self strategy

On Christmas Day, Lin Yi felt as if he had been beaten to death, because he found out that Li Anqin was also in the team for this friendship.

He clasped his hands together and smiled like a thief: "Oh, God is creating opportunities for me, my God."

I stood next to him and looked at him like that, feeling funny and helpless. In my last life, Lin Yi dated Li Anqin for a while, and it seemed that it was because of this friendship (I didn’t go since then, so I didn’t go either). Of course, their relationship is probably only effective for Lin Yi alone, and Li Anqin still seduces people as usual. I think, for her, adding Lin Yi as a "boyfriend" is nothing more than having an extra "boyfriend" to help her buy it. It's just a big mistake.

It’s snowing tonight, without the strong cold wind, the snowflakes are scattered down one after another. The Christmas party held by the school has passed, but at this time, the flying snowflakes reflect the small lanterns that have not been extinguished on the trees. With soft light coming through, I don't think there could be a more fitting day.

I couldn't help taking a sneak peek at Bian Yiyang, I didn't know how to describe it, looking at his side face, I could only think of the adjective "handsome". It has been my face for more than 20 years, but at this moment, it gives me an unprecedented feeling.

Bian Yiyang noticed my gaze and turned his face away. I was embarrassed, but I also felt that if I turned around now, I would appear guilty, so I frowned and thought for a while, "Dress well." After a long time, I can only hold back this sentence.

Bian Yi raised his eyebrows and stroked his collar proudly. This suit of his was also one of my favorite winter clothes in the last life. How wishful, I think it is probably because Ren Qi is not suitable for this style.

Don’t forget to stop talking to Bian Yiyang, I want to get along with him as calmly as possible, force myself not to do anything, and have said countless times of rejection, but he confesses again and again, and is intimate over and over again Contact, let me know, it's impossible for him to give up.

Damn it!Every time I think about these problems, I feel upset. I feel that I have become a contradictory body. In the six years longer than Bian Yiyang, I have already learned long-term thinking and planning. Six years ago, the unscrupulous Bian Yiyang is by my side now.

Actually... Frankly speaking, I have feelings for Bian Yiyang, but that feeling is different from the feeling I had for Ren Qi at the beginning, it seems to be more complicated, I don't know if it is the so-called "like", but Sometimes I care about him very much, but at the same time, sometimes I also think that Bian Yiyang likes it, it shouldn't be me, and I have a ridiculous idea——

I feel like I replaced my love for Ren Qi from six years ago.

Although I don't want to admit it, I discovered it a long time ago-I have a serious mental cleanliness.

Although others see me on the surface and think that I am not that particular, but only I know that I will be very concerned about the person I like and his past. It can be said to be a strange possessive desire. He can I have had a lover, but if he associates with me and still thinks about others, that is not allowed. I want him to belong to me alone, and he can only think about me.

This is also one of the reasons why I haven't confessed to Ren Qi for so long, because I think I forced him to bend him. His perception of women and love...would make me very uneasy, and he is a straight man. Male, so I can only have a crush, and only a crush.

Bian Yiyang has the same psychology as me, although he won't show it, but sometimes I still understand my own feelings.

In addition, Bian Yiyang is "I". To him, I feel like two naked people facing each other. Even though he sometimes makes me unpredictable, there are too many things about him, revealing my past. Shadow, that is a very strange feeling. I subconsciously tell myself that it is not acceptable to like Bian Yiyang. I feel a little strange about this kind of psychology, but I am always unpredictable. Why?

In fact, I really want to be frank, to face my feelings frankly, love is love, hate is hate, but in this time and space I have experienced, I have to think about a lot, and what I think about is often Breaks me a bit.

I am a bit afraid to face the feelings that I have gradually grown up for this "self", you are such a fucking coward!I spurned myself in my heart.

Suddenly, I felt my shoulders sinking suddenly, and Bian Yiyang's elbow rested on my shoulders, and I tried my best to cover up the strange feeling in my heart, "Why?" I said.

"Are you deaf?" Bian Yiyang gently tugged at my ear, put his lips against my ear, and a gust of heat instantly enveloped the cold auricle, "I have called you many times, I think you Need to buy a hearing aid."

Avoiding him without any trace, "I was thinking about something just now." I don't know if there is any panic in the tone, I don't want Bian Yiyang to notice something strange.

Bian Yiyang's expression froze for about a second, then he pointed forward and looked in the direction he was pointing. Through the flying white catkins that were icy cold, I saw a few people over there like this beckoning.

In addition to a few buddies I know, there are also a few good girls, Li Anqin and her long-haired girl friend, who seems to be called Jiang Hang, are all mixed in.

Well, Bian Yiyang and I looked at each other, and now we're having fun.

This amusement park should make a lot of money tonight. I don’t have any interest in thinking. The theme of tonight was vigorously promoted on Christmas Eve. The trees on both sides are covered with colorful lights, and some trees will have hidden small presents (of course, most gift boxes are empty).

The amusement park tonight was crowded with people, ranging from babies in their arms to old people who needed to use a cane. They all came to join in the fun. It seems that this kind of event has only been held this time in these years. Tonight's snow scene, With such an atmosphere, let alone, it really feels a little romantic.

I saw the Ferris wheel that I sat with Bian Yiyang that day. At this time, it was shining brightly, flashing softly and rhythmically. It was higher than the roller coaster, and it was also a symbol of this playground. From time to time, the scenery above the playground is dotted with indescribable beauty when viewed from a distance.

At this time, Feizi's girlfriend grabbed Feizi's hand, smiled at Feizi, and played tricks. I know that place is a "romantic place" in girls' minds. It is said that the place where they kiss at the highest point Couples will be happy.

For no reason, I would think of the scene of being on the Ferris wheel with Bian Yiyang that evening. I don’t know if he and I were at the highest point at that time... When I finally recovered, I realized that I was just thinking about it again. I can't tell what kind of feelings came from those things, but at that moment, I felt a little uncomfortable in my heart for no reason.

The head was patted lightly, and Bian Yiyang looked at me with a complicated look in his eyes, but there was always a smile on his face, "Let's go." He pointed to the team that had already driven away, and said to me.

Laughing self-deprecatingly, my heart is a little complicated, why do I feel that I am more sentimental than a girl now? "Let's go." I said to Bian Yiyang, and walked forward.

I have to say that Bian Yiyang's appearance caught the attention of many girls. Along the way, I found that many girls were staring at him indifferently, and the fat man complained to me quietly: "My ancestor, 'Mr. Bian' Why are you here? Originally, my chances were pitifully small, but now that he's here, who else is willing to look at me?"

All the male compatriots present were somewhat sad, including me. Of course, my starting point was different from theirs.

I can't stand the gaze of the girl next to me. My sense of existence has been completely covered by Bian Yiyang. I feel that standing with Bian Yiyang is like suffering. I couldn't help but move to the side, and then a girl stood up in an instant. I chatted with Bian Yiyang in the same position I was in just now.

Because it's a friendship, it's normal to strike up a conversation. I can't tell you how I feel now, but it feels a little weird.

Lin helped Li Anqin to buy some hot snacks, Feizi and his girlfriend were missing at this time, only me, Fatty and a few buddies on the other side were alone.

A few girls saw Bian Yiyang, and they are still interested in us stinky dicks. Even though I think Ren Qi looks good, compared with Bian Yiyang, it is more than a little bit worse. Even if there are a few girls who are still alone, look at the gap, no one is going to hook up with us now.

Fatty wants me to attack with him and hook up girls together, but I am not interested either. On the one hand, I really don’t feel it, and on the other hand, I am a little concerned about Bian Yiyang’s movements, and I am not in the mood.

Damn it!I cursed secretly, made an appointment with the fat man to buy a snack, and then the fat man fell in love with a shooting game. After finishing a few games with me, when I came back to my senses, Bian Yiyang and the others had disappeared completely.

"Fuck! It feels like I'm dating you. What about the friendship?" The fat man complained in my ear, and I rolled his eyes at him, "I don't know who said that I want to play shooting, I will accompany you You still think I'm disgusting after playing with you, if I really date you, I'm afraid I'll be scared to death."

The fat man patted his big belly, and touched his face with the other hand, "You say I'm thin, will I be as handsome and popular as you are?"

I took a step back in disgust, looked at his sorry figure for the audience, and said, "It's possible Lin Yi, you'd better forget about it." You still remember the time when the fat man called the door frame narrow when he graduated from college, anyway, he was graduating I didn't find the kind of girlfriend.

"Hey, why don't I have a good life like him." The fat man didn't say much about what he hated Bian Yiyang now, but he would complain occasionally, "If I want to grow up like him, I will step on n boats every day." Soak in MM, Qian Rensa..."

I patted his big belly hard, "Don't think about it, you're still on the same boat, just like you, even if you really grow up like him, you can't compare to his little finger, girls are so precious now Will you want a man with a harem?" I'm not narcissistic, I always think it's good that I'm single-minded and infatuated, of course Bian Yiyang is the same, that's why I say fat man, he is a bit straight Cancer is extremely domineering in terms of feelings, so girls don't like it.

The fat man was a little dissatisfied with my words, he curled his lips and glanced at me, "Well, you are also facing him, MB's! Why is my life so hard!"

When Fatty and I were laughing and cursing, a voice came out suddenly: "Is that Ren Qi?"

This time I reacted fairly quickly, turned around, and saw a beautiful girl with a small face. I have seen her before. When I bought ice cream with Bian Yiyang, she was also in this amusement park. It seems to be Han Xue.