt him again?" Before I finished speaking, the phone over there had already hung up.Obviously, Ouyang Qing's attitude is very firm, and she will not stop until she removes me from Lao Cao's side.I suddenly felt powerless, I could do anything except leave him, but who would understand that leaving Lao Cao is harder than killing me.But I think of those words of Ouyang Qing, those words are not unreasonable, Lao Cao's personality, his ambition, his pursuit, his career, are all changed and deviated because of me, this kind of love He, does he love him? I suddenly felt a little inexplicably selfish. I raised my head and looked at the photo of Lao Cao and me in the photo frame next to the cabinet. I fell silent.