[Tutorial] Self-indulgence

"...Alas..." I turned over again on the bed, and this was the third time I sighed this morning.

Although nothing happened this morning, I just want to sigh inexplicably.And when I was poked on the cheek by that guy Tsunaki in the morning, I always felt that my heart was being scratched and flustered.

"And that guy blushed like that when he saw me dressed... It's not like I haven't seen it before." I muttered, and the bed that I was lying on very comfortably seemed to have a thorn, which made me turn over and over again In the past, I couldn't find a comfortable position. "...Wooah, no way! Looking back, I feel like I'm going to some strange dimension!" I covered my face with the quilt and rolled around on the bed, so I wrapped myself in the quilt like this The ones that go around are wrapped into a ball.

Thinking of what happened last night, I arched inward again, wrapping the quilt tighter. "...Again, lie down for another 5 minutes and I'll get up..." I said this to myself very weakly, lay on the bed idly staring at the ceiling for about 1 minute, then fell asleep again in a hopeless way .

When I woke up, I looked at the time and saw that it was almost time for lunch.

I was startled, got up neatly from the bed, put on my clothes and ran downstairs, but saw my mother humming a song while chopping vegetables and cooking in the kitchen.

"Mom, auntie...?" I shrank against the wall, subconsciously watching the inexplicably happy woman in the kitchen, and at the same time looking around.

Everything is fine in the kitchen, there is no problem in the living room, and it doesn't look like there are guests coming or anything to be happy about,... But Tsuna's mother is so excited, there must be something happening.

I held on to the wall tightly, and at the same time kept looking around the corners, trying to find out why my mother was so happy.

"Ah, Zero woke up." Mom waved a spoon at me, "Oh, Mr. Gang didn't cause you any trouble, did he?"

I couldn't understand the meaning of her words, so I nodded along with her words. "No... I've always been the one who's bothering Tsunayoshi. Well, auntie... Is there anything worth celebrating today?" I didn't notice any changes around here, so I couldn't help but ask.

Mom winked at me, then covered her face with her free hand in embarrassment. "Oh, really..." Mom smiled at me, I don't know why that smile made me a little numb. "You can just call mom."

"Huh?" I was taken aback, and a very subtle premonition rose in my heart. "What...what's wrong? Suddenly..." I went through all the plots I could think of in a flash, as if I mistakenly thought that I had such a relationship with her son or... I couldn't think of anything else or thing! !

Mom is cooking red bean rice! !

Compared to me who lost my mind and went crazy when I accidentally saw what my mother was cooking, my mother calmly dropped the spoon, walked up to me and hugged me.

"In the future, our stupid son will trouble you to take care of him."

"what?"

I stared blankly at the woman holding me, and timidly raised a hand. "Excuse me... What happened during the time I fell asleep?"

"Oh, didn't this kid, Gang Ji, tell you?!" Mom showed a sufficiently surprised expression, and then let go of me, with her hands on her hips and her face puffed up angrily. "Gangji, this kid is really..."

"...That..." I raised my hand again, and at the same time I was preparing to retreat if something happened.

Mom let out a cry, as if she realized that she hadn't given the answer yet. "Well, Mr. Gang should have told you... but..." Mom tilted her head and thought for a moment, then happily raised a finger, "I want to see Zero happy too, hehe."

Her last sentence made me unnaturally imagine what it would be like for Gang Ji to say this sentence.

"Kid Gangji told me in the morning..." My mother squatted close to my ear, and said very softly, "I want to be with Ling, I want to..." My mother suddenly protracted the sound, which made me unconsciously He pricked up his ears and waited with bated breath for the words after that.

Probably looking at me like that, my mother smiled and continued. "...I want to marry Zero when I'm 16."

"...!" I couldn't help taking a deep breath, maybe it was because I choked or maybe it was something else, my face turned red all of a sudden.

Mom seemed very happy to see my reaction, and rubbed my hair with a smile. "My children are so lucky to find a girl like Zero."

"Ah... ah..." I didn't know how to answer, so I could only nod dully. "Uncle, aunt,"

"Call Mom directly."

I straightened my back in an instant, "Good mother." It's not difficult to call her mother, after all, I have called her mother for so many years, but the reason and emotion for calling her this time are different from the previous ones. And more embarrassing than ever before.

Maybe it was looking at my blushing so stupid that my limbs were stiff, my mother patted me on the shoulder and then turned to go to the kitchen to make lunch.

I waited for my mother to walk into the kitchen and continue to get busy before I finally let go of my heart and took a breath, and then walked to the sofa in a daze, and my whole body was sunk in it.

After a long while, I finally regained my composure, raised my head and let out a long breath, at the same time I gave Gang Ji a hard stroke in my heart.

However, at this moment, I suddenly thought of Kyoko very uncomfortable.

"Well...don't want to." I shook my head, trying to use this method to shake off the messy thoughts in my head and throw them to one corner. "Ah, I'm hungry." I rubbed my stomach, and went to the kitchen to help my mother.

Because Tsunayoshi and the prison temple went out all day, so today's lunch is only my mother, Yiping, and Lanbo.

Then I discovered that as long as Tsuna...or reborn is not around, the children at the dinner table are actually very quiet.At most, Lan Bo would spill his meals on the table, and occasionally yell a word or two when he ate something delicious.

After dinner, I took Lanbo and Yiping to wash the dishes together, and then I was thinking about what to do in the afternoon to pass the time and wait for him to come back.

"...Wait, this looks like the kind of husband who waits for office workers," I slapped myself on the forehead. "Oh, do I want to make up my mind like this..." I tightened the pillow I held in my hand very resentfully, "It's all that guy's fault." I gritted my teeth thinking that I was gnawing on that guy's flesh to get rid of it Solution to hatred.

I kept hugging the pillow and curled up on the sofa, dozed off unknowingly, and suddenly heard a crackling sound from the second floor, which woke me up suddenly. "... I fell asleep again." I rubbed my eyes, put the pillow aside, and walked up to the second floor with bare feet, only to find that there was no change except for the windows being wide open.

...It might be better to say that the opening of the windows is the biggest change.

"What kind of brain circuit are those guys who broke into the house?" I lit the rain attribute ring in my hand, then walked to the window and closed it. "...There's no such thing as a sneak attack!?" I suddenly felt that it was stupid of me to light a flame in order to guard against someone who might hide in the dark and wait for someone to approach the window.

...Ah, I feel inexplicably that my brain is not normal.

Before I left the room, I took one last look inside the room, and after making sure there was no one else, I closed the door and went downstairs. After looking around in the living room, I felt that I had nothing to do, so I just sat in the corridor Looking at the scene of Yiping and Lanbo playing outside the courtyard.

Staring at the two children, I couldn't help squinting, and a hazy picture was sketched in my mind. Before I could add anything to it, I realized that Yiping had gone somewhere.I stood up and scanned the rest of the courtyard, but I still didn't see Yiping's shadow, so I waved to Lanbo who was lying on the ground, who was basking in the sun or roasting his ass, "Lanbo, where's Yiping?"

Lan Bo scratched his butt lazily and pointed casually. "Weitou said to throw something away..."

"Throwing something?" I was a little confused.

"Well," Lan Bo turned over on his belly this time, "...it seems that he saw something floating down..."

"...Oh." Seeing Lan Bo lazy like this, I suddenly felt a deep hatred for myself who stayed in bed this morning.I stared at Lanbo for three seconds, then turned my head decisively and walked outside the door to have a look, just in time to meet Yiping who was walking back.

"Are you going to play with Lanbo after Yiping?" I knelt down to talk to the little girl, and the little girl nodded shyly. "Then be careful."

This time the little girl's face was flushed with embarrassment.

...she's really a shy girl.

I sighed inwardly, watched Yiping go back to the courtyard, then walked out the door and looked around, then lifted the lid of the trash can, and saw a piece of paper lying on other trash bags, which had no special features at all.

It's just plain paper anyway, and I'm not sure it has anything to do with the open window...

No, anyway, I don't want to do garbage collection at my door.

"...But I really want to know what this unread note is." I stared at the ordinary piece of paper, feeling my heart was bleeding from being scratched by a curious cat. "But put your hands in the garbage..." I glanced around the street, sneaking closer to the garbage can.

Maybe it's because it happened to be during the lunch break, and no one was passing by on the street outside the house at this time.It is also because of this that I am more entangled.

The thought that someone might pop up out of nowhere made it even harder for me to make a decisive decision.

It has nothing to do with whether the garbage is dirty or not. The key is that the subtle psychology of being a girl prevents me from reaching out to that piece of paper.

"... Ah, I got it." I took out the paper with my index finger and middle finger expressionlessly, and then unfolded it, only to see some inexplicable things written on the paper. "If not...a threatening letter? By the way, this word is Yan Zhen's own, and he still writes this kind of thing." I suddenly crumpled the piece of paper into a ball.

Sure enough, there was something wrong with Gu Liyan.

The observation and subconsciousness some time ago made me tear off that piece of paper, and then pretend that nothing happened and throw it back into the trash can.

"... But we still have to figure it out." I thought for a while and made a quick decision.

So I said to my mother that I had something to go out, and when I put on my shoes and was about to leave, I paused at the door and thought about it, then turned around and said to my mother, "I'll be back before lunch."

"Okay, then mom will prepare the meals and wait for you and Gang Jun to come back." Mom stood at the door and waved to me, "Be careful on the road."

"Okay, I see." I nodded to my mother, and after closing the door, I quickly ran towards the place where that guy at Azhai was.

I ran along the road where I met her on Bingsheng Street and followed her to her house. Before I could use the fog attribute flame to find out the exact address of her house, I suddenly remembered the flame of this guy. The attribute should be Lan.

"...that guy..." I looked at the empty place with a dark face, resisting the urge to set her on fire, and kicked the stones on the ground.

That guy didn't use the fog-attribute flame of death, but the space shifting ability to separate the house from the open space.

"No wonder I said this looks familiar..." I looked at the place not far away where I couldn't see the broken joints without looking carefully, and sighed. "Me and that guy..."

This place is...the place where Tsuna and I met for the first time, that small park.

But rather than meeting it for the first time, it would be better to say it was heard.

I stuck out my tongue.

"Nufurofur, is there anything worth being so happy about?" A voice that sounded familiar but unfamiliar suddenly sounded behind me, making me fall forward unexpectedly.

"Who?!" I leaned forward, then took two quick steps to distance myself and turned my head, but I only saw a head with a strange haircut that looked a bit like Liudao Mukui, and then I felt drowsy and couldn't remember anything. Incredible.

I don't know how much time has passed, the consciousness seems to be awake and it doesn't seem to be, but I can still feel that Tsuna seems to be around here.

I stood on the spot and turned around, and there was nothing but pitch black around.Then I seemed to hear the sound of something peeling off, and felt the faint emotions coming from Tsunaki.

But those emotions were so mixed and weak that I couldn't even identify what those emotions were.

I don't know how long it took, I seemed to hear the guy saying these things in a crying voice, but I didn't want to hear it, so I still didn't hear any sound.

There was a little bit of light at the place where the sound was made, but it was not obvious.I squinted my eyes to look at that place, thought for a moment, and then made a decision.

I tried to contact Tsunayoshi while walking towards the place where the noise came from. [Gangji, can you hear me? ] I felt that the black in front of me seemed to be higher than me for no reason, but then I thought it was probably my illusion. After all, even if there is a small white spot in the distance, there is no exact reference at all. .

[This place is really strange, Tsunayoshi. ]

[So, Tsuna-kichi, can you hear me or can't you hear me? Give me a response. ]

[...Ah, yes.I can't even hear your voice, Gangji, how can I know if you have responded to me. ]

I stopped and scratched my cheek, then walked on again.

[This place feels so strange, Tsunayoshi. ]

[Tsuna Yoshi...]

[Outline...]

[Eh? ] I stopped suddenly, a lot of things in my mind were mixed together so that I couldn't think for a while. I didn't dare to open my eyes until the uncomfortable things disappeared.

"...Ah," I opened my mouth, only to utter a meaningless syllable. "What do I want to say?" I was a little puzzled, and was suddenly knocked on the head.

"Don't let me go home yet! Do you know what time it is?!" A voice full of anger sounded above my head, and I was so frightened that I trembled on the spot.

I looked up and turned around immediately. "...I," looking at the man in front of me, I shrank my body very spinelessly. "I'll go back."

Seeing me like this, the man smiled instead. "You." There was a very helpless voice, "It's like a five-year-old still playing outside. Are you still wild?"

Daliu means... wandering outside, wild is disobeying discipline...

I went through this sentence in my mind, and I nodded silently. "It's not wild anymore." I clenched my little short hands obediently, and looked at him pitifully. "Dad, I was wrong."

He stared at me for a long time, and then hit his forehead again with a mallet, "Come back with me." The force was not heavy, but I still felt pain.

So I rolled up my sleeves and wiped my forehead fiercely, and I didn't do anything but Del wrapped his arms around him to make him hold me on the neck.

Although he said he couldn't move his back, he still couldn't hold me back. In the end, I rode back home like this on his neck.

[...? ? ]

What did I forget?

I don't know and don't remember.

"Why are you so obsessed with it?" He grabbed my foot and walked forward, asking suddenly.

I shook my head, "I'm thinking about what I'm going to eat."

After saying this sentence, he joked that he only knows how to eat, so I quickly refuted the truth that others are iron rice and steel.

So the two of us kept talking about this topic. You blame me for eating, but I said I know how to enjoy.Just bickering with him so simply, I don't know why I suddenly want to cry.

But in the end, I still didn't cry, after all, there was no reason to cry.

I don’t know how many days passed like this, I took advantage of the good weather and ran downstairs to play with leaves and pile sand by myself. Suddenly, someone rushed towards me, grabbed my hand and was about to run.

I was startled, and then reacted and struggled quickly. "Let me go, let me go! It hurts so much, let go!" That person was at least a teenager. I never thought I could be let go like this. I just shouted to attract others' attention, but I didn't Thinking of that person really letting go when he heard me yelling like that.

"...you just..." I racked my brains to think, but I didn't know what to say.

But the guy seemed to know what I was going to say, "Because you said let go." Then he looked at me, and looked at me with those strange brown eyes, so I was the only one in those eyes.

I felt a sudden pain in my chest, like being punched by someone.

"What are you doing..." I said and stepped back, obviously not wanting to have another word with this person.

But this person didn't care if I retreated or anything else, he just looked at me with an expression like being bullied. "zero."

He yelled a word aggrieved, but I didn't understand.

"I'm going home!" I spotted a person, and instantly felt that there was a rescuer. After shouting, I quickly passed him and ran behind that person.

The boy seemed a little overwhelmed, and a little unbelievable. In short, he just looked at me strangely, and said, "Did Zero forget?"

"What are you talking about..." I hid behind that man as if I had obtained a shield that no one could break, and stared at the boy with my head up and chest out. "I do not even know you."

He shook his body as if shocked by these words, and then stretched out his hand as if to pull me away from the person in front of me, but he was naturally blocked.

"What are you going to do to my daughter." I think my dad's voice is the most powerful voice I've ever heard in my life.

Hearing this sentence, the young man was stunned for a moment, stared at the man with wide eyes, his lips muttered to say something, but before he could say it, a woman who came from nowhere pressed her head and swallowed it down.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I... My classmate thinks your daughter is cute, so I just want to tease her." She spoke quickly, and immediately dragged the boy away after speaking. "Kneel down and beg you Tsunayoshi Sawada, don't make trouble, you brat."

That person was originally called Sawada Tsunayoshi.

Kokichi Sawada.

who is it?

I shook my head, then pulled my father's arm to bend him down and lowered his head, then stood on tiptoe and hugged his neck, stalking him to sit on his neck. "Otherwise, carry me on your back!"

He picked me up while training me. "You are seven years old, you are already in school, and you let me carry it. Do you still want me to carry it when you grow up?"

"Okay," I replied indifferently, "You will carry me for the rest of your life." After finishing speaking, I nodded emphatically.

"Ah, that's right. I won't grow up anymore." He smiled and shook his head, "Little guy."

I sniggered on his back, and at the same time moved unconcernedly, "I'm a little guy and you are a big guy, hurry up, drive! It's too late to eat when I go back."

I went home with him on his back like this, and since then I have been pestering him to carry me, although I prefer to sit on his neck, but the more time passes, the less he let me sit on him neck, and in the end it was just carrying me.

It seems like it took me a short time to become very fast, but it didn't seem like I did. I just know that I can't let him carry me on my back now.

I'm not too embarrassed, in his words, it's really embarrassing for someone who has already been in junior high school to carry it.

And it's pretty heavy, myself.

I smiled awkwardly and rubbed my nose while staring at the boy in front of me. "Why always you."

I still remember this person, his name is Tsunayoshi Sawada, others...don't know.

"Because I like you." He said shamelessly what I have heard from him countless times, "So I want to follow you to prevent you from running away."

I wished I could kick him, but in the end I didn't. "I said, it's a ghost that you like me, can you stop making trouble. I will be scolded when I come home late, and if you want to like me, you must be the kind of super gentle person."

I don't remember when I started to have two faces.

On the one hand cowardly and ashamed to see people.On the other hand paranoid and sensitive suspicious.He is gentle with everyone, but irritable.

I don't understand whether these two emotions can coexist, and whether those are me, but what I have to admit is when I started, there seemed to be an invisible seam in my heart.

"... Forget it." I suddenly lost my energy, "I'm going back."

I turned around and didn't look at him, but when I got home, I nestled in the sofa and looked at the figure who was busy cooking at home, and then held my father's hand at night and chatted with him about Zetian's affairs.

"So, this guy is super weird, right." After high school, it became a boarding system, and it was difficult for me to go home for a week, but I still insisted on calling my father at home, and sometimes I was moved.

Ah, just kidding.

Anyway, every time I was talking, he was listening.

It's the same tonight, it's the same every day, it won't change.

"...Is this really okay?" Zetian, who didn't know what he was thinking, asked me out one night and said such a sentence.

It was a very beautiful night, as if I had never seen it before.

"Is it really okay, Zero." He frowned, as if he couldn't agree with my point of view. "Sleep deeply in the past..." He said something that I half understood, and then he simply hugged me. "...Wake up quickly."

[... Gangji. ]

There seems to be something in my heart, and two thoughts are pulling my head.

But I can't push him away, I can't push this person away.

That's something I can't push away.

"I'm going home." He let go of me and I said that.He didn't say anything.

I am timid and paranoid, sensitive and overwhelmed.So it's hard to give up once you hold it in your hands, so once you put something in your heart, it's hard to let go.

I have always been contradictory, "Right,...Dad." Now when I speak again, I feel that this word is very awkward.

It makes me want to cry.