our psalms

Still at dusk, Lao Xie handed over the car and came to the restaurant where Xiaodong was, but saw a face of despair that made his heart ache.

"Son, what's wrong with you?" Lao Xie sat beside him and asked with concern.Xiaodong didn't say anything, just smiled with strength, then untied the apron tied around his waist, took off his work clothes, and held Lao Xie's hand, "Uncle Xie, I want to go out for a walk with you."

"Silly boy, uncle will take you for a walk!" Old Xie smiled gently, holding Xiaodong's hand tightly, and both of them disappeared from the sight of others.

The maple forest at dusk looks so beautiful, pieces of red are pieced together rhythmically, the ground is covered with a thick layer, when there is wind, the maple leaves like naughty children will have no purpose Floating around, the whirling sound is like a beautiful melody, burying the noise of the whole world.How he wished that this peaceful world, walking slowly with Lao Xie, would be his eternity.

There was no one around, only the sound of the wind was in their ears, Lao Xie's body was a little fatter, and the same pair of black cloth shoes, walking on the ground covered with crimson maple leaves, looked so beautiful and harmonious.

The two of them sat down under a big tree, and Lao Xie slowly lit his cigarette. The smoke floated on Xiaodong's face, which was fragrant and evocative.

"I never knew that I could have such a happy time in my life!" Xiaodong said thoughtfully, "I really wish I could just stay with you like this forever."

"Silly boy, you will have a better life. I'm an old man, what's so good about it!" Although Lao Xie said this, he actually felt it. During the days with Xiaodong, all the things in his life Things seemed to become active, as if there was a kind of power, a kind of hope, so that he, who was nearly fifty years old, regained the feeling of youth, and regained the most primitive impulse and yearning , that feeling, he deeply knew that he couldn't extricate himself.And when he returns to reality, he can always tell himself rationally that he can't be so selfish to a child, he is just a child.Everything may have been caused by his momentary confusion, and he should have a happier future.

As for Xiaodong's heart, he didn't understand that his happiness had been fixed forever on himself, a chubby old man wearing cloth shoes.

Xiaodong didn't know how to explain his intentions. In his eyes, Lao Xie's words were always the most ordinary and true truths. Even if he didn't want to, he had to accept it.However, he can still feel the infinite pain in his heart.

"Can you hug me?" Xiaodong looked at Lao Xie longingly, and Lao Xie also looked at him. After a moment of silence, he opened his trembling arms, and Xiaodong immediately jumped at him with infinite emotion. past.

Leaning on the shoulder of the person he missed day and night, his tears welled up again.Although it was just a simple hug, it was nothing compared to his previous willful behavior, but at this moment, he really felt the comfort and happiness that came from the soul.

"Do you like me, I want you to tell the truth!"

"Son, of course I..."

"I said love, do you love me?"

"I……"

The two hugged like that, still silent, Xiaodong still didn't get the answer he wanted after all, how much he wished he could still have the courage he had back then, to do whatever he wanted in front of Lao Xie.But now he can't do it at all, he has gradually understood that true love is not simply being attached to a person, wantonly seeking passion and satisfaction from him.For Lao Xie, what he wants more is the true desire and care from Lao Xie's heart. This signal has not been transmitted from Lao Xie to his heart. extravagant hope.Now that they can hug each other like this, he has already been moved beyond recognition.

"Promise me, you must be happy, you must be happy, okay?" Xiaodong raised his head and looked at Lao Xie's mature face.Only then did Lao Xie see the tear stains in his eyes, and wiped his eyes for him at a loss.

"What's wrong with you, have you been wronged, can you tell uncle?"

"No, no, I was crying happily." Xiaodong said, "I really never thought that I would still meet you in this life. Everything is worth it, really!"

"Why are you so stupid, child!" Lao Xie was about to cry out of heartache, he hugged Xiaodong's head, and said helplessly, "I'm an old man, I don't know how else I can promise you, child , I don't dare, I really don't dare, forgive uncle, okay?"

"I know, Uncle, I'm sorry for embarrassing you!" Xiaodong nodded repeatedly.

"Uncle promises you to be happy and happy. You should also promise uncle, okay?"

"Hmm!" The child looked at the middle-aged man gratefully.He lowered his head gently, and kissed the cloth shoes on Lao Xie's feet. At that kiss, at that moment, their hearts were tightly connected.Xiaodong slowly took out a pair of brand new cloth shoes from the bag he was carrying, which were exactly the same style as the ones worn by Lao Xie.He took off Lao Xie's old cloth shoes one by one, and put on new ones for him one by one. All this, Lao Xie saw it in his eyes, and he was endlessly moved in his heart. Years later the first time it flowed down.

However, nothing is more cruel than reality.

The next day, Xiaodong quietly packed his luggage. In fact, he didn’t have much luggage, just a satchel, which contained the old cloth shoes worn by Lao Xie.There is also the slight smell of his feet on it, which is the smell of the person he loves the most, the smell of Xiaodong's incomparable nostalgia.

The train station is crowded with people, everyone is busy running for their next stop, but Xiaodong, where is his next stop.There was a long queue at the ticket window, and Xiaodong had never waited so calmly, waiting to leave, waiting to be forgotten.At this time, a familiar figure was approaching him.