[Tutorial] Self-indulgence

He still remembers how much hope he had when he was determined to fight Yan Jin, and Spedo.

If he wins, that person will probably be able to wake up.

It wasn't because of super intuition, and there was no basis for that person to wake up, he just believed it, or had to believe it.

I can't imagine the appearance of that person who can't wake up, and I can't imagine the life of losing that person later.

It is true that life will go on even if anyone is lost, but the time and pain it takes is beyond his ability to bear.

"If Zero doesn't wake up, I don't know how to go on." He asked that person in a low voice like when he was young, "...so, wake up quickly." He nestled beside the bed, held the man's hand close to his face with one hand, and rubbed his cheek against the back of the man's hand like a puppy seeking caress.

All the other people were left outside this room by him, and no one was allowed to enter.It was as if there would never be a third person in the space between him and that person.

"Before," he clenched the man's hand, and said with some sobs, "after I won against Spedo, I thought that guy was not as bad as I imagined." The person who listened patiently agreed, "But Spedo said you have to wake up yourself."

He pursed his lips as he said, "Although Ling, you usually wake up earlier than me, but this time I finally woke up so much earlier than you,... I..." He suddenly bit his lower lip tightly, swallowing his heart The horrible thought of gurgling like lava. "I'll wait for you to wake up."

"So, you must, you must wake up." He put down the man's hand, lowered his head and kissed the corner of the man's mouth. "...I wish I were a prince." He read this sentence in a trance, and then smiled again, "Zero's words are definitely not princesses, and what I want to say is the kind of dragon guarding treasures."

He rubbed his head against the man's arm, "When will His Majesty the dragon wake up? It's not good if you can't wake up."

Perhaps it was because of being too tired, he maintained this posture and fell asleep. The dream was all about that person, but he could only watch from a distance, unable to touch anything.

"Hey...Zawada," someone seemed to be patting him on the shoulder, and the frequency was very fast. "Zawada."

He moved uneasily, his fingertips suddenly touched the skin of the person on the bed, and he suddenly woke up, but when he looked up, he only saw A Zhai's face turned sideways. "...Ah," he was slightly disappointed, then shook his head again. "What's wrong?"

A Zhai looked at him silently for a while, then sighed. "Is it nothing, or a little progress?"

His eyes lit up, and he stood up quickly, but because of his excessive movement, he lifted the corner of the quilt that was pressed on his hand, "...well," he hurriedly pressed the corner of the quilt that was raised, and smoothed the person's hair , and then turned to look at A Zhai who was leaning against the wall.

A Zhai took a few steps and dragged the chair in front of him, then sat on the chair in reverse, put his hands on the back of the chair and looked at him with his chin up. "According to what you said, I jumped through time and space to find the one with the ability to speak spiritually." Before he could say anything, Azhai stretched out his hand and blocked his words. "You don't need to seek help from that person... That person seems to have..." This sentence seemed to be difficult to open, but A Zhai continued. "went."

The tone of those two characters is Chinese, but even so he understands it.

And just because he understood, he felt even more terrified.

"So I found Zero in other time and space, but I don't know if there will be a response." Azhai followed him and sighed, "Not every guy in every world knows me, and not every world knows me. They all exist...it's really subtle." Saying this, A Zhai sighed again. "It would be great if my ability could enter the dream. At this time..."

He opened his mouth, but without saying a word, he tilted his head and looked out the window at the moon like a silver hook. "I wait."

Other than that, he couldn't think of any other way.

I don't know if his mind penetrated time and space, but A Zhai brought someone with him the next day.

Someone who could really help him.

It's another him.

But it didn't seem quite like it, he looked at himself ten years later, pacing around the room very leisurely, looking at the things on the table as if he was recalling something, but he didn't look at the person on the bed at all .

He hesitated for a moment, but finally spoke up. "Excuse me..." The person on the other side was obviously himself, but it made him feel extremely uncomfortable.

"Hey, I thought you would keep watching it?" It was clearly his voice ten years later, but the tone was very similar to that person.

Just when he subconsciously overlapped that person with his own face ten years later, his expression ten years later suddenly changed, as if he was extremely helpless, and sighed leisurely. "Chu, stop making trouble."

At first he didn't realize it, but when he looked at him ten years later with a very gentle expression, he suddenly realized that the so-called 'beginning' was 'zero'.

Maybe it was because the doubts in his expression were too deep, and he opened his mouth to explain the ten years in front of him. "At first I gave her the name Zero, but she didn't like it, so I followed her meaning and named it Chu....It means the very beginning, isn't it a very good name?"

"...Ha..." He uttered a meaningless syllable, not knowing whether it should be good or bad.

But he vaguely noticed something, but he couldn't say it out. Instead, looking at A Zhai's expression, it seemed that she already understood something he didn't understand.

A Zhai looked at him fixedly and shook his head, then opened the door. "I'll go out and wait, you two... come to me when the three of you get the results." She dragged a chair and paused at the door, and then closed the door.

"Ah oh, although she is not in our world, I like this character." It sounded a bit frivolous from him ten years later, but he quickly recognized that it belonged to another zero. of.

"Yeah, I feel very smart." The one who is quite calm is the real ten years later.

"Tch, I'm also super witty and smart!" The voice clearly came from a person, but it's easy for people to recognize who it is, but it's hard for others to realize it just by the tone different.

He suddenly realized that ten years later, he had never been separated from that person.

"Oh...forget about this one." The man raised the corner of his eyes when he looked over, "Gang you go aside for now, I'll take a look at 'me'." The face that was originally eager to try suddenly became quiet again, nodding Head back to the previous excitement.

He squinted his eyes and looked at the two faces that were constantly replaced by his own face ten years later, and suddenly thought of the memory when he and Zero still existed in the same body.

At that time... that person seemed to be the same, he laughed a lot.

He suddenly felt a dull pain in his heart, and when he stretched out his hands to press his chest, he realized that he was actually crying.

But this feeling is not his own,...but another person's, it is zero's emotion.

He hurriedly approached the person lying beside the bed. The person on the bed was still sleeping peacefully, but he slightly turned his head to look at the other zero beside him, only to find that the other person's expression was no longer excited, but became a little nervous. Unpredictable.

"Excuse me..." His teeth were chattering as he spoke, as if he would bite the flesh between his lips accidentally.

On his face ten years later, suddenly appeared the expression he had seen many times on Zero Face. "Such a dream..." Looking forward with deep eyes, as if looking at something far away and irretrievable, "Even if it's me, I don't want to wake up."

"Huh?" He made a puzzled voice.

Chu looked back at him, took advantage of his height to look down at him, then turned to look at Zero on the bed. "That is... a dream world that no one of me can resist." The voice was very soft, as if afraid of waking up that dream.

"But!" He couldn't help but uttered in a panicked voice. "No matter how good the dream is, it's not reality." What he wanted to say was not these, but he was a little ashamed to say those words at the moment.

Chu nodded, then pointed to Zero, "That's her dream, she has to choose by herself." At this time, the expression on her face was arrogant and arrogant, "No one wants to make decisions for others."

Then, ten years later, his expression returned to the calm and gentle expression before, but he looked at him with sympathy or comfort. "The original idea represents my opinion."

What he wanted to say was completely shattered like this.

He finally noticed a difference.

Therein lies the difference.

Zero in this world puts him in the most important position, and puts his thoughts first in everything, and whether he is unconscious at the beginning, vaguely aware of it after getting along with him, or even clear at the end, He enjoys it with peace of mind.

And another world... In the so-called third world, although they are not separated into two individuals, they communicate with each other more closely than anyone else, and he in that world puts zero in the first place. one.

Zero has never been a person who accepts what he enjoys at will, so in the end, the self in another world and another Zero...

He lowered his eyes and looked at the person sleeping peacefully on the bed.

[...We,] It seems that it has been too long since we have spoken to that person like this, and he feels that the language has become dry. [How long has it been since you spoke like this? ]

He couldn't recall the answer to the question.

"... At the beginning, although I really want to say that she is too lazy to care, but this is a matter between you and the other her. No matter what, it is up to you to decide." Another ten years later, he patted him on the shoulder, "Take The girl from before shouted in, and her ability should also be used."

Maybe because he sensed something in advance, Yan Zhen even ran over at this time, looking at him with a very apologetic expression, hoping to help him.

He didn't speak, while Azhai covered his forehead with a headache expression.

"...Can you refuse?"

He knew that this sentence was said for the first time, and the voice was from him ten years later, but he couldn't help but think of that person.

"Thank you... Yanzhen." He exhaled lightly, as if he had finally made up his mind.

Before entering the dream, he was in a state of curiosity and asked a question to his other self. "Are you... happy like this?" He didn't know what to say, but he was a little annoyed after asking this sentence.

And another ten years later, he looked at him with a smile, "Aren't you happy?" He said with a sneer, but he looked very much like Zero. "It's just a choice."

Hearing this sentence, he turned his head and looked at the road ahead where he couldn't see anything, "Ah...it's just a different choice."

He's going to bring that person back, and that's his choice.

After entering that person's dream, he hardly spent much time looking for that person. The special connection and bond between the two made him see the person standing in the dark and empty place around him at a glance.

It's just that the appearance of that person is not familiar to him, but looks a little thin.

"...Zero?" He called out in a low voice, and the young figure turned his head in his direction as if he heard the voice.He looked at the figure and slowly took a deep breath before slowly leaning over.

The darkness around him changed as he approached. To be more accurate, he finally saw the space where that person was.

At first, it was a little white, and then various colors were mixed together. In the eyes of people, the colorful prints are so harmonious and soft that they do not make people feel glaring. The original appearance appeared in front of him.

Azhai and Yanzhen were not far behind him. Although he didn't see the expressions of those two, he could feel that they were as surprised and excited about this place as he was from the unusual sound of breathing. Incredible.

But he doesn't care about these things now, he only knows that the young child not far in front of him is the person he likes.

The appearance in the dream is always his favorite appearance, that person once told him so.

"...your favorite look..." He muttered a few words, couldn't help speeding up his pace, completely ignoring A Zhai's yelling to stop, and rushed towards that person, but he didn't expect that person Looking at him with a terrified expression.

Regardless of the current situation, the appearance is actually very cute, with round eyes widened in surprise, hands clasped in front of his chest, and tied-up hair that seemed to stand on end in fright.

But when he stretched out his hand to take her hand, that person suddenly aroused resistance.

Shouting, struggling, crying and screaming as if he was a terrible monster, crying heartbreakingly like this, trying to break free from him hysterically.

And the more that person struggled, the less he dared to let go.

But he had to let go of that person.

That person looked small in the dream, only reaching the height of his thigh, maybe not yet, he didn't want that person to get hurt like this, or be more afraid of him.

So he let go of his hand, and even let go carefully, to prevent the man from struggling too much and falling to the ground.

Everything he has learned to take care of children now is all learned from that person, and his careful actions are imitating the appearance of that person in his memory taking care of him when he was young.

"You just..." The man made a soft voice, looked up at him, but frowned as if he didn't know what to say.

He knew what the man was going to say, so he answered quickly.

As he spoke, he looked at her, hoping that the person would remember...or just change back to the person he knew, but he didn't.

Looking at the man's childhood appearance, he felt as if his heart was being torn slowly by something.

As usual, he showed an aggrieved look, and that person suddenly became fighting spirit from the initial bewilderment, his eyes overflowed with light when he looked at a certain place.

Even though he thought about many reasons why that person would show such an expression, he still didn't expect that the person who came was Zero's dead father.

That was the person he had only glimpsed in Zero's dream.

So he became at a loss, even a little unbelievable, his brain was messed up by that man, so he could only ask Ling blankly, "Has Ling forgotten?" It's a pity that what you say can never be taken back.

But the answer that person gave was also extremely cruel.

He wanted to drag that person to his side, and wanted to say something to that person, but he heard the man standing next to the young Zero say in a reprimanded tone, "What are you going to do to my daughter? !"

He wanted to refute, but in the end he couldn't say a word.

That statement couldn't be refuted, and he was annoyed by the realization.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." A Zhai, who was standing on the sidelines, suddenly rushed up and made up a lie in fluent Chinese, and then he was dragged away by A Zhai.

From a distance, he could still hear that person's soft voice saying something. He felt a little sad, but he couldn't find the reason.

"...Fucking scared me to tears..." A Zhai patted his chest exaggeratedly, "What are you doing in front of someone's father? Are you courting death..."

"...Zero's father passed away a long time ago." He didn't know what kind of mood he had when he said this, but Azhai and Yanzhen were stunned and then fell silent.

He also followed silently.

"But," Ah Zhai exhaled, looking into the distance. "Even if it's a dream, this is... a world made up of things she wishes for. For her who is sleeping, this is the reality."

He still couldn't refute, but he said over and over in his heart, this is wrong, this is not right.

He didn't know what was wrong, but he knew the reason why he resisted here.

If the dream doesn't disappear, that person will remain in a deep sleep, and he will be thrown down.He couldn't bear such a thing to happen.

Perhaps seeing his thoughts through his expression, A Zhai sighed faintly. "Will it work? I don't know, let alone say. But... If there is such a man who can always tolerate and love a woman regardless of whether she is good or bad, ugly or beautiful, or even whatever happens, then that Only 'father' can do it for a man. Do you understand that what you are facing now is not just a virtual character created by a simple dream."

He began to want to refute, but then remembered that he had exchanged his liking for that person's attention at first, so he had no choice but to remain silent. "...Of course I... know." He said with difficulty, "That is..." That virtual character is not only a virtual character shaped by a dream, but also a dream condensed from the depths of Zero's heart.

"That's right, what you have to face now is the strongest enemy in the universe that all men have to face!" A Zhai suddenly raised a finger, "'The girl's father'."

"Pfft..." Yan Zhen, who was listening to their conversation, suddenly laughed, and then waved his hands again. "I'm sorry... just listening to her, I kind of agree." Yan Zhen coughed and cleared his throat a few times, "How should I put it, I have a younger sister... so I can somehow understand the so-called 'powerful enemy father' ' reason."

Yan Zhen smiled a bit bitterly, he thought of the reason in an instant, and was a little flustered, but Yan Zhen shook his hand at him to express that he didn't mind. "All in all, now we can only have a long-term plan, and we have to slowly penetrate into Zero's dream."

He turned his head and looked at the two vague figures in the distance. "That's right." Although he had already walked away, he could see very clearly the appearance of Zero holding his father's hand and smiling brilliantly.

"It's a good decision. Although this is a dream, it won't change the real memory, but it's a good way for now. Ah, do you need me to teach you how to chase girls, the kind made in China?" A Zhaiyi He stared at him in a foolish manner and said such words, and even put his hands on his shoulders.

He shook his head with black lines all over his head, but he was always ignored when he walked into that person's dream life.

Even so, that person did start to notice him, and the occasional look at him would make his heart beat faster.

The time in the dream is almost jumping, the young person grows up very quickly, and he who is sometimes by the side and sometimes by that person's side suddenly has a subtle feeling.

He is watching the person he likes continue to grow at this moment.

There is a kind of feeling similar to being a father or being happy when the wait finally gets the result, mixed with a little sadness at the same time.

That person is growing, but his level remains the same.

Even though he knew it was just a dream, he still had this feeling, so he couldn't help but think of the person who had been with him for ten years, whether that person also watched him grow up with such helplessness and sadness ...he had no way of knowing the answer.

And when he was watching that person's life, he gradually discovered the dividing line of the dream.

Is Zero's father.

As the phantom of the father, when Zero grew bigger and bigger, he gradually stopped talking. When walking with Zero, he no longer held Zero's hand, but followed Zero silently half a step away The place.

The dead no longer have a future.

Just like how living people can imagine, those are just imaginations, which belong to miracles that cannot happen.

Zero's mood, he can suddenly understand at this moment.

What that person...wants, what he wants, is about,

What actually happened, miraculously.

"...Actually, you also know it's impossible." He looked at the back of the man who jumped up and walked home because of embarrassment, and said, "Wake up...Zero."

He remembered that when he was young, he had complained to that person countless times that his father always disappeared, and at that time, that person would say in a tone that he couldn't understand, even so, it was still a solid building. Mountain.

"...I will...become that kind of person." He finally raised his head and looked at the back of that person who didn't stop. "A person who can make Ling cry, rest assured, and laugh happily."

"zero…"

He wanted to say something more, but was interrupted by that person.

"--I know."

The tone was hard to tell, but it was a tone he was very familiar with.

It's time to wake up from this dream.