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Probably because she saw my slightly puzzled expression, she curled her lips slightly dissatisfied, "How can you be like this, Ren Qi, I have been watching you for a long time, I didn't expect you to be in the friendship team, and you didn't notice me at all ..." There was a little sadness in the tone, it sounded like a little daughter-in-law who had just been abandoned.

At this time, the fat man on the side also looked resentful. I saw that he was staring at Han Xue, and his eyes were shining... Obviously, Han Xue came to hook me up. I don't know how to deal with Han Xue. Talk, but it’s not easy to push people to the fat man. I looked at the fat man and wanted him to help me, but I didn’t know that this damn kid would make a mistake. Settling accounts" expression, and then walked away very "consciously".

I don't know what expression to make, but it's not good, so I just left. Anyway, it's a friendship, and finally a girl came to strike up a conversation. It stands to reason that I should be happy, but now I really don't want to think about it. When I imagined Ren Qi standing with other women, I felt uncomfortable, even now that I have become Ren Qi... that feeling still exists.

"Why don't you talk?" Han Xue's tone was a bit complaining. When I came back to my senses, I realized that I had just wandered away. I said sorry, and then followed Han Xue's pace, walking step by step, following her topic. , chatting with each other...

"Are you saying that you are short-sighted? Seriously, I have been in front of you for a long time and I didn't realize that there is still a girl who wants to strike up a conversation with you. Ren Qi, you are too bad." Han Xue spoke in a strange way , I don't know where she is from, but everything she says has a crisp and coquettish feel.

"Hey, how can it be, look at you, you are so petite, who can see it when you are submerged in the crowd." She patted her on the head almost subconsciously, she is indeed much shorter than me, among the girls She is short, but she has a pretty face, and because she is very good at finding topics to talk about, I started chatting with her. As for why she subconsciously pats her head... it is probably a girl-picking factor that has not been released for a long time It happened again.

"Okay, have you learned to hurt people after not seeing each other for a few days?" Han Xue didn't look angry, and her tone was coquettish, "Ren Qi, you've turned bad."

I smiled, "Can it not be broken?" Because I am not Ren Qi at all.

"I think you're pretty good now. Although it doesn't match your face very well, it feels like you've become handsome again." Han Xue is quite good at talking, and if she asks her to get along with her boyfriend, she might be able to make her boy My friend praised her so much that her tail was up to the sky. Generally, boys can say that they have no resistance to this kind of girl. Unfortunately, I have already "experienced", and now I regard her as a younger sister at most. Hey, this girl is very good, I can't help but Thinking of Li Anqin... What a sharp contrast, for a moment, I had the urge to introduce this girl to Lin Yi.

"Hey, look!" Han Xue grabbed my hand unexpectedly and pushed me to the side of the shooting game. I was a little surprised that she would take my hand?I don't know if the action was intentional or unintentional...

"Do you know how to play this?" She asked me, and I looked at the place she was pointing at. It was a shooting lottery game, the kind where you can play with dolls and pick up dolls. The dolls are the style that little girls like. See I came to Han Xue to ask me to call her.

All men like to pretend to be aggressive, and I am no exception. Naturally, it is impossible for me to refuse Han Xue's invitation, so I paid the money and went into battle with a gun. I fired several shots in a row, which caused Han Xue to cheer beside me. She bought three big puppets and let her hold them. Seen from the front, she almost disappeared.

"You are so ungentlemanly! You actually let a girl carry three such heavy dolls by herself." Han Xue protested, "It's a pity that the shopkeeper just said you are a good boy!"

Immediately, my face turned red, I don't know why, probably because this is Ren Qi's body, in fact, I have no feeling for Han Xue, after a short silence, I still walked towards her, to replace her He took a puppet and rubbed her head, "I'm sorry, but I can't be your male ticket, brother?"

Han Xue's face was already flushed, I knew that she took the initiative to hold hands just now, and the words she voluntarily said were all made with great courage. She looked at my face and curled her lips, "I didn't Treating you as my boyfriend is the shopkeeper's own sentimentality, so don't think too much about it."

"Okay, okay." I took the lead and was a good girl, but I couldn't like her, or rather, I couldn't like her at all... "You are a good girl, I am not suitable for you, I will introduce you later Better, okay?"

"..." The answer was silence. I didn't want to hurt the girl's heart. Although she said that I was thinking too much, but it was obvious. I don't want to pretend to be stupid. It's better to be clean and tidy. Maybe we can be friends. Seeing that she didn't speak, I also shut up. I don't know how long she has been following me...

"Do you have someone you like?" Suddenly, she asked this sentence.

Originally, this should be the best question for me to answer. Yes, I have someone I like. His name is Ren Qi. I like him and have a crush on him. For six years, I have forced myself to give up on him countless times. He fell into a pessimistic mood, and imagined the scene of being with him countless times... But at the moment when I almost blurted out, the shadow of another person suddenly appeared in my mind-the me who used to be, Now he... Bian Yiyang.

"Yes." Finally, I said so.

"Does he like you?"

"...I don't like it." I don't know why, but two diametrically opposed answers popped up in my mind, and I was suddenly a little confused. I really hate myself for having such emotions.

"Is it hard?"

"Hard."

"Why do you have to work so hard? Find someone who likes you, isn't it good?"

"...But I don't like that person, I...I like him." I don't know why, my tone will pause, and I don't know why, more and more images of Bian Yiyang are spinning in my mind .

"Do you think you've got something to do with him?"

"...Probably impossible." This is the only answer that I don't struggle with.

"Well... If that's the case, then I wish you happiness." Tears glistened in the corners of Han Xue's eyes, and then she wiped away the tears swirling in her eyes.

"Fortunately, I didn't like you too much... It's just that I was rejected by you. I was a little sad. If I liked you so much, I would be very sad if I was rejected so straightforwardly by you." Han Xue smiled with tears , she smiled reluctantly, but also very strong.

"..." I didn't know how to answer her, an unspeakable emotion flooded my heart...

"Ren Qi." From a distance, I heard someone calling this name, and when I turned around, I saw Bian Yiyang, who was out of breath. At this moment, he was looking straight to this side, with the emotion in his eyes dim, The look in his eyes that stared at me made me feel chills for no reason.

All of a sudden, I forgot to move my steps, and I forgot to say the necessary "Hey, you are here too" to cover up my inner panic, and let him approach step by step, I just felt a strong force Grabbing my arm, "I'm sorry, I have something to tell him." Bian Yiyang turned his head and explained to Han Xue, but he looked at me with a slightly dark look...

I was almost dragged into an alley, and when I realized how I was forcibly dragged away by him, a sense of resistance invaded my brain instantly.

"Bian Yiyang! Let the fuck go!" Subconsciously, I know that Bian Yiyang is very angry now, and it may be because of seeing that scene. I know his mood, but the feeling of being restrained by him makes me very uncomfortable.

I shook off his hand, he turned his head, the look in his eyes made me startled, I didn't know how to say the words that I had already made up in my mind, and in an instant, he approached, I couldn't bear the aura I backed away until the back of my head touched the wall, and his fist was on the side of my head, "Now what do you think you should tell me?" He asked me.

"What do you say?" The wording that I had planned was completely thrown away by his words, and my subconscious sense of resistance made me instinctively confront him.

"Are you abandoning me and going on a date with your little lover?" Bian Yiyang's arms trembled a little. With the help of the light, his eyes staring at me made me feel very uncomfortable. My body was firmly imprisoned by him Between my arms, with my back against the wall, it was like a cage, imprisoning me tightly, not allowing me to move.

"What... what?" I don't know why he said that, what do you mean by "I left him and went out with my little lover"?

Bian Yiyang kept taking deep breaths, as if he was trying his best to control his emotions, "No? You left, right? I'll look for you, and then I saw that scene..." His words were a little confused, And the eyes that are gradually approaching my body, almost looking down at me, make me feel strongly uneasy, I have never been treated like this before, and now, there is only one word in my mind - escape .

Pushing away the body that was oppressing me, I turned my back, "No, you think too much! I didn't abandon you at all!" I don't know why I explained this to him. After finishing speaking, I looked at the entrance of the alley I subconsciously wanted to rush out, but before I could move, I was suddenly covered by someone from behind. That powerful arm held my chest with great force...

"Where are you going?" His snort hit my ear, one sound at a time, shaking my eardrums, and with the falling snowflakes, the hot white mist was almost instantly dyed red my pinna.

"I don't know... I thought, as long as you stay with me more, as long as I appear in front of your eyes every day, you will like me..."

"You are always thinking about a lot of things. From your expression, your demeanor, I can tell that I know it all, but you don't want to tell me that I really like you... I really care about you... Thinking about every detail of getting along with you, looking for any opportunity to be with you... I can't even imagine that you will fall in love with someone else before you like me... So, seeing all that, I was very angry and very I was angry, but I didn't know what to do, at that moment, I even wanted to tell that woman, you are mine, don't try to snatch her!"

"I never thought that one day, I would like someone so much. I want you to accept me, I want you to belong to me... let you say you love me one day..."

"At least, I think, in your heart, I am special."

"Tell me." Bian Yiyang would utter long-winded love words when something happened, sentence by sentence, endlessly, these often made my mind confused, and I felt that my brain was boiled by the scorching heat, "At least, in your heart, Am I special?"

Yes, you are special, no one is more special than you, because you are me, you are the me that I have never seen...

It is so simple to say these words clearly, but at this moment, I am eager to give myself two slaps, because my mouth can only open and close, but I can't spit out a word...

Please, say it!I was a bit devastated and thought, at least say something, don't let this atmosphere continue...

But what can I say?The calm me, the me who could have easily smoothed things over, at this moment, in front of the former "me" and the current Bian Yiyang, I have disappeared without a trace, I am like a coward at this moment, An imbecile who doesn't know how to answer an adult's original simple words...

There was a long silence, the remaining warmth on my back was still there, probably because I didn't hear my response, and it was added to me, the strength of the two arms that imprisoned me increased...

"Forget it," I heard Bian Yiyang say these two words, my heart sank suddenly, the strength disappeared, I thought he was going to let me go, but in the next second, my body was forced to turn around On the face, his head was held down, two warm things were stuck to his lips, and he left immediately.

"No matter what you say, anyway, I'm not going to let go," he said.