our psalms

"Go away!"

"uncle……"

"I don't have you baby, you've made me lose face, you go, I don't want to see you again!"

In that cold prison, the air quickly condensed, and the heavy handcuffs on my father's hands made a clear and loud sound, and both hands waved together, hitting me hard on the face.At that moment, tears welled up from my eyes.Watching my father turn around staggeringly, and walk away from me without looking back.I sat there blankly, as if at this moment, my soul had been completely separated, as if at this moment, I no longer belonged to this world.I drifted slowly, off the ground.I can still see the teardrops that are like broken threads, sprinkled on the empty land like rain.I saw Lao Cao again, as if that was the only shadow I could see clearly, but it also began to blur and dissipate.Seeing him crying in front of the tombstone in grief, seeing his snow-white hair fluttering with the cold wind and flying around me, every white hair deeply engraved his heart The endless sadness and despair in the depths, each white hair is floating gently to tell, his whole world has withered away, leaving only endless sentimentality and longing, in this endless memory, his Sometimes sad and weeping, sometimes smiling foolishly, that tenacious and calm old policeman could never find himself again.

"Uncle..." I tried to call him, but the response I heard was scolding and contemptuous voices from all directions.

"Pervert...old homosexual...seduce a child...you killed him, you are not a person...do you still deserve to be a people's policeman...Director, you let us down...he is for you, He kept it from you just because he didn't want to make you sad, are you still right for him now...a coward...a complete coward..."

Lao Cao stood up with difficulty amidst the endless voices, he frowned and turned around.He can't see that the person he misses so much is standing in front of him at this moment, I don't belong to this world anymore, but he is still alive.

"Cheng'er, Uncle misses you so much..." Two glistening tears slowly fell from his tired and desperate pupils, he stretched out his hand and touched my face, "Don't leave Dad, okay, don't leave Dad..."

"Uncle..." When I turned my head, Lao Cao's big rough hand passed through the turmoil of the world, surpassed the danger and ignorance of human nature, and gently landed on the big characters in a few squares... "Aizi Wang Zicheng... "

……

"No!!!" I woke up from my sleep, I couldn't restrain the deep and real sadness in the dream, I sat up and sobbed softly.Lao Cao, who was sleeping beside him, was also woken up. He also sat up and turned on the lamp, looked at me like that, and hugged me into his arms without saying a word, "Hey, it's a nightmare again, isn't there uncle here?" Well, don't be afraid, don't be afraid..."

"Uncle..." I can finally call him loudly again, the voice is very loud and clear, such a clear feeling is so precious to me, "Uncle... I am afraid, I am so afraid that one day I will lose you... "

"Cheng'er..." Lao Cao patted me on the shoulder and said earnestly, "Dad will definitely go ahead of you first, this is the law of everything, except this can separate us, No one can do anything anymore. All you have to do is to grow up slowly, mature, and learn to face it. Even if your uncle is gone, his heart will always be with you, forever, no matter it is In this life or in the next life, whether I leave this world or in the long, long future, you will die too, do you understand?"

"Is the heart still together?" I looked at Lao Cao's face, the moon outside the window seemed so bright in the middle of the night, and the soft moonlight shone into the room. The kind and familiar smiling face was so deep and clear, as if It seems to be engraved on my heart forever.

"Cheng'er, you shouldn't be afraid. Our time is still long and our future is still far away. No matter where we are or whether we are together or not, you already belong to me..." Lao Cao's warm lips gently Caressing my face, I hugged his broad chest tightly, I understand all the words he said, but why, I can't really put myself in that state, I only know, No matter how long my life is, I just want to be by his side, to make him happy, to make him happy.

"Uncle, what if it were me." I touched his face with my hand and put my head on his chest and asked, "If I leave this world first, will you still be as strong as you said just now?"

He didn't see that when I finished asking this sentence, a drop of tear gently slid down on his chest, drawing a beautiful and long and narrow water mark.

Lao Cao was silent. After a while, he tapped my head with his hand and said, "That's impossible."

"I mean just in case!" As soon as I finished speaking, my mouth was gently blocked by his fingers, and he told me with certainty: "There is no such event, there is no such event." After finishing speaking, his face slowed down. Slowly came over, smiling, his lips slowly approached my half-open mouth, the familiar and warm tongue slowly slipped into my dry mouth, I closed my eyes, the tongue naturally greeted up.Those two primitive desires inadvertently swelled up again.It deeply testifies to the inseparable love between me and Lao Cao, the love that will never be abandoned.The lights are slowly dimming. No matter what the future holds, I can at least be sure that now, the whole world of me and Lao Cao is by my side.