Stubborn illness

In the afternoon, the scorching sun shines on every corner, the shadows of the old green trees are whirling, there are few tourists in the park, the clear water pool, the koi fish, the lotus leaves cover it, and the lotus blossoms.

Stone benches, steps, and some fallen leaves.

I went in from the side door, started from the right side, and searched one by one. The door in the toilet was ajar, and the urinal was empty. I came out, entered the next one, and came out again. The next one, I met a person, 1.7 meters away, seven or eight He weighed ten kilograms, with thick black hair, a broad and shining forehead, a square-shaped face, a high nose bridge, a big mouth with slightly slanted corners, a black shirt on his upper body, black pants on his lower body, and shiny black leather shoes on his feet.

He stood beside a clump of evergreens, fixedly, watching me approaching from a distance, and I also looked at him, until he approached, he picked a leaf and played it between his thumb, index finger and middle finger, his body was shy and unnatural.

Get close, don't stay, just pass by, if he is, then, if not, then not, give it a try.

I walked straight, and when I turned around, that person turned around too, and exchanged eyes, yes, maybe yes.

Who cares, I stepped forward again, facing the front, opposite to him, with empty eyes and a pounding heart.

I walked through several toilets in a row, and suddenly turned around, only to realize that he also followed me several toilets in a row, rubbing shoulders again, and he said first: "Hey, aren't you going to work today?"

"Rest." I pretended to be cold.

"Oh, I'll take a rest too." He picked another leaf on the spot and played it between his thumb, index finger and middle finger.

"you alone?"

"Well, yes, you..., are you alone?"

"One person now, wait for two people." I laughed, let go of my voice, hehe, regardless of the left and right, because there was no one on the left or right.

"Oh, have you dated someone?"

"Well, it should be." I stared at his eyelids, at his body, at his..., lightly speaking.

"Then... then I'm leaving."

"I'm all alone when you leave."

"I'm not going back, I'll wait for you on the stone slab at the entrance of the park." This man was tall and big, but he was honest, simple and honest, and did his duty.

"Wait for me? Why are you waiting for me?" I pretended to be surprised.

"You..., you..., didn't you come to find someone?" He blushed because of his directness.

"Why do you tell me to wait for me first? Just say it."

"I want to chat with you."

"Oh, okay, now, now is fine, shall we go inside to talk? Or go to the stone slab at the entrance of the park to talk?" I pointed to the toilet behind me and blinked a few times.

"Then what, you..., have you been tested? AIDS test." He lowered his voice, but he was obviously serious.

"No." I was also serious.

"It's best to check it regularly, for the health of yourself and your family."

"Oh, I really haven't done these things, and I have thought about them, but I don't know where to check."

"It's very close, just across from the bus station in front of Computer City, City Center for Disease Control and Prevention, do you want me to take you there?"

"Oh."

Seeing that I didn’t continue to speak, he said: “It’s free, as long as you tell them you are this kind of person, blood draw, laboratory test, and testing are all free, and there is 20 yuan for your travel expenses. This is done by the state. , in order to let this group of people raise their health awareness and self-protection awareness, and I am not afraid to tell you that, like me, there was a 30 yuan introduction fee for introducing a person in the past."

"Oh, that's good, okay, let's go and have a look."

We came out of the park, crossed the bridge, turned left and right, and came to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention, a small hospital with a plaque at the door with the full name of the Center for Disease Control and Prevention, like the lintel of a government department.

"Just here, go, go in, just this office, let me see if there is anyone in it, just wait a moment." He knocked lightly three times, pushed it open, and there was an old man sitting by the door, opposite him A girl, who saw the girl stand up, greeted him with a smile, and handed him an envelope, as if nodding his thanks.

"You go in later, you can go in after the old man inside comes out, I'll go first." He withdrew, looked at me, explained a few words, turned and left, holding the envelope in his hand, seeing him striding away , disappeared at the door of the hospital.

Is he this kind of person?Is he just an intermediary?pimp?And I actually thought... Haha, thinking of the inner changes in this short period of time, I couldn't help laughing at myself.

"Come on, it's your turn, come in, sit down, please sit down."

Hearing the girl's greeting, I calmed down, sorted out my expression, stepped in, sat down, put my hands flat on my knees, looked around, and looked at the girl opposite. The girl was very young, probably in her early twenties, with black hair , with a handsome face, wearing a white coat, with a kind smile on his face. "Where did you meet Lao Li?"

"Old Li? Oh, is that the one who brought me here just now?"

"Yeah, it's Lao Li. He introduced a lot of people for us to check."

"At..., in Zhongshan Park."

"Okay, do you know that it's easy to get unclean diseases like this kind of behavior?"

"This..." I didn't know what to say for a while.

"Actually, there are many such people, so don't be too shy. It's normal. What I'm saying is that homosexuality is nothing. It's a normal, natural existence. Don't worry too much about it. That..., just, you choose In the park toilet, it’s actually a very dangerous behavior, you know? Is there a condom? Have you had an inspection?” The girl’s question is fluent and fluent, which always makes me feel speechless and unable to catch up. Later, she also asked some questions that I often ask others on weekdays.Like when did you realize you were like this?Under what circumstances did you behave like this?How to deal with traditional marriage relationship?

"The vast majority of people in this group are very tired."

"Yes, so, although the country doesn't have clear regulations and encouragement, we still care about this group. Everything we do now is to help you, really, even if it doesn't help much." The girl shrugged, Act as if you can't do what you can.

"Thank you, thank you." I am very grateful, from the bottom of my heart, very grateful.

"Actually, the main thing is that you have a good sense of self-protection, help each other, and don't hurt each other. To help each other, you can also introduce some people to come to check and let them know that the country has such welfare measures and his current health. Mutual harm is that if you get sick unfortunately, you must never intentionally infect others. Of course, for this group, you can do more than us, because you are relatively hidden, and only you know better this group."

"Doctor, don't laugh, I think, I want to write down my experience over the years, so that it is no longer hidden, so that they can see the light of day, mainly so that they can not be blamed."

"Writing a book? Do you want to write a book? Okay, very good, you must tell me when the time comes, I will be the first to buy it and read it." The doctor was as excited and overjoyed as he was encouraging his students. It was an immediate boss who wanted to pat his subordinate on the shoulder and say, "You can do it, do it well."

That day, we chatted happily without any worries. After that, she gave me a psychological test form, which was similar to the one I filled out in Guangzhou XX Mental Hospital in [-]. After I finished it and handed it in, she gave it to me. A note, explaining where to go for blood collection, where to send for testing, when to get the results, or tell her QQ number, she sent me the results, and handed me a personal card with both hands, I took it with both hands, already I don't remember the full name, but I remember it clearly: surnamed Chen, a very good doctor!