admire the ordinary

I said I don't love you, it's just a deal...

Mu Fan entered coldly and faced the seemingly peaceful psychiatrist, and finally came out to face the cold Lu Yunzhong. After staring at each other for a few seconds, Mu Fan watched Lu Yunzhong walk into the room and talk to the doctor, what?Mu Fan couldn't think of it, so he didn't think about it at all. Mu Fan looked up at the clear sky, but he was a little scared. He didn't know when he started to be afraid of the sunny day. Maybe it was the day he stabbed the knife into Xiaoyan's body. Make him dizzy...

Lu Yunzhong came out of the room, looked at Mu Fan with gloomy eyes dripping water, his hands clenched tightly in his sleeves, leaving deep marks, Mu Fan lowered his head and did not look at him, as if he could escape everything.

"When did it happen?" Lu Yunzhong asked.

"..." Mu Fan didn't know how to answer, even he himself didn't know when he started suffering from severe insomnia, he couldn't fall asleep without sleeping pills, it must have been a long time.

"you……"

A black shadow assisted the sunshine on Mu Fan's head, Mu Fan flinched subconsciously, Mu Fan thought that another slap was about to slap him down.

A familiar smell filled his nostrils, and Mu Fan was surprised to feel the warmth of hugging him, and a low tone rang in his ears, with a trace of worry that even Mu Fan was unfamiliar with, "Don't be like this, Xiaofan, don't be like this, don't be like this." torture yourself like this."

Mu Fan closed his eyes and didn't answer, torture?Myself?Hehe, it's not me who tortured me, it's fate...

I cannot hate you because I killed your son;

I can't hate Gu Jing, because I killed him once.

But I am also human, I also have my grievances, I also have my complaints, I can’t hate others, so I can only hate myself, my cowardice, my selfishness, I also have nostalgia, nostalgia for the warmth of the past, nostalgia for the past The beauty, without these, I really don't know how to live...

Lu Yunzhong hugged his skinny body, his heartache spread like crazy in his chest, he tried hard to restrain his urge to say everything, Lu Yunzhong hugged Mu Fan quietly, the sunlight streamed in the corridor, flowing out of Mu Fan. Lu Yunzhong, who is not familiar with Lu Yunzhong, is gentle...

"Ding..." The sound of the mobile phone interrupted the quiet atmosphere, Lu Yunzhong let go of Mu Fan, and took out the mobile phone.Gu Jing's monstrous voice rang in Lu Yunzhong's ears, "Yunzhong, bring Mu Fan here, I have something to ask him..."

Lu Yunzhong frowned, "He's not emotionally stable, let's talk about it later." Lu Yunzhong didn't want to tell Gu Jing too much about Mu Fan, including Mu Fan's illness. Mu Fan was destined to belong to him, and he didn't want to After this contest is over, add more troubles to yourself.

"Oh? Mu Fan's son is crying, won't he come and see? Then I don't care about it." The lazy voice was determined, piercing into Mu Fan's heart when he heard the lingering sound of the phone call.

Seeing Mu Fan's clenched fist, Lu Yunzhong raised his eyebrows, since he wants to go, let him go, "I'll be there in 10 minutes."

When Gu Jing saw Mu Fan appearing in front of her eyes, she smiled faintly, huh?Sure enough, it came...

"Fan, you don't know, when you vomited blood in front of me that day, you really scared me. A person who just gave me oral sex fell down in front of me like that, which made me almost impotent. Shouldn't you Compensate me?" A poisonous snake-like voice sounded in Mu Fan's ear.

But Mu Fan didn't have the strength to talk to Yi as before to comfort him. Ever since Lulu left, a great sense of loss and depression had enveloped him. Is there nothing left to miss?

Really?Hehe, then why am I still standing here?

"Where's the child? Didn't you let the child come?" Lu Yunzhong said coldly behind him.

"Oh, by the way, I almost forgot, come to Xiaofan, look at your child, this is your child..." Gu Jing grabbed Mu Fan and walked into the house...

In the quiet bedroom, a small body was lying in the cradle, the wrinkled facial features had not yet stretched out, and the red skin was completely different from the legendary little angel, like an ugly little toad.

The shock he received when he first found out faded away, Mu Fan looked at the child calmly, the light in his eyes was as indifferent as looking at a stranger, no, Gu Jing felt, it was even more indifferent than looking at a stranger .

"I don't have a child, he's not my child..." Mu Fan looked at the sleeping child in the cradle, and said wearily, "Gu Jing, if you have any conscience, send him away, children are always innocent Yes, the grievances between the elders are not about them..." Mu Fan closed his eyes, feeling the darkness surrounding his eyes, feeling a little bit of comfort, Mu Fan smiled, sometimes being selfish, he was indeed happier.

Mu Fan knows that he can't keep what he has, but it's better not to have it. If there is no hope, he will not be disappointed. If he has no extravagance, he will not despair.

When Mu Fan turned around to leave the house, Gu Jing's voice came from behind, with the haze of hell, "Isn't it your child? Then don't catch him."

Mu Fan turned around in a panic, the cry of the baby mixed with a gust of wind flew towards him...