admire the ordinary

Looking at the sleeping pale man, Lu Yunzhong felt deeply powerless again. The man in his arms frowned and babbled wildly. The flustered expression made Lu Yunzhong's temples ache. It took only a few days before it happened. so many things.

He once gave Lulu to Mu Fan just to give him a docile pet. He remembered Mu Fan's excitement when he saw Lulu, and he left Xiaoyan aside to play with the cat all afternoon.As soon as he got home, he saw Xiaoyan's endless eyes, a pair of black lulu eyes looking at Mu Fan's direction. Xiaoyan always had an inexplicable affection for Mu Fan, otherwise he would not have loved Mu Fan in such a short time. He is no longer screaming loudly, he has always felt that if it takes a little longer, Xiaoyan might be able to come out of the world where he only has himself.

But... holding Mu Fan's hand tightly, hatred filled his eyes, it took him a long time to regain his composure, but when he raised his head, he met Mu Fan's dark eyes, the warmth of his hand made him realize his gaffe, Lu Yunzhong immediately Vigorously shake off Mu Fan's hand.

Mu Fan looked at his red hands from being hit, smiled wryly, and closed his eyes.

When I woke up, I felt that Lu Yunzhong was holding my hand, and the wrist was connected. I didn't know what feeling in my heart, but my body had already reacted by itself, and I was struggling to hold the other person back.Not surprisingly, he saw Lu Yunzhong's cast-off eyes.

Lu Yunzhong calmed down and looked at Mu Fan, "Acute gastric bleeding..."

"You did it on purpose." Lu Yunzhong said in an affirmative tone. The excessive eating and drinking in the past few days completely hurt Mu Fan's stomach. At that time, he must have survived to death. The doctor said that in such a short period of time It must not have happened by accident.Unexpectedly, Mu Fan would leave such a way for him to face the future... Do you really want to die?

Mu Fan still kept his eyes closed, was it on purpose?Possibly, he had been wondering what he was living for during the time he was gone.

Faced with the food I used to like most, I ate it but spit it out again and again, forcing myself to eat it again and again, and finally saw the faint blood mixed in it. I should have cried, but I don’t know why I hugged the snow-white Lulu curled up and laughed, why, why... Maybe it's because the real me, the me who is alone, has already died...

"Open your eyes!" Lu Yunzhong looked at the person who closed his eyes and felt a kind of displeasure in being ignored.

Mu Fan obediently opened his eyes, looking at the snow-white ceiling.

Lu Yunzhong squeezed Mu Fan's chin hard, forcing his eyes to meet his own, "You are committing suicide slowly, do you understand?"

Looking into Lu Yunzhong's eyes, the dark eyes were full of exhaustion, Mu Fan said to him for the first time: "You kill me."

"you……"

"I'm really tired, I don't want to play with you anymore, I already..." Mu Fan seemed to choke up a bit: "I have... nothing..."

Lu Yunzhong stared into Mu Fan's eyes, unable to tell what he was thinking: "So?"

"So..." Mu Fan looked into Lu Yunzhong's dark eyes, "If you hate me, just kill me."

"Kill you? Hehe." Lu Yunzhong sneered, "How? Cut off your body piece by piece, or put you in warm water and boil the water little by little? By the way, feed the cooked meat to the dog How about it?"

Mu Fan felt a little tired in an instant: "It's up to you."

"Slap!" A heavy slap sounded next to Mu Fan's ear, and Mu Fan's snow-white face immediately turned red and swollen, and Mu Fan turned his head away from the slap.

Lu Yunzhong tore off the infusion tube from Mu Fan's hand, pushed himself down on Mu Fan, and pulled off the thin pajamas: "Do you want to die? Hehe, Mu Fan, let me tell you, all you can think about is when I'm in a bad mood. Well, let you die in bed."

Lu Yunzhong held down Mu Fan's waist and entered it hard. The pain caused Mu Fan's sore hands to clenched the bed sheet. He tilted his head back, and the violent impact hurt his bones. He thought about what to comfort him, but found that there was nothing. Curled up to resist the impact that almost pushed out the internal organs, but was pressed in and out more violently.

Anger almost burned Lu Yunzhong's eyes red. I don't know why when he heard the relief-like voice ringing in his ears, a kind of fear suddenly surged out, and there was nothing?Hehe, there is nothing left!What about Lin Xiangyu?Have you finally given up on him?Do you have to die if you have nothing?What about yourself?What about me who had nothing for a long time... Looking at the painful faces of the people below me, they rushed without any pity, and the hot meat still came in and out fiercely.

Mu Fan finally heard in a daze, "There is nothing left? Do you think Gu Jing is a fool? Mu Fan, let me tell you, you have a son..."

"Boom!" Something exploded in my mind!son!What?Why would I have a son? !Could it be that woman?No!impossible!She is obviously dead!You lied to me, you lied to me...you must have lied to me...

"Are you surprised? Hehe..." Lu Yunzhong's voice rang in his ears.Sensing Mu Fan's panic, Lu Yunzhong explained, "It came out of the test tube, after all, it's your blood, isn't it?"

It's messed up, messed up, something is broken, Mu Fan's brain is running in a daze...

"Is this the promised gift?" Mu Fan looked at the watch in his hand with a look of disgust.

"You don't like it?" Lin Xiangyu's expression suddenly collapsed, looking like a giant dog who has been wronged all the time.

"It's not that I don't like it, but it's always bad to have a birthday party..."

"Who said it's not good to die? This means that I want to die for you. Let's not have children in the future, okay? Become an old man together, just the two of us, live a lifetime, and then you can't walk, I will carry you on your back , we will still be together in our next life with no worries... okay? "Why don't you want children? "Mu Fan was a little curious.

"Child?! Who are you going to have a baby with? If you have a child! You must be having an affair! See if I don't take care of you..." A petting voice rang in my ear.

"Then it can actually be tested..." Mu Fan grinned and pushed the person on his body.

"That doesn't work either! You can only have me. Hehe, if you have a kid or something, be careful I don't want you..." An angry voice.

"If you don't want it, don't! Who cares, I don't care."

……

At the beginning, he firmly believed and worked hard, but Lin Xiangyu still gave up everything between them. Now the ending is so unrecognizable. Is he going to betray those promises?Betrayal of the best past in your life?

"Be careful I don't want you..."

Something kept ringing in my ears, provoking Mu Fan's weak nerves...

Don't, don't don't want me, I'm left with you, you don't want me anymore, what should I do?

Feeling something was wrong with Mu Fan, Lu Yunzhong looked at Mu Fan's empty eyes, "Mu Fan? Mu Fan? What's wrong with you?"

"Don't...don't, I don't want children, I don't want children at all..." Mu Fan's eyes suddenly became unfocused, looking at the person on his body, as if he was afraid of something, he said in a panic: "Xiangyu? Xiangyu! You listen to my explanation, you listen to my explanation, it is not my child, I have no children."

Lu Yunzhong stopped his lower body movements, and his nerves tensed up. For the first time, he realized that something was wrong.

"Xiangyu, Xiangyu, that's not my child, don't want me, okay..." Mu Fan's voice collided in Lu Yunzhong's ears, and a kind of sadness fermented in his heart.

Seeing that Lu Yunzhong didn't respond, Mu Fan stretched out his hands in horror and hugged the person on his body tightly, Lu Yunzhong was caught off guard and fell on Mu Fan.

"Xiangyu, I admit, I was wrong, I shouldn't have slept with other women... You know it, right? You know I'm dirty, so you don't want me anymore." With such a flustered tone, Lu Yunzhong had a kind of Misunderstanding, Mu Fan almost threw up his heart and showed him: "I miss you so much, you came to pick me up, right? You won't be angry and don't want me, right?"

Listening to Mu Fan's rhetorical question, Lu Yunzhong didn't say a word...

"I actually like that watch, I like it very much, I just don't want you to be too complacent...you know, you know it, right?"

In the confusing sentence, Lu Yunzhong caught some words.like?watch?Lu Yunzhong hesitated?What watch?Something suddenly popped up in the brain.Lu Yunzhong was hugged by Mu Fan, something flashed in his mind, leaving traces.

That youthful and ignorant youthful time had long been buried in his heart full of filth and filth. He deliberately forgot that he wanted to forget the only good thing in his life, so that he had the courage to continue doing this to hurt others. Others go down the ladder.

Lu Yunzhong closed his eyes and pressed his cheek gently against Mu Fan's neck. The warm feeling and slow heartbeat were imprinted in his heart. He didn't know how long Mu Fan could keep pulsating at this peaceful speed. How long can the warmth last in this world.

Mu Fan is still the same Mu Fan from so many years ago, but he...is no longer Lin Xiangyu who cannot do without Mu Fan, even if one day Mu Fan disappears from his life...

"Yes, I know, I know everything." Lu Yunzhong didn't even know why he would open his mouth to respond to this name he disdained, to respond to this once warm.

The person under him froze, and then there was a burst of ecstasy. Mu Fan's eyes suddenly brightened, "You are finally willing to talk to me...you are not angry with me anymore, right? I knew it, I knew it...you You won't be angry with me..." Something soaked Lu Yunzhong's shirt: "I don't want any children, I don't want anything, don't go, okay..."

Hearing Mu Fan's murmur, Lu Yunzhong finally understood that not only were they taking revenge on Mu Fan, but he was also taking revenge on himself, holding on to the past and refusing to let go, his own children couldn't accept it, so what is Xiaoyan to him? What kind of existence?Did you pretend to smile at their father and son before?In the end, what is he thinking...

After an unknown amount of time, Mu Fan fell into a coma under Lu Yunzhong.

"I'm sorry..." Lu Yunzhong said in a low voice, in a voice that only he could hear.

There was a moment of pity on his face, he leaned over and kissed Mu Fan's ear lightly...

Xiaofan, I'm sorry...

But I can only go on like this, I can't stop...