self strategy

Bian Yiyang dragged me out of the amusement park, and I was led by him like an idiot, walking on the road, neither of us spoke much, the atmosphere was so embarrassing, I wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but I also feel that it is useless to say anything at this time.

I feel my face is a bit hot, but luckily the light is not strong enough, I exhaled to hide the tension in my heart, white smoke came out of my mouth, it was a bit late, there was no one on the street, I was dragged by Bian Yi For some reason, I wanted to free my hand, but in the end I couldn't.

"Well, I said, go to the third street, there should be taxis there, here..." I wanted to say that there are few people here, because I feel a little flustered when I am alone with him, but the words come true On the other side, but was forced to say: "There are few people here, it's a bit cold."

Bian Yi, who was walking in front, stopped, and finally let go of the hand that was holding my wrist. I retracted my hand, put it in my pocket, shrugged my shoulders, and made a cold appearance, and then accelerated my pace and walked in front of him. In front, "Let's go quickly." I said in a seemingly casual tone.

The footsteps behind me were a little anxious, and then my body was covered by a warm body. I felt the white mist exhaled by Bian Yi pass by my ears, separated by the thick clothes of the two of them, His ribs, his flesh and blood, but I can hear his powerful heartbeat.

His face was on my shoulder, and I could almost hear his breathing, feel his chest rise and fall as he breathed.

"Hey..." What are you going to do again?That's what I was going to say.

"You can't take off your coat. If it's cold, let me hug you." Bian Yiyang said.

My heartbeat suddenly increased, and I subconsciously wanted to break away, but I was afraid that my behavior would hurt him. I was so afraid of being rejected... Whether it was me now or the one before... I choked for a few moments Seconds, "Okay, I'm not cold anymore, this is the main street, brother!" It means you can let go.

"But I'm so cold." I don't know if he did it on purpose, but the words he said were right next to my ears, and the hot and humid breath brought an itchy feeling to my ears, "Your ears are so red, are you shy? ?” As he spoke, he bit my earlobe with his teeth.

"Shame on your old mother!" Finally couldn't take it anymore, turned around and pushed him away, this kid must have pushed his nose too hard!

Bian Yiyang looked at me, with a smile in his eyes, he took a few steps closer to me, and I backed away again and again, what should I do?What are you doing again!

His fingers flicked on the hair on my forehead, and a few snowflakes that hadn't melted yet stuck to the tips of his fingers.

"It's on your hair, once you stick this on, you will feel very stupid." Bian Yi smiled, and then continued to walk beside me.

What does this mean?I kept up with his pace, and the snowflakes immediately rushed to my face and stuck to my hair. Thinking of what Bian Yiyang said just now, I couldn't help but wipe off the snowflakes that had just been stuck on my forehead, and then looked at him again. Glancing at Bian Yiyang, "You still have, and more than me."

Bian Yiyang glanced at me, then stretched out his hand, made a ball of snowflakes on the railing by the side of the road, shook hands, and before I could react at all, he let out a "hoo!" Got it on my head.

I was completely dumbfounded, looking at Bian Yiyang's walking figure, listening to his "hahaha" laughter, I secretly scolded this kid for being boring and naive, then I ran over and wiped it on the side railing by the way. Xuehua stretched out her hand, and put the lump of snow on Bian Yiyang's head.

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When I got the taxi, I felt a little sleepy. I sat by the window at a distance from Bian Yiyang, leaned my head against the window, and glanced uncomfortably at Bian Yiyang, taking advantage of this time, I planned to sleep for a while, but how can I sleep now?

However, after all the formations were put on, he finally closed his eyes, trying to block his gaze and concentrate on sleeping.

In the end, when I realized it, I found that the direction of the taxi seemed to be not our school... but... my home, no, speaking now, it should be Bian Yiyang's home.

"Bian Yiyang!" I called him in a low voice, "Where is this going?"

Bian Yiyang glanced at me lazily, his expression was short of writing "I just realized it now" on his face.

"My house," he said.

"Why are you going to your house?" Although I miss the "home" where I lived for so long, I feel a little bad at this moment, what is this kid going to do?

"The dormitory must be closed. There is no one in my house. You can go and make up for one night." That expression seemed to be taken for granted.

"Fart! There is a grace period tonight. Besides, it's not like I don't have a home. Why go to your place?"

I know that his "home" is a small apartment that Dad bought for him in this city. Originally, the dormitory environment is not good, and it would be more comfortable to move here. In the last life, I only took Ren and them there once, but because I like Ren Qi. I originally planned to move to this apartment when I was a sophomore, but I didn’t implement it. After I graduated and worked, I went to Room H and bought another small bungalow. Yes, I bought it and forgot about it, but this is not the most important thing, the most important thing is - there is no one else in there, and there is no other bed, which means that if you go there, you have to chat with Bian Yi at night. Get alone, and, possibly, share a bed!

"Master—" Just as he was about to ask the taxi driver to turn around, Bian Yiyang pressed my mouth.

The driver asked me what I was doing, and Bian Yiyang replied, "It's okay."

The driver glanced at me through the rearview mirror and gave me his help-seeking eyes, then sighed, "Hey, young people nowadays are so energetic."

Stumbled out of the car door, I didn't dare to do anything in the car just now, when I got downstairs, I met Bian Yi's eyes, "What do you want?"

"I made you fall in love with me." Bian Yiyang took a step closer to me, and I took a step back subconsciously, but I couldn't answer this sentence, because I knew the feelings for Bian Yiyang from the bottom of my heart, But I also know that this is not possible.

"Ahhh, Bian Yiyang, why are you so persistent?" Recalling when I rejected what he said at the beginning, I really don't know what made him support until now. I was afraid of being rejected. I knew that if I refused again If this continues, I'm afraid that one day, when I can no longer restrain my feelings for him, I will be afraid of hurting him, afraid that he will be sad. At that time, I am afraid that I will not even be able to say the words of rejection.

I'm not used to this, really, I really hate myself for being so dishonest.

I don't even know how I got into Bian Yiyang's house. Looking at the neat furnishings, everything is new. I sat on the sofa and waited for Bian Yiyang to leave. familiar environment.

I don’t know why, but in front of Bian Yiyang, especially when he said he likes me, I will become very reserved, very mother-in-law, and I will think a lot because of one of his actions, and I will always restrain myself, and it is Bound hard.

Bian Yiyang went to take a shower, while I tuned the program, I thought about the way out for the future.

Probably because of habit, I can’t help but think back to Ren Qi, how happy I would be if he sat on my sofa and watched TV like this... I don’t know why, I think about him less time recently, how about More than ever, why?

When I found out that he was going to get married, I still remember the heart-piercing pain. It was probably that day that I completely gave up. Although now I sometimes think of fragments related to him, but Unknowingly, that segment was gradually replaced by a person, who is it?

Bian Yi Yang.

This name flashed through my mind quickly, and my heart suddenly became a mess again. There is nothing difficult to admit, but in my opinion, it is fatal.

Desperately telling myself not to like him, not to waver, not to get close to him, all the results are counterproductive.

Sometimes I think, what am I hesitating about?

Because I still miss Ren Qi?Or is it because I have been struggling with the fact that I am Bian Yiyang, and Bian Yiyang likes it, shouldn't it be me?In fact, I was not the kind of person who likes to think too much, but once I was reborn, everything should go according to the original track, but now it is gradually changing because of my different actions from the past, and I can't help but think a lot.

In fact, there is a route, if I keep going, things will not turn out like this, and that is—to go through the trajectory I experienced six years ago.That way I wouldn't end up in the current situation, but I never thought of turning myself into Ren Qi, and even now, I'm not used to people calling me by Ren Qi's name.

I am who I am, and I don't know who to call myself.

In fact, there is a question that has echoed countless times in my mind, but every time, I stopped it in fear, and I dare not think deeply...even now, I dare not.

Sometimes, I have the illusion that, sooner or later, I will be driven crazy by my own thoughts.

Bian Yi walked out the door, naked to the waist, and sat next to me.

I glanced at him, the face I had once, was looking into my eyes, and for a moment, I felt like I was looking in a mirror.

"It feels like you have a lot on your mind." He looked at me and said slowly.

"Brother is a thoughtful person." He stretched his hands to the back of his neck, leaned back slightly, and made a lazy gesture. Fortunately, seeing Bian Yiyang, I will not think about those for the time being.

"What thought? Let's hear it?" Bian Yiyang imitated my posture, and leaned back on the couch with me... the distance is a bit close.

"Nothing, just thinking about something, what's inside the earth... something..." I hurriedly sat up and moved to one side, not daring to get too close to it.

Bian Yiyang clasped my waist with his arm, with a rascal expression on his face, "Oh, I think the earth is like an egg, and the inside of the earth is the egg yolk, we can deduce it in turn, so let's come to Let's discuss the shape and structure of the ball..." he said.